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Pride and Prejudice
by Jane Austen
Chapter 1
It is a truth universally acknowledged, that a
single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife.
However little known the feelings or views of such
a man may be on his first entering a neighbourhood, this truth is so
well fixed in the minds of the surrounding families, that he is
considered the rightful property of some one or other of their
daughters.
"My dear Mr. Bennet," said his lady to
him one day, "have you heard that Netherfield Park is let at
last?"
Mr. Bennet replied that he had not.
"But it is," returned she; "for
Mrs. Long has just been here, and she told me all about it."
Mr. Bennet made no answer.
"Do you not want to know who has taken
it?" cried his wife impatiently.
"_You_ want to tell me, and I have no
objection to hearing it."
This was invitation enough.
"Why, my dear, you must know, Mrs. Long says
that Netherfield is taken by a young man of large fortune from the north
of England; that he came down on Monday in a chaise and four to see the
place, and was so much delighted with it, that he agreed with Mr. Morris
immediately; that he is to take possession before Michaelmas, and some
of his servants are to be in the house by the end of next week."
"What is his name?"
"Bingley."
"Is he married or single?"
"Oh! Single, my dear, to be sure! A single
man of large fortune; four or five thousand a year. What a fine thing
for our girls!"
"How so? How can it affect them?"
"My dear Mr. Bennet," replied his wife,
"how can you be so tiresome! You must know that I am thinking of
his marrying one of them."
"Is that his design in settling here?"
"Design! Nonsense, how can you talk so! But
it is very likely that he _may_ fall in love with one of them, and
therefore you must visit him as soon as he comes."
"I see no occasion for that. You and the
girls may go, or you may send them by themselves, which perhaps will be
still better, for as you are as handsome as any of them, Mr. Bingley may
like you the best of the party."
"My dear, you flatter me. I certainly _have_
had my share of beauty, but I do not pretend to be anything
extraordinary now. When a woman has five grown-up daughters, she ought
to give over thinking of her own beauty."
"In such cases, a woman has not often much
beauty to think of."
"But, my dear, you must indeed go and see Mr.
Bingley when he comes into the neighbourhood."
"It is more than I engage for, I assure
you."
"But consider your daughters. Only think what
an establishment it would be for one of them. Sir William and Lady Lucas
are determined to go, merely on that account, for in general, you know,
they visit no newcomers. Indeed you must go, for it will be impossible
for _us_ to visit him if you do not."
"You are over-scrupulous, surely. I dare say
Mr. Bingley will be very glad to see you; and I will send a few lines by
you to assure him of my hearty consent to his marrying whichever he
chooses of the girls; though I must throw in a good word for my little
Lizzy."
"I desire you will do no such thing. Lizzy is
not a bit better than the others; and I am sure she is not half so
handsome as Jane, nor half so good-humoured as Lydia. But you are always
giving _her_ the preference."
"They have none of them much to recommend
them," replied he; "they are all silly and ignorant like other
girls; but Lizzy has something more of quickness than her sisters."
"Mr. Bennet, how _can_ you abuse your own
children in such a way? You take delight in vexing me. You have no
compassion for my poor nerves."
"You mistake me, my dear. I have a high
respect for your nerves. They are my old friends. I have heard you
mention them with consideration these last twenty years at least."
"Ah, you do not know what I suffer."
"But I hope you will get over it, and live to
see many young men of four thousand a year come into the neighbourhood."
"It will be no use to us, if twenty such
should come, since you will not visit them."
"Depend upon it, my dear, that when there are
twenty, I will visit them all."
Mr. Bennet was so odd a mixture of quick parts,
sarcastic humour, reserve, and caprice, that the experience of
three-and-twenty years had been insufficient to make his wife understand
his character. _Her_ mind was less difficult to develop. She was a woman
of mean understanding, little information, and uncertain temper. When
she was discontented, she fancied herself nervous. The business of her
life was to get her daughters married; its solace was visiting and news.
Chapter 2
Mr. Bennet was among the earliest of those who
waited on Mr. Bingley. He had always intended to visit him, though to
the last always assuring his wife that he should not go; and till the
evening after the visit was paid she had no knowledge of it. It was then
disclosed in the following manner. Observing his second daughter
employed in trimming a hat, he suddenly addressed her with:
"I hope Mr. Bingley will like it, Lizzy."
"We are not in a way to know _what_ Mr.
Bingley likes," said her mother resentfully, "since we are not
to visit."
"But you forget, mamma," said Elizabeth,
"that we shall meet him at the assemblies, and that Mrs. Long
promised to introduce him."
"I do not believe Mrs. Long will do any such
thing. She has two nieces of her own. She is a selfish, hypocritical
woman, and I have no opinion of her."
"No more have I," said Mr. Bennet;
"and I am glad to find that you do not depend on her serving
you."
Mrs. Bennet deigned not to make any reply, but,
unable to contain herself, began scolding one of her daughters.
"Don't keep coughing so, Kitty, for Heaven's
sake! Have a little compassion on my nerves. You tear them to
pieces."
"Kitty has no discretion in her coughs,"
said her father; "she times them ill."
"I do not cough for my own amusement,"
replied Kitty fretfully. "When is your next ball to be, Lizzy?"
"To-morrow fortnight."
"Aye, so it is," cried her mother,
"and Mrs. Long does not come back till the day before; so it will
be impossible for her to introduce him, for she will not know him
herself."
"Then, my dear, you may have the advantage of
your friend, and introduce Mr. Bingley to _her_."
"Impossible, Mr. Bennet, impossible, when I
am not acquainted with him myself; how can you be so teasing?"
"I honour your circumspection. A fortnight's
acquaintance is certainly very little. One cannot know what a man really
is by the end of a fortnight. But if _we_ do not venture somebody else
will; and after all, Mrs. Long and her daughters must stand their
chance; and, therefore, as she will think it an act of kindness, if you
decline the office, I will take it on myself."
The girls stared at their father. Mrs. Bennet said
only, "Nonsense, nonsense!"
"What can be the meaning of that emphatic
exclamation?" cried he. "Do you consider the forms of
introduction, and the stress that is laid on them, as nonsense? I cannot
quite agree with you _there_. What say you, Mary? For you are a young
lady of deep reflection, I know, and read great books and make
extracts."
Mary wished to say something sensible, but knew
not how.
"While Mary is adjusting her ideas," he
continued, "let us return to Mr. Bingley."
"I am sick of Mr. Bingley," cried his
wife.
"I am sorry to hear _that_; but why did not
you tell me that before? If I had known as much this morning I certainly
would not have called on him. It is very unlucky; but as I have actually
paid the visit, we cannot escape the acquaintance now."
The astonishment of the ladies was just what he
wished; that of Mrs. Bennet perhaps surpassing the rest; though, when
the first tumult of joy was over, she began to declare that it was what
she had expected all the while.
"How good it was in you, my dear Mr. Bennet!
But I knew I should persuade you at last. I was sure you loved your
girls too well to neglect such an acquaintance. Well, how pleased I am!
and it is such a good joke, too, that you should have gone this morning
and never said a word about it till now."
"Now, Kitty, you may cough as much as you
choose," said Mr. Bennet; and, as he spoke, he left the room,
fatigued with the raptures of his wife.
"What an excellent father you have,
girls!" said she, when the door was shut. "I do not know how
you will ever make him amends for his kindness; or me, either, for that
matter. At our time of life it is not so pleasant, I can tell you, to be
making new acquaintances every day; but for your sakes, we would do
anything. Lydia, my love, though you _are_ the youngest, I dare say Mr.
Bingley will dance with you at the next ball."
"Oh!" said Lydia stoutly, "I am not
afraid; for though I _am_ the youngest, I'm the tallest."
The rest of the evening was spent in conjecturing
how soon he would return Mr. Bennet's visit, and determining when they
should ask him to dinner.
Chapter 3
Not all that Mrs. Bennet, however, with the
assistance of her five daughters, could ask on the subject, was
sufficient to draw from her husband any satisfactory description of Mr.
Bingley. They attacked him in various ways--with barefaced questions,
ingenious suppositions, and distant surmises; but he eluded the skill of
them all, and they were at last obliged to accept the second-hand
intelligence of their neighbour, Lady Lucas. Her report was highly
favourable. Sir William had been delighted with him. He was quite young,
wonderfully handsome, extremely agreeable, and, to crown the whole, he
meant to be at the next assembly with a large party. Nothing could be
more delightful! To be fond of dancing was a certain step towards
falling in love; and very lively hopes of Mr. Bingley's heart were
entertained.
"If I can but see one of my daughters happily
settled at Netherfield," said Mrs. Bennet to her husband, "and
all the others equally well married, I shall have nothing to wish
for."
In a few days Mr. Bingley returned Mr. Bennet's
visit, and sat about ten minutes with him in his library. He had
entertained hopes of being admitted to a sight of the young ladies, of
whose beauty he had heard much; but he saw only the father. The ladies
were somewhat more fortunate, for they had the advantage of ascertaining
from an upper window that he wore a blue coat, and rode a black horse.
An invitation to dinner was soon afterwards
dispatched; and already had Mrs. Bennet planned the courses that were to
do credit to her housekeeping, when an answer arrived which deferred it
all. Mr. Bingley was obliged to be in town the following day, and,
consequently, unable to accept the honour of their invitation, etc. Mrs.
Bennet was quite disconcerted. She could not imagine what business he
could have in town so soon after his arrival in Hertfordshire; and she
began to fear that he might be always flying about from one place to
another, and never settled at Netherfield as he ought to be. Lady Lucas
quieted her fears a little by starting the idea of his being gone to
London only to get a large party for the ball; and a report soon
followed that Mr. Bingley was to bring twelve ladies and seven gentlemen
with him to the assembly. The girls grieved over such a number of
ladies, but were comforted the day before the ball by hearing, that
instead of twelve he brought only six with him from London--his five
sisters and a cousin. And when the party entered the assembly room it
consisted of only five altogether--Mr. Bingley, his two sisters, the
husband of the eldest, and another young man.
Mr. Bingley was good-looking and gentlemanlike; he
had a pleasant countenance, and easy, unaffected manners. His sisters
were fine women, with an air of decided fashion. His brother-in-law, Mr.
Hurst, merely looked the gentleman; but his friend Mr. Darcy soon drew
the attention of the room by his fine, tall person, handsome features,
noble mien, and the report which was in general circulation within five
minutes after his entrance, of his having ten thousand a year. The
gentlemen pronounced him to be a fine figure of a man, the ladies
declared he was much handsomer than Mr. Bingley, and he was looked at
with great admiration for about half the evening, till his manners gave
a disgust which turned the tide of his popularity; for he was discovered
to be proud; to be above his company, and above being pleased; and not
all his large estate in Derbyshire could then save him from having a
most forbidding, disagreeable countenance, and being unworthy to be
compared with his friend.
Mr. Bingley had soon made himself acquainted with
all the principal people in the room; he was lively and unreserved,
danced every dance, was angry that the ball closed so early, and talked
of giving one himself at Netherfield. Such amiable qualities must speak
for themselves. What a contrast between him and his friend! Mr. Darcy
danced only once with Mrs. Hurst and once with Miss Bingley, declined
being introduced to any other lady, and spent the rest of the evening in
walking about the room, speaking occasionally to one of his own party.
His character was decided. He was the proudest, most disagreeable man in
the world, and everybody hoped that he would never come there again.
Amongst the most violent against him was Mrs. Bennet, whose dislike of
his general behaviour was sharpened into particular resentment by his
having slighted one of her daughters.
Elizabeth Bennet had been obliged, by the scarcity
of gentlemen, to sit down for two dances; and during part of that time,
Mr. Darcy had been standing near enough for her to hear a conversation
between him and Mr. Bingley, who came from the dance for a few minutes,
to press his friend to join it.
"Come, Darcy," said he, "I must
have you dance. I hate to see you standing about by yourself in this
stupid manner. You had much better dance."
"I certainly shall not. You know how I detest
it, unless I am particularly acquainted with my partner. At such an
assembly as this it would be insupportable. Your sisters are engaged,
and there is not another woman in the room whom it would not be a
punishment to me to stand up with."
"I would not be so fastidious as you
are," cried Mr. Bingley, "for a kingdom! Upon my honour, I
never met with so many pleasant girls in my life as I have this evening;
and there are several of them you see uncommonly pretty."
"_You_ are dancing with the only handsome
girl in the room," said Mr. Darcy, looking at the eldest Miss
Bennet.
"Oh! She is the most beautiful creature I
ever beheld! But there is one of her sisters sitting down just behind
you, who is very pretty, and I dare say very agreeable. Do let me ask my
partner to introduce you."
"Which do you mean?" and turning round
he looked for a moment at Elizabeth, till catching her eye, he withdrew
his own and coldly said: "She is tolerable, but not handsome enough
to tempt _me_; I am in no humour at present to give consequence to young
ladies who are slighted by other men. You had better return to your
partner and enjoy her smiles, for you are wasting your time with
me."
Mr. Bingley followed his advice. Mr. Darcy walked
off; and Elizabeth remained with no very cordial feelings toward him.
She told the story, however, with great spirit among her friends; for
she had a lively, playful disposition, which delighted in anything
ridiculous.
The evening altogether passed off pleasantly to
the whole family. Mrs. Bennet had seen her eldest daughter much admired
by the Netherfield party. Mr. Bingley had danced with her twice, and she
had been distinguished by his sisters. Jane was as much gratified by
this as her mother could be, though in a quieter way. Elizabeth felt
Jane's pleasure. Mary had heard herself mentioned to Miss Bingley as the
most accomplished girl in the neighbourhood; and Catherine and Lydia had
been fortunate enough never to be without partners, which was all that
they had yet learnt to care for at a ball. They returned, therefore, in
good spirits to Longbourn, the village where they lived, and of which
they were the principal inhabitants. They found Mr. Bennet still up.
With a book he was regardless of time; and on the present occasion he
had a good deal of curiosity as to the events of an evening which had
raised such splendid expectations. He had rather hoped that his wife's
views on the stranger would be disappointed; but he soon found out that
he had a different story to hear.
"Oh! my dear Mr. Bennet," as she entered
the room, "we have had a most delightful evening, a most excellent
ball. I wish you had been there. Jane was so admired, nothing could be
like it. Everybody said how well she looked; and Mr. Bingley thought her
quite beautiful, and danced with her twice! Only think of _that_, my
dear; he actually danced with her twice! and she was the only creature
in the room that he asked a second time. First of all, he asked Miss
Lucas. I was so vexed to see him stand up with her! But, however, he did
not admire her at all; indeed, nobody can, you know; and he seemed quite
struck with Jane as she was going down the dance. So he inquired who she
was, and got introduced, and asked her for the two next. Then the two
third he danced with Miss King, and the two fourth with Maria Lucas, and
the two fifth with Jane again, and the two sixth with Lizzy, and the _Boulanger_--"
"If he had had any compassion for _me_,"
cried her husband impatiently, "he would not have danced half so
much! For God's sake, say no more of his partners. O that he had
sprained his ankle in the first place!"
"Oh! my dear, I am quite delighted with him.
He is so excessively handsome! And his sisters are charming women. I
never in my life saw anything more elegant than their dresses. I dare
say the lace upon Mrs. Hurst's gown--"
Here she was interrupted again. Mr. Bennet
protested against any description of finery. She was therefore obliged
to seek another branch of the subject, and related, with much bitterness
of spirit and some exaggeration, the shocking rudeness of Mr. Darcy.
"But I can assure you," she added,
"that Lizzy does not lose much by not suiting _his_ fancy; for he
is a most disagreeable, horrid man, not at all worth pleasing. So high
and so conceited that there was no enduring him! He walked here, and he
walked there, fancying himself so very great! Not handsome enough to
dance with! I wish you had been there, my dear, to have given him one of
your set-downs. I quite detest the man."
Chapter 4
When Jane and Elizabeth were alone, the former,
who had been cautious in her praise of Mr. Bingley before, expressed to
her sister just how very much she admired him.
"He is just what a young man ought to
be," said she, "sensible, good-humoured, lively; and I never
saw such happy manners!--so much ease, with such perfect good
breeding!"
"He is also handsome," replied
Elizabeth, "which a young man ought likewise to be, if he possibly
can. His character is thereby complete."
"I was very much flattered by his asking me
to dance a second time. I did not expect such a compliment."
"Did not you? I did for you. But that is one
great difference between us. Compliments always take _you_ by surprise,
and _me_ never. What could be more natural than his asking you again? He
could not help seeing that you were about five times as pretty as every
other woman in the room. No thanks to his gallantry for that. Well, he
certainly is very agreeable, and I give you leave to like him. You have
liked many a stupider person."
"Dear Lizzy!"
"Oh! you are a great deal too apt, you know,
to like people in general. You never see a fault in anybody. All the
world are good and agreeable in your eyes. I never heard you speak ill
of a human being in your life."
"I would not wish to be hasty in censuring
anyone; but I always speak what I think."
"I know you do; and it is _that_ which makes
the wonder. With _your_ good sense, to be so honestly blind to the
follies and nonsense of others! Affectation of candour is common
enough--one meets with it everywhere. But to be candid without
ostentation or design--to take the good of everybody's character and
make it still better, and say nothing of the bad--belongs to you alone.
And so you like this man's sisters, too, do you? Their manners are not
equal to his."
"Certainly not--at first. But they are very
pleasing women when you converse with them. Miss Bingley is to live with
her brother, and keep his house; and I am much mistaken if we shall not
find a very charming neighbour in her."
Elizabeth listened in silence, but was not
convinced; their behaviour at the assembly had not been calculated to
please in general; and with more quickness of observation and less
pliancy of temper than her sister, and with a judgement too unassailed
by any attention to herself, she was very little disposed to approve
them. They were in fact very fine ladies; not deficient in good humour
when they were pleased, nor in the power of making themselves agreeable
when they chose it, but proud and conceited. They were rather handsome,
had been educated in one of the first private seminaries in town, had a
fortune of twenty thousand pounds, were in the habit of spending more
than they ought, and of associating with people of rank, and were
therefore in every respect entitled to think well of themselves, and
meanly of others. They were of a respectable family in the north of
England; a circumstance more deeply impressed on their memories than
that their brother's fortune and their own had been acquired by trade.
Mr. Bingley inherited property to the amount of
nearly a hundred thousand pounds from his father, who had intended to
purchase an estate, but did not live to do it. Mr. Bingley intended it
likewise, and sometimes made choice of his county; but as he was now
provided with a good house and the liberty of a manor, it was doubtful
to many of those who best knew the easiness of his temper, whether he
might not spend the remainder of his days at Netherfield, and leave the
next generation to purchase.
His sisters were anxious for his having an estate
of his own; but, though he was now only established as a tenant, Miss
Bingley was by no means unwilling to preside at his table--nor was Mrs.
Hurst, who had married a man of more fashion than fortune, less disposed
to consider his house as her home when it suited her. Mr. Bingley had
not been of age two years, when he was tempted by an accidental
recommendation to look at Netherfield House. He did look at it, and into
it for half-an-hour--was pleased with the situation and the principal
rooms, satisfied with what the owner said in its praise, and took it
immediately.
Between him and Darcy there was a very steady
friendship, in spite of great opposition of character. Bingley was
endeared to Darcy by the easiness, openness, and ductility of his
temper, though no disposition could offer a greater contrast to his own,
and though with his own he never appeared dissatisfied. On the strength
of Darcy's regard, Bingley had the firmest reliance, and of his
judgement the highest opinion. In understanding, Darcy was the superior.
Bingley was by no means deficient, but Darcy was clever. He was at the
same time haughty, reserved, and fastidious, and his manners, though
well-bred, were not inviting. In that respect his friend had greatly the
advantage. Bingley was sure of being liked wherever he appeared, Darcy
was continually giving offense.
The manner in which they spoke of the Meryton
assembly was sufficiently characteristic. Bingley had never met with
more pleasant people or prettier girls in his life; everybody had been
most kind and attentive to him; there had been no formality, no
stiffness; he had soon felt acquainted with all the room; and, as to
Miss Bennet, he could not conceive an angel more beautiful. Darcy, on
the contrary, had seen a collection of people in whom there was little
beauty and no fashion, for none of whom he had felt the smallest
interest, and from none received either attention or pleasure. Miss
Bennet he acknowledged to be pretty, but she smiled too much.
Mrs. Hurst and her sister allowed it to be so--but
still they admired her and liked her, and pronounced her to be a sweet
girl, and one whom they would not object to know more of. Miss Bennet
was therefore established as a sweet girl, and their brother felt
authorized by such commendation to think of her as he chose.
Chapter 5
Within a short walk of Longbourn lived a family
with whom the Bennets were particularly intimate. Sir William Lucas had
been formerly in trade in Meryton, where he had made a tolerable
fortune, and risen to the honour of knighthood by an address to the king
during his mayoralty. The distinction had perhaps been felt too
strongly. It had given him a disgust to his business, and to his
residence in a small market town; and, in quitting them both, he had
removed with his family to a house about a mile from Meryton,
denominated from that period Lucas Lodge, where he could think with
pleasure of his own importance, and, unshackled by business, occupy
himself solely in being civil to all the world. For, though elated by
his rank, it did not render him supercilious; on the contrary, he was
all attention to everybody. By nature inoffensive, friendly, and
obliging, his presentation at St. James's had made him courteous.
Lady Lucas was a very good kind of woman, not too
clever to be a valuable neighbour to Mrs. Bennet. They had several
children. The eldest of them, a sensible, intelligent young woman, about
twenty-seven, was Elizabeth's intimate friend.
That the Miss Lucases and the Miss Bennets should
meet to talk over a ball was absolutely necessary; and the morning after
the assembly brought the former to Longbourn to hear and to communicate.
"_You_ began the evening well,
Charlotte," said Mrs. Bennet with civil self-command to Miss Lucas.
"_You_ were Mr. Bingley's first choice."
"Yes; but he seemed to like his second
better."
"Oh! you mean Jane, I suppose, because he
danced with her twice. To be sure that _did_ seem as if he admired
her--indeed I rather believe he _did_--I heard something about it--but I
hardly know what--something about Mr. Robinson."
"Perhaps you mean what I overheard between
him and Mr. Robinson; did not I mention it to you? Mr. Robinson's asking
him how he liked our Meryton assemblies, and whether he did not think
there were a great many pretty women in the room, and _which_ he thought
the prettiest? and his answering immediately to the last question: 'Oh!
the eldest Miss Bennet, beyond a doubt; there cannot be two opinions on
that point.'"
"Upon my word! Well, that is very decided
indeed--that does seem as if--but, however, it may all come to nothing,
you know."
"_My_ overhearings were more to the purpose
than _yours_, Eliza," said Charlotte. "Mr. Darcy is not so
well worth listening to as his friend, is he?--poor Eliza!--to be only
just _tolerable_."
"I beg you would not put it into Lizzy's head
to be vexed by his ill-treatment, for he is such a disagreeable man,
that it would be quite a misfortune to be liked by him. Mrs. Long told
me last night that he sat close to her for half-an-hour without once
opening his lips."
"Are you quite sure, ma'am?--is not there a
little mistake?" said Jane. "I certainly saw Mr. Darcy
speaking to her."
"Aye--because she asked him at last how he
liked Netherfield, and he could not help answering her; but she said he
seemed quite angry at being spoke to."
"Miss Bingley told me," said Jane,
"that he never speaks much, unless among his intimate
acquaintances. With _them_ he is remarkably agreeable."
"I do not believe a word of it, my dear. If
he had been so very agreeable, he would have talked to Mrs. Long. But I
can guess how it was; everybody says that he is eat up with pride, and I
dare say he had heard somehow that Mrs. Long does not keep a carriage,
and had come to the ball in a hack chaise."
"I do not mind his not talking to Mrs.
Long," said Miss Lucas, "but I wish he had danced with
Eliza."
"Another time, Lizzy," said her mother,
"I would not dance with _him_, if I were you."
"I believe, ma'am, I may safely promise you
_never_ to dance with him."
"His pride," said Miss Lucas, "does
not offend _me_ so much as pride often does, because there is an excuse
for it. One cannot wonder that so very fine a young man, with family,
fortune, everything in his favour, should think highly of himself. If I
may so express it, he has a _right_ to be proud."
"That is very true," replied Elizabeth,
"and I could easily forgive _his_ pride, if he had not mortified
_mine_."
"Pride," observed Mary, who piqued
herself upon the solidity of her reflections, "is a very common
failing, I believe. By all that I have ever read, I am convinced that it
is very common indeed; that human nature is particularly prone to it,
and that there are very few of us who do not cherish a feeling of
self-complacency on the score of some quality or other, real or
imaginary. Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are
often used synonymously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride
relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have
others think of us."
"If I were as rich as Mr. Darcy," cried
a young Lucas, who came with his sisters, "I should not care how
proud I was. I would keep a pack of foxhounds, and drink a bottle of
wine a day."
"Then you would drink a great deal more than
you ought," said Mrs. Bennet; "and if I were to see you at it,
I should take away your bottle directly."
The boy protested that she should not; she
continued to declare that she would, and the argument ended only with
the visit.
Chapter 6
The ladies of Longbourn soon waited on those of
Netherfield. The visit was soon returned in due form. Miss Bennet's
pleasing manners grew on the goodwill of Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley;
and though the mother was found to be intolerable, and the younger
sisters not worth speaking to, a wish of being better acquainted with
_them_ was expressed towards the two eldest. By Jane, this attention was
received with the greatest pleasure, but Elizabeth still saw
superciliousness in their treatment of everybody, hardly excepting even
her sister, and could not like them; though their kindness to Jane, such
as it was, had a value as arising in all probability from the influence
of their brother's admiration. It was generally evident whenever they
met, that he _did_ admire her and to _her_ it was equally evident that
Jane was yielding to the preference which she had begun to entertain for
him from the first, and was in a way to be very much in love; but she
considered with pleasure that it was not likely to be discovered by the
world in general, since Jane united, with great strength of feeling, a
composure of temper and a uniform cheerfulness of manner which would
guard her from the suspicions of the impertinent. She mentioned this to
her friend Miss Lucas.
"It may perhaps be pleasant," replied
Charlotte, "to be able to impose on the public in such a case; but
it is sometimes a disadvantage to be so very guarded. If a woman
conceals her affection with the same skill from the object of it, she
may lose the opportunity of fixing him; and it will then be but poor
consolation to believe the world equally in the dark. There is so much
of gratitude or vanity in almost every attachment, that it is not safe
to leave any to itself. We can all _begin_ freely--a slight preference
is natural enough; but there are very few of us who have heart enough to
be really in love without encouragement. In nine cases out of ten a
women had better show _more_ affection than she feels. Bingley likes
your sister undoubtedly; but he may never do more than like her, if she
does not help him on."
"But she does help him on, as much as her
nature will allow. If I can perceive her regard for him, he must be a
simpleton, indeed, not to discover it too."
"Remember, Eliza, that he does not know
Jane's disposition as you do."
"But if a woman is partial to a man, and does
not endeavour to conceal it, he must find it out."
"Perhaps he must, if he sees enough of her.
But, though Bingley and Jane meet tolerably often, it is never for many
hours together; and, as they always see each other in large mixed
parties, it is impossible that every moment should be employed in
conversing together. Jane should therefore make the most of every
half-hour in which she can command his attention. When she is secure of
him, there will be more leisure for falling in love as much as she
chooses."
"Your plan is a good one," replied
Elizabeth, "where nothing is in question but the desire of being
well married, and if I were determined to get a rich husband, or any
husband, I dare say I should adopt it. But these are not Jane's
feelings; she is not acting by design. As yet, she cannot even be
certain of the degree of her own regard nor of its reasonableness. She
has known him only a fortnight. She danced four dances with him at
Meryton; she saw him one morning at his own house, and has since dined
with him in company four times. This is not quite enough to make her
understand his character."
"Not as you represent it. Had she merely
_dined_ with him, she might only have discovered whether he had a good
appetite; but you must remember that four evenings have also been spent
together--and four evenings may do a great deal."
"Yes; these four evenings have enabled them
to ascertain that they both like Vingt-un better than Commerce; but with
respect to any other leading characteristic, I do not imagine that much
has been unfolded."
"Well," said Charlotte, "I wish
Jane success with all my heart; and if she were married to him
to-morrow, I should think she had as good a chance of happiness as if
she were to be studying his character for a twelvemonth. Happiness in
marriage is entirely a matter of chance. If the dispositions of the
parties are ever so well known to each other or ever so similar
beforehand, it does not advance their felicity in the least. They always
continue to grow sufficiently unlike afterwards to have their share of
vexation; and it is better to know as little as possible of the defects
of the person with whom you are to pass your life."
"You make me laugh, Charlotte; but it is not
sound. You know it is not sound, and that you would never act in this
way yourself."
Occupied in observing Mr. Bingley's attentions to
her sister, Elizabeth was far from suspecting that she was herself
becoming an object of some interest in the eyes of his friend. Mr. Darcy
had at first scarcely allowed her to be pretty; he had looked at her
without admiration at the ball; and when they next met, he looked at her
only to criticise. But no sooner had he made it clear to himself and his
friends that she hardly had a good feature in her face, than he began to
find it was rendered uncommonly intelligent by the beautiful expression
of her dark eyes. To this discovery succeeded some others equally
mortifying. Though he had detected with a critical eye more than one
failure of perfect symmetry in her form, he was forced to acknowledge
her figure to be light and pleasing; and in spite of his asserting that
her manners were not those of the fashionable world, he was caught by
their easy playfulness. Of this she was perfectly unaware; to her he was
only the man who made himself agreeable nowhere, and who had not thought
her handsome enough to dance with.
He began to wish to know more of her, and as a
step towards conversing with her himself, attended to her conversation
with others. His doing so drew her notice. It was at Sir William
Lucas's, where a large party were assembled.
"What does Mr. Darcy mean," said she to
Charlotte, "by listening to my conversation with Colonel
Forster?"
"That is a question which Mr. Darcy only can
answer."
"But if he does it any more I shall certainly
let him know that I see what he is about. He has a very satirical eye,
and if I do not begin by being impertinent myself, I shall soon grow
afraid of him."
On his approaching them soon afterwards, though
without seeming to have any intention of speaking, Miss Lucas defied her
friend to mention such a subject to him; which immediately provoking
Elizabeth to do it, she turned to him and said:
"Did you not think, Mr. Darcy, that I
expressed myself uncommonly well just now, when I was teasing Colonel
Forster to give us a ball at Meryton?"
"With great energy; but it is always a
subject which makes a lady energetic."
"You are severe on us."
"It will be _her_ turn soon to be
teased," said Miss Lucas. "I am going to open the instrument,
Eliza, and you know what follows."
"You are a very strange creature by way of a
friend!--always wanting me to play and sing before anybody and
everybody! If my vanity had taken a musical turn, you would have been
invaluable; but as it is, I would really rather not sit down before
those who must be in the habit of hearing the very best
performers." On Miss Lucas's persevering, however, she added,
"Very well, if it must be so, it must." And gravely glancing
at Mr. Darcy, "There is a fine old saying, which everybody here is
of course familiar with: 'Keep your breath to cool your porridge'; and I
shall keep mine to swell my song."
Her performance was pleasing, though by no means
capital. After a song or two, and before she could reply to the
entreaties of several that she would sing again, she was eagerly
succeeded at the instrument by her sister Mary, who having, in
consequence of being the only plain one in the family, worked hard for
knowledge and accomplishments, was always impatient for display.
Mary had neither genius nor taste; and though
vanity had given her application, it had given her likewise a pedantic
air and conceited manner, which would have injured a higher degree of
excellence than she had reached. Elizabeth, easy and unaffected, had
been listened to with much more pleasure, though not playing half so
well; and Mary, at the end of a long concerto, was glad to purchase
praise and gratitude by Scotch and Irish airs, at the request of her
younger sisters, who, with some of the Lucases, and two or three
officers, joined eagerly in dancing at one end of the room.
Mr. Darcy stood near them in silent indignation at
such a mode of passing the evening, to the exclusion of all
conversation, and was too much engrossed by his thoughts to perceive
that Sir William Lucas was his neighbour, till Sir William thus began:
"What a charming amusement for young people
this is, Mr. Darcy! There is nothing like dancing after all. I consider
it as one of the first refinements of polished society."
"Certainly, sir; and it has the advantage
also of being in vogue amongst the less polished societies of the world.
Every savage can dance."
Sir William only smiled. "Your friend
performs delightfully," he continued after a pause, on seeing
Bingley join the group; "and I doubt not that you are an adept in
the science yourself, Mr. Darcy."
"You saw me dance at Meryton, I believe,
sir."
"Yes, indeed, and received no inconsiderable
pleasure from the sight. Do you often dance at St. James's?"
"Never, sir."
"Do you not think it would be a proper
compliment to the place?"
"It is a compliment which I never pay to any
place if I can avoid it."
"You have a house in town, I conclude?"
Mr. Darcy bowed.
"I had once had some thought of fixing in
town myself--for I am fond of superior society; but I did not feel quite
certain that the air of London would agree with Lady Lucas."
He paused in hopes of an answer; but his companion
was not disposed to make any; and Elizabeth at that instant moving
towards them, he was struck with the action of doing a very gallant
thing, and called out to her:
"My dear Miss Eliza, why are you not dancing?
Mr. Darcy, you must allow me to present this young lady to you as a very
desirable partner. You cannot refuse to dance, I am sure when so much
beauty is before you." And, taking her hand, he would have given it
to Mr. Darcy who, though extremely surprised, was not unwilling to
receive it, when she instantly drew back, and said with some
discomposure to Sir William:
"Indeed, sir, I have not the least intention
of dancing. I entreat you not to suppose that I moved this way in order
to beg for a partner."
Mr. Darcy, with grave propriety, requested to be
allowed the honour of her hand, but in vain. Elizabeth was determined;
nor did Sir William at all shake her purpose by his attempt at
persuasion.
"You excel so much in the dance, Miss Eliza,
that it is cruel to deny me the happiness of seeing you; and though this
gentleman dislikes the amusement in general, he can have no objection, I
am sure, to oblige us for one half-hour."
"Mr. Darcy is all politeness," said
Elizabeth, smiling.
"He is, indeed; but, considering the
inducement, my dear Miss Eliza, we cannot wonder at his
complaisance--for who would object to such a partner?"
Elizabeth looked archly, and turned away. Her
resistance had not injured her with the gentleman, and he was thinking
of her with some complacency, when thus accosted by Miss Bingley:
"I can guess the subject of your
reverie."
"I should imagine not."
"You are considering how insupportable it
would be to pass many evenings in this manner--in such society; and
indeed I am quite of your opinion. I was never more annoyed! The
insipidity, and yet the noise--the nothingness, and yet the
self-importance of all those people! What would I give to hear your
strictures on them!"
"You conjecture is totally wrong, I assure
you. My mind was more agreeably engaged. I have been meditating on the
very great pleasure which a pair of fine eyes in the face of a pretty
woman can bestow."
Miss Bingley immediately fixed her eyes on his
face, and desired he would tell her what lady had the credit of
inspiring such reflections. Mr. Darcy replied with great intrepidity:
"Miss Elizabeth Bennet."
"Miss Elizabeth Bennet!" repeated Miss
Bingley. "I am all astonishment. How long has she been such a
favourite?--and pray, when am I to wish you joy?"
"That is exactly the question which I
expected you to ask. A lady's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from
admiration to love, from love to matrimony, in a moment. I knew you
would be wishing me joy."
"Nay, if you are serious about it, I shall
consider the matter is absolutely settled. You will be having a charming
mother-in-law, indeed; and, of course, she will always be at Pemberley
with you."
He listened to her with perfect indifference while
she chose to entertain herself in this manner; and as his composure
convinced her that all was safe, her wit flowed long.
Chapter 7
Mr. Bennet's property consisted almost entirely in
an estate of two thousand a year, which, unfortunately for his
daughters, was entailed, in default of heirs male, on a distant
relation; and their mother's fortune, though ample for her situation in
life, could but ill supply the deficiency of his. Her father had been an
attorney in Meryton, and had left her four thousand pounds.
She had a sister married to a Mr. Phillips, who
had been a clerk to their father and succeeded him in the business, and
a brother settled in London in a respectable line of trade.
The village of Longbourn was only one mile from
Meryton; a most convenient distance for the young ladies, who were
usually tempted thither three or four times a week, to pay their duty to
their aunt and to a milliner's shop just over the way. The two youngest
of the family, Catherine and Lydia, were particularly frequent in these
attentions; their minds were more vacant than their sisters', and when
nothing better offered, a walk to Meryton was necessary to amuse their
morning hours and furnish conversation for the evening; and however bare
of news the country in general might be, they always contrived to learn
some from their aunt. At present, indeed, they were well supplied both
with news and happiness by the recent arrival of a militia regiment in
the neighbourhood; it was to remain the whole winter, and Meryton was
the headquarters.
Their visits to Mrs. Phillips were now productive
of the most interesting intelligence. Every day added something to their
knowledge of the officers' names and connections. Their lodgings were
not long a secret, and at length they began to know the officers
themselves. Mr. Phillips visited them all, and this opened to his nieces
a store of felicity unknown before. They could talk of nothing but
officers; and Mr. Bingley's large fortune, the mention of which gave
animation to their mother, was worthless in their eyes when opposed to
the regimentals of an ensign.
After listening one morning to their effusions on
this subject, Mr. Bennet coolly observed:
"From all that I can collect by your manner
of talking, you must be two of the silliest girls in the country. I have
suspected it some time, but I am now convinced."
Catherine was disconcerted, and made no answer;
but Lydia, with perfect indifference, continued to express her
admiration of Captain Carter, and her hope of seeing him in the course
of the day, as he was going the next morning to London.
"I am astonished, my dear," said Mrs.
Bennet, "that you should be so ready to think your own children
silly. If I wished to think slightingly of anybody's children, it should
not be of my own, however."
"If my children are silly, I must hope to be
always sensible of it."
"Yes--but as it happens, they are all of them
very clever."
"This is the only point, I flatter myself, on
which we do not agree. I had hoped that our sentiments coincided in
every particular, but I must so far differ from you as to think our two
youngest daughters uncommonly foolish."
"My dear Mr. Bennet, you must not expect such
girls to have the sense of their father and mother. When they get to our
age, I dare say they will not think about officers any more than we do.
I remember the time when I liked a red coat myself very well--and,
indeed, so I do still at my heart; and if a smart young colonel, with
five or six thousand a year, should want one of my girls I shall not say
nay to him; and I thought Colonel Forster looked very becoming the other
night at Sir William's in his regimentals."
"Mamma," cried Lydia, "my aunt says
that Colonel Forster and Captain Carter do not go so often to Miss
Watson's as they did when they first came; she sees them now very often
standing in Clarke's library."
Mrs. Bennet was prevented replying by the entrance
of the footman with a note for Miss Bennet; it came from Netherfield,
and the servant waited for an answer. Mrs. Bennet's eyes sparkled with
pleasure, and she was eagerly calling out, while her daughter read,
"Well, Jane, who is it from? What is it
about? What does he say? Well, Jane, make haste and tell us; make haste,
my love."
"It is from Miss Bingley," said Jane,
and then read it aloud.
"MY DEAR FRIEND,--
"If you are not so compassionate as to dine
to-day with Louisa and me, we shall be in danger of hating each other
for the rest of our lives, for a whole day's tete-a-tete between two
women can never end without a quarrel. Come as soon as you can on
receipt of this. My brother and the gentlemen are to dine with the
officers.--Yours ever,
"CAROLINE BINGLEY"
"With the officers!" cried Lydia.
"I wonder my aunt did not tell us of _that_."
"Dining out," said Mrs. Bennet,
"that is very unlucky."
"Can I have the carriage?" said Jane.
"No, my dear, you had better go on horseback,
because it seems likely to rain; and then you must stay all night."
"That would be a good scheme," said
Elizabeth, "if you were sure that they would not offer to send her
home."
"Oh! but the gentlemen will have Mr.
Bingley's chaise to go to Meryton, and the Hursts have no horses to
theirs."
"I had much rather go in the coach."
"But, my dear, your father cannot spare the
horses, I am sure. They are wanted in the farm, Mr. Bennet, are they
not?"
"They are wanted in the farm much oftener
than I can get them."
"But if you have got them to-day," said
Elizabeth, "my mother's purpose will be answered."
She did at last extort from her father an
acknowledgment that the horses were engaged. Jane was therefore obliged
to go on horseback, and her mother attended her to the door with many
cheerful prognostics of a bad day. Her hopes were answered; Jane had not
been gone long before it rained hard. Her sisters were uneasy for her,
but her mother was delighted. The rain continued the whole evening
without intermission; Jane certainly could not come back.
"This was a lucky idea of mine, indeed!"
said Mrs. Bennet more than once, as if the credit of making it rain were
all her own. Till the next morning, however, she was not aware of all
the felicity of her contrivance. Breakfast was scarcely over when a
servant from Netherfield brought the following note for Elizabeth:
"MY DEAREST LIZZY,--
"I find myself very unwell this morning,
which, I suppose, is to be imputed to my getting wet through yesterday.
My kind friends will not hear of my returning till I am better. They
insist also on my seeing Mr. Jones--therefore do not be alarmed if you
should hear of his having been to me--and, excepting a sore throat and
headache, there is not much the matter with me.--Yours, etc."
"Well, my dear," said Mr. Bennet, when
Elizabeth had read the note aloud, "if your daughter should have a
dangerous fit of illness--if she should die, it would be a comfort to
know that it was all in pursuit of Mr. Bingley, and under your
orders."
"Oh! I am not afraid of her dying. People do
not die of little trifling colds. She will be taken good care of. As
long as she stays there, it is all very well. I would go and see her if
I could have the carriage."
Elizabeth, feeling really anxious, was determined
to go to her, though the carriage was not to be had; and as she was no
horsewoman, walking was her only alternative. She declared her
resolution.
"How can you be so silly," cried her
mother, "as to think of such a thing, in all this dirt! You will
not be fit to be seen when you get there."
"I shall be very fit to see Jane--which is
all I want."
"Is this a hint to me, Lizzy," said her
father, "to send for the horses?"
"No, indeed, I do not wish to avoid the walk.
The distance is nothing when one has a motive; only three miles. I shall
be back by dinner."
"I admire the activity of your
benevolence," observed Mary, "but every impulse of feeling
should be guided by reason; and, in my opinion, exertion should always
be in proportion to what is required."
"We will go as far as Meryton with you,"
said Catherine and Lydia. Elizabeth accepted their company, and the
three young ladies set off together.
"If we make haste," said Lydia, as they
walked along, "perhaps we may see something of Captain Carter
before he goes."
In Meryton they parted; the two youngest repaired
to the lodgings of one of the officers' wives, and Elizabeth continued
her walk alone, crossing field after field at a quick pace, jumping over
stiles and springing over puddles with impatient activity, and finding
herself at last within view of the house, with weary ankles, dirty
stockings, and a face glowing with the warmth of exercise.
She was shown into the breakfast-parlour, where
all but Jane were assembled, and where her appearance created a great
deal of surprise. That she should have walked three miles so early in
the day, in such dirty weather, and by herself, was almost incredible to
Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley; and Elizabeth was convinced that they held
her in contempt for it. She was received, however, very politely by
them; and in their brother's manners there was something better than
politeness; there was good humour and kindness. Mr. Darcy said very
little, and Mr. Hurst nothing at all. The former was divided between
admiration of the brilliancy which exercise had given to her complexion,
and doubt as to the occasion's justifying her coming so far alone. The
latter was thinking only of his breakfast.
Her inquiries after her sister were not very
favourably answered. Miss Bennet had slept ill, and though up, was very
feverish, and not well enough to leave her room. Elizabeth was glad to
be taken to her immediately; and Jane, who had only been withheld by the
fear of giving alarm or inconvenience from expressing in her note how
much she longed for such a visit, was delighted at her entrance. She was
not equal, however, to much conversation, and when Miss Bingley left
them together, could attempt little besides expressions of gratitude for
the extraordinary kindness she was treated with. Elizabeth silently
attended her.
When breakfast was over they were joined by the
sisters; and Elizabeth began to like them herself, when she saw how much
affection and solicitude they showed for Jane. The apothecary came, and
having examined his patient, said, as might be supposed, that she had
caught a violent cold, and that they must endeavour to get the better of
it; advised her to return to bed, and promised her some draughts. The
advice was followed readily, for the feverish symptoms increased, and
her head ached acutely. Elizabeth did not quit her room for a moment;
nor were the other ladies often absent; the gentlemen being out, they
had, in fact, nothing to do elsewhere.
When the clock struck three, Elizabeth felt that
she must go, and very unwillingly said so. Miss Bingley offered her the
carriage, and she only wanted a little pressing to accept it, when Jane
testified such concern in parting with her, that Miss Bingley was
obliged to convert the offer of the chaise to an invitation to remain at
Netherfield for the present. Elizabeth most thankfully consented, and a
servant was dispatched to Longbourn to acquaint the family with her stay
and bring back a supply of clothes.
Chapter 8
At five o'clock the two ladies retired to dress,
and at half-past six Elizabeth was summoned to dinner. To the civil
inquiries which then poured in, and amongst which she had the pleasure
of distinguishing the much superior solicitude of Mr. Bingley's, she
could not make a very favourable answer. Jane was by no means better.
The sisters, on hearing this, repeated three or four times how much they
were grieved, how shocking it was to have a bad cold, and how
excessively they disliked being ill themselves; and then thought no more
of the matter: and their indifference towards Jane when not immediately
before them restored Elizabeth to the enjoyment of all her former
dislike.
Their brother, indeed, was the only one of the
party whom she could regard with any complacency. His anxiety for Jane
was evident, and his attentions to herself most pleasing, and they
prevented her feeling herself so much an intruder as she believed she
was considered by the others. She had very little notice from any but
him. Miss Bingley was engrossed by Mr. Darcy, her sister scarcely less
so; and as for Mr. Hurst, by whom Elizabeth sat, he was an indolent man,
who lived only to eat, drink, and play at cards; who, when he found her
to prefer a plain dish to a ragout, had nothing to say to her.
When dinner was over, she returned directly to
Jane, and Miss Bingley began abusing her as soon as she was out of the
room. Her manners were pronounced to be very bad indeed, a mixture of
pride and impertinence; she had no conversation, no style, no beauty.
Mrs. Hurst thought the same, and added:
"She has nothing, in short, to recommend her,
but being an excellent walker. I shall never forget her appearance this
morning. She really looked almost wild."
"She did, indeed, Louisa. I could hardly keep
my countenance. Very nonsensical to come at all! Why must _she_ be
scampering about the country, because her sister had a cold? Her hair,
so untidy, so blowsy!"
"Yes, and her petticoat; I hope you saw her
petticoat, six inches deep in mud, I am absolutely certain; and the gown
which had been let down to hide it not doing its office."
"Your picture may be very exact,
Louisa," said Bingley; "but this was all lost upon me. I
thought Miss Elizabeth Bennet looked remarkably well when she came into
the room this morning. Her dirty petticoat quite escaped my
notice."
"_You_ observed it, Mr. Darcy, I am
sure," said Miss Bingley; "and I am inclined to think that you
would not wish to see _your_ sister make such an exhibition."
"Certainly not."
"To walk three miles, or four miles, or five
miles, or whatever it is, above her ankles in dirt, and alone, quite
alone! What could she mean by it? It seems to me to show an abominable
sort of conceited independence, a most country-town indifference to
decorum."
"It shows an affection for her sister that is
very pleasing," said Bingley.
"I am afraid, Mr. Darcy," observed Miss
Bingley in a half whisper, "that this adventure has rather affected
your admiration of her fine eyes."
"Not at all," he replied; "they
were brightened by the exercise." A short pause followed this
speech, and Mrs. Hurst began again:
"I have a excessive regard for Miss Jane
Bennet, she is really a very sweet girl, and I wish with all my heart
she were well settled. But with such a father and mother, and such low
connections, I am afraid there is no chance of it."
"I think I have heard you say that their
uncle is an attorney on Meryton."
"Yes; and they have another, who lives
somewhere near Cheapside."
"That is capital," added her sister, and
they both laughed heartily.
"If they had uncles enough to fill _all_
Cheapside," cried Bingley, "it would not make them one jot
less agreeable."
"But it must very materially lessen their
chance of marrying men of any consideration in the world," replied
Darcy.
To this speech Bingley made no answer; but his
sisters gave it their hearty assent, and indulged their mirth for some
time at the expense of their dear friend's vulgar relations.
With a renewal of tenderness, however, they
returned to her room on leaving the dining-parlour, and sat with her
till summoned to coffee. She was still very poorly, and Elizabeth would
not quit her at all, till late in the evening, when she had the comfort
of seeing her sleep, and when it seemed to her rather right than
pleasant that she should go downstairs herself. On entering the
drawing-room she found the whole party at loo, and was immediately
invited to join them; but suspecting them to be playing high she
declined it, and making her sister the excuse, said she would amuse
herself for the short time she could stay below, with a book. Mr. Hurst
looked at her with astonishment.
"Do you prefer reading to cards?" said
he; "that is rather singular."
"Miss Eliza Bennet," said Miss Bingley,
"despises cards. She is a great reader, and has no pleasure in
anything else."
"I deserve neither such praise nor such
censure," cried Elizabeth; "I am _not_ a great reader, and I
have pleasure in many things."
"In nursing your sister I am sure you have
pleasure," said Bingley; "and I hope it will be soon increased
by seeing her quite well."
Elizabeth thanked him from her heart, and then
walked towards the table where a few books were lying. He immediately
offered to fetch her others--all that his library afforded.
"And I wish my collection were larger for
your benefit and my own credit; but I am an idle fellow, and though I
have not many, I have more than I ever looked into."
Elizabeth assured him that she could suit herself
perfectly with those in the room.
"I am astonished," said Miss Bingley,
"that my father should have left so small a collection of books.
What a delightful library you have at Pemberley, Mr. Darcy!"
"It ought to be good," he replied,
"it has been the work of many generations."
"And then you have added so much to it
yourself, you are always buying books."
"I cannot comprehend the neglect of a family
library in such days as these."
"Neglect! I am sure you neglect nothing that
can add to the beauties of that noble place. Charles, when you build
_your_ house, I wish it may be half as delightful as Pemberley."
"I wish it may."
"But I would really advise you to make your
purchase in that neighbourhood, and take Pemberley for a kind of model.
There is not a finer county in England than Derbyshire."
"With all my heart; I will buy Pemberley
itself if Darcy will sell it."
"I am talking of possibilities,
Charles."
"Upon my word, Caroline, I should think it
more possible to get Pemberley by purchase than by imitation."
Elizabeth was so much caught with what passed, as
to leave her very little attention for her book; and soon laying it
wholly aside, she drew near the card-table, and stationed herself
between Mr. Bingley and his eldest sister, to observe the game.
"Is Miss Darcy much grown since the
spring?" said Miss Bingley; "will she be as tall as I
am?"
"I think she will. She is now about Miss
Elizabeth Bennet's height, or rather taller."
"How I long to see her again! I never met
with anybody who delighted me so much. Such a countenance, such manners!
And so extremely accomplished for her age! Her performance on the
pianoforte is exquisite."
"It is amazing to me," said Bingley,
"how young ladies can have patience to be so very accomplished as
they all are."
"All young ladies accomplished! My dear
Charles, what do you mean?"
"Yes, all of them, I think. They all paint
tables, cover screens, and net purses. I scarcely know anyone who cannot
do all this, and I am sure I never heard a young lady spoken of for the
first time, without being informed that she was very accomplished."
"Your list of the common extent of
accomplishments," said Darcy, "has too much truth. The word is
applied to many a woman who deserves it no otherwise than by netting a
purse or covering a screen. But I am very far from agreeing with you in
your estimation of ladies in general. I cannot boast of knowing more
than half-a-dozen, in the whole range of my acquaintance, that are
really accomplished."
"Nor I, I am sure," said Miss Bingley.
"Then," observed Elizabeth, "you
must comprehend a great deal in your idea of an accomplished
woman."
"Yes, I do comprehend a great deal in
it."
"Oh! certainly," cried his faithful
assistant, "no one can be really esteemed accomplished who does not
greatly surpass what is usually met with. A woman must have a thorough
knowledge of music, singing, drawing, dancing, and the modern languages,
to deserve the word; and besides all this, she must possess a certain
something in her air and manner of walking, the tone of her voice, her
address and expressions, or the word will be but half-deserved."
"All this she must possess," added
Darcy, "and to all this she must yet add something more
substantial, in the improvement of her mind by extensive reading."
"I am no longer surprised at your knowing
_only_ six accomplished women. I rather wonder now at your knowing
_any_."
"Are you so severe upon your own sex as to
doubt the possibility of all this?"
"I never saw such a woman. I never saw such
capacity, and taste, and application, and elegance, as you describe
united."
Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley both cried out against
the injustice of her implied doubt, and were both protesting that they
knew many women who answered this description, when Mr. Hurst called
them to order, with bitter complaints of their inattention to what was
going forward. As all conversation was thereby at an end, Elizabeth soon
afterwards left the room.
"Elizabeth Bennet," said Miss Bingley,
when the door was closed on her, "is one of those young ladies who
seek to recommend themselves to the other sex by undervaluing their own;
and with many men, I dare say, it succeeds. But, in my opinion, it is a
paltry device, a very mean art."
"Undoubtedly," replied Darcy, to whom
this remark was chiefly addressed, "there is a meanness in _all_
the arts which ladies sometimes condescend to employ for captivation.
Whatever bears affinity to cunning is despicable."
Miss Bingley was not so entirely satisfied with
this reply as to continue the subject.
Elizabeth joined them again only to say that her
sister was worse, and that she could not leave her. Bingley urged Mr.
Jones being sent for immediately; while his sisters, convinced that no
country advice could be of any service, recommended an express to town
for one of the most eminent physicians. This she would not hear of; but
she was not so unwilling to comply with their brother's proposal; and it
was settled that Mr. Jones should be sent for early in the morning, if
Miss Bennet were not decidedly better. Bingley was quite uncomfortable;
his sisters declared that they were miserable. They solaced their
wretchedness, however, by duets after supper, while he could find no
better relief to his feelings than by giving his housekeeper directions
that every attention might be paid to the sick lady and her sister.
Chapter 9
Elizabeth passed the chief of the night in her
sister's room, and in the morning had the pleasure of being able to send
a tolerable answer to the inquiries which she very early received from
Mr. Bingley by a housemaid, and some time afterwards from the two
elegant ladies who waited on his sisters. In spite of this amendment,
however, she requested to have a note sent to Longbourn, desiring her
mother to visit Jane, and form her own judgement of her situation. The
note was immediately dispatched, and its contents as quickly complied
with. Mrs. Bennet, accompanied by her two youngest girls, reached
Netherfield soon after the family breakfast.
Had she found Jane in any apparent danger, Mrs.
Bennet would have been very miserable; but being satisfied on seeing her
that her illness was not alarming, she had no wish of her recovering
immediately, as her restoration to health would probably remove her from
Netherfield. She would not listen, therefore, to her daughter's proposal
of being carried home; neither did the apothecary, who arrived about the
same time, think it at all advisable. After sitting a little while with
Jane, on Miss Bingley's appearance and invitation, the mother and three
daughter all attended her into the breakfast parlour. Bingley met them
with hopes that Mrs. Bennet had not found Miss Bennet worse than she
expected.
"Indeed I have, sir," was her answer.
"She is a great deal too ill to be moved. Mr. Jones says we must
not think of moving her. We must trespass a little longer on your
kindness."
"Removed!" cried Bingley. "It must
not be thought of. My sister, I am sure, will not hear of her
removal."
"You may depend upon it, Madam," said
Miss Bingley, with cold civility, "that Miss Bennet will receive
every possible attention while she remains with us."
Mrs. Bennet was profuse in her acknowledgments.
"I am sure," she added, "if it was
not for such good friends I do not know what would become of her, for
she is very ill indeed, and suffers a vast deal, though with the
greatest patience in the world, which is always the way with her, for
she has, without exception, the sweetest temper I have ever met with. I
often tell my other girls they are nothing to _her_. You have a sweet
room here, Mr. Bingley, and a charming prospect over the gravel walk. I
do not know a place in the country that is equal to Netherfield. You
will not think of quitting it in a hurry, I hope, though you have but a
short lease."
"Whatever I do is done in a hurry,"
replied he; "and therefore if I should resolve to quit Netherfield,
I should probably be off in five minutes. At present, however, I
consider myself as quite fixed here."
"That is exactly what I should have supposed
of you," said Elizabeth.
"You begin to comprehend me, do you?"
cried he, turning towards her.
"Oh! yes--I understand you perfectly."
"I wish I might take this for a compliment;
but to be so easily seen through I am afraid is pitiful."
"That is as it happens. It does not follow
that a deep, intricate character is more or less estimable than such a
one as yours."
"Lizzy," cried her mother,
"remember where you are, and do not run on in the wild manner that
you are suffered to do at home."
"I did not know before," continued
Bingley immediately, "that you were a studier of character. It must
be an amusing study."
"Yes, but intricate characters are the _most_
amusing. They have at least that advantage."
"The country," said Darcy, "can in
general supply but a few subjects for such a study. In a country
neighbourhood you move in a very confined and unvarying society."
"But people themselves alter so much, that
there is something new to be observed in them for ever."
"Yes, indeed," cried Mrs. Bennet,
offended by his manner of mentioning a country neighbourhood. "I
assure you there is quite as much of _that_ going on in the country as
in town."
Everybody was surprised, and Darcy, after looking
at her for a moment, turned silently away. Mrs. Bennet, who fancied she
had gained a complete victory over him, continued her triumph.
"I cannot see that London has any great
advantage over the country, for my part, except the shops and public
places. The country is a vast deal pleasanter, is it not, Mr. Bingley?"
"When I am in the country," he replied,
"I never wish to leave it; and when I am in town it is pretty much
the same. They have each their advantages, and I can be equally happy in
either."
"Aye--that is because you have the right
disposition. But that gentleman," looking at Darcy, "seemed to
think the country was nothing at all."
"Indeed, Mamma, you are mistaken," said
Elizabeth, blushing for her mother. "You quite mistook Mr. Darcy.
He only meant that there was not such a variety of people to be met with
in the country as in the town, which you must acknowledge to be
true."
"Certainly, my dear, nobody said there were;
but as to not meeting with many people in this neighbourhood, I believe
there are few neighbourhoods larger. I know we dine with four-and-twenty
families."
Nothing but concern for Elizabeth could enable
Bingley to keep his countenance. His sister was less delicate, and
directed her eyes towards Mr. Darcy with a very expressive smile.
Elizabeth, for the sake of saying something that might turn her mother's
thoughts, now asked her if Charlotte Lucas had been at Longbourn since
_her_ coming away.
"Yes, she called yesterday with her father.
What an agreeable man Sir William is, Mr. Bingley, is not he? So much
the man of fashion! So genteel and easy! He had always something to say
to everybody. _That_ is my idea of good breeding; and those persons who
fancy themselves very important, and never open their mouths, quite
mistake the matter."
"Did Charlotte dine with you?"
"No, she would go home. I fancy she was
wanted about the mince-pies. For my part, Mr. Bingley, I always keep
servants that can do their own work; _my_ daughters are brought up very
differently. But everybody is to judge for themselves, and the Lucases
are a very good sort of girls, I assure you. It is a pity they are not
handsome! Not that I think Charlotte so _very_ plain--but then she is
our particular friend."
"She seems a very pleasant young woman."
"Oh! dear, yes; but you must own she is very
plain. Lady Lucas herself has often said so, and envied me Jane's
beauty. I do not like to boast of my own child, but to be sure,
Jane--one does not often see anybody better looking. It is what
everybody says. I do not trust my own partiality. When she was only
fifteen, there was a man at my brother Gardiner's in town so much in
love with her that my sister-in-law was sure he would make her an offer
before we came away. But, however, he did not. Perhaps he thought her
too young. However, he wrote some verses on her, and very pretty they
were."
"And so ended his affection," said
Elizabeth impatiently. "There has been many a one, I fancy,
overcome in the same way. I wonder who first discovered the efficacy of
poetry in driving away love!"
"I have been used to consider poetry as the
_food_ of love," said Darcy.
"Of a fine, stout, healthy love it may.
Everything nourishes what is strong already. But if it be only a slight,
thin sort of inclination, I am convinced that one good sonnet will
starve it entirely away."
Darcy only smiled; and the general pause which
ensued made Elizabeth tremble lest her mother should be exposing herself
again. She longed to speak, but could think of nothing to say; and after
a short silence Mrs. Bennet began repeating her thanks to Mr. Bingley
for his kindness to Jane, with an apology for troubling him also with
Lizzy. Mr. Bingley was unaffectedly civil in his answer, and forced his
younger sister to be civil also, and say what the occasion required. She
performed her part indeed without much graciousness, but Mrs. Bennet was
satisfied, and soon afterwards ordered her carriage. Upon this signal,
the youngest of her daughters put herself forward. The two girls had
been whispering to each other during the whole visit, and the result of
it was, that the youngest should tax Mr. Bingley with having promised on
his first coming into the country to give a ball at Netherfield.
Lydia was a stout, well-grown girl of fifteen,
with a fine complexion and good-humoured countenance; a favourite with
her mother, whose affection had brought her into public at an early age.
She had high animal spirits, and a sort of natural self-consequence,
which the attention of the officers, to whom her uncle's good dinners,
and her own easy manners recommended her, had increased into assurance.
She was very equal, therefore, to address Mr. Bingley on the subject of
the ball, and abruptly reminded him of his promise; adding, that it
would be the most shameful thing in the world if he did not keep it. His
answer to this sudden attack was delightful to their mother's ear:
"I am perfectly ready, I assure you, to keep
my engagement; and when your sister is recovered, you shall, if you
please, name the very day of the ball. But you would not wish to be
dancing when she is ill."
Lydia declared herself satisfied. "Oh!
yes--it would be much better to wait till Jane was well, and by that
time most likely Captain Carter would be at Meryton again. And when you
have given _your_ ball," she added, "I shall insist on their
giving one also. I shall tell Colonel Forster it will be quite a shame
if he does not."
Mrs. Bennet and her daughters then departed, and
Elizabeth returned instantly to Jane, leaving her own and her relations'
behaviour to the remarks of the two ladies and Mr. Darcy; the latter of
whom, however, could not be prevailed on to join in their censure of
_her_, in spite of all Miss Bingley's witticisms on _fine eyes_.
Chapter 10
The day passed much as the day before had done.
Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley had spent some hours of the morning with the
invalid, who continued, though slowly, to mend; and in the evening
Elizabeth joined their party in the drawing-room. The loo-table,
however, did not appear. Mr. Darcy was writing, and Miss Bingley, seated
near him, was watching the progress of his letter and repeatedly calling
off his attention by messages to his sister. Mr. Hurst and Mr. Bingley
were at piquet, and Mrs. Hurst was observing their game.
Elizabeth took up some needlework, and was
sufficiently amused in attending to what passed between Darcy and his
companion. The perpetual commendations of the lady, either on his
handwriting, or on the evenness of his lines, or on the length of his
letter, with the perfect unconcern with which her praises were received,
formed a curious dialogue, and was exactly in union with her opinion of
each.
"How delighted Miss Darcy will be to receive
such a letter!"
He made no answer.
"You write uncommonly fast."
"You are mistaken. I write rather
slowly."
"How many letters you must have occasion to
write in the course of a year! Letters of business, too! How odious I
should think them!"
"It is fortunate, then, that they fall to my
lot instead of yours."
"Pray tell your sister that I long to see
her."
"I have already told her so once, by your
desire."
"I am afraid you do not like your pen. Let me
mend it for you. I mend pens remarkably well."
"Thank you--but I always mend my own."
"How can you contrive to write so even?"
He was silent.
"Tell your sister I am delighted to hear of
her improvement on the harp; and pray let her know that I am quite in
raptures with her beautiful little design for a table, and I think it
infinitely superior to Miss Grantley's."
"Will you give me leave to defer your
raptures till I write again? At present I have not room to do them
justice."
"Oh! it is of no consequence. I shall see her
in January. But do you always write such charming long letters to her,
Mr. Darcy?"
"They are generally long; but whether always
charming it is not for me to determine."
"It is a rule with me, that a person who can
write a long letter with ease, cannot write ill."
"That will not do for a compliment to Darcy,
Caroline," cried her brother, "because he does _not_ write
with ease. He studies too much for words of four syllables. Do not you,
Darcy?"
"My style of writing is very different from
yours."
"Oh!" cried Miss Bingley, "Charles
writes in the most careless way imaginable. He leaves out half his
words, and blots the rest."
"My ideas flow so rapidly that I have not
time to express them--by which means my letters sometimes convey no
ideas at all to my correspondents."
"Your humility, Mr. Bingley," said
Elizabeth, "must disarm reproof."
"Nothing is more deceitful," said Darcy,
"than the appearance of humility. It is often only carelessness of
opinion, and sometimes an indirect boast."
"And which of the two do you call _my_ little
recent piece of modesty?"
"The indirect boast; for you are really proud
of your defects in writing, because you consider them as proceeding from
a rapidity of thought and carelessness of execution, which, if not
estimable, you think at least highly interesting. The power of doing
anything with quickness is always prized much by the possessor, and
often without any attention to the imperfection of the performance. When
you told Mrs. Bennet this morning that if you ever resolved upon
quitting Netherfield you should be gone in five minutes, you meant it to
be a sort of panegyric, of compliment to yourself--and yet what is there
so very laudable in a precipitance which must leave very necessary
business undone, and can be of no real advantage to yourself or anyone
else?"
"Nay," cried Bingley, "this is too
much, to remember at night all the foolish things that were said in the
morning. And yet, upon my honour, I believe what I said of myself to be
true, and I believe it at this moment. At least, therefore, I did not
assume the character of needless precipitance merely to show off before
the ladies."
"I dare say you believed it; but I am by no
means convinced that you would be gone with such celerity. Your conduct
would be quite as dependent on chance as that of any man I know; and if,
as you were mounting your horse, a friend were to say, 'Bingley, you had
better stay till next week,' you would probably do it, you would
probably not go--and at another word, might stay a month."
"You have only proved by this," cried
Elizabeth, "that Mr. Bingley did not do justice to his own
disposition. You have shown him off now much more than he did
himself."
"I am exceedingly gratified," said
Bingley, "by your converting what my friend says into a compliment
on the sweetness of my temper. But I am afraid you are giving it a turn
which that gentleman did by no means intend; for he would certainly
think better of me, if under such a circumstance I were to give a flat
denial, and ride off as fast as I could."
"Would Mr. Darcy then consider the rashness
of your original intentions as atoned for by your obstinacy in adhering
to it?"
"Upon my word, I cannot exactly explain the
matter; Darcy must speak for himself."
"You expect me to account for opinions which
you choose to call mine, but which I have never acknowledged. Allowing
the case, however, to stand according to your representation, you must
remember, Miss Bennet, that the friend who is supposed to desire his
return to the house, and the delay of his plan, has merely desired it,
asked it without offering one argument in favour of its propriety."
"To yield readily--easily--to the
_persuasion_ of a friend is no merit with you."
"To yield without conviction is no compliment
to the understanding of either."
"You appear to me, Mr. Darcy, to allow
nothing for the influence of friendship and affection. A regard for the
requester would often make one readily yield to a request, without
waiting for arguments to reason one into it. I am not particularly
speaking of such a case as you have supposed about Mr. Bingley. We may
as well wait, perhaps, till the circumstance occurs before we discuss
the discretion of his behaviour thereupon. But in general and ordinary
cases between friend and friend, where one of them is desired by the
other to change a resolution of no very great moment, should you think
ill of that person for complying with the desire, without waiting to be
argued into it?"
"Will it not be advisable, before we proceed
on this subject, to arrange with rather more precision the degree of
importance which is to appertain to this request, as well as the degree
of intimacy subsisting between the parties?"
"By all means," cried Bingley; "let
us hear all the particulars, not forgetting their comparative height and
size; for that will have more weight in the argument, Miss Bennet, than
you may be aware of. I assure you, that if Darcy were not such a great
tall fellow, in comparison with myself, I should not pay him half so
much deference. I declare I do not know a more awful object than Darcy,
on particular occasions, and in particular places; at his own house
especially, and of a Sunday evening, when he has nothing to do."
Mr. Darcy smiled; but Elizabeth thought she could
perceive that he was rather offended, and therefore checked her laugh.
Miss Bingley warmly resented the indignity he had received, in an
expostulation with her brother for talking such nonsense.
"I see your design, Bingley," said his
friend. "You dislike an argument, and want to silence this."
"Perhaps I do. Arguments are too much like
disputes. If you and Miss Bennet will defer yours till I am out of the
room, I shall be very thankful; and then you may say whatever you like
of me."
"What you ask," said Elizabeth, "is
no sacrifice on my side; and Mr. Darcy had much better finish his
letter."
Mr. Darcy took her advice, and did finish his
letter.
When that business was over, he applied to Miss
Bingley and Elizabeth for an indulgence of some music. Miss Bingley
moved with some alacrity to the pianoforte; and, after a polite request
that Elizabeth would lead the way which the other as politely and more
earnestly negatived, she seated herself.
Mrs. Hurst sang with her sister, and while they
were thus employed, Elizabeth could not help observing, as she turned
over some music-books that lay on the instrument, how frequently Mr.
Darcy's eyes were fixed on her. She hardly knew how to suppose that she
could be an object of admiration to so great a man; and yet that he
should look at her because he disliked her, was still more strange. She
could only imagine, however, at last that she drew his notice because
there was something more wrong and reprehensible, according to his ideas
of right, than in any other person present. The supposition did not pain
her. She liked him too little to care for his approbation.
After playing some Italian songs, Miss Bingley
varied the charm by a lively Scotch air; and soon afterwards Mr. Darcy,
drawing near Elizabeth, said to her:
"Do not you feel a great inclination, Miss
Bennet, to seize such an opportunity of dancing a reel?"
She smiled, but made no answer. He repeated the
question, with some surprise at her silence.
"Oh!" said she, "I heard you
before, but I could not immediately determine what to say in reply. You
wanted me, I know, to say 'Yes,' that you might have the pleasure of
despising my taste; but I always delight in overthrowing those kind of
schemes, and cheating a person of their premeditated contempt. I have,
therefore, made up my mind to tell you, that I do not want to dance a
reel at all--and now despise me if you dare."
"Indeed I do not dare."
Elizabeth, having rather expected to affront him,
was amazed at his gallantry; but there was a mixture of sweetness and
archness in her manner which made it difficult for her to affront
anybody; and Darcy had never been so bewitched by any woman as he was by
her. He really believed, that were it not for the inferiority of her
connections, he should be in some danger.
Miss Bingley saw, or suspected enough to be
jealous; and her great anxiety for the recovery of her dear friend Jane
received some assistance from her desire of getting rid of Elizabeth.
She often tried to provoke Darcy into disliking
her guest, by talking of their supposed marriage, and planning his
happiness in such an alliance.
"I hope," said she, as they were walking
together in the shrubbery the next day, "you will give your
mother-in-law a few hints, when this desirable event takes place, as to
the advantage of holding her tongue; and if you can compass it, do cure
the younger girls of running after officers. And, if I may mention so
delicate a subject, endeavour to check that little something, bordering
on conceit and impertinence, which your lady possesses."
"Have you anything else to propose for my
domestic felicity?"
"Oh! yes. Do let the portraits of your uncle
and aunt Phillips be placed in the gallery at Pemberley. Put them next
to your great-uncle the judge. They are in the same profession, you
know, only in different lines. As for your Elizabeth's picture, you must
not have it taken, for what painter could do justice to those beautiful
eyes?"
"It would not be easy, indeed, to catch their
expression, but their colour and shape, and the eyelashes, so remarkably
fine, might be copied."
At that moment they were met from another walk by
Mrs. Hurst and Elizabeth herself.
"I did not know that you intended to
walk," said Miss Bingley, in some confusion, lest they had been
overheard.
"You used us abominably ill," answered
Mrs. Hurst, "running away without telling us that you were coming
out."
Then taking the disengaged arm of Mr. Darcy, she
left Elizabeth to walk by herself. The path just admitted three. Mr.
Darcy felt their rudeness, and immediately said:
"This walk is not wide enough for our party.
We had better go into the avenue."
But Elizabeth, who had not the least inclination
to remain with them, laughingly answered:
"No, no; stay where you are. You are
charmingly grouped, and appear to uncommon advantage. The picturesque
would be spoilt by admitting a fourth. Good-bye."
She then ran gaily off, rejoicing as she rambled
about, in the hope of being at home again in a day or two. Jane was
already so much recovered as to intend leaving her room for a couple of
hours that evening.
Chapter 11
When the ladies removed after dinner, Elizabeth
ran up to her sister, and seeing her well guarded from cold, attended
her into the drawing-room, where she was welcomed by her two friends
with many professions of pleasure; and Elizabeth had never seen them so
agreeable as they were during the hour which passed before the gentlemen
appeared. Their powers of conversation were considerable. They could
describe an entertainment with accuracy, relate an anecdote with humour,
and laugh at their acquaintance with spirit.
But when the gentlemen entered, Jane was no longer
the first object; Miss Bingley's eyes were instantly turned toward
Darcy, and she had something to say to him before he had advanced many
steps. He addressed himself to Miss Bennet, with a polite
congratulation; Mr. Hurst also made her a slight bow, and said he was
"very glad;" but diffuseness and warmth remained for Bingley's
salutation. He was full of joy and attention. The first half-hour was
spent in piling up the fire, lest she should suffer from the change of
room; and she removed at his desire to the other side of the fireplace,
that she might be further from the door. He then sat down by her, and
talked scarcely to anyone else. Elizabeth, at work in the opposite
corner, saw it all with great delight.
When tea was over, Mr. Hurst reminded his
sister-in-law of the card-table--but in vain. She had obtained private
intelligence that Mr. Darcy did not wish for cards; and Mr. Hurst soon
found even his open petition rejected. She assured him that no one
intended to play, and the silence of the whole party on the subject
seemed to justify her. Mr. Hurst had therefore nothing to do, but to
stretch himself on one of the sofas and go to sleep. Darcy took up a
book; Miss Bingley did the same; and Mrs. Hurst, principally occupied in
playing with her bracelets and rings, joined now and then in her
brother's conversation with Miss Bennet.
Miss Bingley's attention was quite as much engaged
in watching Mr. Darcy's progress through _his_ book, as in reading her
own; and she was perpetually either making some inquiry, or looking at
his page. She could not win him, however, to any conversation; he merely
answered her question, and read on. At length, quite exhausted by the
attempt to be amused with her own book, which she had only chosen
because it was the second volume of his, she gave a great yawn and said,
"How pleasant it is to spend an evening in this way! I declare
after all there is no enjoyment like reading! How much sooner one tires
of anything than of a book! When I have a house of my own, I shall be
miserable if I have not an excellent library."
No one made any reply. She then yawned again,
threw aside her book, and cast her eyes round the room in quest for some
amusement; when hearing her brother mentioning a ball to Miss Bennet,
she turned suddenly towards him and said:
"By the bye, Charles, are you really serious
in meditating a dance at Netherfield? I would advise you, before you
determine on it, to consult the wishes of the present party; I am much
mistaken if there are not some among us to whom a ball would be rather a
punishment than a pleasure."
"If you mean Darcy," cried her brother,
"he may go to bed, if he chooses, before it begins--but as for the
ball, it is quite a settled thing; and as soon as Nicholls has made
white soup enough, I shall send round my cards."
"I should like balls infinitely better,"
she replied, "if they were carried on in a different manner; but
there is something insufferably tedious in the usual process of such a
meeting. It would surely be much more rational if conversation instead
of dancing were made the order of the day."
"Much more rational, my dear Caroline, I dare
say, but it would not be near so much like a ball."
Miss Bingley made no answer, and soon afterwards
she got up and walked about the room. Her figure was elegant, and she
walked well; but Darcy, at whom it was all aimed, was still inflexibly
studious. In the desperation of her feelings, she resolved on one effort
more, and, turning to Elizabeth, said:
"Miss Eliza Bennet, let me persuade you to
follow my example, and take a turn about the room. I assure you it is
very refreshing after sitting so long in one attitude."
Elizabeth was surprised, but agreed to it
immediately. Miss Bingley succeeded no less in the real object of her
civility; Mr. Darcy looked up. He was as much awake to the novelty of
attention in that quarter as Elizabeth herself could be, and
unconsciously closed his book. He was directly invited to join their
party, but he declined it, observing that he could imagine but two
motives for their choosing to walk up and down the room together, with
either of which motives his joining them would interfere. "What
could he mean? She was dying to know what could be his
meaning?"--and asked Elizabeth whether she could at all understand
him?
"Not at all," was her answer; "but
depend upon it, he means to be severe on us, and our surest way of
disappointing him will be to ask nothing about it."
Miss Bingley, however, was incapable of
disappointing Mr. Darcy in anything, and persevered therefore in
requiring an explanation of his two motives.
"I have not the smallest objection to
explaining them," said he, as soon as she allowed him to speak.
"You either choose this method of passing the evening because you
are in each other's confidence, and have secret affairs to discuss, or
because you are conscious that your figures appear to the greatest
advantage in walking; if the first, I would be completely in your way,
and if the second, I can admire you much better as I sit by the
fire."
"Oh! shocking!" cried Miss Bingley.
"I never heard anything so abominable. How shall we punish him for
such a speech?"
"Nothing so easy, if you have but the
inclination," said Elizabeth. "We can all plague and punish
one another. Tease him--laugh at him. Intimate as you are, you must know
how it is to be done."
"But upon my honour, I do _not_. I do assure
you that my intimacy has not yet taught me _that_. Tease calmness of
manner and presence of mind! No, no--feel he may defy us there. And as
to laughter, we will not expose ourselves, if you please, by attempting
to laugh without a subject. Mr. Darcy may hug himself."
"Mr. Darcy is not to be laughed at!"
cried Elizabeth. "That is an uncommon advantage, and uncommon I
hope it will continue, for it would be a great loss to _me_ to have many
such acquaintances. I dearly love a laugh."
"Miss Bingley," said he, "has given
me more credit than can be. The wisest and the best of men--nay, the
wisest and best of their actions--may be rendered ridiculous by a person
whose first object in life is a joke."
"Certainly," replied
Elizabeth--"there are such people, but I hope I am not one of
_them_. I hope I never ridicule what is wise and good. Follies and
nonsense, whims and inconsistencies, _do_ divert me, I own, and I laugh
at them whenever I can. But these, I suppose, are precisely what you are
without."
"Perhaps that is not possible for anyone. But
it has been the study of my life to avoid those weaknesses which often
expose a strong understanding to ridicule."
"Such as vanity and pride."
"Yes, vanity is a weakness indeed. But
pride--where there is a real superiority of mind, pride will be always
under good regulation."
Elizabeth turned away to hide a smile.
"Your examination of Mr. Darcy is over, I
presume," said Miss Bingley; "and pray what is the
result?"
"I am perfectly convinced by it that Mr.
Darcy has no defect. He owns it himself without disguise."
"No," said Darcy, "I have made no
such pretension. I have faults enough, but they are not, I hope, of
understanding. My temper I dare not vouch for. It is, I believe, too
little yielding--certainly too little for the convenience of the world.
I cannot forget the follies and vices of other so soon as I ought, nor
their offenses against myself. My feelings are not puffed about with
every attempt to move them. My temper would perhaps be called resentful.
My good opinion once lost, is lost forever."
"_That_ is a failing indeed!" cried
Elizabeth. "Implacable resentment _is_ a shade in a character. But
you have chosen your fault well. I really cannot _laugh_ at it. You are
safe from me."
"There is, I believe, in every disposition a
tendency to some particular evil--a natural defect, which not even the
best education can overcome."
"And _your_ defect is to hate
everybody."
"And yours," he replied with a smile,
"is willfully to misunderstand them."
"Do let us have a little music," cried
Miss Bingley, tired of a conversation in which she had no share.
"Louisa, you will not mind my waking Mr. Hurst?"
Her sister had not the smallest objection, and the
pianoforte was opened; and Darcy, after a few moments' recollection, was
not sorry for it. He began to feel the danger of paying Elizabeth too
much attention.
Chapter 12
In consequence of an agreement between the
sisters, Elizabeth wrote the next morning to their mother, to beg that
the carriage might be sent for them in the course of the day. But Mrs.
Bennet, who had calculated on her daughters remaining at Netherfield
till the following Tuesday, which would exactly finish Jane's week,
could not bring herself to receive them with pleasure before. Her
answer, therefore, was not propitious, at least not to Elizabeth's
wishes, for she was impatient to get home. Mrs. Bennet sent them word
that they could not possibly have the carriage before Tuesday; and in
her postscript it was added, that if Mr. Bingley and his sister pressed
them to stay longer, she could spare them very well. Against staying
longer, however, Elizabeth was positively resolved--nor did she much
expect it would be asked; and fearful, on the contrary, as being
considered as intruding themselves needlessly long, she urged Jane to
borrow Mr. Bingley's carriage immediately, and at length it was settled
that their original design of leaving Netherfield that morning should be
mentioned, and the request made.
The communication excited many professions of
concern; and enough was said of wishing them to stay at least till the
following day to work on Jane; and till the morrow their going was
deferred. Miss Bingley was then sorry that she had proposed the delay,
for her jealousy and dislike of one sister much exceeded her affection
for the other.
The master of the house heard with real sorrow
that they were to go so soon, and repeatedly tried to persuade Miss
Bennet that it would not be safe for her--that she was not enough
recovered; but Jane was firm where she felt herself to be right.
To Mr. Darcy it was welcome
intelligence--Elizabeth had been at Netherfield long enough. She
attracted him more than he liked--and Miss Bingley was uncivil to _her_,
and more teasing than usual to himself. He wisely resolved to be
particularly careful that no sign of admiration should _now_ escape him,
nothing that could elevate her with the hope of influencing his
felicity; sensible that if such an idea had been suggested, his
behaviour during the last day must have material weight in confirming or
crushing it. Steady to his purpose, he scarcely spoke ten words to her
through the whole of Saturday, and though they were at one time left by
themselves for half-an-hour, he adhered most conscientiously to his
book, and would not even look at her.
On Sunday, after morning service, the separation,
so agreeable to almost all, took place. Miss Bingley's civility to
Elizabeth increased at last very rapidly, as well as her affection for
Jane; and when they parted, after assuring the latter of the pleasure it
would always give her to see her either at Longbourn or Netherfield, and
embracing her most tenderly, she even shook hands with the former.
Elizabeth took leave of the whole party in the liveliest of spirits.
They were not welcomed home very cordially by
their mother. Mrs. Bennet wondered at their coming, and thought them
very wrong to give so much trouble, and was sure Jane would have caught
cold again. But their father, though very laconic in his expressions of
pleasure, was really glad to see them; he had felt their importance in
the family circle. The evening conversation, when they were all
assembled, had lost much of its animation, and almost all its sense by
the absence of Jane and Elizabeth.
They found Mary, as usual, deep in the study of
thorough-bass and human nature; and had some extracts to admire, and
some new observations of threadbare morality to listen to. Catherine and
Lydia had information for them of a different sort. Much had been done
and much had been said in the regiment since the preceding Wednesday;
several of the officers had dined lately with their uncle, a private had
been flogged, and it had actually been hinted that Colonel Forster was
going to be married.
Chapter 13
"I hope, my dear," said Mr. Bennet to
his wife, as they were at breakfast the next morning, "that you
have ordered a good dinner to-day, because I have reason to expect an
addition to our family party."
"Who do you mean, my dear? I know of nobody
that is coming, I am sure, unless Charlotte Lucas should happen to call
in--and I hope _my_ dinners are good enough for her. I do not believe
she often sees such at home."
"The person of whom I speak is a gentleman,
and a stranger."
Mrs. Bennet's eyes sparkled. "A gentleman and
a stranger! It is Mr. Bingley, I am sure! Well, I am sure I shall be
extremely glad to see Mr. Bingley. But--good Lord! how unlucky! There is
not a bit of fish to be got to-day. Lydia, my love, ring the bell--I
must speak to Hill this moment."
"It is _not_ Mr. Bingley," said her
husband; "it is a person whom I never saw in the whole course of my
life."
This roused a general astonishment; and he had the
pleasure of being eagerly questioned by his wife and his five daughters
at once.
After amusing himself some time with their
curiosity, he thus explained:
"About a month ago I received this letter;
and about a fortnight ago I answered it, for I thought it a case of some
delicacy, and requiring early attention. It is from my cousin, Mr.
Collins, who, when I am dead, may turn you all out of this house as soon
as he pleases."
"Oh! my dear," cried his wife, "I
cannot bear to hear that mentioned. Pray do not talk of that odious man.
I do think it is the hardest thing in the world, that your estate should
be entailed away from your own children; and I am sure, if I had been
you, I should have tried long ago to do something or other about
it."
Jane and Elizabeth tried to explain to her the
nature of an entail. They had often attempted to do it before, but it
was a subject on which Mrs. Bennet was beyond the reach of reason, and
she continued to rail bitterly against the cruelty of settling an estate
away from a family of five daughters, in favour of a man whom nobody
cared anything about.
"It certainly is a most iniquitous
affair," said Mr. Bennet, "and nothing can clear Mr. Collins
from the guilt of inheriting Longbourn. But if you will listen to his
letter, you may perhaps be a little softened by his manner of expressing
himself."
"No, that I am sure I shall not; and I think
it is very impertinent of him to write to you at all, and very
hypocritical. I hate such false friends. Why could he not keep on
quarreling with you, as his father did before him?"
"Why, indeed; he does seem to have had some
filial scruples on that head, as you will hear."
"Hunsford, near Westerham, Kent, 15th
October.
"Dear Sir,--
"The disagreement subsisting between yourself
and my late honoured father always gave me much uneasiness, and since I
have had the misfortune to lose him, I have frequently wished to heal
the breach; but for some time I was kept back by my own doubts, fearing
lest it might seem disrespectful to his memory for me to be on good
terms with anyone with whom it had always pleased him to be at
variance.--'There, Mrs. Bennet.'--My mind, however, is now made up on
the subject, for having received ordination at Easter, I have been so
fortunate as to be distinguished by the patronage of the Right
Honourable Lady Catherine de Bourgh, widow of Sir Lewis de Bourgh, whose
bounty and beneficence has preferred me to the valuable rectory of this
parish, where it shall be my earnest endeavour to demean myself with
grateful respect towards her ladyship, and be ever ready to perform
those rites and ceremonies which are instituted by the Church of
England. As a clergyman, moreover, I feel it my duty to promote and
establish the blessing of peace in all families within the reach of my
influence; and on these grounds I flatter myself that my present
overtures are highly commendable, and that the circumstance of my being
next in the entail of Longbourn estate will be kindly overlooked on your
side, and not lead you to reject the offered olive-branch. I cannot be
otherwise than concerned at being the means of injuring your amiable
daughters, and beg leave to apologise for it, as well as to assure you
of my readiness to make them every possible amends--but of this
hereafter. If you should have no objection to receive me into your
house, I propose myself the satisfaction of waiting on you and your
family, Monday, November 18th, by four o'clock, and shall probably
trespass on your hospitality till the Saturday se'ennight following,
which I can do without any inconvenience, as Lady Catherine is far from
objecting to my occasional absence on a Sunday, provided that some other
clergyman is engaged to do the duty of the day.--I remain, dear sir,
with respectful compliments to your lady and daughters, your well-wisher
and friend,
"WILLIAM COLLINS"
"At four o'clock, therefore, we may expect
this peace-making gentleman," said Mr. Bennet, as he folded up the
letter. "He seems to be a most conscientious and polite young man,
upon my word, and I doubt not will prove a valuable acquaintance,
especially if Lady Catherine should be so indulgent as to let him come
to us again."
"There is some sense in what he says about
the girls, however, and if he is disposed to make them any amends, I
shall not be the person to discourage him."
"Though it is difficult," said Jane,
"to guess in what way he can mean to make us the atonement he
thinks our due, the wish is certainly to his credit."
Elizabeth was chiefly struck by his extraordinary
deference for Lady Catherine, and his kind intention of christening,
marrying, and burying his parishioners whenever it were required.
"He must be an oddity, I think," said
she. "I cannot make him out.--There is something very pompous in
his style.--And what can he mean by apologising for being next in the
entail?--We cannot suppose he would help it if he could.--Could he be a
sensible man, sir?"
"No, my dear, I think not. I have great hopes
of finding him quite the reverse. There is a mixture of servility and
self-importance in his letter, which promises well. I am impatient to
see him."
"In point of composition," said Mary,
"the letter does not seem defective. The idea of the olive-branch
perhaps is not wholly new, yet I think it is well expressed."
To Catherine and Lydia, neither the letter nor its
writer were in any degree interesting. It was next to impossible that
their cousin should come in a scarlet coat, and it was now some weeks
since they had received pleasure from the society of a man in any other
colour. As for their mother, Mr. Collins's letter had done away much of
her ill-will, and she was preparing to see him with a degree of
composure which astonished her husband and daughters.
Mr. Collins was punctual to his time, and was
received with great politeness by the whole family. Mr. Bennet indeed
said little; but the ladies were ready enough to talk, and Mr. Collins
seemed neither in need of encouragement, nor inclined to be silent
himself. He was a tall, heavy-looking young man of five-and-twenty. His
air was grave and stately, and his manners were very formal. He had not
been long seated before he complimented Mrs. Bennet on having so fine a
family of daughters; said he had heard much of their beauty, but that in
this instance fame had fallen short of the truth; and added, that he did
not doubt her seeing them all in due time disposed of in marriage. This
gallantry was not much to the taste of some of his hearers; but Mrs.
Bennet, who quarreled with no compliments, answered most readily.
"You are very kind, I am sure; and I wish
with all my heart it may prove so, for else they will be destitute
enough. Things are settled so oddly."
"You allude, perhaps, to the entail of this
estate."
"Ah! sir, I do indeed. It is a grievous
affair to my poor girls, you must confess. Not that I mean to find fault
with _you_, for such things I know are all chance in this world. There
is no knowing how estates will go when once they come to be
entailed."
"I am very sensible, madam, of the hardship
to my fair cousins, and could say much on the subject, but that I am
cautious of appearing forward and precipitate. But I can assure the
young ladies that I come prepared to admire them. At present I will not
say more; but, perhaps, when we are better acquainted--"
He was interrupted by a summons to dinner; and the
girls smiled on each other. They were not the only objects of Mr.
Collins's admiration. The hall, the dining-room, and all its furniture,
were examined and praised; and his commendation of everything would have
touched Mrs. Bennet's heart, but for the mortifying supposition of his
viewing it all as his own future property. The dinner too in its turn
was highly admired; and he begged to know to which of his fair cousins
the excellency of its cooking was owing. But he was set right there by
Mrs. Bennet, who assured him with some asperity that they were very well
able to keep a good cook, and that her daughters had nothing to do in
the kitchen. He begged pardon for having displeased her. In a softened
tone she declared herself not at all offended; but he continued to
apologise for about a quarter of an hour.
Chapter 14
During dinner, Mr. Bennet scarcely spoke at all;
but when the servants were withdrawn, he thought it time to have some
conversation with his guest, and therefore started a subject in which he
expected him to shine, by observing that he seemed very fortunate in his
patroness. Lady Catherine de Bourgh's attention to his wishes, and
consideration for his comfort, appeared very remarkable. Mr. Bennet
could not have chosen better. Mr. Collins was eloquent in her praise.
The subject elevated him to more than usual solemnity of manner, and
with a most important aspect he protested that "he had never in his
life witnessed such behaviour in a person of rank--such affability and
condescension, as he had himself experienced from Lady Catherine. She
had been graciously pleased to approve of both of the discourses which
he had already had the honour of preaching before her. She had also
asked him twice to dine at Rosings, and had sent for him only the
Saturday before, to make up her pool of quadrille in the evening. Lady
Catherine was reckoned proud by many people he knew, but _he_ had never
seen anything but affability in her. She had always spoken to him as she
would to any other gentleman; she made not the smallest objection to his
joining in the society of the neighbourhood nor to his leaving the
parish occasionally for a week or two, to visit his relations. She had
even condescended to advise him to marry as soon as he could, provided
he chose with discretion; and had once paid him a visit in his humble
parsonage, where she had perfectly approved all the alterations he had
been making, and had even vouchsafed to suggest some herself--some
shelves in the closet upstairs."
"That is all very proper and civil, I am
sure," said Mrs. Bennet, "and I dare say she is a very
agreeable woman. It is a pity that great ladies in general are not more
like her. Does she live near you, sir?"
"The garden in which stands my humble abode
is separated only by a lane from Rosings Park, her ladyship's
residence."
"I think you said she was a widow, sir? Has
she any family?"
"She has only one daughter, the heiress of
Rosings, and of very extensive property."
"Ah!" said Mrs. Bennet, shaking her
head, "then she is better off than many girls. And what sort of
young lady is she? Is she handsome?"
"She is a most charming young lady indeed.
Lady Catherine herself says that, in point of true beauty, Miss de
Bourgh is far superior to the handsomest of her sex, because there is
that in her features which marks the young lady of distinguished birth.
She is unfortunately of a sickly constitution, which has prevented her
from making that progress in many accomplishments which she could not
have otherwise failed of, as I am informed by the lady who superintended
her education, and who still resides with them. But she is perfectly
amiable, and often condescends to drive by my humble abode in her little
phaeton and ponies."
"Has she been presented? I do not remember
her name among the ladies at court."
"Her indifferent state of health unhappily
prevents her being in town; and by that means, as I told Lady Catherine
one day, has deprived the British court of its brightest ornaments. Her
ladyship seemed pleased with the idea; and you may imagine that I am
happy on every occasion to offer those little delicate compliments which
are always acceptable to ladies. I have more than once observed to Lady
Catherine, that her charming daughter seemed born to be a duchess, and
that the most elevated rank, instead of giving her consequence, would be
adorned by her. These are the kind of little things which please her
ladyship, and it is a sort of attention which I conceive myself
peculiarly bound to pay."
"You judge very properly," said Mr.
Bennet, "and it is happy for you that you possess the talent of
flattering with delicacy. May I ask whether these pleasing attentions
proceed from the impulse of the moment, or are the result of previous
study?"
"They arise chiefly from what is passing at
the time, and though I sometimes amuse myself with suggesting and
arranging such little elegant compliments as may be adapted to ordinary
occasions, I always wish to give them as unstudied an air as
possible."
Mr. Bennet's expectations were fully answered. His
cousin was as absurd as he had hoped, and he listened to him with the
keenest enjoyment, maintaining at the same time the most resolute
composure of countenance, and, except in an occasional glance at
Elizabeth, requiring no partner in his pleasure.
By tea-time, however, the dose had been enough,
and Mr. Bennet was glad to take his guest into the drawing-room again,
and, when tea was over, glad to invite him to read aloud to the ladies.
Mr. Collins readily assented, and a book was produced; but, on beholding
it (for everything announced it to be from a circulating library), he
started back, and begging pardon, protested that he never read novels.
Kitty stared at him, and Lydia exclaimed. Other books were produced, and
after some deliberation he chose Fordyce's Sermons. Lydia gaped as he
opened the volume, and before he had, with very monotonous solemnity,
read three pages, she interrupted him with:
"Do you know, mamma, that my uncle Phillips
talks of turning away Richard; and if he does, Colonel Forster will hire
him. My aunt told me so herself on Saturday. I shall walk to Meryton
to-morrow to hear more about it, and to ask when Mr. Denny comes back
from town."
Lydia was bid by her two eldest sisters to hold
her tongue; but Mr. Collins, much offended, laid aside his book, and
said:
"I have often observed how little young
ladies are interested by books of a serious stamp, though written solely
for their benefit. It amazes me, I confess; for, certainly, there can be
nothing so advantageous to them as instruction. But I will no longer
importune my young cousin."
Then turning to Mr. Bennet, he offered himself as
his antagonist at backgammon. Mr. Bennet accepted the challenge,
observing that he acted very wisely in leaving the girls to their own
trifling amusements. Mrs. Bennet and her daughters apologised most
civilly for Lydia's interruption, and promised that it should not occur
again, if he would resume his book; but Mr. Collins, after assuring them
that he bore his young cousin no ill-will, and should never resent her
behaviour as any affront, seated himself at another table with Mr.
Bennet, and prepared for backgammon.
Chapter 15
Mr. Collins was not a sensible man, and the
deficiency of nature had been but little assisted by education or
society; the greatest part of his life having been spent under the
guidance of an illiterate and miserly father; and though he belonged to
one of the universities, he had merely kept the necessary terms, without
forming at it any useful acquaintance. The subjection in which his
father had brought him up had given him originally great humility of
manner; but it was now a good deal counteracted by the self-conceit of a
weak head, living in retirement, and the consequential feelings of early
and unexpected prosperity. A fortunate chance had recommended him to
Lady Catherine de Bourgh when the living of Hunsford was vacant; and the
respect which he felt for her high rank, and his veneration for her as
his patroness, mingling with a very good opinion of himself, of his
authority as a clergyman, and his right as a rector, made him altogether
a mixture of pride and obsequiousness, self-importance and humility.
Having now a good house and a very sufficient
income, he intended to marry; and in seeking a reconciliation with the
Longbourn family he had a wife in view, as he meant to choose one of the
daughters, if he found them as handsome and amiable as they were
represented by common report. This was his plan of amends--of
atonement--for inheriting their father's estate; and he thought it an
excellent one, full of eligibility and suitableness, and excessively
generous and disinterested on his own part.
His plan did not vary on seeing them. Miss
Bennet's lovely face confirmed his views, and established all his
strictest notions of what was due to seniority; and for the first
evening _she_ was his settled choice. The next morning, however, made an
alteration; for in a quarter of an hour's tete-a-tete with Mrs. Bennet
before breakfast, a conversation beginning with his parsonage-house, and
leading naturally to the avowal of his hopes, that a mistress might be
found for it at Longbourn, produced from her, amid very complaisant
smiles and general encouragement, a caution against the very Jane he had
fixed on. "As to her _younger_ daughters, she could not take upon
her to say--she could not positively answer--but she did not _know_ of
any prepossession; her _eldest_ daughter, she must just mention--she
felt it incumbent on her to hint, was likely to be very soon
engaged."
Mr. Collins had only to change from Jane to
Elizabeth--and it was soon done--done while Mrs. Bennet was stirring the
fire. Elizabeth, equally next to Jane in birth and beauty, succeeded her
of course.
Mrs. Bennet treasured up the hint, and trusted
that she might soon have two daughters married; and the man whom she
could not bear to speak of the day before was now high in her good
graces.
Lydia's intention of walking to Meryton was not
forgotten; every sister except Mary agreed to go with her; and Mr.
Collins was to attend them, at the request of Mr. Bennet, who was most
anxious to get rid of him, and have his library to himself; for thither
Mr. Collins had followed him after breakfast; and there he would
continue, nominally engaged with one of the largest folios in the
collection, but really talking to Mr. Bennet, with little cessation, of
his house and garden at Hunsford. Such doings discomposed Mr. Bennet
exceedingly. In his library he had been always sure of leisure and
tranquillity; and though prepared, as he told Elizabeth, to meet with
folly and conceit in every other room of the house, he was used to be
free from them there; his civility, therefore, was most prompt in
inviting Mr. Collins to join his daughters in their walk; and Mr.
Collins, being in fact much better fitted for a walker than a reader,
was extremely pleased to close his large book, and go.
In pompous nothings on his side, and civil assents
on that of his cousins, their time passed till they entered Meryton. The
attention of the younger ones was then no longer to be gained by him.
Their eyes were immediately wandering up in the street in quest of the
officers, and nothing less than a very smart bonnet indeed, or a really
new muslin in a shop window, could recall them.
But the attention of every lady was soon caught by
a young man, whom they had never seen before, of most gentlemanlike
appearance, walking with another officer on the other side of the way.
The officer was the very Mr. Denny concerning whose return from London
Lydia came to inquire, and he bowed as they passed. All were struck with
the stranger's air, all wondered who he could be; and Kitty and Lydia,
determined if possible to find out, led the way across the street, under
pretense of wanting something in an opposite shop, and fortunately had
just gained the pavement when the two gentlemen, turning back, had
reached the same spot. Mr. Denny addressed them directly, and entreated
permission to introduce his friend, Mr. Wickham, who had returned with
him the day before from town, and he was happy to say had accepted a
commission in their corps. This was exactly as it should be; for the
young man wanted only regimentals to make him completely charming. His
appearance was greatly in his favour; he had all the best part of
beauty, a fine countenance, a good figure, and very pleasing address.
The introduction was followed up on his side by a happy readiness of
conversation--a readiness at the same time perfectly correct and
unassuming; and the whole party were still standing and talking together
very agreeably, when the sound of horses drew their notice, and Darcy
and Bingley were seen riding down the street. On distinguishing the
ladies of the group, the two gentlemen came directly towards them, and
began the usual civilities. Bingley was the principal spokesman, and
Miss Bennet the principal object. He was then, he said, on his way to
Longbourn on purpose to inquire after her. Mr. Darcy corroborated it
with a bow, and was beginning to determine not to fix his eyes on
Elizabeth, when they were suddenly arrested by the sight of the
stranger, and Elizabeth happening to see the countenance of both as they
looked at each other, was all astonishment at the effect of the meeting.
Both changed colour, one looked white, the other red. Mr. Wickham, after
a few moments, touched his hat--a salutation which Mr. Darcy just
deigned to return. What could be the meaning of it? It was impossible to
imagine; it was impossible not to long to know.
In another minute, Mr. Bingley, but without
seeming to have noticed what passed, took leave and rode on with his
friend.
Mr. Denny and Mr. Wickham walked with the young
ladies to the door of Mr. Phillip's house, and then made their bows, in
spite of Miss Lydia's pressing entreaties that they should come in, and
even in spite of Mrs. Phillips's throwing up the parlour window and
loudly seconding the invitation.
Mrs. Phillips was always glad to see her nieces;
and the two eldest, from their recent absence, were particularly
welcome, and she was eagerly expressing her surprise at their sudden
return home, which, as their own carriage had not fetched them, she
should have known nothing about, if she had not happened to see Mr.
Jones's shop-boy in the street, who had told her that they were not to
send any more draughts to Netherfield because the Miss Bennets were come
away, when her civility was claimed towards Mr. Collins by Jane's
introduction of him. She received him with her very best politeness,
which he returned with as much more, apologising for his intrusion,
without any previous acquaintance with her, which he could not help
flattering himself, however, might be justified by his relationship to
the young ladies who introduced him to her notice. Mrs. Phillips was
quite awed by such an excess of good breeding; but her contemplation of
one stranger was soon put to an end by exclamations and inquiries about
the other; of whom, however, she could only tell her nieces what they
already knew, that Mr. Denny had brought him from London, and that he
was to have a lieutenant's commission in the ----shire. She had been
watching him the last hour, she said, as he walked up and down the
street, and had Mr. Wickham appeared, Kitty and Lydia would certainly
have continued the occupation, but unluckily no one passed windows now
except a few of the officers, who, in comparison with the stranger, were
become "stupid, disagreeable fellows." Some of them were to
dine with the Phillipses the next day, and their aunt promised to make
her husband call on Mr. Wickham, and give him an invitation also, if the
family from Longbourn would come in the evening. This was agreed to, and
Mrs. Phillips protested that they would have a nice comfortable noisy
game of lottery tickets, and a little bit of hot supper afterwards. The
prospect of such delights was very cheering, and they parted in mutual
good spirits. Mr. Collins repeated his apologies in quitting the room,
and was assured with unwearying civility that they were perfectly
needless.
As they walked home, Elizabeth related to Jane
what she had seen pass between the two gentlemen; but though Jane would
have defended either or both, had they appeared to be in the wrong, she
could no more explain such behaviour than her sister.
Mr. Collins on his return highly gratified Mrs.
Bennet by admiring Mrs. Phillips's manners and politeness. He protested
that, except Lady Catherine and her daughter, he had never seen a more
elegant woman; for she had not only received him with the utmost
civility, but even pointedly included him in her invitation for the next
evening, although utterly unknown to her before. Something, he supposed,
might be attributed to his connection with them, but yet he had never
met with so much attention in the whole course of his life.
Chapter 16
As no objection was made to the young people's
engagement with their aunt, and all Mr. Collins's scruples of leaving
Mr. and Mrs. Bennet for a single evening during his visit were most
steadily resisted, the coach conveyed him and his five cousins at a
suitable hour to Meryton; and the girls had the pleasure of hearing, as
they entered the drawing-room, that Mr. Wickham had accepted their
uncle's invitation, and was then in the house.
When this information was given, and they had all
taken their seats, Mr. Collins was at leisure to look around him and
admire, and he was so much struck with the size and furniture of the
apartment, that he declared he might almost have supposed himself in the
small summer breakfast parlour at Rosings; a comparison that did not at
first convey much gratification; but when Mrs. Phillips understood from
him what Rosings was, and who was its proprietor--when she had listened
to the description of only one of Lady Catherine's drawing-rooms, and
found that the chimney-piece alone had cost eight hundred pounds, she
felt all the force of the compliment, and would hardly have resented a
comparison with the housekeeper's room.
In describing to her all the grandeur of Lady
Catherine and her mansion, with occasional digressions in praise of his
own humble abode, and the improvements it was receiving, he was happily
employed until the gentlemen joined them; and he found in Mrs. Phillips
a very attentive listener, whose opinion of his consequence increased
with what she heard, and who was resolving to retail it all among her
neighbours as soon as she could. To the girls, who could not listen to
their cousin, and who had nothing to do but to wish for an instrument,
and examine their own indifferent imitations of china on the
mantelpiece, the interval of waiting appeared very long. It was over at
last, however. The gentlemen did approach, and when Mr. Wickham walked
into the room, Elizabeth felt that she had neither been seeing him
before, nor thinking of him since, with the smallest degree of
unreasonable admiration. The officers of the ----shire were in general a
very creditable, gentlemanlike set, and the best of them were of the
present party; but Mr. Wickham was as far beyond them all in person,
countenance, air, and walk, as _they_ were superior to the broad-faced,
stuffy uncle Phillips, breathing port wine, who followed them into the
room.
Mr. Wickham was the happy man towards whom almost
every female eye was turned, and Elizabeth was the happy woman by whom
he finally seated himself; and the agreeable manner in which he
immediately fell into conversation, though it was only on its being a
wet night, made her feel that the commonest, dullest, most threadbare
topic might be rendered interesting by the skill of the speaker.
With such rivals for the notice of the fair as Mr.
Wickham and the officers, Mr. Collins seemed to sink into
insignificance; to the young ladies he certainly was nothing; but he had
still at intervals a kind listener in Mrs. Phillips, and was by her
watchfulness, most abundantly supplied with coffee and muffin. When the
card-tables were placed, he had the opportunity of obliging her in turn,
by sitting down to whist.
"I know little of the game at present,"
said he, "but I shall be glad to improve myself, for in my
situation in life--" Mrs. Phillips was very glad for his
compliance, but could not wait for his reason.
Mr. Wickham did not play at whist, and with ready
delight was he received at the other table between Elizabeth and Lydia.
At first there seemed danger of Lydia's engrossing him entirely, for she
was a most determined talker; but being likewise extremely fond of
lottery tickets, she soon grew too much interested in the game, too
eager in making bets and exclaiming after prizes to have attention for
anyone in particular. Allowing for the common demands of the game, Mr.
Wickham was therefore at leisure to talk to Elizabeth, and she was very
willing to hear him, though what she chiefly wished to hear she could
not hope to be told--the history of his acquaintance with Mr. Darcy. She
dared not even mention that gentleman. Her curiosity, however, was
unexpectedly relieved. Mr. Wickham began the subject himself. He
inquired how far Netherfield was from Meryton; and, after receiving her
answer, asked in a hesitating manner how long Mr. Darcy had been staying
there.
"About a month," said Elizabeth; and
then, unwilling to let the subject drop, added, "He is a man of
very large property in Derbyshire, I understand."
"Yes," replied Mr. Wickham; "his
estate there is a noble one. A clear ten thousand per annum. You could
not have met with a person more capable of giving you certain
information on that head than myself, for I have been connected with his
family in a particular manner from my infancy."
Elizabeth could not but look surprised.
"You may well be surprised, Miss Bennet, at
such an assertion, after seeing, as you probably might, the very cold
manner of our meeting yesterday. Are you much acquainted with Mr.
Darcy?"
"As much as I ever wish to be," cried
Elizabeth very warmly. "I have spent four days in the same house
with him, and I think him very disagreeable."
"I have no right to give _my_ opinion,"
said Wickham, "as to his being agreeable or otherwise. I am not
qualified to form one. I have known him too long and too well to be a
fair judge. It is impossible for _me_ to be impartial. But I believe
your opinion of him would in general astonish--and perhaps you would not
express it quite so strongly anywhere else. Here you are in your own
family."
"Upon my word, I say no more _here_ than I
might say in any house in the neighbourhood, except Netherfield. He is
not at all liked in Hertfordshire. Everybody is disgusted with his
pride. You will not find him more favourably spoken of by anyone."
"I cannot pretend to be sorry," said
Wickham, after a short interruption, "that he or that any man
should not be estimated beyond their deserts; but with _him_ I believe
it does not often happen. The world is blinded by his fortune and
consequence, or frightened by his high and imposing manners, and sees
him only as he chooses to be seen."
"I should take him, even on _my_ slight
acquaintance, to be an ill-tempered man." Wickham only shook his
head.
"I wonder," said he, at the next
opportunity of speaking, "whether he is likely to be in this
country much longer."
"I do not at all know; but I _heard_ nothing
of his going away when I was at Netherfield. I hope your plans in favour
of the ----shire will not be affected by his being in the neighbourhood."
"Oh! no--it is not for _me_ to be driven away
by Mr. Darcy. If _he_ wishes to avoid seeing _me_, he must go. We are
not on friendly terms, and it always gives me pain to meet him, but I
have no reason for avoiding _him_ but what I might proclaim before all
the world, a sense of very great ill-usage, and most painful regrets at
his being what he is. His father, Miss Bennet, the late Mr. Darcy, was
one of the best men that ever breathed, and the truest friend I ever
had; and I can never be in company with this Mr. Darcy without being
grieved to the soul by a thousand tender recollections. His behaviour to
myself has been scandalous; but I verily believe I could forgive him
anything and everything, rather than his disappointing the hopes and
disgracing the memory of his father."
Elizabeth found the interest of the subject
increase, and listened with all her heart; but the delicacy of it
prevented further inquiry.
Mr. Wickham began to speak on more general topics,
Meryton, the neighbourhood, the society, appearing highly pleased with
all that he had yet seen, and speaking of the latter with gentle but
very intelligible gallantry.
"It was the prospect of constant society, and
good society," he added, "which was my chief inducement to
enter the ----shire. I knew it to be a most respectable, agreeable
corps, and my friend Denny tempted me further by his account of their
present quarters, and the very great attentions and excellent
acquaintances Meryton had procured them. Society, I own, is necessary to
me. I have been a disappointed man, and my spirits will not bear
solitude. I _must_ have employment and society. A military life is not
what I was intended for, but circumstances have now made it eligible.
The church _ought_ to have been my profession--I was brought up for the
church, and I should at this time have been in possession of a most
valuable living, had it pleased the gentleman we were speaking of just
now."
"Indeed!"
"Yes--the late Mr. Darcy bequeathed me the
next presentation of the best living in his gift. He was my godfather,
and excessively attached to me. I cannot do justice to his kindness. He
meant to provide for me amply, and thought he had done it; but when the
living fell, it was given elsewhere."
"Good heavens!" cried Elizabeth;
"but how could _that_ be? How could his will be disregarded? Why
did you not seek legal redress?"
"There was just such an informality in the
terms of the bequest as to give me no hope from law. A man of honour
could not have doubted the intention, but Mr. Darcy chose to doubt
it--or to treat it as a merely conditional recommendation, and to assert
that I had forfeited all claim to it by extravagance, imprudence--in
short anything or nothing. Certain it is, that the living became vacant
two years ago, exactly as I was of an age to hold it, and that it was
given to another man; and no less certain is it, that I cannot accuse
myself of having really done anything to deserve to lose it. I have a
warm, unguarded temper, and I may have spoken my opinion _of_ him, and
_to_ him, too freely. I can recall nothing worse. But the fact is, that
we are very different sort of men, and that he hates me."
"This is quite shocking! He deserves to be
publicly disgraced."
"Some time or other he _will_ be--but it
shall not be by _me_. Till I can forget his father, I can never defy or
expose _him_."
Elizabeth honoured him for such feelings, and
thought him handsomer than ever as he expressed them.
"But what," said she, after a pause,
"can have been his motive? What can have induced him to behave so
cruelly?"
"A thorough, determined dislike of me--a
dislike which I cannot but attribute in some measure to jealousy. Had
the late Mr. Darcy liked me less, his son might have borne with me
better; but his father's uncommon attachment to me irritated him, I
believe, very early in life. He had not a temper to bear the sort of
competition in which we stood--the sort of preference which was often
given me."
"I had not thought Mr. Darcy so bad as
this--though I have never liked him. I had not thought so very ill of
him. I had supposed him to be despising his fellow-creatures in general,
but did not suspect him of descending to such malicious revenge, such
injustice, such inhumanity as this."
After a few minutes' reflection, however, she
continued, "I _do_ remember his boasting one day, at Netherfield,
of the implacability of his resentments, of his having an unforgiving
temper. His disposition must be dreadful."
"I will not trust myself on the
subject," replied Wickham; "I can hardly be just to him."
Elizabeth was again deep in thought, and after a
time exclaimed, "To treat in such a manner the godson, the friend,
the favourite of his father!" She could have added, "A young
man, too, like _you_, whose very countenance may vouch for your being
amiable"--but she contented herself with, "and one, too, who
had probably been his companion from childhood, connected together, as I
think you said, in the closest manner!"
"We were born in the same parish, within the
same park; the greatest part of our youth was passed together; inmates
of the same house, sharing the same amusements, objects of the same
parental care. _My_ father began life in the profession which your
uncle, Mr. Phillips, appears to do so much credit to--but he gave up
everything to be of use to the late Mr. Darcy and devoted all his time
to the care of the Pemberley property. He was most highly esteemed by
Mr. Darcy, a most intimate, confidential friend. Mr. Darcy often
acknowledged himself to be under the greatest obligations to my father's
active superintendence, and when, immediately before my father's death,
Mr. Darcy gave him a voluntary promise of providing for me, I am
convinced that he felt it to be as much a debt of gratitude to _him_, as
of his affection to myself."
"How strange!" cried Elizabeth.
"How abominable! I wonder that the very pride of this Mr. Darcy has
not made him just to you! If from no better motive, that he should not
have been too proud to be dishonest--for dishonesty I must call
it."
"It _is_ wonderful," replied Wickham,
"for almost all his actions may be traced to pride; and pride had
often been his best friend. It has connected him nearer with virtue than
with any other feeling. But we are none of us consistent, and in his
behaviour to me there were stronger impulses even than pride."
"Can such abominable pride as his have ever
done him good?"
"Yes. It has often led him to be liberal and
generous, to give his money freely, to display hospitality, to assist
his tenants, and relieve the poor. Family pride, and _filial_ pride--for
he is very proud of what his father was--have done this. Not to appear
to disgrace his family, to degenerate from the popular qualities, or
lose the influence of the Pemberley House, is a powerful motive. He has
also _brotherly_ pride, which, with _some_ brotherly affection, makes
him a very kind and careful guardian of his sister, and you will hear
him generally cried up as the most attentive and best of brothers."
"What sort of girl is Miss Darcy?"
He shook his head. "I wish I could call her
amiable. It gives me pain to speak ill of a Darcy. But she is too much
like her brother--very, very proud. As a child, she was affectionate and
pleasing, and extremely fond of me; and I have devoted hours and hours
to her amusement. But she is nothing to me now. She is a handsome girl,
about fifteen or sixteen, and, I understand, highly accomplished. Since
her father's death, her home has been London, where a lady lives with
her, and superintends her education."
After many pauses and many trials of other
subjects, Elizabeth could not help reverting once more to the first, and
saying:
"I am astonished at his intimacy with Mr.
Bingley! How can Mr. Bingley, who seems good humour itself, and is, I
really believe, truly amiable, be in friendship with such a man? How can
they suit each other? Do you know Mr. Bingley?"
"Not at all."
"He is a sweet-tempered, amiable, charming
man. He cannot know what Mr. Darcy is."
"Probably not; but Mr. Darcy can please where
he chooses. He does not want abilities. He can be a conversible
companion if he thinks it worth his while. Among those who are at all
his equals in consequence, he is a very different man from what he is to
the less prosperous. His pride never deserts him; but with the rich he
is liberal-minded, just, sincere, rational, honourable, and perhaps
agreeable--allowing something for fortune and figure."
The whist party soon afterwards breaking up, the
players gathered round the other table and Mr. Collins took his station
between his cousin Elizabeth and Mrs. Phillips. The usual inquiries as
to his success was made by the latter. It had not been very great; he
had lost every point; but when Mrs. Phillips began to express her
concern thereupon, he assured her with much earnest gravity that it was
not of the least importance, that he considered the money as a mere
trifle, and begged that she would not make herself uneasy.
"I know very well, madam," said he,
"that when persons sit down to a card-table, they must take their
chances of these things, and happily I am not in such circumstances as
to make five shillings any object. There are undoubtedly many who could
not say the same, but thanks to Lady Catherine de Bourgh, I am removed
far beyond the necessity of regarding little matters."
Mr. Wickham's attention was caught; and after
observing Mr. Collins for a few moments, he asked Elizabeth in a low
voice whether her relation was very intimately acquainted with the
family of de Bourgh.
"Lady Catherine de Bourgh," she replied,
"has very lately given him a living. I hardly know how Mr. Collins
was first introduced to her notice, but he certainly has not known her
long."
"You know of course that Lady Catherine de
Bourgh and Lady Anne Darcy were sisters; consequently that she is aunt
to the present Mr. Darcy."
"No, indeed, I did not. I knew nothing at all
of Lady Catherine's connections. I never heard of her existence till the
day before yesterday."
"Her daughter, Miss de Bourgh, will have a
very large fortune, and it is believed that she and her cousin will
unite the two estates."
This information made Elizabeth smile, as she
thought of poor Miss Bingley. Vain indeed must be all her attentions,
vain and useless her affection for his sister and her praise of himself,
if he were already self-destined for another.
"Mr. Collins," said she, "speaks
highly both of Lady Catherine and her daughter; but from some
particulars that he has related of her ladyship, I suspect his gratitude
misleads him, and that in spite of her being his patroness, she is an
arrogant, conceited woman."
"I believe her to be both in a great
degree," replied Wickham; "I have not seen her for many years,
but I very well remember that I never liked her, and that her manners
were dictatorial and insolent. She has the reputation of being
remarkably sensible and clever; but I rather believe she derives part of
her abilities from her rank and fortune, part from her authoritative
manner, and the rest from the pride for her nephew, who chooses that
everyone connected with him should have an understanding of the first
class."
Elizabeth allowed that he had given a very
rational account of it, and they continued talking together, with mutual
satisfaction till supper put an end to cards, and gave the rest of the
ladies their share of Mr. Wickham's attentions. There could be no
conversation in the noise of Mrs. Phillips's supper party, but his
manners recommended him to everybody. Whatever he said, was said well;
and whatever he did, done gracefully. Elizabeth went away with her head
full of him. She could think of nothing but of Mr. Wickham, and of what
he had told her, all the way home; but there was not time for her even
to mention his name as they went, for neither Lydia nor Mr. Collins were
once silent. Lydia talked incessantly of lottery tickets, of the fish
she had lost and the fish she had won; and Mr. Collins in describing the
civility of Mr. and Mrs. Phillips, protesting that he did not in the
least regard his losses at whist, enumerating all the dishes at supper,
and repeatedly fearing that he crowded his cousins, had more to say than
he could well manage before the carriage stopped at Longbourn House.
Chapter 17
Elizabeth related to Jane the next day what had
passed between Mr. Wickham and herself. Jane listened with astonishment
and concern; she knew not how to believe that Mr. Darcy could be so
unworthy of Mr. Bingley's regard; and yet, it was not in her nature to
question the veracity of a young man of such amiable appearance as
Wickham. The possibility of his having endured such unkindness, was
enough to interest all her tender feelings; and nothing remained
therefore to be done, but to think well of them both, to defend the
conduct of each, and throw into the account of accident or mistake
whatever could not be otherwise explained.
"They have both," said she, "been
deceived, I dare say, in some way or other, of which we can form no
idea. Interested people have perhaps misrepresented each to the other.
It is, in short, impossible for us to conjecture the causes or
circumstances which may have alienated them, without actual blame on
either side."
"Very true, indeed; and now, my dear Jane,
what have you got to say on behalf of the interested people who have
probably been concerned in the business? Do clear _them_ too, or we
shall be obliged to think ill of somebody."
"Laugh as much as you choose, but you will
not laugh me out of my opinion. My dearest Lizzy, do but consider in
what a disgraceful light it places Mr. Darcy, to be treating his
father's favourite in such a manner, one whom his father had promised to
provide for. It is impossible. No man of common humanity, no man who had
any value for his character, could be capable of it. Can his most
intimate friends be so excessively deceived in him? Oh! no."
"I can much more easily believe Mr. Bingley's
being imposed on, than that Mr. Wickham should invent such a history of
himself as he gave me last night; names, facts, everything mentioned
without ceremony. If it be not so, let Mr. Darcy contradict it. Besides,
there was truth in his looks."
"It is difficult indeed--it is distressing.
One does not know what to think."
"I beg your pardon; one knows exactly what to
think."
But Jane could think with certainty on only one
point--that Mr. Bingley, if he _had_ been imposed on, would have much to
suffer when the affair became public.
The two young ladies were summoned from the
shrubbery, where this conversation passed, by the arrival of the very
persons of whom they had been speaking; Mr. Bingley and his sisters came
to give their personal invitation for the long-expected ball at
Netherfield, which was fixed for the following Tuesday. The two ladies
were delighted to see their dear friend again, called it an age since
they had met, and repeatedly asked what she had been doing with herself
since their separation. To the rest of the family they paid little
attention; avoiding Mrs. Bennet as much as possible, saying not much to
Elizabeth, and nothing at all to the others. They were soon gone again,
rising from their seats with an activity which took their brother by
surprise, and hurrying off as if eager to escape from Mrs. Bennet's
civilities.
The prospect of the Netherfield ball was extremely
agreeable to every female of the family. Mrs. Bennet chose to consider
it as given in compliment to her eldest daughter, and was particularly
flattered by receiving the invitation from Mr. Bingley himself, instead
of a ceremonious card. Jane pictured to herself a happy evening in the
society of her two friends, and the attentions of her brother; and
Elizabeth thought with pleasure of dancing a great deal with Mr. Wickham,
and of seeing a confirmation of everything in Mr. Darcy's look and
behavior. The happiness anticipated by Catherine and Lydia depended less
on any single event, or any particular person, for though they each,
like Elizabeth, meant to dance half the evening with Mr. Wickham, he was
by no means the only partner who could satisfy them, and a ball was, at
any rate, a ball. And even Mary could assure her family that she had no
disinclination for it.
"While I can have my mornings to
myself," said she, "it is enough--I think it is no sacrifice
to join occasionally in evening engagements. Society has claims on us
all; and I profess myself one of those who consider intervals of
recreation and amusement as desirable for everybody."
Elizabeth's spirits were so high on this occasion,
that though she did not often speak unnecessarily to Mr. Collins, she
could not help asking him whether he intended to accept Mr. Bingley's
invitation, and if he did, whether he would think it proper to join in
the evening's amusement; and she was rather surprised to find that he
entertained no scruple whatever on that head, and was very far from
dreading a rebuke either from the Archbishop, or Lady Catherine de
Bourgh, by venturing to dance.
"I am by no means of the opinion, I assure
you," said he, "that a ball of this kind, given by a young man
of character, to respectable people, can have any evil tendency; and I
am so far from objecting to dancing myself, that I shall hope to be
honoured with the hands of all my fair cousins in the course of the
evening; and I take this opportunity of soliciting yours, Miss
Elizabeth, for the two first dances especially, a preference which I
trust my cousin Jane will attribute to the right cause, and not to any
disrespect for her."
Elizabeth felt herself completely taken in. She
had fully proposed being engaged by Mr. Wickham for those very dances;
and to have Mr. Collins instead! her liveliness had never been worse
timed. There was no help for it, however. Mr. Wickham's happiness and
her own were perforce delayed a little longer, and Mr. Collins's
proposal accepted with as good a grace as she could. She was not the
better pleased with his gallantry from the idea it suggested of
something more. It now first struck her, that _she_ was selected from
among her sisters as worthy of being mistress of Hunsford Parsonage, and
of assisting to form a quadrille table at Rosings, in the absence of
more eligible visitors. The idea soon reached to conviction, as she
observed his increasing civilities toward herself, and heard his
frequent attempt at a compliment on her wit and vivacity; and though
more astonished than gratified herself by this effect of her charms, it
was not long before her mother gave her to understand that the
probability of their marriage was extremely agreeable to _her_.
Elizabeth, however, did not choose to take the hint, being well aware
that a serious dispute must be the consequence of any reply. Mr. Collins
might never make the offer, and till he did, it was useless to quarrel
about him.
If there had not been a Netherfield ball to
prepare for and talk of, the younger Miss Bennets would have been in a
very pitiable state at this time, for from the day of the invitation, to
the day of the ball, there was such a succession of rain as prevented
their walking to Meryton once. No aunt, no officers, no news could be
sought after--the very shoe-roses for Netherfield were got by proxy.
Even Elizabeth might have found some trial of her patience in weather
which totally suspended the improvement of her acquaintance with Mr.
Wickham; and nothing less than a dance on Tuesday, could have made such
a Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday endurable to Kitty and Lydia.
Chapter 18
Till Elizabeth entered the drawing-room at
Netherfield, and looked in vain for Mr. Wickham among the cluster of red
coats there assembled, a doubt of his being present had never occurred
to her. The certainty of meeting him had not been checked by any of
those recollections that might not unreasonably have alarmed her. She
had dressed with more than usual care, and prepared in the highest
spirits for the conquest of all that remained unsubdued of his heart,
trusting that it was not more than might be won in the course of the
evening. But in an instant arose the dreadful suspicion of his being
purposely omitted for Mr. Darcy's pleasure in the Bingleys' invitation
to the officers; and though this was not exactly the case, the absolute
fact of his absence was pronounced by his friend Denny, to whom Lydia
eagerly applied, and who told them that Wickham had been obliged to go
to town on business the day before, and was not yet returned; adding,
with a significant smile, "I do not imagine his business would have
called him away just now, if he had not wanted to avoid a certain
gentleman here."
This part of his intelligence, though unheard by
Lydia, was caught by Elizabeth, and, as it assured her that Darcy was
not less answerable for Wickham's absence than if her first surmise had
been just, every feeling of displeasure against the former was so
sharpened by immediate disappointment, that she could hardly reply with
tolerable civility to the polite inquiries which he directly afterwards
approached to make. Attendance, forbearance, patience with Darcy, was
injury to Wickham. She was resolved against any sort of conversation
with him, and turned away with a degree of ill-humour which she could
not wholly surmount even in speaking to Mr. Bingley, whose blind
partiality provoked her.
But Elizabeth was not formed for ill-humour; and
though every prospect of her own was destroyed for the evening, it could
not dwell long on her spirits; and having told all her griefs to
Charlotte Lucas, whom she had not seen for a week, she was soon able to
make a voluntary transition to the oddities of her cousin, and to point
him out to her particular notice. The first two dances, however, brought
a return of distress; they were dances of mortification. Mr. Collins,
awkward and solemn, apologising instead of attending, and often moving
wrong without being aware of it, gave her all the shame and misery which
a disagreeable partner for a couple of dances can give. The moment of
her release from him was ecstasy.
She danced next with an officer, and had the
refreshment of talking of Wickham, and of hearing that he was
universally liked. When those dances were over, she returned to
Charlotte Lucas, and was in conversation with her, when she found
herself suddenly addressed by Mr. Darcy who took her so much by surprise
in his application for her hand, that, without knowing what she did, she
accepted him. He walked away again immediately, and she was left to fret
over her own want of presence of mind; Charlotte tried to console her:
"I dare say you will find him very
agreeable."
"Heaven forbid! _That_ would be the greatest
misfortune of all! To find a man agreeable whom one is determined to
hate! Do not wish me such an evil."
When the dancing recommenced, however, and Darcy
approached to claim her hand, Charlotte could not help cautioning her in
a whisper, not to be a simpleton, and allow her fancy for Wickham to
make her appear unpleasant in the eyes of a man ten times his
consequence. Elizabeth made no answer, and took her place in the set,
amazed at the dignity to which she was arrived in being allowed to stand
opposite to Mr. Darcy, and reading in her neighbours' looks, their equal
amazement in beholding it. They stood for some time without speaking a
word; and she began to imagine that their silence was to last through
the two dances, and at first was resolved not to break it; till suddenly
fancying that it would be the greater punishment to her partner to
oblige him to talk, she made some slight observation on the dance. He
replied, and was again silent. After a pause of some minutes, she
addressed him a second time with:--"It is _your_ turn to say
something now, Mr. Darcy. I talked about the dance, and _you_ ought to
make some sort of remark on the size of the room, or the number of
couples."
He smiled, and assured her that whatever she
wished him to say should be said.
"Very well. That reply will do for the
present. Perhaps by and by I may observe that private balls are much
pleasanter than public ones. But _now_ we may be silent."
"Do you talk by rule, then, while you are
dancing?"
"Sometimes. One must speak a little, you
know. It would look odd to be entirely silent for half an hour together;
and yet for the advantage of _some_, conversation ought to be so
arranged, as that they may have the trouble of saying as little as
possible."
"Are you consulting your own feelings in the
present case, or do you imagine that you are gratifying mine?"
"Both," replied Elizabeth archly;
"for I have always seen a great similarity in the turn of our
minds. We are each of an unsocial, taciturn disposition, unwilling to
speak, unless we expect to say something that will amaze the whole room,
and be handed down to posterity with all the eclat of a proverb."
"This is no very striking resemblance of your
own character, I am sure," said he. "How near it may be to
_mine_, I cannot pretend to say. _You_ think it a faithful portrait
undoubtedly."
"I must not decide on my own
performance."
He made no answer, and they were again silent till
they had gone down the dance, when he asked her if she and her sisters
did not very often walk to Meryton. She answered in the affirmative,
and, unable to resist the temptation, added, "When you met us there
the other day, we had just been forming a new acquaintance."
The effect was immediate. A deeper shade of
_hauteur_ overspread his features, but he said not a word, and
Elizabeth, though blaming herself for her own weakness, could not go on.
At length Darcy spoke, and in a constrained manner said, "Mr.
Wickham is blessed with such happy manners as may ensure his _making_
friends--whether he may be equally capable of _retaining_ them, is less
certain."
"He has been so unlucky as to lose _your_
friendship," replied Elizabeth with emphasis, "and in a manner
which he is likely to suffer from all his life."
Darcy made no answer, and seemed desirous of
changing the subject. At that moment, Sir William Lucas appeared close
to them, meaning to pass through the set to the other side of the room;
but on perceiving Mr. Darcy, he stopped with a bow of superior courtesy
to compliment him on his dancing and his partner.
"I have been most highly gratified indeed, my
dear sir. Such very superior dancing is not often seen. It is evident
that you belong to the first circles. Allow me to say, however, that
your fair partner does not disgrace you, and that I must hope to have
this pleasure often repeated, especially when a certain desirable event,
my dear Eliza (glancing at her sister and Bingley) shall take place.
What congratulations will then flow in! I appeal to Mr. Darcy:--but let
me not interrupt you, sir. You will not thank me for detaining you from
the bewitching converse of that young lady, whose bright eyes are also
upbraiding me."
The latter part of this address was scarcely heard
by Darcy; but Sir William's allusion to his friend seemed to strike him
forcibly, and his eyes were directed with a very serious expression
towards Bingley and Jane, who were dancing together. Recovering himself,
however, shortly, he turned to his partner, and said, "Sir
William's interruption has made me forget what we were talking of."
"I do not think we were speaking at all. Sir
William could not have interrupted two people in the room who had less
to say for themselves. We have tried two or three subjects already
without success, and what we are to talk of next I cannot imagine."
"What think you of books?" said he,
smiling.
"Books--oh! no. I am sure we never read the
same, or not with the same feelings."
"I am sorry you think so; but if that be the
case, there can at least be no want of subject. We may compare our
different opinions."
"No--I cannot talk of books in a ball-room;
my head is always full of something else."
"The _present_ always occupies you in such
scenes--does it?" said he, with a look of doubt.
"Yes, always," she replied, without
knowing what she said, for her thoughts had wandered far from the
subject, as soon afterwards appeared by her suddenly exclaiming, "I
remember hearing you once say, Mr. Darcy, that you hardly ever forgave,
that your resentment once created was unappeasable. You are very
cautious, I suppose, as to its _being created_."
"I am," said he, with a firm voice.
"And never allow yourself to be blinded by
prejudice?"
"I hope not."
"It is particularly incumbent on those who
never change their opinion, to be secure of judging properly at
first."
"May I ask to what these questions
tend?"
"Merely to the illustration of _your_
character," said she, endeavouring to shake off her gravity.
"I am trying to make it out."
"And what is your success?"
She shook her head. "I do not get on at all.
I hear such different accounts of you as puzzle me exceedingly."
"I can readily believe," answered he
gravely, "that reports may vary greatly with respect to me; and I
could wish, Miss Bennet, that you were not to sketch my character at the
present moment, as there is reason to fear that the performance would
reflect no credit on either."
"But if I do not take your likeness now, I
may never have another opportunity."
"I would by no means suspend any pleasure of
yours," he coldly replied. She said no more, and they went down the
other dance and parted in silence; and on each side dissatisfied, though
not to an equal degree, for in Darcy's breast there was a tolerable
powerful feeling towards her, which soon procured her pardon, and
directed all his anger against another.
They had not long separated, when Miss Bingley
came towards her, and with an expression of civil disdain accosted her:
"So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite
delighted with George Wickham! Your sister has been talking to me about
him, and asking me a thousand questions; and I find that the young man
quite forgot to tell you, among his other communication, that he was the
son of old Wickham, the late Mr. Darcy's steward. Let me recommend you,
however, as a friend, not to give implicit confidence to all his
assertions; for as to Mr. Darcy's using him ill, it is perfectly false;
for, on the contrary, he has always been remarkably kind to him, though
George Wickham has treated Mr. Darcy in a most infamous manner. I do not
know the particulars, but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the
least to blame, that he cannot bear to hear George Wickham mentioned,
and that though my brother thought that he could not well avoid
including him in his invitation to the officers, he was excessively glad
to find that he had taken himself out of the way. His coming into the
country at all is a most insolent thing, indeed, and I wonder how he
could presume to do it. I pity you, Miss Eliza, for this discovery of
your favourite's guilt; but really, considering his descent, one could
not expect much better."
"His guilt and his descent appear by your
account to be the same," said Elizabeth angrily; "for I have
heard you accuse him of nothing worse than of being the son of Mr.
Darcy's steward, and of _that_, I can assure you, he informed me
himself."
"I beg your pardon," replied Miss
Bingley, turning away with a sneer. "Excuse my interference--it was
kindly meant."
"Insolent girl!" said Elizabeth to
herself. "You are much mistaken if you expect to influence me by
such a paltry attack as this. I see nothing in it but your own wilful
ignorance and the malice of Mr. Darcy." She then sought her eldest
sister, who has undertaken to make inquiries on the same subject of
Bingley. Jane met her with a smile of such sweet complacency, a glow of
such happy expression, as sufficiently marked how well she was satisfied
with the occurrences of the evening. Elizabeth instantly read her
feelings, and at that moment solicitude for Wickham, resentment against
his enemies, and everything else, gave way before the hope of Jane's
being in the fairest way for happiness.
"I want to know," said she, with a
countenance no less smiling than her sister's, "what you have
learnt about Mr. Wickham. But perhaps you have been too pleasantly
engaged to think of any third person; in which case you may be sure of
my pardon."
"No," replied Jane, "I have not
forgotten him; but I have nothing satisfactory to tell you. Mr. Bingley
does not know the whole of his history, and is quite ignorant of the
circumstances which have principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will
vouch for the good conduct, the probity, and honour of his friend, and
is perfectly convinced that Mr. Wickham has deserved much less attention
from Mr. Darcy than he has received; and I am sorry to say by his
account as well as his sister's, Mr. Wickham is by no means a
respectable young man. I am afraid he has been very imprudent, and has
deserved to lose Mr. Darcy's regard."
"Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham
himself?"
"No; he never saw him till the other morning
at Meryton."
"This account then is what he has received
from Mr. Darcy. I am satisfied. But what does he say of the
living?"
"He does not exactly recollect the
circumstances, though he has heard them from Mr. Darcy more than once,
but he believes that it was left to him _conditionally_ only."
"I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley's
sincerity," said Elizabeth warmly; "but you must excuse my not
being convinced by assurances only. Mr. Bingley's defense of his friend
was a very able one, I dare say; but since he is unacquainted with
several parts of the story, and has learnt the rest from that friend
himself, I shall venture to still think of both gentlemen as I did
before."
She then changed the discourse to one more
gratifying to each, and on which there could be no difference of
sentiment. Elizabeth listened with delight to the happy, though modest
hopes which Jane entertained of Mr. Bingley's regard, and said all in
her power to heighten her confidence in it. On their being joined by Mr.
Bingley himself, Elizabeth withdrew to Miss Lucas; to whose inquiry
after the pleasantness of her last partner she had scarcely replied,
before Mr. Collins came up to them, and told her with great exultation
that he had just been so fortunate as to make a most important
discovery.
"I have found out," said he, "by a
singular accident, that there is now in the room a near relation of my
patroness. I happened to overhear the gentleman himself mentioning to
the young lady who does the honours of the house the names of his cousin
Miss de Bourgh, and of her mother Lady Catherine. How wonderfully these
sort of things occur! Who would have thought of my meeting with,
perhaps, a nephew of Lady Catherine de Bourgh in this assembly! I am
most thankful that the discovery is made in time for me to pay my
respects to him, which I am now going to do, and trust he will excuse my
not having done it before. My total ignorance of the connection must
plead my apology."
"You are not going to introduce yourself to
Mr. Darcy!"
"Indeed I am. I shall entreat his pardon for
not having done it earlier. I believe him to be Lady Catherine's
_nephew_. It will be in my power to assure him that her ladyship was
quite well yesterday se'nnight."
Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a
scheme, assuring him that Mr. Darcy would consider his addressing him
without introduction as an impertinent freedom, rather than a compliment
to his aunt; that it was not in the least necessary there should be any
notice on either side; and that if it were, it must belong to Mr. Darcy,
the superior in consequence, to begin the acquaintance. Mr. Collins
listened to her with the determined air of following his own
inclination, and, when she ceased speaking, replied thus:
"My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest
opinion in the world in your excellent judgement in all matters within
the scope of your understanding; but permit me to say, that there must
be a wide difference between the established forms of ceremony amongst
the laity, and those which regulate the clergy; for, give me leave to
observe that I consider the clerical office as equal in point of dignity
with the highest rank in the kingdom--provided that a proper humility of
behaviour is at the same time maintained. You must therefore allow me to
follow the dictates of my conscience on this occasion, which leads me to
perform what I look on as a point of duty. Pardon me for neglecting to
profit by your advice, which on every other subject shall be my constant
guide, though in the case before us I consider myself more fitted by
education and habitual study to decide on what is right than a young
lady like yourself." And with a low bow he left her to attack Mr.
Darcy, whose reception of his advances she eagerly watched, and whose
astonishment at being so addressed was very evident. Her cousin prefaced
his speech with a solemn bow and though she could not hear a word of it,
she felt as if hearing it all, and saw in the motion of his lips the
words "apology," "Hunsford," and "Lady
Catherine de Bourgh." It vexed her to see him expose himself to
such a man. Mr. Darcy was eyeing him with unrestrained wonder, and when
at last Mr. Collins allowed him time to speak, replied with an air of
distant civility. Mr. Collins, however, was not discouraged from
speaking again, and Mr. Darcy's contempt seemed abundantly increasing
with the length of his second speech, and at the end of it he only made
him a slight bow, and moved another way. Mr. Collins then returned to
Elizabeth.
"I have no reason, I assure you," said
he, "to be dissatisfied with my reception. Mr. Darcy seemed much
pleased with the attention. He answered me with the utmost civility, and
even paid me the compliment of saying that he was so well convinced of
Lady Catherine's discernment as to be certain she could never bestow a
favour unworthily. It was really a very handsome thought. Upon the
whole, I am much pleased with him."
As Elizabeth had no longer any interest of her own
to pursue, she turned her attention almost entirely on her sister and
Mr. Bingley; and the train of agreeable reflections which her
observations gave birth to, made her perhaps almost as happy as Jane.
She saw her in idea settled in that very house, in all the felicity
which a marriage of true affection could bestow; and she felt capable,
under such circumstances, of endeavouring even to like Bingley's two
sisters. Her mother's thoughts she plainly saw were bent the same way,
and she determined not to venture near her, lest she might hear too
much. When they sat down to supper, therefore, she considered it a most
unlucky perverseness which placed them within one of each other; and
deeply was she vexed to find that her mother was talking to that one
person (Lady Lucas) freely, openly, and of nothing else but her
expectation that Jane would soon be married to Mr. Bingley. It was an
animating subject, and Mrs. Bennet seemed incapable of fatigue while
enumerating the advantages of the match. His being such a charming young
man, and so rich, and living but three miles from them, were the first
points of self-gratulation; and then it was such a comfort to think how
fond the two sisters were of Jane, and to be certain that they must
desire the connection as much as she could do. It was, moreover, such a
promising thing for her younger daughters, as Jane's marrying so greatly
must throw them in the way of other rich men; and lastly, it was so
pleasant at her time of life to be able to consign her single daughters
to the care of their sister, that she might not be obliged to go into
company more than she liked. It was necessary to make this circumstance
a matter of pleasure, because on such occasions it is the etiquette; but
no one was less likely than Mrs. Bennet to find comfort in staying home
at any period of her life. She concluded with many good wishes that Lady
Lucas might soon be equally fortunate, though evidently and triumphantly
believing there was no chance of it.
In vain did Elizabeth endeavour to check the
rapidity of her mother's words, or persuade her to describe her felicity
in a less audible whisper; for, to her inexpressible vexation, she could
perceive that the chief of it was overheard by Mr. Darcy, who sat
opposite to them. Her mother only scolded her for being nonsensical.
"What is Mr. Darcy to me, pray, that I should
be afraid of him? I am sure we owe him no such particular civility as to
be obliged to say nothing _he_ may not like to hear."
"For heaven's sake, madam, speak lower. What
advantage can it be for you to offend Mr. Darcy? You will never
recommend yourself to his friend by so doing!"
Nothing that she could say, however, had any
influence. Her mother would talk of her views in the same intelligible
tone. Elizabeth blushed and blushed again with shame and vexation. She
could not help frequently glancing her eye at Mr. Darcy, though every
glance convinced her of what she dreaded; for though he was not always
looking at her mother, she was convinced that his attention was
invariably fixed by her. The expression of his face changed gradually
from indignant contempt to a composed and steady gravity.
At length, however, Mrs. Bennet had no more to
say; and Lady Lucas, who had been long yawning at the repetition of
delights which she saw no likelihood of sharing, was left to the
comforts of cold ham and chicken. Elizabeth now began to revive. But not
long was the interval of tranquillity; for, when supper was over,
singing was talked of, and she had the mortification of seeing Mary,
after very little entreaty, preparing to oblige the company. By many
significant looks and silent entreaties, did she endeavour to prevent
such a proof of complaisance, but in vain; Mary would not understand
them; such an opportunity of exhibiting was delightful to her, and she
began her song. Elizabeth's eyes were fixed on her with most painful
sensations, and she watched her progress through the several stanzas
with an impatience which was very ill rewarded at their close; for Mary,
on receiving, amongst the thanks of the table, the hint of a hope that
she might be prevailed on to favour them again, after the pause of half
a minute began another. Mary's powers were by no means fitted for such a
display; her voice was weak, and her manner affected. Elizabeth was in
agonies. She looked at Jane, to see how she bore it; but Jane was very
composedly talking to Bingley. She looked at his two sisters, and saw
them making signs of derision at each other, and at Darcy, who
continued, however, imperturbably grave. She looked at her father to
entreat his interference, lest Mary should be singing all night. He took
the hint, and when Mary had finished her second song, said aloud,
"That will do extremely well, child. You have delighted us long
enough. Let the other young ladies have time to exhibit."
Mary, though pretending not to hear, was somewhat
disconcerted; and Elizabeth, sorry for her, and sorry for her father's
speech, was afraid her anxiety had done no good. Others of the party
were now applied to.
"If I," said Mr. Collins, "were so
fortunate as to be able to sing, I should have great pleasure, I am
sure, in obliging the company with an air; for I consider music as a
very innocent diversion, and perfectly compatible with the profession of
a clergyman. I do not mean, however, to assert that we can be justified
in devoting too much of our time to music, for there are certainly other
things to be attended to. The rector of a parish has much to do. In the
first place, he must make such an agreement for tithes as may be
beneficial to himself and not offensive to his patron. He must write his
own sermons; and the time that remains will not be too much for his
parish duties, and the care and improvement of his dwelling, which he
cannot be excused from making as comfortable as possible. And I do not
think it of light importance that he should have attentive and
conciliatory manner towards everybody, especially towards those to whom
he owes his preferment. I cannot acquit him of that duty; nor could I
think well of the man who should omit an occasion of testifying his
respect towards anybody connected with the family." And with a bow
to Mr. Darcy, he concluded his speech, which had been spoken so loud as
to be heard by half the room. Many stared--many smiled; but no one
looked more amused than Mr. Bennet himself, while his wife seriously
commended Mr. Collins for having spoken so sensibly, and observed in a
half-whisper to Lady Lucas, that he was a remarkably clever, good kind
of young man.
To Elizabeth it appeared that, had her family made
an agreement to expose themselves as much as they could during the
evening, it would have been impossible for them to play their parts with
more spirit or finer success; and happy did she think it for Bingley and
her sister that some of the exhibition had escaped his notice, and that
his feelings were not of a sort to be much distressed by the folly which
he must have witnessed. That his two sisters and Mr. Darcy, however,
should have such an opportunity of ridiculing her relations, was bad
enough, and she could not determine whether the silent contempt of the
gentleman, or the insolent smiles of the ladies, were more intolerable.
The rest of the evening brought her little
amusement. She was teased by Mr. Collins, who continued most
perseveringly by her side, and though he could not prevail on her to
dance with him again, put it out of her power to dance with others. In
vain did she entreat him to stand up with somebody else, and offer to
introduce him to any young lady in the room. He assured her, that as to
dancing, he was perfectly indifferent to it; that his chief object was
by delicate attentions to recommend himself to her and that he should
therefore make a point of remaining close to her the whole evening.
There was no arguing upon such a project. She owed her greatest relief
to her friend Miss Lucas, who often joined them, and good-naturedly
engaged Mr. Collins's conversation to herself.
She was at least free from the offense of Mr.
Darcy's further notice; though often standing within a very short
distance of her, quite disengaged, he never came near enough to speak.
She felt it to be the probable consequence of her allusions to Mr.
Wickham, and rejoiced in it.
The Longbourn party were the last of all the
company to depart, and, by a manoeuvre of Mrs. Bennet, had to wait for
their carriage a quarter of an hour after everybody else was gone, which
gave them time to see how heartily they were wished away by some of the
family. Mrs. Hurst and her sister scarcely opened their mouths, except
to complain of fatigue, and were evidently impatient to have the house
to themselves. They repulsed every attempt of Mrs. Bennet at
conversation, and by so doing threw a languor over the whole party,
which was very little relieved by the long speeches of Mr. Collins, who
was complimenting Mr. Bingley and his sisters on the elegance of their
entertainment, and the hospitality and politeness which had marked their
behaviour to their guests. Darcy said nothing at all. Mr. Bennet, in
equal silence, was enjoying the scene. Mr. Bingley and Jane were
standing together, a little detached from the rest, and talked only to
each other. Elizabeth preserved as steady a silence as either Mrs. Hurst
or Miss Bingley; and even Lydia was too much fatigued to utter more than
the occasional exclamation of "Lord, how tired I am!"
accompanied by a violent yawn.
When at length they arose to take leave, Mrs.
Bennet was most pressingly civil in her hope of seeing the whole family
soon at Longbourn, and addressed herself especially to Mr. Bingley, to
assure him how happy he would make them by eating a family dinner with
them at any time, without the ceremony of a formal invitation. Bingley
was all grateful pleasure, and he readily engaged for taking the
earliest opportunity of waiting on her, after his return from London,
whither he was obliged to go the next day for a short time.
Mrs. Bennet was perfectly satisfied, and quitted
the house under the delightful persuasion that, allowing for the
necessary preparations of settlements, new carriages, and wedding
clothes, she should undoubtedly see her daughter settled at Netherfield
in the course of three or four months. Of having another daughter
married to Mr. Collins, she thought with equal certainty, and with
considerable, though not equal, pleasure. Elizabeth was the least dear
to her of all her children; and though the man and the match were quite
good enough for _her_, the worth of each was eclipsed by Mr. Bingley and
Netherfield.
Chapter 19
The next day opened a new scene at Longbourn. Mr.
Collins made his declaration in form. Having resolved to do it without
loss of time, as his leave of absence extended only to the following
Saturday, and having no feelings of diffidence to make it distressing to
himself even at the moment, he set about it in a very orderly manner,
with all the observances, which he supposed a regular part of the
business. On finding Mrs. Bennet, Elizabeth, and one of the younger
girls together, soon after breakfast, he addressed the mother in these
words:
"May I hope, madam, for your interest with
your fair daughter Elizabeth, when I solicit for the honour of a private
audience with her in the course of this morning?"
Before Elizabeth had time for anything but a blush
of surprise, Mrs. Bennet answered instantly, "Oh
dear!--yes--certainly. I am sure Lizzy will be very happy--I am sure she
can have no objection. Come, Kitty, I want you upstairs." And,
gathering her work together, she was hastening away, when Elizabeth
called out:
"Dear madam, do not go. I beg you will not
go. Mr. Collins must excuse me. He can have nothing to say to me that
anybody need not hear. I am going away myself."
"No, no, nonsense, Lizzy. I desire you to
stay where you are." And upon Elizabeth's seeming really, with
vexed and embarrassed looks, about to escape, she added: "Lizzy, I
_insist_ upon your staying and hearing Mr. Collins."
Elizabeth would not oppose such an injunction--and
a moment's consideration making her also sensible that it would be
wisest to get it over as soon and as quietly as possible, she sat down
again and tried to conceal, by incessant employment the feelings which
were divided between distress and diversion. Mrs. Bennet and Kitty
walked off, and as soon as they were gone, Mr. Collins began.
"Believe me, my dear Miss Elizabeth, that
your modesty, so far from doing you any disservice, rather adds to your
other perfections. You would have been less amiable in my eyes had there
_not_ been this little unwillingness; but allow me to assure you, that I
have your respected mother's permission for this address. You can hardly
doubt the purport of my discourse, however your natural delicacy may
lead you to dissemble; my attentions have been too marked to be
mistaken. Almost as soon as I entered the house, I singled you out as
the companion of my future life. But before I am run away with by my
feelings on this subject, perhaps it would be advisable for me to state
my reasons for marrying--and, moreover, for coming into Hertfordshire
with the design of selecting a wife, as I certainly did."
The idea of Mr. Collins, with all his solemn
composure, being run away with by his feelings, made Elizabeth so near
laughing, that she could not use the short pause he allowed in any
attempt to stop him further, and he continued:
"My reasons for marrying are, first, that I
think it a right thing for every clergyman in easy circumstances (like
myself) to set the example of matrimony in his parish; secondly, that I
am convinced that it will add very greatly to my happiness; and
thirdly--which perhaps I ought to have mentioned earlier, that it is the
particular advice and recommendation of the very noble lady whom I have
the honour of calling patroness. Twice has she condescended to give me
her opinion (unasked too!) on this subject; and it was but the very
Saturday night before I left Hunsford--between our pools at quadrille,
while Mrs. Jenkinson was arranging Miss de Bourgh's footstool, that she
said, 'Mr. Collins, you must marry. A clergyman like you must marry.
Choose properly, choose a gentlewoman for _my_ sake; and for your _own_,
let her be an active, useful sort of person, not brought up high, but
able to make a small income go a good way. This is my advice. Find such
a woman as soon as you can, bring her to Hunsford, and I will visit
her.' Allow me, by the way, to observe, my fair cousin, that I do not
reckon the notice and kindness of Lady Catherine de Bourgh as among the
least of the advantages in my power to offer. You will find her manners
beyond anything I can describe; and your wit and vivacity, I think, must
be acceptable to her, especially when tempered with the silence and
respect which her rank will inevitably excite. Thus much for my general
intention in favour of matrimony; it remains to be told why my views
were directed towards Longbourn instead of my own neighbourhood, where I
can assure you there are many amiable young women. But the fact is, that
being, as I am, to inherit this estate after the death of your honoured
father (who, however, may live many years longer), I could not satisfy
myself without resolving to choose a wife from among his daughters, that
the loss to them might be as little as possible, when the melancholy
event takes place--which, however, as I have already said, may not be
for several years. This has been my motive, my fair cousin, and I
flatter myself it will not sink me in your esteem. And now nothing
remains for me but to assure you in the most animated language of the
violence of my affection. To fortune I am perfectly indifferent, and
shall make no demand of that nature on your father, since I am well
aware that it could not be complied with; and that one thousand pounds
in the four per cents, which will not be yours till after your mother's
decease, is all that you may ever be entitled to. On that head,
therefore, I shall be uniformly silent; and you may assure yourself that
no ungenerous reproach shall ever pass my lips when we are
married."
It was absolutely necessary to interrupt him now.
"You are too hasty, sir," she cried.
"You forget that I have made no answer. Let me do it without
further loss of time. Accept my thanks for the compliment you are paying
me. I am very sensible of the honour of your proposals, but it is
impossible for me to do otherwise than to decline them."
"I am not now to learn," replied Mr.
Collins, with a formal wave of the hand, "that it is usual with
young ladies to reject the addresses of the man whom they secretly mean
to accept, when he first applies for their favour; and that sometimes
the refusal is repeated a second, or even a third time. I am therefore
by no means discouraged by what you have just said, and shall hope to
lead you to the altar ere long."
"Upon my word, sir," cried Elizabeth,
"your hope is a rather extraordinary one after my declaration. I do
assure you that I am not one of those young ladies (if such young ladies
there are) who are so daring as to risk their happiness on the chance of
being asked a second time. I am perfectly serious in my refusal. You
could not make _me_ happy, and I am convinced that I am the last woman
in the world who could make you so. Nay, were your friend Lady Catherine
to know me, I am persuaded she would find me in every respect ill
qualified for the situation."
"Were it certain that Lady Catherine would
think so," said Mr. Collins very gravely--"but I cannot
imagine that her ladyship would at all disapprove of you. And you may be
certain when I have the honour of seeing her again, I shall speak in the
very highest terms of your modesty, economy, and other amiable
qualification."
"Indeed, Mr. Collins, all praise of me will
be unnecessary. You must give me leave to judge for myself, and pay me
the compliment of believing what I say. I wish you very happy and very
rich, and by refusing your hand, do all in my power to prevent your
being otherwise. In making me the offer, you must have satisfied the
delicacy of your feelings with regard to my family, and may take
possession of Longbourn estate whenever it falls, without any
self-reproach. This matter may be considered, therefore, as finally
settled." And rising as she thus spoke, she would have quitted the
room, had Mr. Collins not thus addressed her:
"When I do myself the honour of speaking to
you next on the subject, I shall hope to receive a more favourable
answer than you have now given me; though I am far from accusing you of
cruelty at present, because I know it to be the established custom of
your sex to reject a man on the first application, and perhaps you have
even now said as much to encourage my suit as would be consistent with
the true delicacy of the female character."
"Really, Mr. Collins," cried Elizabeth
with some warmth, "you puzzle me exceedingly. If what I have
hitherto said can appear to you in the form of encouragement, I know not
how to express my refusal in such a way as to convince you of its being
one."
"You must give me leave to flatter myself, my
dear cousin, that your refusal of my addresses is merely words of
course. My reasons for believing it are briefly these: It does not
appear to me that my hand is unworthy your acceptance, or that the
establishment I can offer would be any other than highly desirable. My
situation in life, my connections with the family of de Bourgh, and my
relationship to your own, are circumstances highly in my favour; and you
should take it into further consideration, that in spite of your
manifold attractions, it is by no means certain that another offer of
marriage may ever be made you. Your portion is unhappily so small that
it will in all likelihood undo the effects of your loveliness and
amiable qualifications. As I must therefore conclude that you are not
serious in your rejection of me, I shall choose to attribute it to your
wish of increasing my love by suspense, according to the usual practice
of elegant females."
"I do assure you, sir, that I have no
pretensions whatever to that kind of elegance which consists in
tormenting a respectable man. I would rather be paid the compliment of
being believed sincere. I thank you again and again for the honour you
have done me in your proposals, but to accept them is absolutely
impossible. My feelings in every respect forbid it. Can I speak plainer?
Do not consider me now as an elegant female, intending to plague you,
but as a rational creature, speaking the truth from her heart."
"You are uniformly charming!" cried he,
with an air of awkward gallantry; "and I am persuaded that when
sanctioned by the express authority of both your excellent parents, my
proposals will not fail of being acceptable."
To such perseverance in wilful self-deception
Elizabeth would make no reply, and immediately and in silence withdrew;
determined, if he persisted in considering her repeated refusals as
flattering encouragement, to apply to her father, whose negative might
be uttered in such a manner as to be decisive, and whose behavior at
least could not be mistaken for the affectation and coquetry of an
elegant female.
Chapter 20
Mr. Collins was not left long to the silent
contemplation of his successful love; for Mrs. Bennet, having dawdled
about in the vestibule to watch for the end of the conference, no sooner
saw Elizabeth open the door and with quick step pass her towards the
staircase, than she entered the breakfast-room, and congratulated both
him and herself in warm terms on the happy prospect or their nearer
connection. Mr. Collins received and returned these felicitations with
equal pleasure, and then proceeded to relate the particulars of their
interview, with the result of which he trusted he had every reason to be
satisfied, since the refusal which his cousin had steadfastly given him
would naturally flow from her bashful modesty and the genuine delicacy
of her character.
This information, however, startled Mrs. Bennet;
she would have been glad to be equally satisfied that her daughter had
meant to encourage him by protesting against his proposals, but she
dared not believe it, and could not help saying so.
"But, depend upon it, Mr. Collins," she
added, "that Lizzy shall be brought to reason. I will speak to her
about it directly. She is a very headstrong, foolish girl, and does not
know her own interest but I will _make_ her know it."
"Pardon me for interrupting you, madam,"
cried Mr. Collins; "but if she is really headstrong and foolish, I
know not whether she would altogether be a very desirable wife to a man
in my situation, who naturally looks for happiness in the marriage
state. If therefore she actually persists in rejecting my suit, perhaps
it were better not to force her into accepting me, because if liable to
such defects of temper, she could not contribute much to my
felicity."
"Sir, you quite misunderstand me," said
Mrs. Bennet, alarmed. "Lizzy is only headstrong in such matters as
these. In everything else she is as good-natured a girl as ever lived. I
will go directly to Mr. Bennet, and we shall very soon settle it with
her, I am sure."
She would not give him time to reply, but hurrying
instantly to her husband, called out as she entered the library,
"Oh! Mr. Bennet, you are wanted immediately; we are all in an
uproar. You must come and make Lizzy marry Mr. Collins, for she vows she
will not have him, and if you do not make haste he will change his mind
and not have _her_."
Mr. Bennet raised his eyes from his book as she
entered, and fixed them on her face with a calm unconcern which was not
in the least altered by her communication.
"I have not the pleasure of understanding
you," said he, when she had finished her speech. "Of what are
you talking?"
"Of Mr. Collins and Lizzy. Lizzy declares she
will not have Mr. Collins, and Mr. Collins begins to say that he will
not have Lizzy."
"And what am I to do on the occasion? It
seems an hopeless business."
"Speak to Lizzy about it yourself. Tell her
that you insist upon her marrying him."
"Let her be called down. She shall hear my
opinion."
Mrs. Bennet rang the bell, and Miss Elizabeth was
summoned to the library.
"Come here, child," cried her father as
she appeared. "I have sent for you on an affair of importance. I
understand that Mr. Collins has made you an offer of marriage. Is it
true?" Elizabeth replied that it was. "Very well--and this
offer of marriage you have refused?"
"I have, sir."
"Very well. We now come to the point. Your
mother insists upon your accepting it. Is it not so, Mrs. Bennet?"
"Yes, or I will never see her again."
"An unhappy alternative is before you,
Elizabeth. From this day you must be a stranger to one of your parents.
Your mother will never see you again if you do _not_ marry Mr. Collins,
and I will never see you again if you _do_."
Elizabeth could not but smile at such a conclusion
of such a beginning, but Mrs. Bennet, who had persuaded herself that her
husband regarded the affair as she wished, was excessively disappointed.
"What do you mean, Mr. Bennet, in talking
this way? You promised me to _insist_ upon her marrying him."
"My dear," replied her husband, "I
have two small favours to request. First, that you will allow me the
free use of my understanding on the present occasion; and secondly, of
my room. I shall be glad to have the library to myself as soon as may
be."
Not yet, however, in spite of her disappointment
in her husband, did Mrs. Bennet give up the point. She talked to
Elizabeth again and again; coaxed and threatened her by turns. She
endeavoured to secure Jane in her interest; but Jane, with all possible
mildness, declined interfering; and Elizabeth, sometimes with real
earnestness, and sometimes with playful gaiety, replied to her attacks.
Though her manner varied, however, her determination never did.
Mr. Collins, meanwhile, was meditating in solitude
on what had passed. He thought too well of himself to comprehend on what
motives his cousin could refuse him; and though his pride was hurt, he
suffered in no other way. His regard for her was quite imaginary; and
the possibility of her deserving her mother's reproach prevented his
feeling any regret.
While the family were in this confusion, Charlotte
Lucas came to spend the day with them. She was met in the vestibule by
Lydia, who, flying to her, cried in a half whisper, "I am glad you
are come, for there is such fun here! What do you think has happened
this morning? Mr. Collins has made an offer to Lizzy, and she will not
have him."
Charlotte hardly had time to answer, before they
were joined by Kitty, who came to tell the same news; and no sooner had
they entered the breakfast-room, where Mrs. Bennet was alone, than she
likewise began on the subject, calling on Miss Lucas for her compassion,
and entreating her to persuade her friend Lizzy to comply with the
wishes of all her family. "Pray do, my dear Miss Lucas," she
added in a melancholy tone, "for nobody is on my side, nobody takes
part with me. I am cruelly used, nobody feels for my poor nerves."
Charlotte's reply was spared by the entrance of
Jane and Elizabeth.
"Aye, there she comes," continued Mrs.
Bennet, "looking as unconcerned as may be, and caring no more for
us than if we were at York, provided she can have her own way. But I
tell you, Miss Lizzy--if you take it into your head to go on refusing
every offer of marriage in this way, you will never get a husband at
all--and I am sure I do not know who is to maintain you when your father
is dead. I shall not be able to keep you--and so I warn you. I have done
with you from this very day. I told you in the library, you know, that I
should never speak to you again, and you will find me as good as my
word. I have no pleasure in talking to undutiful children. Not that I
have much pleasure, indeed, in talking to anybody. People who suffer as
I do from nervous complaints can have no great inclination for talking.
Nobody can tell what I suffer! But it is always so. Those who do not
complain are never pitied."
Her daughters listened in silence to this
effusion, sensible that any attempt to reason with her or soothe her
would only increase the irritation. She talked on, therefore, without
interruption from any of them, till they were joined by Mr. Collins, who
entered the room with an air more stately than usual, and on perceiving
whom, she said to the girls, "Now, I do insist upon it, that you,
all of you, hold your tongues, and let me and Mr. Collins have a little
conversation together."
Elizabeth passed quietly out of the room, Jane and
Kitty followed, but Lydia stood her ground, determined to hear all she
could; and Charlotte, detained first by the civility of Mr. Collins,
whose inquiries after herself and all her family were very minute, and
then by a little curiosity, satisfied herself with walking to the window
and pretending not to hear. In a doleful voice Mrs. Bennet began the
projected conversation: "Oh! Mr. Collins!"
"My dear madam," replied he, "let
us be for ever silent on this point. Far be it from me," he
presently continued, in a voice that marked his displeasure, "to
resent the behaviour of your daughter. Resignation to inevitable evils
is the evil duty of us all; the peculiar duty of a young man who has
been so fortunate as I have been in early preferment; and I trust I am
resigned. Perhaps not the less so from feeling a doubt of my positive
happiness had my fair cousin honoured me with her hand; for I have often
observed that resignation is never so perfect as when the blessing
denied begins to lose somewhat of its value in our estimation. You will
not, I hope, consider me as showing any disrespect to your family, my
dear madam, by thus withdrawing my pretensions to your daughter's favour,
without having paid yourself and Mr. Bennet the compliment of requesting
you to interpose your authority in my behalf. My conduct may, I fear, be
objectionable in having accepted my dismission from your daughter's lips
instead of your own. But we are all liable to error. I have certainly
meant well through the whole affair. My object has been to secure an
amiable companion for myself, with due consideration for the advantage
of all your family, and if my _manner_ has been at all reprehensible, I
here beg leave to apologise."
Chapter 21
The discussion of Mr. Collins's offer was now
nearly at an end, and Elizabeth had only to suffer from the
uncomfortable feelings necessarily attending it, and occasionally from
some peevish allusions of her mother. As for the gentleman himself,
_his_ feelings were chiefly expressed, not by embarrassment or
dejection, or by trying to avoid her, but by stiffness of manner and
resentful silence. He scarcely ever spoke to her, and the assiduous
attentions which he had been so sensible of himself were transferred for
the rest of the day to Miss Lucas, whose civility in listening to him
was a seasonable relief to them all, and especially to her friend.
The morrow produced no abatement of Mrs. Bennet's
ill-humour or ill health. Mr. Collins was also in the same state of
angry pride. Elizabeth had hoped that his resentment might shorten his
visit, but his plan did not appear in the least affected by it. He was
always to have gone on Saturday, and to Saturday he meant to stay.
After breakfast, the girls walked to Meryton to
inquire if Mr. Wickham were returned, and to lament over his absence
from the Netherfield ball. He joined them on their entering the town,
and attended them to their aunt's where his regret and vexation, and the
concern of everybody, was well talked over. To Elizabeth, however, he
voluntarily acknowledged that the necessity of his absence _had_ been
self-imposed.
"I found," said he, "as the time
drew near that I had better not meet Mr. Darcy; that to be in the same
room, the same party with him for so many hours together, might be more
than I could bear, and that scenes might arise unpleasant to more than
myself."
She highly approved his forbearance, and they had
leisure for a full discussion of it, and for all the commendation which
they civilly bestowed on each other, as Wickham and another officer
walked back with them to Longbourn, and during the walk he particularly
attended to her. His accompanying them was a double advantage; she felt
all the compliment it offered to herself, and it was most acceptable as
an occasion of introducing him to her father and mother.
Soon after their return, a letter was delivered to
Miss Bennet; it came from Netherfield. The envelope contained a sheet of
elegant, little, hot-pressed paper, well covered with a lady's fair,
flowing hand; and Elizabeth saw her sister's countenance change as she
read it, and saw her dwelling intently on some particular passages. Jane
recollected herself soon, and putting the letter away, tried to join
with her usual cheerfulness in the general conversation; but Elizabeth
felt an anxiety on the subject which drew off her attention even from
Wickham; and no sooner had he and his companion taken leave, than a
glance from Jane invited her to follow her upstairs. When they had
gained their own room, Jane, taking out the letter, said:
"This is from Caroline Bingley; what it
contains has surprised me a good deal. The whole party have left
Netherfield by this time, and are on their way to town--and without any
intention of coming back again. You shall hear what she says."
She then read the first sentence aloud, which
comprised the information of their having just resolved to follow their
brother to town directly, and of their meaning to dine in Grosvenor
Street, where Mr. Hurst had a house. The next was in these words:
"I do not pretend to regret anything I shall leave in Hertfordshire,
except your society, my dearest friend; but we will hope, at some future
period, to enjoy many returns of that delightful intercourse we have
known, and in the meanwhile may lessen the pain of separation by a very
frequent and most unreserved correspondence. I depend on you for
that." To these highflown expressions Elizabeth listened with all
the insensibility of distrust; and though the suddenness of their
removal surprised her, she saw nothing in it really to lament; it was
not to be supposed that their absence from Netherfield would prevent Mr.
Bingley's being there; and as to the loss of their society, she was
persuaded that Jane must cease to regard it, in the enjoyment of his.
"It is unlucky," said she, after a short
pause, "that you should not be able to see your friends before they
leave the country. But may we not hope that the period of future
happiness to which Miss Bingley looks forward may arrive earlier than
she is aware, and that the delightful intercourse you have known as
friends will be renewed with yet greater satisfaction as sisters? Mr.
Bingley will not be detained in London by them."
"Caroline decidedly says that none of the
party will return into Hertfordshire this winter. I will read it to
you:"
"When my brother left us yesterday, he
imagined that the business which took him to London might be concluded
in three or four days; but as we are certain it cannot be so, and at the
same time convinced that when Charles gets to town he will be in no
hurry to leave it again, we have determined on following him thither,
that he may not be obliged to spend his vacant hours in a comfortless
hotel. Many of my acquaintances are already there for the winter; I wish
that I could hear that you, my dearest friend, had any intention of
making one of the crowd--but of that I despair. I sincerely hope your
Christmas in Hertfordshire may abound in the gaieties which that season
generally brings, and that your beaux will be so numerous as to prevent
your feeling the loss of the three of whom we shall deprive you."
"It is evident by this," added Jane,
"that he comes back no more this winter."
"It is only evident that Miss Bingley does
not mean that he _should_."
"Why will you think so? It must be his own
doing. He is his own master. But you do not know _all_. I _will_ read
you the passage which particularly hurts me. I will have no reserves
from _you_."
"Mr. Darcy is impatient to see his sister;
and, to confess the truth, _we_ are scarcely less eager to meet her
again. I really do not think Georgiana Darcy has her equal for beauty,
elegance, and accomplishments; and the affection she inspires in Louisa
and myself is heightened into something still more interesting, from the
hope we dare entertain of her being hereafter our sister. I do not know
whether I ever before mentioned to you my feelings on this subject; but
I will not leave the country without confiding them, and I trust you
will not esteem them unreasonable. My brother admires her greatly
already; he will have frequent opportunity now of seeing her on the most
intimate footing; her relations all wish the connection as much as his
own; and a sister's partiality is not misleading me, I think, when I
call Charles most capable of engaging any woman's heart. With all these
circumstances to favour an attachment, and nothing to prevent it, am I
wrong, my dearest Jane, in indulging the hope of an event which will
secure the happiness of so many?"
"What do you think of _this_ sentence, my
dear Lizzy?" said Jane as she finished it. "Is it not clear
enough? Does it not expressly declare that Caroline neither expects nor
wishes me to be her sister; that she is perfectly convinced of her
brother's indifference; and that if she suspects the nature of my
feelings for him, she means (most kindly!) to put me on my guard? Can
there be any other opinion on the subject?"
"Yes, there can; for mine is totally
different. Will you hear it?"
"Most willingly."
"You shall have it in a few words. Miss
Bingley sees that her brother is in love with you, and wants him to
marry Miss Darcy. She follows him to town in hope of keeping him there,
and tries to persuade you that he does not care about you."
Jane shook her head.
"Indeed, Jane, you ought to believe me. No
one who has ever seen you together can doubt his affection. Miss Bingley,
I am sure, cannot. She is not such a simpleton. Could she have seen half
as much love in Mr. Darcy for herself, she would have ordered her
wedding clothes. But the case is this: We are not rich enough or grand
enough for them; and she is the more anxious to get Miss Darcy for her
brother, from the notion that when there has been _one_ intermarriage,
she may have less trouble in achieving a second; in which there is
certainly some ingenuity, and I dare say it would succeed, if Miss de
Bourgh were out of the way. But, my dearest Jane, you cannot seriously
imagine that because Miss Bingley tells you her brother greatly admires
Miss Darcy, he is in the smallest degree less sensible of _your_ merit
than when he took leave of you on Tuesday, or that it will be in her
power to persuade him that, instead of being in love with you, he is
very much in love with her friend."
"If we thought alike of Miss Bingley,"
replied Jane, "your representation of all this might make me quite
easy. But I know the foundation is unjust. Caroline is incapable of
wilfully deceiving anyone; and all that I can hope in this case is that
she is deceiving herself."
"That is right. You could not have started a
more happy idea, since you will not take comfort in mine. Believe her to
be deceived, by all means. You have now done your duty by her, and must
fret no longer."
"But, my dear sister, can I be happy, even
supposing the best, in accepting a man whose sisters and friends are all
wishing him to marry elsewhere?"
"You must decide for yourself," said
Elizabeth; "and if, upon mature deliberation, you find that the
misery of disobliging his two sisters is more than equivalent to the
happiness of being his wife, I advise you by all means to refuse
him."
"How can you talk so?" said Jane,
faintly smiling. "You must know that though I should be exceedingly
grieved at their disapprobation, I could not hesitate."
"I did not think you would; and that being
the case, I cannot consider your situation with much compassion."
"But if he returns no more this winter, my
choice will never be required. A thousand things may arise in six
months!"
The idea of his returning no more Elizabeth
treated with the utmost contempt. It appeared to her merely the
suggestion of Caroline's interested wishes, and she could not for a
moment suppose that those wishes, however openly or artfully spoken,
could influence a young man so totally independent of everyone.
She represented to her sister as forcibly as
possible what she felt on the subject, and had soon the pleasure of
seeing its happy effect. Jane's temper was not desponding, and she was
gradually led to hope, though the diffidence of affection sometimes
overcame the hope, that Bingley would return to Netherfield and answer
every wish of her heart.
They agreed that Mrs. Bennet should only hear of
the departure of the family, without being alarmed on the score of the
gentleman's conduct; but even this partial communication gave her a
great deal of concern, and she bewailed it as exceedingly unlucky that
the ladies should happen to go away just as they were all getting so
intimate together. After lamenting it, however, at some length, she had
the consolation that Mr. Bingley would be soon down again and soon
dining at Longbourn, and the conclusion of all was the comfortable
declaration, that though he had been invited only to a family dinner,
she would take care to have two full courses.
Chapter 22
The Bennets were engaged to dine with the Lucases
and again during the chief of the day was Miss Lucas so kind as to
listen to Mr. Collins. Elizabeth took an opportunity of thanking her.
"It keeps him in good humour," said she, "and I am more
obliged to you than I can express." Charlotte assured her friend of
her satisfaction in being useful, and that it amply repaid her for the
little sacrifice of her time. This was very amiable, but Charlotte's
kindness extended farther than Elizabeth had any conception of; its
object was nothing else than to secure her from any return of Mr.
Collins's addresses, by engaging them towards herself. Such was Miss
Lucas's scheme; and appearances were so favourable, that when they
parted at night, she would have felt almost secure of success if he had
not been to leave Hertfordshire so very soon. But here she did injustice
to the fire and independence of his character, for it led him to escape
out of Longbourn House the next morning with admirable slyness, and
hasten to Lucas Lodge to throw himself at her feet. He was anxious to
avoid the notice of his cousins, from a conviction that if they saw him
depart, they could not fail to conjecture his design, and he was not
willing to have the attempt known till its success might be known
likewise; for though feeling almost secure, and with reason, for
Charlotte had been tolerably encouraging, he was comparatively diffident
since the adventure of Wednesday. His reception, however, was of the
most flattering kind. Miss Lucas perceived him from an upper window as
he walked towards the house, and instantly set out to meet him
accidentally in the lane. But little had she dared to hope that so much
love and eloquence awaited her there.
In as short a time as Mr. Collins's long speeches
would allow, everything was settled between them to the satisfaction of
both; and as they entered the house he earnestly entreated her to name
the day that was to make him the happiest of men; and though such a
solicitation must be waived for the present, the lady felt no
inclination to trifle with his happiness. The stupidity with which he
was favoured by nature must guard his courtship from any charm that
could make a woman wish for its continuance; and Miss Lucas, who
accepted him solely from the pure and disinterested desire of an
establishment, cared not how soon that establishment were gained.
Sir William and Lady Lucas were speedily applied
to for their consent; and it was bestowed with a most joyful alacrity.
Mr. Collins's present circumstances made it a most eligible match for
their daughter, to whom they could give little fortune; and his
prospects of future wealth were exceedingly fair. Lady Lucas began
directly to calculate, with more interest than the matter had ever
excited before, how many years longer Mr. Bennet was likely to live; and
Sir William gave it as his decided opinion, that whenever Mr. Collins
should be in possession of the Longbourn estate, it would be highly
expedient that both he and his wife should make their appearance at St.
James's. The whole family, in short, were properly overjoyed on the
occasion. The younger girls formed hopes of _coming out_ a year or two
sooner than they might otherwise have done; and the boys were relieved
from their apprehension of Charlotte's dying an old maid. Charlotte
herself was tolerably composed. She had gained her point, and had time
to consider of it. Her reflections were in general satisfactory. Mr.
Collins, to be sure, was neither sensible nor agreeable; his society was
irksome, and his attachment to her must be imaginary. But still he would
be her husband. Without thinking highly either of men or matrimony,
marriage had always been her object; it was the only provision for
well-educated young women of small fortune, and however uncertain of
giving happiness, must be their pleasantest preservative from want. This
preservative she had now obtained; and at the age of twenty-seven,
without having ever been handsome, she felt all the good luck of it. The
least agreeable circumstance in the business was the surprise it must
occasion to Elizabeth Bennet, whose friendship she valued beyond that of
any other person. Elizabeth would wonder, and probably would blame her;
and though her resolution was not to be shaken, her feelings must be
hurt by such a disapprobation. She resolved to give her the information
herself, and therefore charged Mr. Collins, when he returned to
Longbourn to dinner, to drop no hint of what had passed before any of
the family. A promise of secrecy was of course very dutifully given, but
it could not be kept without difficulty; for the curiosity excited by
his long absence burst forth in such very direct questions on his return
as required some ingenuity to evade, and he was at the same time
exercising great self-denial, for he was longing to publish his
prosperous love.
As he was to begin his journey too early on the
morrow to see any of the family, the ceremony of leave-taking was
performed when the ladies moved for the night; and Mrs. Bennet, with
great politeness and cordiality, said how happy they should be to see
him at Longbourn again, whenever his engagements might allow him to
visit them.
"My dear madam," he replied, "this
invitation is particularly gratifying, because it is what I have been
hoping to receive; and you may be very certain that I shall avail myself
of it as soon as possible."
They were all astonished; and Mr. Bennet, who
could by no means wish for so speedy a return, immediately said:
"But is there not danger of Lady Catherine's
disapprobation here, my good sir? You had better neglect your relations
than run the risk of offending your patroness."
"My dear sir," replied Mr. Collins,
"I am particularly obliged to you for this friendly caution, and
you may depend upon my not taking so material a step without her
ladyship's concurrence."
"You cannot be too much upon your guard. Risk
anything rather than her displeasure; and if you find it likely to be
raised by your coming to us again, which I should think exceedingly
probable, stay quietly at home, and be satisfied that _we_ shall take no
offence."
"Believe me, my dear sir, my gratitude is
warmly excited by such affectionate attention; and depend upon it, you
will speedily receive from me a letter of thanks for this, and for every
other mark of your regard during my stay in Hertfordshire. As for my
fair cousins, though my absence may not be long enough to render it
necessary, I shall now take the liberty of wishing them health and
happiness, not excepting my cousin Elizabeth."
With proper civilities the ladies then withdrew;
all of them equally surprised that he meditated a quick return. Mrs.
Bennet wished to understand by it that he thought of paying his
addresses to one of her younger girls, and Mary might have been
prevailed on to accept him. She rated his abilities much higher than any
of the others; there was a solidity in his reflections which often
struck her, and though by no means so clever as herself, she thought
that if encouraged to read and improve himself by such an example as
hers, he might become a very agreeable companion. But on the following
morning, every hope of this kind was done away. Miss Lucas called soon
after breakfast, and in a private conference with Elizabeth related the
event of the day before.
The possibility of Mr. Collins's fancying himself
in love with her friend had once occurred to Elizabeth within the last
day or two; but that Charlotte could encourage him seemed almost as far
from possibility as she could encourage him herself, and her
astonishment was consequently so great as to overcome at first the
bounds of decorum, and she could not help crying out:
"Engaged to Mr. Collins! My dear
Charlotte--impossible!"
The steady countenance which Miss Lucas had
commanded in telling her story, gave way to a momentary confusion here
on receiving so direct a reproach; though, as it was no more than she
expected, she soon regained her composure, and calmly replied:
"Why should you be surprised, my dear Eliza?
Do you think it incredible that Mr. Collins should be able to procure
any woman's good opinion, because he was not so happy as to succeed with
you?"
But Elizabeth had now recollected herself, and
making a strong effort for it, was able to assure with tolerable
firmness that the prospect of their relationship was highly grateful to
her, and that she wished her all imaginable happiness.
"I see what you are feeling," replied
Charlotte. "You must be surprised, very much surprised--so lately
as Mr. Collins was wishing to marry you. But when you have had time to
think it over, I hope you will be satisfied with what I have done. I am
not romantic, you know; I never was. I ask only a comfortable home; and
considering Mr. Collins's character, connection, and situation in life,
I am convinced that my chance of happiness with him is as fair as most
people can boast on entering the marriage state."
Elizabeth quietly answered
"Undoubtedly;" and after an awkward pause, they returned to
the rest of the family. Charlotte did not stay much longer, and
Elizabeth was then left to reflect on what she had heard. It was a long
time before she became at all reconciled to the idea of so unsuitable a
match. The strangeness of Mr. Collins's making two offers of marriage
within three days was nothing in comparison of his being now accepted.
She had always felt that Charlotte's opinion of matrimony was not
exactly like her own, but she had not supposed it to be possible that,
when called into action, she would have sacrificed every better feeling
to worldly advantage. Charlotte the wife of Mr. Collins was a most
humiliating picture! And to the pang of a friend disgracing herself and
sunk in her esteem, was added the distressing conviction that it was
impossible for that friend to be tolerably happy in the lot she had
chosen.
Chapter 23
Elizabeth was sitting with her mother and sisters,
reflecting on what she had heard, and doubting whether she was
authorised to mention it, when Sir William Lucas himself appeared, sent
by his daughter, to announce her engagement to the family. With many
compliments to them, and much self-gratulation on the prospect of a
connection between the houses, he unfolded the matter--to an audience
not merely wondering, but incredulous; for Mrs. Bennet, with more
perseverance than politeness, protested he must be entirely mistaken;
and Lydia, always unguarded and often uncivil, boisterously exclaimed:
"Good Lord! Sir William, how can you tell
such a story? Do not you know that Mr. Collins wants to marry Lizzy?"
Nothing less than the complaisance of a courtier
could have borne without anger such treatment; but Sir William's good
breeding carried him through it all; and though he begged leave to be
positive as to the truth of his information, he listened to all their
impertinence with the most forbearing courtesy.
Elizabeth, feeling it incumbent on her to relieve
him from so unpleasant a situation, now put herself forward to confirm
his account, by mentioning her prior knowledge of it from Charlotte
herself; and endeavoured to put a stop to the exclamations of her mother
and sisters by the earnestness of her congratulations to Sir William, in
which she was readily joined by Jane, and by making a variety of remarks
on the happiness that might be expected from the match, the excellent
character of Mr. Collins, and the convenient distance of Hunsford from
London.
Mrs. Bennet was in fact too much overpowered to
say a great deal while Sir William remained; but no sooner had he left
them than her feelings found a rapid vent. In the first place, she
persisted in disbelieving the whole of the matter; secondly, she was
very sure that Mr. Collins had been taken in; thirdly, she trusted that
they would never be happy together; and fourthly, that the match might
be broken off. Two inferences, however, were plainly deduced from the
whole: one, that Elizabeth was the real cause of the mischief; and the
other that she herself had been barbarously misused by them all; and on
these two points she principally dwelt during the rest of the day.
Nothing could console and nothing could appease her. Nor did that day
wear out her resentment. A week elapsed before she could see Elizabeth
without scolding her, a month passed away before she could speak to Sir
William or Lady Lucas without being rude, and many months were gone
before she could at all forgive their daughter.
Mr. Bennet's emotions were much more tranquil on
the occasion, and such as he did experience he pronounced to be of a
most agreeable sort; for it gratified him, he said, to discover that
Charlotte Lucas, whom he had been used to think tolerably sensible, was
as foolish as his wife, and more foolish than his daughter!
Jane confessed herself a little surprised at the
match; but she said less of her astonishment than of her earnest desire
for their happiness; nor could Elizabeth persuade her to consider it as
improbable. Kitty and Lydia were far from envying Miss Lucas, for Mr.
Collins was only a clergyman; and it affected them in no other way than
as a piece of news to spread at Meryton.
Lady Lucas could not be insensible of triumph on
being able to retort on Mrs. Bennet the comfort of having a daughter
well married; and she called at Longbourn rather oftener than usual to
say how happy she was, though Mrs. Bennet's sour looks and ill-natured
remarks might have been enough to drive happiness away.
Between Elizabeth and Charlotte there was a
restraint which kept them mutually silent on the subject; and Elizabeth
felt persuaded that no real confidence could ever subsist between them
again. Her disappointment in Charlotte made her turn with fonder regard
to her sister, of whose rectitude and delicacy she was sure her opinion
could never be shaken, and for whose happiness she grew daily more
anxious, as Bingley had now been gone a week and nothing more was heard
of his return.
Jane had sent Caroline an early answer to her
letter, and was counting the days till she might reasonably hope to hear
again. The promised letter of thanks from Mr. Collins arrived on
Tuesday, addressed to their father, and written with all the solemnity
of gratitude which a twelvemonth's abode in the family might have
prompted. After discharging his conscience on that head, he proceeded to
inform them, with many rapturous expressions, of his happiness in having
obtained the affection of their amiable neighbour, Miss Lucas, and then
explained that it was merely with the view of enjoying her society that
he had been so ready to close with their kind wish of seeing him again
at Longbourn, whither he hoped to be able to return on Monday fortnight;
for Lady Catherine, he added, so heartily approved his marriage, that
she wished it to take place as soon as possible, which he trusted would
be an unanswerable argument with his amiable Charlotte to name an early
day for making him the happiest of men.
Mr. Collins's return into Hertfordshire was no
longer a matter of pleasure to Mrs. Bennet. On the contrary, she was as
much disposed to complain of it as her husband. It was very strange that
he should come to Longbourn instead of to Lucas Lodge; it was also very
inconvenient and exceedingly troublesome. She hated having visitors in
the house while her health was so indifferent, and lovers were of all
people the most disagreeable. Such were the gentle murmurs of Mrs.
Bennet, and they gave way only to the greater distress of Mr. Bingley's
continued absence.
Neither Jane nor Elizabeth were comfortable on
this subject. Day after day passed away without bringing any other
tidings of him than the report which shortly prevailed in Meryton of his
coming no more to Netherfield the whole winter; a report which highly
incensed Mrs. Bennet, and which she never failed to contradict as a most
scandalous falsehood.
Even Elizabeth began to fear--not that Bingley was
indifferent--but that his sisters would be successful in keeping him
away. Unwilling as she was to admit an idea so destructive of Jane's
happiness, and so dishonorable to the stability of her lover, she could
not prevent its frequently occurring. The united efforts of his two
unfeeling sisters and of his overpowering friend, assisted by the
attractions of Miss Darcy and the amusements of London might be too
much, she feared, for the strength of his attachment.
As for Jane, _her_ anxiety under this suspense
was, of course, more painful than Elizabeth's, but whatever she felt she
was desirous of concealing, and between herself and Elizabeth,
therefore, the subject was never alluded to. But as no such delicacy
restrained her mother, an hour seldom passed in which she did not talk
of Bingley, express her impatience for his arrival, or even require Jane
to confess that if he did not come back she would think herself very ill
used. It needed all Jane's steady mildness to bear these attacks with
tolerable tranquillity.
Mr. Collins returned most punctually on Monday
fortnight, but his reception at Longbourn was not quite so gracious as
it had been on his first introduction. He was too happy, however, to
need much attention; and luckily for the others, the business of
love-making relieved them from a great deal of his company. The chief of
every day was spent by him at Lucas Lodge, and he sometimes returned to
Longbourn only in time to make an apology for his absence before the
family went to bed.
Mrs. Bennet was really in a most pitiable state.
The very mention of anything concerning the match threw her into an
agony of ill-humour, and wherever she went she was sure of hearing it
talked of. The sight of Miss Lucas was odious to her. As her successor
in that house, she regarded her with jealous abhorrence. Whenever
Charlotte came to see them, she concluded her to be anticipating the
hour of possession; and whenever she spoke in a low voice to Mr.
Collins, was convinced that they were talking of the Longbourn estate,
and resolving to turn herself and her daughters out of the house, as
soon as Mr. Bennet were dead. She complained bitterly of all this to her
husband.
"Indeed, Mr. Bennet," said she, "it
is very hard to think that Charlotte Lucas should ever be mistress of
this house, that I should be forced to make way for _her_, and live to
see her take her place in it!"
"My dear, do not give way to such gloomy
thoughts. Let us hope for better things. Let us flatter ourselves that I
may be the survivor."
This was not very consoling to Mrs. Bennet, and
therefore, instead of making any answer, she went on as before.
"I cannot bear to think that they should have
all this estate. If it was not for the entail, I should not mind
it."
"What should not you mind?"
"I should not mind anything at all."
"Let us be thankful that you are preserved
from a state of such insensibility."
"I never can be thankful, Mr. Bennet, for
anything about the entail. How anyone could have the conscience to
entail away an estate from one's own daughters, I cannot understand; and
all for the sake of Mr. Collins too! Why should _he_ have it more than
anybody else?"
"I leave it to yourself to determine,"
said Mr. Bennet.
Chapter 24
Miss Bingley's letter arrived, and put an end to
doubt. The very first sentence conveyed the assurance of their being all
settled in London for the winter, and concluded with her brother's
regret at not having had time to pay his respects to his friends in
Hertfordshire before he left the country.
Hope was over, entirely over; and when Jane could
attend to the rest of the letter, she found little, except the professed
affection of the writer, that could give her any comfort. Miss Darcy's
praise occupied the chief of it. Her many attractions were again dwelt
on, and Caroline boasted joyfully of their increasing intimacy, and
ventured to predict the accomplishment of the wishes which had been
unfolded in her former letter. She wrote also with great pleasure of her
brother's being an inmate of Mr. Darcy's house, and mentioned with
raptures some plans of the latter with regard to new furniture.
Elizabeth, to whom Jane very soon communicated the
chief of all this, heard it in silent indignation. Her heart was divided
between concern for her sister, and resentment against all others. To
Caroline's assertion of her brother's being partial to Miss Darcy she
paid no credit. That he was really fond of Jane, she doubted no more
than she had ever done; and much as she had always been disposed to like
him, she could not think without anger, hardly without contempt, on that
easiness of temper, that want of proper resolution, which now made him
the slave of his designing friends, and led him to sacrifice of his own
happiness to the caprice of their inclination. Had his own happiness,
however, been the only sacrifice, he might have been allowed to sport
with it in whatever manner he thought best, but her sister's was
involved in it, as she thought he must be sensible himself. It was a
subject, in short, on which reflection would be long indulged, and must
be unavailing. She could think of nothing else; and yet whether
Bingley's regard had really died away, or were suppressed by his
friends' interference; whether he had been aware of Jane's attachment,
or whether it had escaped his observation; whatever were the case,
though her opinion of him must be materially affected by the difference,
her sister's situation remained the same, her peace equally wounded.
A day or two passed before Jane had courage to
speak of her feelings to Elizabeth; but at last, on Mrs. Bennet's
leaving them together, after a longer irritation than usual about
Netherfield and its master, she could not help saying:
"Oh, that my dear mother had more command
over herself! She can have no idea of the pain she gives me by her
continual reflections on him. But I will not repine. It cannot last
long. He will be forgot, and we shall all be as we were before."
Elizabeth looked at her sister with incredulous
solicitude, but said nothing.
"You doubt me," cried Jane, slightly
colouring; "indeed, you have no reason. He may live in my memory as
the most amiable man of my acquaintance, but that is all. I have nothing
either to hope or fear, and nothing to reproach him with. Thank God! I
have not _that_ pain. A little time, therefore--I shall certainly try to
get the better."
With a stronger voice she soon added, "I have
this comfort immediately, that it has not been more than an error of
fancy on my side, and that it has done no harm to anyone but
myself."
"My dear Jane!" exclaimed Elizabeth,
"you are too good. Your sweetness and disinterestedness are really
angelic; I do not know what to say to you. I feel as if I had never done
you justice, or loved you as you deserve."
Miss Bennet eagerly disclaimed all extraordinary
merit, and threw back the praise on her sister's warm affection.
"Nay," said Elizabeth, "this is not
fair. _You_ wish to think all the world respectable, and are hurt if I
speak ill of anybody. I only want to think _you_ perfect, and you set
yourself against it. Do not be afraid of my running into any excess, of
my encroaching on your privilege of universal good-will. You need not.
There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think
well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it;
and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human
characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the
appearance of merit or sense. I have met with two instances lately, one
I will not mention; the other is Charlotte's marriage. It is
unaccountable! In every view it is unaccountable!"
"My dear Lizzy, do not give way to such
feelings as these. They will ruin your happiness. You do not make
allowance enough for difference of situation and temper. Consider Mr.
Collins's respectability, and Charlotte's steady, prudent character.
Remember that she is one of a large family; that as to fortune, it is a
most eligible match; and be ready to believe, for everybody's sake, that
she may feel something like regard and esteem for our cousin."
"To oblige you, I would try to believe almost
anything, but no one else could be benefited by such a belief as this;
for were I persuaded that Charlotte had any regard for him, I should
only think worse of her understanding than I now do of her heart. My
dear Jane, Mr. Collins is a conceited, pompous, narrow-minded, silly
man; you know he is, as well as I do; and you must feel, as well as I
do, that the woman who married him cannot have a proper way of thinking.
You shall not defend her, though it is Charlotte Lucas. You shall not,
for the sake of one individual, change the meaning of principle and
integrity, nor endeavour to persuade yourself or me, that selfishness is
prudence, and insensibility of danger security for happiness."
"I must think your language too strong in
speaking of both," replied Jane; "and I hope you will be
convinced of it by seeing them happy together. But enough of this. You
alluded to something else. You mentioned _two_ instances. I cannot
misunderstand you, but I entreat you, dear Lizzy, not to pain me by
thinking _that person_ to blame, and saying your opinion of him is sunk.
We must not be so ready to fancy ourselves intentionally injured. We
must not expect a lively young man to be always so guarded and
circumspect. It is very often nothing but our own vanity that deceives
us. Women fancy admiration means more than it does."
"And men take care that they should."
"If it is designedly done, they cannot be
justified; but I have no idea of there being so much design in the world
as some persons imagine."
"I am far from attributing any part of Mr.
Bingley's conduct to design," said Elizabeth; "but without
scheming to do wrong, or to make others unhappy, there may be error, and
there may be misery. Thoughtlessness, want of attention to other
people's feelings, and want of resolution, will do the business."
"And do you impute it to either of
those?"
"Yes; to the last. But if I go on, I shall
displease you by saying what I think of persons you esteem. Stop me
whilst you can."
"You persist, then, in supposing his sisters
influence him?"
"Yes, in conjunction with his friend."
"I cannot believe it. Why should they try to
influence him? They can only wish his happiness; and if he is attached
to me, no other woman can secure it."
"Your first position is false. They may wish
many things besides his happiness; they may wish his increase of wealth
and consequence; they may wish him to marry a girl who has all the
importance of money, great connections, and pride."
"Beyond a doubt, they _do_ wish him to choose
Miss Darcy," replied Jane; "but this may be from better
feelings than you are supposing. They have known her much longer than
they have known me; no wonder if they love her better. But, whatever may
be their own wishes, it is very unlikely they should have opposed their
brother's. What sister would think herself at liberty to do it, unless
there were something very objectionable? If they believed him attached
to me, they would not try to part us; if he were so, they could not
succeed. By supposing such an affection, you make everybody acting
unnaturally and wrong, and me most unhappy. Do not distress me by the
idea. I am not ashamed of having been mistaken--or, at least, it is
light, it is nothing in comparison of what I should feel in thinking ill
of him or his sisters. Let me take it in the best light, in the light in
which it may be understood."
Elizabeth could not oppose such a wish; and from
this time Mr. Bingley's name was scarcely ever mentioned between them.
Mrs. Bennet still continued to wonder and repine
at his returning no more, and though a day seldom passed in which
Elizabeth did not account for it clearly, there was little chance of her
ever considering it with less perplexity. Her daughter endeavoured to
convince her of what she did not believe herself, that his attentions to
Jane had been merely the effect of a common and transient liking, which
ceased when he saw her no more; but though the probability of the
statement was admitted at the time, she had the same story to repeat
every day. Mrs. Bennet's best comfort was that Mr. Bingley must be down
again in the summer.
Mr. Bennet treated the matter differently.
"So, Lizzy," said he one day, "your sister is crossed in
love, I find. I congratulate her. Next to being married, a girl likes to
be crossed a little in love now and then. It is something to think of,
and it gives her a sort of distinction among her companions. When is
your turn to come? You will hardly bear to be long outdone by Jane. Now
is your time. Here are officers enough in Meryton to disappoint all the
young ladies in the country. Let Wickham be _your_ man. He is a pleasant
fellow, and would jilt you creditably."
"Thank you, sir, but a less agreeable man
would satisfy me. We must not all expect Jane's good fortune."
"True," said Mr. Bennet, "but it is
a comfort to think that whatever of that kind may befall you, you have
an affectionate mother who will make the most of it."
Mr. Wickham's society was of material service in
dispelling the gloom which the late perverse occurrences had thrown on
many of the Longbourn family. They saw him often, and to his other
recommendations was now added that of general unreserve. The whole of
what Elizabeth had already heard, his claims on Mr. Darcy, and all that
he had suffered from him, was now openly acknowledged and publicly
canvassed; and everybody was pleased to know how much they had always
disliked Mr. Darcy before they had known anything of the matter.
Miss Bennet was the only creature who could
suppose there might be any extenuating circumstances in the case,
unknown to the society of Hertfordshire; her mild and steady candour
always pleaded for allowances, and urged the possibility of
mistakes--but by everybody else Mr. Darcy was condemned as the worst of
men.
Chapter 25
After a week spent in professions of love and
schemes of felicity, Mr. Collins was called from his amiable Charlotte
by the arrival of Saturday. The pain of separation, however, might be
alleviated on his side, by preparations for the reception of his bride;
as he had reason to hope, that shortly after his return into
Hertfordshire, the day would be fixed that was to make him the happiest
of men. He took leave of his relations at Longbourn with as much
solemnity as before; wished his fair cousins health and happiness again,
and promised their father another letter of thanks.
On the following Monday, Mrs. Bennet had the
pleasure of receiving her brother and his wife, who came as usual to
spend the Christmas at Longbourn. Mr. Gardiner was a sensible,
gentlemanlike man, greatly superior to his sister, as well by nature as
education. The Netherfield ladies would have had difficulty in believing
that a man who lived by trade, and within view of his own warehouses,
could have been so well-bred and agreeable. Mrs. Gardiner, who was
several years younger than Mrs. Bennet and Mrs. Phillips, was an
amiable, intelligent, elegant woman, and a great favourite with all her
Longbourn nieces. Between the two eldest and herself especially, there
subsisted a particular regard. They had frequently been staying with her
in town.
The first part of Mrs. Gardiner's business on her
arrival was to distribute her presents and describe the newest fashions.
When this was done she had a less active part to play. It became her
turn to listen. Mrs. Bennet had many grievances to relate, and much to
complain of. They had all been very ill-used since she last saw her
sister. Two of her girls had been upon the point of marriage, and after
all there was nothing in it.
"I do not blame Jane," she continued,
"for Jane would have got Mr. Bingley if she could. But Lizzy! Oh,
sister! It is very hard to think that she might have been Mr. Collins's
wife by this time, had it not been for her own perverseness. He made her
an offer in this very room, and she refused him. The consequence of it
is, that Lady Lucas will have a daughter married before I have, and that
the Longbourn estate is just as much entailed as ever. The Lucases are
very artful people indeed, sister. They are all for what they can get. I
am sorry to say it of them, but so it is. It makes me very nervous and
poorly, to be thwarted so in my own family, and to have neighbours who
think of themselves before anybody else. However, your coming just at
this time is the greatest of comforts, and I am very glad to hear what
you tell us, of long sleeves."
Mrs. Gardiner, to whom the chief of this news had
been given before, in the course of Jane and Elizabeth's correspondence
with her, made her sister a slight answer, and, in compassion to her
nieces, turned the conversation.
When alone with Elizabeth afterwards, she spoke
more on the subject. "It seems likely to have been a desirable
match for Jane," said she. "I am sorry it went off. But these
things happen so often! A young man, such as you describe Mr. Bingley,
so easily falls in love with a pretty girl for a few weeks, and when
accident separates them, so easily forgets her, that these sort of
inconsistencies are very frequent."
"An excellent consolation in its way,"
said Elizabeth, "but it will not do for _us_. We do not suffer by
_accident_. It does not often happen that the interference of friends
will persuade a young man of independent fortune to think no more of a
girl whom he was violently in love with only a few days before."
"But that expression of 'violently in love'
is so hackneyed, so doubtful, so indefinite, that it gives me very
little idea. It is as often applied to feelings which arise from a
half-hour's acquaintance, as to a real, strong attachment. Pray, how
_violent was_ Mr. Bingley's love?"
"I never saw a more promising inclination; he
was growing quite inattentive to other people, and wholly engrossed by
her. Every time they met, it was more decided and remarkable. At his own
ball he offended two or three young ladies, by not asking them to dance;
and I spoke to him twice myself, without receiving an answer. Could
there be finer symptoms? Is not general incivility the very essence of
love?"
"Oh, yes!--of that kind of love which I
suppose him to have felt. Poor Jane! I am sorry for her, because, with
her disposition, she may not get over it immediately. It had better have
happened to _you_, Lizzy; you would have laughed yourself out of it
sooner. But do you think she would be prevailed upon to go back with us?
Change of scene might be of service--and perhaps a little relief from
home may be as useful as anything."
Elizabeth was exceedingly pleased with this
proposal, and felt persuaded of her sister's ready acquiescence.
"I hope," added Mrs. Gardiner,
"that no consideration with regard to this young man will influence
her. We live in so different a part of town, all our connections are so
different, and, as you well know, we go out so little, that it is very
improbable that they should meet at all, unless he really comes to see
her."
"And _that_ is quite impossible; for he is
now in the custody of his friend, and Mr. Darcy would no more suffer him
to call on Jane in such a part of London! My dear aunt, how could you
think of it? Mr. Darcy may perhaps have _heard_ of such a place as
Gracechurch Street, but he would hardly think a month's ablution enough
to cleanse him from its impurities, were he once to enter it; and depend
upon it, Mr. Bingley never stirs without him."
"So much the better. I hope they will not
meet at all. But does not Jane correspond with his sister? _She_ will
not be able to help calling."
"She will drop the acquaintance
entirely."
But in spite of the certainty in which Elizabeth
affected to place this point, as well as the still more interesting one
of Bingley's being withheld from seeing Jane, she felt a solicitude on
the subject which convinced her, on examination, that she did not
consider it entirely hopeless. It was possible, and sometimes she
thought it probable, that his affection might be reanimated, and the
influence of his friends successfully combated by the more natural
influence of Jane's attractions.
Miss Bennet accepted her aunt's invitation with
pleasure; and the Bingleys were no otherwise in her thoughts at the same
time, than as she hoped by Caroline's not living in the same house with
her brother, she might occasionally spend a morning with her, without
any danger of seeing him.
The Gardiners stayed a week at Longbourn; and what
with the Phillipses, the Lucases, and the officers, there was not a day
without its engagement. Mrs. Bennet had so carefully provided for the
entertainment of her brother and sister, that they did not once sit down
to a family dinner. When the engagement was for home, some of the
officers always made part of it--of which officers Mr. Wickham was sure
to be one; and on these occasion, Mrs. Gardiner, rendered suspicious by
Elizabeth's warm commendation, narrowly observed them both. Without
supposing them, from what she saw, to be very seriously in love, their
preference of each other was plain enough to make her a little uneasy;
and she resolved to speak to Elizabeth on the subject before she left
Hertfordshire, and represent to her the imprudence of encouraging such
an attachment.
To Mrs. Gardiner, Wickham had one means of
affording pleasure, unconnected with his general powers. About ten or a
dozen years ago, before her marriage, she had spent a considerable time
in that very part of Derbyshire to which he belonged. They had,
therefore, many acquaintances in common; and though Wickham had been
little there since the death of Darcy's father, it was yet in his power
to give her fresher intelligence of her former friends than she had been
in the way of procuring.
Mrs. Gardiner had seen Pemberley, and known the
late Mr. Darcy by character perfectly well. Here consequently was an
inexhaustible subject of discourse. In comparing her recollection of
Pemberley with the minute description which Wickham could give, and in
bestowing her tribute of praise on the character of its late possessor,
she was delighting both him and herself. On being made acquainted with
the present Mr. Darcy's treatment of him, she tried to remember some of
that gentleman's reputed disposition when quite a lad which might agree
with it, and was confident at last that she recollected having heard Mr.
Fitzwilliam Darcy formerly spoken of as a very proud, ill-natured boy.
Chapter 26
Mrs. Gardiner's caution to Elizabeth was
punctually and kindly given on the first favourable opportunity of
speaking to her alone; after honestly telling her what she thought, she
thus went on:
"You are too sensible a girl, Lizzy, to fall
in love merely because you are warned against it; and, therefore, I am
not afraid of speaking openly. Seriously, I would have you be on your
guard. Do not involve yourself or endeavour to involve him in an
affection which the want of fortune would make so very imprudent. I have
nothing to say against _him_; he is a most interesting young man; and if
he had the fortune he ought to have, I should think you could not do
better. But as it is, you must not let your fancy run away with you. You
have sense, and we all expect you to use it. Your father would depend on
_your_ resolution and good conduct, I am sure. You must not disappoint
your father."
"My dear aunt, this is being serious
indeed."
"Yes, and I hope to engage you to be serious
likewise."
"Well, then, you need not be under any alarm.
I will take care of myself, and of Mr. Wickham too. He shall not be in
love with me, if I can prevent it."
"Elizabeth, you are not serious now."
"I beg your pardon, I will try again. At
present I am not in love with Mr. Wickham; no, I certainly am not. But
he is, beyond all comparison, the most agreeable man I ever saw--and if
he becomes really attached to me--I believe it will be better that he
should not. I see the imprudence of it. Oh! _that_ abominable Mr. Darcy!
My father's opinion of me does me the greatest honour, and I should be
miserable to forfeit it. My father, however, is partial to Mr. Wickham.
In short, my dear aunt, I should be very sorry to be the means of making
any of you unhappy; but since we see every day that where there is
affection, young people are seldom withheld by immediate want of fortune
from entering into engagements with each other, how can I promise to be
wiser than so many of my fellow-creatures if I am tempted, or how am I
even to know that it would be wisdom to resist? All that I can promise
you, therefore, is not to be in a hurry. I will not be in a hurry to
believe myself his first object. When I am in company with him, I will
not be wishing. In short, I will do my best."
"Perhaps it will be as well if you discourage
his coming here so very often. At least, you should not _remind_ your
mother of inviting him."
"As I did the other day," said Elizabeth
with a conscious smile: "very true, it will be wise in me to
refrain from _that_. But do not imagine that he is always here so often.
It is on your account that he has been so frequently invited this week.
You know my mother's ideas as to the necessity of constant company for
her friends. But really, and upon my honour, I will try to do what I
think to be the wisest; and now I hope you are satisfied."
Her aunt assured her that she was, and Elizabeth
having thanked her for the kindness of her hints, they parted; a
wonderful instance of advice being given on such a point, without being
resented.
Mr. Collins returned into Hertfordshire soon after
it had been quitted by the Gardiners and Jane; but as he took up his
abode with the Lucases, his arrival was no great inconvenience to Mrs.
Bennet. His marriage was now fast approaching, and she was at length so
far resigned as to think it inevitable, and even repeatedly to say, in
an ill-natured tone, that she "_wished_ they might be happy."
Thursday was to be the wedding day, and on Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her
farewell visit; and when she rose to take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of
her mother's ungracious and reluctant good wishes, and sincerely
affected herself, accompanied her out of the room. As they went
downstairs together, Charlotte said:
"I shall depend on hearing from you very
often, Eliza."
"_That_ you certainly shall."
"And I have another favour to ask you. Will
you come and see me?"
"We shall often meet, I hope, in
Hertfordshire."
"I am not likely to leave Kent for some time.
Promise me, therefore, to come to Hunsford."
Elizabeth could not refuse, though she foresaw
little pleasure in the visit.
"My father and Maria are coming to me in
March," added Charlotte, "and I hope you will consent to be of
the party. Indeed, Eliza, you will be as welcome as either of
them."
The wedding took place; the bride and bridegroom
set off for Kent from the church door, and everybody had as much to say,
or to hear, on the subject as usual. Elizabeth soon heard from her
friend; and their correspondence was as regular and frequent as it had
ever been; that it should be equally unreserved was impossible.
Elizabeth could never address her without feeling that all the comfort
of intimacy was over, and though determined not to slacken as a
correspondent, it was for the sake of what had been, rather than what
was. Charlotte's first letters were received with a good deal of
eagerness; there could not but be curiosity to know how she would speak
of her new home, how she would like Lady Catherine, and how happy she
would dare pronounce herself to be; though, when the letters were read,
Elizabeth felt that Charlotte expressed herself on every point exactly
as she might have foreseen. She wrote cheerfully, seemed surrounded with
comforts, and mentioned nothing which she could not praise. The house,
furniture, neighbourhood, and roads, were all to her taste, and Lady
Catherine's behaviour was most friendly and obliging. It was Mr.
Collins's picture of Hunsford and Rosings rationally softened; and
Elizabeth perceived that she must wait for her own visit there to know
the rest.
Jane had already written a few lines to her sister
to announce their safe arrival in London; and when she wrote again,
Elizabeth hoped it would be in her power to say something of the
Bingleys.
Her impatience for this second letter was as well
rewarded as impatience generally is. Jane had been a week in town
without either seeing or hearing from Caroline. She accounted for it,
however, by supposing that her last letter to her friend from Longbourn
had by some accident been lost.
"My aunt," she continued, "is going
to-morrow into that part of the town, and I shall take the opportunity
of calling in Grosvenor Street."
She wrote again when the visit was paid, and she
had seen Miss Bingley. "I did not think Caroline in spirits,"
were her words, "but she was very glad to see me, and reproached me
for giving her no notice of my coming to London. I was right, therefore,
my last letter had never reached her. I inquired after their brother, of
course. He was well, but so much engaged with Mr. Darcy that they
scarcely ever saw him. I found that Miss Darcy was expected to dinner. I
wish I could see her. My visit was not long, as Caroline and Mrs. Hurst
were going out. I dare say I shall see them soon here."
Elizabeth shook her head over this letter. It
convinced her that accident only could discover to Mr. Bingley her
sister's being in town.
Four weeks passed away, and Jane saw nothing of
him. She endeavoured to persuade herself that she did not regret it; but
she could no longer be blind to Miss Bingley's inattention. After
waiting at home every morning for a fortnight, and inventing every
evening a fresh excuse for her, the visitor did at last appear; but the
shortness of her stay, and yet more, the alteration of her manner would
allow Jane to deceive herself no longer. The letter which she wrote on
this occasion to her sister will prove what she felt.
"My dearest Lizzy will, I am sure, be
incapable of triumphing in her better judgement, at my expense, when I
confess myself to have been entirely deceived in Miss Bingley's regard
for me. But, my dear sister, though the event has proved you right, do
not think me obstinate if I still assert that, considering what her
behaviour was, my confidence was as natural as your suspicion. I do not
at all comprehend her reason for wishing to be intimate with me; but if
the same circumstances were to happen again, I am sure I should be
deceived again. Caroline did not return my visit till yesterday; and not
a note, not a line, did I receive in the meantime. When she did come, it
was very evident that she had no pleasure in it; she made a slight,
formal apology, for not calling before, said not a word of wishing to
see me again, and was in every respect so altered a creature, that when
she went away I was perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no
longer. I pity, though I cannot help blaming her. She was very wrong in
singling me out as she did; I can safely say that every advance to
intimacy began on her side. But I pity her, because she must feel that
she has been acting wrong, and because I am very sure that anxiety for
her brother is the cause of it. I need not explain myself farther; and
though _we_ know this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it,
it will easily account for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear
as he is to his sister, whatever anxiety she must feel on his behalf is
natural and amiable. I cannot but wonder, however, at her having any
such fears now, because, if he had at all cared about me, we must have
met, long ago. He knows of my being in town, I am certain, from
something she said herself; and yet it would seem, by her manner of
talking, as if she wanted to persuade herself that he is really partial
to Miss Darcy. I cannot understand it. If I were not afraid of judging
harshly, I should be almost tempted to say that there is a strong
appearance of duplicity in all this. But I will endeavour to banish
every painful thought, and think only of what will make me happy--your
affection, and the invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt. Let me
hear from you very soon. Miss Bingley said something of his never
returning to Netherfield again, of giving up the house, but not with any
certainty. We had better not mention it. I am extremely glad that you
have such pleasant accounts from our friends at Hunsford. Pray go to see
them, with Sir William and Maria. I am sure you will be very comfortable
there.--Yours, etc."
This letter gave Elizabeth some pain; but her
spirits returned as she considered that Jane would no longer be duped,
by the sister at least. All expectation from the brother was now
absolutely over. She would not even wish for a renewal of his
attentions. His character sunk on every review of it; and as a
punishment for him, as well as a possible advantage to Jane, she
seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr. Darcy's sister, as by
Wickham's account, she would make him abundantly regret what he had
thrown away.
Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth
of her promise concerning that gentleman, and required information; and
Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give contentment to her aunt
than to herself. His apparent partiality had subsided, his attentions
were over, he was the admirer of some one else. Elizabeth was watchful
enough to see it all, but she could see it and write of it without
material pain. Her heart had been but slightly touched, and her vanity
was satisfied with believing that _she_ would have been his only choice,
had fortune permitted it. The sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds
was the most remarkable charm of the young lady to whom he was now
rendering himself agreeable; but Elizabeth, less clear-sighted perhaps
in this case than in Charlotte's, did not quarrel with him for his wish
of independence. Nothing, on the contrary, could be more natural; and
while able to suppose that it cost him a few struggles to relinquish
her, she was ready to allow it a wise and desirable measure for both,
and could very sincerely wish him happy.
All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner; and
after relating the circumstances, she thus went on: "I am now
convinced, my dear aunt, that I have never been much in love; for had I
really experienced that pure and elevating passion, I should at present
detest his very name, and wish him all manner of evil. But my feelings
are not only cordial towards _him_; they are even impartial towards Miss
King. I cannot find out that I hate her at all, or that I am in the
least unwilling to think her a very good sort of girl. There can be no
love in all this. My watchfulness has been effectual; and though I
certainly should be a more interesting object to all my acquaintances
were I distractedly in love with him, I cannot say that I regret my
comparative insignificance. Importance may sometimes be purchased too
dearly. Kitty and Lydia take his defection much more to heart than I do.
They are young in the ways of the world, and not yet open to the
mortifying conviction that handsome young men must have something to
live on as well as the plain."
Chapter 27
With no greater events than these in the Longbourn
family, and otherwise diversified by little beyond the walks to Meryton,
sometimes dirty and sometimes cold, did January and February pass away.
March was to take Elizabeth to Hunsford. She had not at first thought
very seriously of going thither; but Charlotte, she soon found, was
depending on the plan and she gradually learned to consider it herself
with greater pleasure as well as greater certainty. Absence had
increased her desire of seeing Charlotte again, and weakened her disgust
of Mr. Collins. There was novelty in the scheme, and as, with such a
mother and such uncompanionable sisters, home could not be faultless, a
little change was not unwelcome for its own sake. The journey would
moreover give her a peep at Jane; and, in short, as the time drew near,
she would have been very sorry for any delay. Everything, however, went
on smoothly, and was finally settled according to Charlotte's first
sketch. She was to accompany Sir William and his second daughter. The
improvement of spending a night in London was added in time, and the
plan became perfect as plan could be.
The only pain was in leaving her father, who would
certainly miss her, and who, when it came to the point, so little liked
her going, that he told her to write to him, and almost promised to
answer her letter.
The farewell between herself and Mr. Wickham was
perfectly friendly; on his side even more. His present pursuit could not
make him forget that Elizabeth had been the first to excite and to
deserve his attention, the first to listen and to pity, the first to be
admired; and in his manner of bidding her adieu, wishing her every
enjoyment, reminding her of what she was to expect in Lady Catherine de
Bourgh, and trusting their opinion of her--their opinion of
everybody--would always coincide, there was a solicitude, an interest
which she felt must ever attach her to him with a most sincere regard;
and she parted from him convinced that, whether married or single, he
must always be her model of the amiable and pleasing.
Her fellow-travellers the next day were not of a
kind to make her think him less agreeable. Sir William Lucas, and his
daughter Maria, a good-humoured girl, but as empty-headed as himself,
had nothing to say that could be worth hearing, and were listened to
with about as much delight as the rattle of the chaise. Elizabeth loved
absurdities, but she had known Sir William's too long. He could tell her
nothing new of the wonders of his presentation and knighthood; and his
civilities were worn out, like his information.
It was a journey of only twenty-four miles, and
they began it so early as to be in Gracechurch Street by noon. As they
drove to Mr. Gardiner's door, Jane was at a drawing-room window watching
their arrival; when they entered the passage she was there to welcome
them, and Elizabeth, looking earnestly in her face, was pleased to see
it healthful and lovely as ever. On the stairs were a troop of little
boys and girls, whose eagerness for their cousin's appearance would not
allow them to wait in the drawing-room, and whose shyness, as they had
not seen her for a twelvemonth, prevented their coming lower. All was
joy and kindness. The day passed most pleasantly away; the morning in
bustle and shopping, and the evening at one of the theatres.
Elizabeth then contrived to sit by her aunt. Their
first object was her sister; and she was more grieved than astonished to
hear, in reply to her minute inquiries, that though Jane always
struggled to support her spirits, there were periods of dejection. It
was reasonable, however, to hope that they would not continue long. Mrs.
Gardiner gave her the particulars also of Miss Bingley's visit in
Gracechurch Street, and repeated conversations occurring at different
times between Jane and herself, which proved that the former had, from
her heart, given up the acquaintance.
Mrs. Gardiner then rallied her niece on Wickham's
desertion, and complimented her on bearing it so well.
"But my dear Elizabeth," she added,
"what sort of girl is Miss King? I should be sorry to think our
friend mercenary."
"Pray, my dear aunt, what is the difference
in matrimonial affairs, between the mercenary and the prudent motive?
Where does discretion end, and avarice begin? Last Christmas you were
afraid of his marrying me, because it would be imprudent; and now,
because he is trying to get a girl with only ten thousand pounds, you
want to find out that he is mercenary."
"If you will only tell me what sort of girl
Miss King is, I shall know what to think."
"She is a very good kind of girl, I believe.
I know no harm of her."
"But he paid her not the smallest attention
till her grandfather's death made her mistress of this fortune."
"No--what should he? If it were not allowable
for him to gain _my_ affections because I had no money, what occasion
could there be for making love to a girl whom he did not care about, and
who was equally poor?"
"But there seems an indelicacy in directing
his attentions towards her so soon after this event."
"A man in distressed circumstances has not
time for all those elegant decorums which other people may observe. If
_she_ does not object to it, why should _we_?"
"_Her_ not objecting does not justify _him_.
It only shows her being deficient in something herself--sense or
feeling."
"Well," cried Elizabeth, "have it
as you choose. _He_ shall be mercenary, and _she_ shall be
foolish."
"No, Lizzy, that is what I do _not_ choose. I
should be sorry, you know, to think ill of a young man who has lived so
long in Derbyshire."
"Oh! if that is all, I have a very poor
opinion of young men who live in Derbyshire; and their intimate friends
who live in Hertfordshire are not much better. I am sick of them all.
Thank Heaven! I am going to-morrow where I shall find a man who has not
one agreeable quality, who has neither manner nor sense to recommend
him. Stupid men are the only ones worth knowing, after all."
"Take care, Lizzy; that speech savours
strongly of disappointment."
Before they were separated by the conclusion of
the play, she had the unexpected happiness of an invitation to accompany
her uncle and aunt in a tour of pleasure which they proposed taking in
the summer.
"We have not determined how far it shall
carry us," said Mrs. Gardiner, "but, perhaps, to the
Lakes."
No scheme could have been more agreeable to
Elizabeth, and her acceptance of the invitation was most ready and
grateful. "Oh, my dear, dear aunt," she rapturously cried,
"what delight! what felicity! You give me fresh life and vigour.
Adieu to disappointment and spleen. What are young men to rocks and
mountains? Oh! what hours of transport we shall spend! And when we _do_
return, it shall not be like other travellers, without being able to
give one accurate idea of anything. We _will_ know where we have
gone--we _will_ recollect what we have seen. Lakes, mountains, and
rivers shall not be jumbled together in our imaginations; nor when we
attempt to describe any particular scene, will we begin quarreling about
its relative situation. Let _our_ first effusions be less insupportable
than those of the generality of travellers."
Chapter 28
Every object in the next day's journey was new and
interesting to Elizabeth; and her spirits were in a state of enjoyment;
for she had seen her sister looking so well as to banish all fear for
her health, and the prospect of her northern tour was a constant source
of delight.
When they left the high road for the lane to
Hunsford, every eye was in search of the Parsonage, and every turning
expected to bring it in view. The palings of Rosings Park was their
boundary on one side. Elizabeth smiled at the recollection of all that
she had heard of its inhabitants.
At length the Parsonage was discernible. The
garden sloping to the road, the house standing in it, the green pales,
and the laurel hedge, everything declared they were arriving. Mr.
Collins and Charlotte appeared at the door, and the carriage stopped at
the small gate which led by a short gravel walk to the house, amidst the
nods and smiles of the whole party. In a moment they were all out of the
chaise, rejoicing at the sight of each other. Mrs. Collins welcomed her
friend with the liveliest pleasure, and Elizabeth was more and more
satisfied with coming when she found herself so affectionately received.
She saw instantly that her cousin's manners were not altered by his
marriage; his formal civility was just what it had been, and he detained
her some minutes at the gate to hear and satisfy his inquiries after all
her family. They were then, with no other delay than his pointing out
the neatness of the entrance, taken into the house; and as soon as they
were in the parlour, he welcomed them a second time, with ostentatious
formality to his humble abode, and punctually repeated all his wife's
offers of refreshment.
Elizabeth was prepared to see him in his glory;
and she could not help in fancying that in displaying the good
proportion of the room, its aspect and its furniture, he addressed
himself particularly to her, as if wishing to make her feel what she had
lost in refusing him. But though everything seemed neat and comfortable,
she was not able to gratify him by any sigh of repentance, and rather
looked with wonder at her friend that she could have so cheerful an air
with such a companion. When Mr. Collins said anything of which his wife
might reasonably be ashamed, which certainly was not unseldom, she
involuntarily turned her eye on Charlotte. Once or twice she could
discern a faint blush; but in general Charlotte wisely did not hear.
After sitting long enough to admire every article of furniture in the
room, from the sideboard to the fender, to give an account of their
journey, and of all that had happened in London, Mr. Collins invited
them to take a stroll in the garden, which was large and well laid out,
and to the cultivation of which he attended himself. To work in this
garden was one of his most respectable pleasures; and Elizabeth admired
the command of countenance with which Charlotte talked of the
healthfulness of the exercise, and owned she encouraged it as much as
possible. Here, leading the way through every walk and cross walk, and
scarcely allowing them an interval to utter the praises he asked for,
every view was pointed out with a minuteness which left beauty entirely
behind. He could number the fields in every direction, and could tell
how many tress there were in the most distant clump. But of all the
views which his garden, or which the country or kingdom could boast,
none were to be compared with the prospect of Rosings, afforded by an
opening in the trees that bordered the park nearly opposite the front of
his house. It was a handsome modern building, well situated on rising
ground.
From his garden, Mr. Collins would have led them
round his two meadows; but the ladies, not having shoes to encounter the
remains of a white frost, turned back; and while Sir William accompanied
him, Charlotte took her sister and friend over the house, extremely well
pleased, probably, to have the opportunity of showing it without her
husband's help. It was rather small, but well built and convenient; and
everything was fitted up and arranged with a neatness and consistency of
which Elizabeth gave Charlotte all the credit. When Mr. Collins could be
forgotten, there was really an air of great comfort throughout, and by
Charlotte's evident enjoyment of it, Elizabeth supposed he must be often
forgotten.
She had already learnt that Lady Catherine was
still in the country. It was spoken of again while they were at dinner,
when Mr. Collins joining in, observed:
"Yes, Miss Elizabeth, you will have the
honour of seeing Lady Catherine de Bourgh on the ensuing Sunday at
church, and I need not say you will be delighted with her. She is all
affability and condescension, and I doubt not but you will be honoured
with some portion of her notice when service is over. I have scarcely
any hesitation in saying she will include you and my sister Maria in
every invitation with which she honours us during your stay here. Her
behaviour to my dear Charlotte is charming. We dine at Rosings twice
every week, and are never allowed to walk home. Her ladyship's carriage
is regularly ordered for us. I _should_ say, one of her ladyship's
carriages, for she has several."
"Lady Catherine is a very respectable,
sensible woman indeed," added Charlotte, "and a most attentive
neighbour."
"Very true, my dear, that is exactly what I
say. She is the sort of woman whom one cannot regard with too much
deference."
The evening was spent chiefly in talking over
Hertfordshire news, and telling again what had already been written; and
when it closed, Elizabeth, in the solitude of her chamber, had to
meditate upon Charlotte's degree of contentment, to understand her
address in guiding, and composure in bearing with, her husband, and to
acknowledge that it was all done very well. She had also to anticipate
how her visit would pass, the quiet tenor of their usual employments,
the vexatious interruptions of Mr. Collins, and the gaieties of their
intercourse with Rosings. A lively imagination soon settled it all.
About the middle of the next day, as she was in
her room getting ready for a walk, a sudden noise below seemed to speak
the whole house in confusion; and, after listening a moment, she heard
somebody running upstairs in a violent hurry, and calling loudly after
her. She opened the door and met Maria in the landing place, who,
breathless with agitation, cried out--
"Oh, my dear Eliza! pray make haste and come
into the dining-room, for there is such a sight to be seen! I will not
tell you what it is. Make haste, and come down this moment."
Elizabeth asked questions in vain; Maria would
tell her nothing more, and down they ran into the dining-room, which
fronted the lane, in quest of this wonder; It was two ladies stopping in
a low phaeton at the garden gate.
"And is this all?" cried Elizabeth.
"I expected at least that the pigs were got into the garden, and
here is nothing but Lady Catherine and her daughter."
"La! my dear," said Maria, quite shocked
at the mistake, "it is not Lady Catherine. The old lady is Mrs.
Jenkinson, who lives with them; the other is Miss de Bourgh. Only look
at her. She is quite a little creature. Who would have thought that she
could be so thin and small?"
"She is abominably rude to keep Charlotte out
of doors in all this wind. Why does she not come in?"
"Oh, Charlotte says she hardly ever does. It
is the greatest of favours when Miss de Bourgh comes in."
"I like her appearance," said Elizabeth,
struck with other ideas. "She looks sickly and cross. Yes, she will
do for him very well. She will make him a very proper wife."
Mr. Collins and Charlotte were both standing at
the gate in conversation with the ladies; and Sir William, to
Elizabeth's high diversion, was stationed in the doorway, in earnest
contemplation of the greatness before him, and constantly bowing
whenever Miss de Bourgh looked that way.
At length there was nothing more to be said; the
ladies drove on, and the others returned into the house. Mr. Collins no
sooner saw the two girls than he began to congratulate them on their
good fortune, which Charlotte explained by letting them know that the
whole party was asked to dine at Rosings the next day.
Chapter 29
Mr. Collins's triumph, in consequence of this
invitation, was complete. The power of displaying the grandeur of his
patroness to his wondering visitors, and of letting them see her
civility towards himself and his wife, was exactly what he had wished
for; and that an opportunity of doing it should be given so soon, was
such an instance of Lady Catherine's condescension, as he knew not how
to admire enough.
"I confess," said he, "that I
should not have been at all surprised by her ladyship's asking us on
Sunday to drink tea and spend the evening at Rosings. I rather expected,
from my knowledge of her affability, that it would happen. But who could
have foreseen such an attention as this? Who could have imagined that we
should receive an invitation to dine there (an invitation, moreover,
including the whole party) so immediately after your arrival!"
"I am the less surprised at what has
happened," replied Sir William, "from that knowledge of what
the manners of the great really are, which my situation in life has
allowed me to acquire. About the court, such instances of elegant
breeding are not uncommon."
Scarcely anything was talked of the whole day or
next morning but their visit to Rosings. Mr. Collins was carefully
instructing them in what they were to expect, that the sight of such
rooms, so many servants, and so splendid a dinner, might not wholly
overpower them.
When the ladies were separating for the toilette,
he said to Elizabeth--
"Do not make yourself uneasy, my dear cousin,
about your apparel. Lady Catherine is far from requiring that elegance
of dress in us which becomes herself and her daughter. I would advise
you merely to put on whatever of your clothes is superior to the
rest--there is no occasion for anything more. Lady Catherine will not
think the worse of you for being simply dressed. She likes to have the
distinction of rank preserved."
While they were dressing, he came two or three
times to their different doors, to recommend their being quick, as Lady
Catherine very much objected to be kept waiting for her dinner. Such
formidable accounts of her ladyship, and her manner of living, quite
frightened Maria Lucas who had been little used to company, and she
looked forward to her introduction at Rosings with as much apprehension
as her father had done to his presentation at St. James's.
As the weather was fine, they had a pleasant walk
of about half a mile across the park. Every park has its beauty and its
prospects; and Elizabeth saw much to be pleased with, though she could
not be in such raptures as Mr. Collins expected the scene to inspire,
and was but slightly affected by his enumeration of the windows in front
of the house, and his relation of what the glazing altogether had
originally cost Sir Lewis de Bourgh.
When they ascended the steps to the hall, Maria's
alarm was every moment increasing, and even Sir William did not look
perfectly calm. Elizabeth's courage did not fail her. She had heard
nothing of Lady Catherine that spoke her awful from any extraordinary
talents or miraculous virtue, and the mere stateliness of money or rank
she thought she could witness without trepidation.
From the entrance-hall, of which Mr. Collins
pointed out, with a rapturous air, the fine proportion and the finished
ornaments, they followed the servants through an ante-chamber, to the
room where Lady Catherine, her daughter, and Mrs. Jenkinson were
sitting. Her ladyship, with great condescension, arose to receive them;
and as Mrs. Collins had settled it with her husband that the office of
introduction should be hers, it was performed in a proper manner,
without any of those apologies and thanks which he would have thought
necessary.
In spite of having been at St. James's Sir William
was so completely awed by the grandeur surrounding him, that he had but
just courage enough to make a very low bow, and take his seat without
saying a word; and his daughter, frightened almost out of her senses,
sat on the edge of her chair, not knowing which way to look. Elizabeth
found herself quite equal to the scene, and could observe the three
ladies before her composedly. Lady Catherine was a tall, large woman,
with strongly-marked features, which might once have been handsome. Her
air was not conciliating, nor was her manner of receiving them such as
to make her visitors forget their inferior rank. She was not rendered
formidable by silence; but whatever she said was spoken in so
authoritative a tone, as marked her self-importance, and brought Mr.
Wickham immediately to Elizabeth's mind; and from the observation of the
day altogether, she believed Lady Catherine to be exactly what he
represented.
When, after examining the mother, in whose
countenance and deportment she soon found some resemblance of Mr. Darcy,
she turned her eyes on the daughter, she could almost have joined in
Maria's astonishment at her being so thin and so small. There was
neither in figure nor face any likeness between the ladies. Miss de
Bourgh was pale and sickly; her features, though not plain, were
insignificant; and she spoke very little, except in a low voice, to Mrs.
Jenkinson, in whose appearance there was nothing remarkable, and who was
entirely engaged in listening to what she said, and placing a screen in
the proper direction before her eyes.
After sitting a few minutes, they were all sent to
one of the windows to admire the view, Mr. Collins attending them to
point out its beauties, and Lady Catherine kindly informing them that it
was much better worth looking at in the summer.
The dinner was exceedingly handsome, and there
were all the servants and all the articles of plate which Mr. Collins
had promised; and, as he had likewise foretold, he took his seat at the
bottom of the table, by her ladyship's desire, and looked as if he felt
that life could furnish nothing greater. He carved, and ate, and praised
with delighted alacrity; and every dish was commended, first by him and
then by Sir William, who was now enough recovered to echo whatever his
son-in-law said, in a manner which Elizabeth wondered Lady Catherine
could bear. But Lady Catherine seemed gratified by their excessive
admiration, and gave most gracious smiles, especially when any dish on
the table proved a novelty to them. The party did not supply much
conversation. Elizabeth was ready to speak whenever there was an
opening, but she was seated between Charlotte and Miss de Bourgh--the
former of whom was engaged in listening to Lady Catherine, and the
latter said not a word to her all dinner-time. Mrs. Jenkinson was
chiefly employed in watching how little Miss de Bourgh ate, pressing her
to try some other dish, and fearing she was indisposed. Maria thought
speaking out of the question, and the gentlemen did nothing but eat and
admire.
When the ladies returned to the drawing-room,
there was little to be done but to hear Lady Catherine talk, which she
did without any intermission till coffee came in, delivering her opinion
on every subject in so decisive a manner, as proved that she was not
used to have her judgement controverted. She inquired into Charlotte's
domestic concerns familiarly and minutely, gave her a great deal of
advice as to the management of them all; told her how everything ought
to be regulated in so small a family as hers, and instructed her as to
the care of her cows and her poultry. Elizabeth found that nothing was
beneath this great lady's attention, which could furnish her with an
occasion of dictating to others. In the intervals of her discourse with
Mrs. Collins, she addressed a variety of questions to Maria and
Elizabeth, but especially to the latter, of whose connections she knew
the least, and who she observed to Mrs. Collins was a very genteel,
pretty kind of girl. She asked her, at different times, how many sisters
she had, whether they were older or younger than herself, whether any of
them were likely to be married, whether they were handsome, where they
had been educated, what carriage her father kept, and what had been her
mother's maiden name? Elizabeth felt all the impertinence of her
questions but answered them very composedly. Lady Catherine then
observed,
"Your father's estate is entailed on Mr.
Collins, I think. For your sake," turning to Charlotte, "I am
glad of it; but otherwise I see no occasion for entailing estates from
the female line. It was not thought necessary in Sir Lewis de Bourgh's
family. Do you play and sing, Miss Bennet?"
"A little."
"Oh! then--some time or other we shall be
happy to hear you. Our instrument is a capital one, probably superior
to----You shall try it some day. Do your sisters play and sing?"
"One of them does."
"Why did not you all learn? You ought all to
have learned. The Miss Webbs all play, and their father has not so good
an income as yours. Do you draw?"
"No, not at all."
"What, none of you?"
"Not one."
"That is very strange. But I suppose you had
no opportunity. Your mother should have taken you to town every spring
for the benefit of masters."
"My mother would have had no objection, but
my father hates London."
"Has your governess left you?"
"We never had any governess."
"No governess! How was that possible? Five
daughters brought up at home without a governess! I never heard of such
a thing. Your mother must have been quite a slave to your
education."
Elizabeth could hardly help smiling as she assured
her that had not been the case.
"Then, who taught you? who attended to you?
Without a governess, you must have been neglected."
"Compared with some families, I believe we
were; but such of us as wished to learn never wanted the means. We were
always encouraged to read, and had all the masters that were necessary.
Those who chose to be idle, certainly might."
"Aye, no doubt; but that is what a governess
will prevent, and if I had known your mother, I should have advised her
most strenuously to engage one. I always say that nothing is to be done
in education without steady and regular instruction, and nobody but a
governess can give it. It is wonderful how many families I have been the
means of supplying in that way. I am always glad to get a young person
well placed out. Four nieces of Mrs. Jenkinson are most delightfully
situated through my means; and it was but the other day that I
recommended another young person, who was merely accidentally mentioned
to me, and the family are quite delighted with her. Mrs. Collins, did I
tell you of Lady Metcalf's calling yesterday to thank me? She finds Miss
Pope a treasure. 'Lady Catherine,' said she, 'you have given me a
treasure.' Are any of your younger sisters out, Miss Bennet?"
"Yes, ma'am, all."
"All! What, all five out at once? Very odd!
And you only the second. The younger ones out before the elder ones are
married! Your younger sisters must be very young?"
"Yes, my youngest is not sixteen. Perhaps
_she_ is full young to be much in company. But really, ma'am, I think it
would be very hard upon younger sisters, that they should not have their
share of society and amusement, because the elder may not have the means
or inclination to marry early. The last-born has as good a right to the
pleasures of youth at the first. And to be kept back on _such_ a motive!
I think it would not be very likely to promote sisterly affection or
delicacy of mind."
"Upon my word," said her ladyship,
"you give your opinion very decidedly for so young a person. Pray,
what is your age?"
"With three younger sisters grown up,"
replied Elizabeth, smiling, "your ladyship can hardly expect me to
own it."
Lady Catherine seemed quite astonished at not
receiving a direct answer; and Elizabeth suspected herself to be the
first creature who had ever dared to trifle with so much dignified
impertinence.
"You cannot be more than twenty, I am sure,
therefore you need not conceal your age."
"I am not one-and-twenty."
When the gentlemen had joined them, and tea was
over, the card-tables were placed. Lady Catherine, Sir William, and Mr.
and Mrs. Collins sat down to quadrille; and as Miss de Bourgh chose to
play at cassino, the two girls had the honour of assisting Mrs.
Jenkinson to make up her party. Their table was superlatively stupid.
Scarcely a syllable was uttered that did not relate to the game, except
when Mrs. Jenkinson expressed her fears of Miss de Bourgh's being too
hot or too cold, or having too much or too little light. A great deal
more passed at the other table. Lady Catherine was generally
speaking--stating the mistakes of the three others, or relating some
anecdote of herself. Mr. Collins was employed in agreeing to everything
her ladyship said, thanking her for every fish he won, and apologising
if he thought he won too many. Sir William did not say much. He was
storing his memory with anecdotes and noble names.
When Lady Catherine and her daughter had played as
long as they chose, the tables were broken up, the carriage was offered
to Mrs. Collins, gratefully accepted and immediately ordered. The party
then gathered round the fire to hear Lady Catherine determine what
weather they were to have on the morrow. From these instructions they
were summoned by the arrival of the coach; and with many speeches of
thankfulness on Mr. Collins's side and as many bows on Sir William's
they departed. As soon as they had driven from the door, Elizabeth was
called on by her cousin to give her opinion of all that she had seen at
Rosings, which, for Charlotte's sake, she made more favourable than it
really was. But her commendation, though costing her some trouble, could
by no means satisfy Mr. Collins, and he was very soon obliged to take
her ladyship's praise into his own hands.
Chapter 30
Sir William stayed only a week at Hunsford, but
his visit was long enough to convince him of his daughter's being most
comfortably settled, and of her possessing such a husband and such a
neighbour as were not often met with. While Sir William was with them,
Mr. Collins devoted his morning to driving him out in his gig, and
showing him the country; but when he went away, the whole family
returned to their usual employments, and Elizabeth was thankful to find
that they did not see more of her cousin by the alteration, for the
chief of the time between breakfast and dinner was now passed by him
either at work in the garden or in reading and writing, and looking out
of the window in his own book-room, which fronted the road. The room in
which the ladies sat was backwards. Elizabeth had at first rather
wondered that Charlotte should not prefer the dining-parlour for common
use; it was a better sized room, and had a more pleasant aspect; but she
soon saw that her friend had an excellent reason for what she did, for
Mr. Collins would undoubtedly have been much less in his own apartment,
had they sat in one equally lively; and she gave Charlotte credit for
the arrangement.
From the drawing-room they could distinguish
nothing in the lane, and were indebted to Mr. Collins for the knowledge
of what carriages went along, and how often especially Miss de Bourgh
drove by in her phaeton, which he never failed coming to inform them of,
though it happened almost every day. She not unfrequently stopped at the
Parsonage, and had a few minutes' conversation with Charlotte, but was
scarcely ever prevailed upon to get out.
Very few days passed in which Mr. Collins did not
walk to Rosings, and not many in which his wife did not think it
necessary to go likewise; and till Elizabeth recollected that there
might be other family livings to be disposed of, she could not
understand the sacrifice of so many hours. Now and then they were
honoured with a call from her ladyship, and nothing escaped her
observation that was passing in the room during these visits. She
examined into their employments, looked at their work, and advised them
to do it differently; found fault with the arrangement of the furniture;
or detected the housemaid in negligence; and if she accepted any
refreshment, seemed to do it only for the sake of finding out that Mrs.
Collins's joints of meat were too large for her family.
Elizabeth soon perceived, that though this great
lady was not in commission of the peace of the county, she was a most
active magistrate in her own parish, the minutest concerns of which were
carried to her by Mr. Collins; and whenever any of the cottagers were
disposed to be quarrelsome, discontented, or too poor, she sallied forth
into the village to settle their differences, silence their complaints,
and scold them into harmony and plenty.
The entertainment of dining at Rosings was
repeated about twice a week; and, allowing for the loss of Sir William,
and there being only one card-table in the evening, every such
entertainment was the counterpart of the first. Their other engagements
were few, as the style of living in the neighbourhood in general was
beyond Mr. Collins's reach. This, however, was no evil to Elizabeth, and
upon the whole she spent her time comfortably enough; there were
half-hours of pleasant conversation with Charlotte, and the weather was
so fine for the time of year that she had often great enjoyment out of
doors. Her favourite walk, and where she frequently went while the
others were calling on Lady Catherine, was along the open grove which
edged that side of the park, where there was a nice sheltered path,
which no one seemed to value but herself, and where she felt beyond the
reach of Lady Catherine's curiosity.
In this quiet way, the first fortnight of her
visit soon passed away. Easter was approaching, and the week preceding
it was to bring an addition to the family at Rosings, which in so small
a circle must be important. Elizabeth had heard soon after her arrival
that Mr. Darcy was expected there in the course of a few weeks, and
though there were not many of her acquaintances whom she did not prefer,
his coming would furnish one comparatively new to look at in their
Rosings parties, and she might be amused in seeing how hopeless Miss
Bingley's designs on him were, by his behaviour to his cousin, for whom
he was evidently destined by Lady Catherine, who talked of his coming
with the greatest satisfaction, spoke of him in terms of the highest
admiration, and seemed almost angry to find that he had already been
frequently seen by Miss Lucas and herself.
His arrival was soon known at the Parsonage; for
Mr. Collins was walking the whole morning within view of the lodges
opening into Hunsford Lane, in order to have the earliest assurance of
it, and after making his bow as the carriage turned into the Park,
hurried home with the great intelligence. On the following morning he
hastened to Rosings to pay his respects. There were two nephews of Lady
Catherine to require them, for Mr. Darcy had brought with him a Colonel
Fitzwilliam, the younger son of his uncle Lord ----, and, to the great
surprise of all the party, when Mr. Collins returned, the gentleman
accompanied him. Charlotte had seen them from her husband's room,
crossing the road, and immediately running into the other, told the
girls what an honour they might expect, adding:
"I may thank you, Eliza, for this piece of
civility. Mr. Darcy would never have come so soon to wait upon me."
Elizabeth had scarcely time to disclaim all right
to the compliment, before their approach was announced by the door-bell,
and shortly afterwards the three gentlemen entered the room. Colonel
Fitzwilliam, who led the way, was about thirty, not handsome, but in
person and address most truly the gentleman. Mr. Darcy looked just as he
had been used to look in Hertfordshire--paid his compliments, with his
usual reserve, to Mrs. Collins, and whatever might be his feelings
toward her friend, met her with every appearance of composure. Elizabeth
merely curtseyed to him without saying a word.
Colonel Fitzwilliam entered into conversation
directly with the readiness and ease of a well-bred man, and talked very
pleasantly; but his cousin, after having addressed a slight observation
on the house and garden to Mrs. Collins, sat for some time without
speaking to anybody. At length, however, his civility was so far
awakened as to inquire of Elizabeth after the health of her family. She
answered him in the usual way, and after a moment's pause, added:
"My eldest sister has been in town these
three months. Have you never happened to see her there?"
She was perfectly sensible that he never had; but
she wished to see whether he would betray any consciousness of what had
passed between the Bingleys and Jane, and she thought he looked a little
confused as he answered that he had never been so fortunate as to meet
Miss Bennet. The subject was pursued no farther, and the gentlemen soon
afterwards went away.
Chapter 31
Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners were very much
admired at the Parsonage, and the ladies all felt that he must add
considerably to the pleasures of their engagements at Rosings. It was
some days, however, before they received any invitation thither--for
while there were visitors in the house, they could not be necessary; and
it was not till Easter-day, almost a week after the gentlemen's arrival,
that they were honoured by such an attention, and then they were merely
asked on leaving church to come there in the evening. For the last week
they had seen very little of Lady Catherine or her daughter. Colonel
Fitzwilliam had called at the Parsonage more than once during the time,
but Mr. Darcy they had seen only at church.
The invitation was accepted of course, and at a
proper hour they joined the party in Lady Catherine's drawing-room. Her
ladyship received them civilly, but it was plain that their company was
by no means so acceptable as when she could get nobody else; and she
was, in fact, almost engrossed by her nephews, speaking to them,
especially to Darcy, much more than to any other person in the room.
Colonel Fitzwilliam seemed really glad to see
them; anything was a welcome relief to him at Rosings; and Mrs.
Collins's pretty friend had moreover caught his fancy very much. He now
seated himself by her, and talked so agreeably of Kent and Hertfordshire,
of travelling and staying at home, of new books and music, that
Elizabeth had never been half so well entertained in that room before;
and they conversed with so much spirit and flow, as to draw the
attention of Lady Catherine herself, as well as of Mr. Darcy. _His_ eyes
had been soon and repeatedly turned towards them with a look of
curiosity; and that her ladyship, after a while, shared the feeling, was
more openly acknowledged, for she did not scruple to call out:
"What is that you are saying, Fitzwilliam?
What is it you are talking of? What are you telling Miss Bennet? Let me
hear what it is."
"We are speaking of music, madam," said
he, when no longer able to avoid a reply.
"Of music! Then pray speak aloud. It is of
all subjects my delight. I must have my share in the conversation if you
are speaking of music. There are few people in England, I suppose, who
have more true enjoyment of music than myself, or a better natural
taste. If I had ever learnt, I should have been a great proficient. And
so would Anne, if her health had allowed her to apply. I am confident
that she would have performed delightfully. How does Georgiana get on,
Darcy?"
Mr. Darcy spoke with affectionate praise of his
sister's proficiency.
"I am very glad to hear such a good account
of her," said Lady Catherine; "and pray tell her from me, that
she cannot expect to excel if she does not practice a good deal."
"I assure you, madam," he replied,
"that she does not need such advice. She practises very
constantly."
"So much the better. It cannot be done too
much; and when I next write to her, I shall charge her not to neglect it
on any account. I often tell young ladies that no excellence in music is
to be acquired without constant practice. I have told Miss Bennet
several times, that she will never play really well unless she practises
more; and though Mrs. Collins has no instrument, she is very welcome, as
I have often told her, to come to Rosings every day, and play on the
pianoforte in Mrs. Jenkinson's room. She would be in nobody's way, you
know, in that part of the house."
Mr. Darcy looked a little ashamed of his aunt's
ill-breeding, and made no answer.
When coffee was over, Colonel Fitzwilliam reminded
Elizabeth of having promised to play to him; and she sat down directly
to the instrument. He drew a chair near her. Lady Catherine listened to
half a song, and then talked, as before, to her other nephew; till the
latter walked away from her, and making with his usual deliberation
towards the pianoforte stationed himself so as to command a full view of
the fair performer's countenance. Elizabeth saw what he was doing, and
at the first convenient pause, turned to him with an arch smile, and
said:
"You mean to frighten me, Mr. Darcy, by
coming in all this state to hear me? I will not be alarmed though your
sister _does_ play so well. There is a stubbornness about me that never
can bear to be frightened at the will of others. My courage always rises
at every attempt to intimidate me."
"I shall not say you are mistaken," he
replied, "because you could not really believe me to entertain any
design of alarming you; and I have had the pleasure of your acquaintance
long enough to know that you find great enjoyment in occasionally
professing opinions which in fact are not your own."
Elizabeth laughed heartily at this picture of
herself, and said to Colonel Fitzwilliam, "Your cousin will give
you a very pretty notion of me, and teach you not to believe a word I
say. I am particularly unlucky in meeting with a person so able to
expose my real character, in a part of the world where I had hoped to
pass myself off with some degree of credit. Indeed, Mr. Darcy, it is
very ungenerous in you to mention all that you knew to my disadvantage
in Hertfordshire--and, give me leave to say, very impolitic too--for it
is provoking me to retaliate, and such things may come out as will shock
your relations to hear."
"I am not afraid of you," said he,
smilingly.
"Pray let me hear what you have to accuse him
of," cried Colonel Fitzwilliam. "I should like to know how he
behaves among strangers."
"You shall hear then--but prepare yourself
for something very dreadful. The first time of my ever seeing him in
Hertfordshire, you must know, was at a ball--and at this ball, what do
you think he did? He danced only four dances, though gentlemen were
scarce; and, to my certain knowledge, more than one young lady was
sitting down in want of a partner. Mr. Darcy, you cannot deny the
fact."
"I had not at that time the honour of knowing
any lady in the assembly beyond my own party."
"True; and nobody can ever be introduced in a
ball-room. Well, Colonel Fitzwilliam, what do I play next? My fingers
wait your orders."
"Perhaps," said Darcy, "I should
have judged better, had I sought an introduction; but I am ill-qualified
to recommend myself to strangers."
"Shall we ask your cousin the reason of
this?" said Elizabeth, still addressing Colonel Fitzwilliam.
"Shall we ask him why a man of sense and education, and who has
lived in the world, is ill qualified to recommend himself to
strangers?"
"I can answer your question," said
Fitzwilliam, "without applying to him. It is because he will not
give himself the trouble."
"I certainly have not the talent which some
people possess," said Darcy, "of conversing easily with those
I have never seen before. I cannot catch their tone of conversation, or
appear interested in their concerns, as I often see done."
"My fingers," said Elizabeth, "do
not move over this instrument in the masterly manner which I see so many
women's do. They have not the same force or rapidity, and do not produce
the same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my own
fault--because I will not take the trouble of practising. It is not that
I do not believe _my_ fingers as capable as any other woman's of
superior execution."
Darcy smiled and said, "You are perfectly
right. You have employed your time much better. No one admitted to the
privilege of hearing you can think anything wanting. We neither of us
perform to strangers."
Here they were interrupted by Lady Catherine, who
called out to know what they were talking of. Elizabeth immediately
began playing again. Lady Catherine approached, and, after listening for
a few minutes, said to Darcy:
"Miss Bennet would not play at all amiss if
she practised more, and could have the advantage of a London master. She
has a very good notion of fingering, though her taste is not equal to
Anne's. Anne would have been a delightful performer, had her health
allowed her to learn."
Elizabeth looked at Darcy to see how cordially he
assented to his cousin's praise; but neither at that moment nor at any
other could she discern any symptom of love; and from the whole of his
behaviour to Miss de Bourgh she derived this comfort for Miss Bingley,
that he might have been just as likely to marry _her_, had she been his
relation.
Lady Catherine continued her remarks on
Elizabeth's performance, mixing with them many instructions on execution
and taste. Elizabeth received them with all the forbearance of civility,
and, at the request of the gentlemen, remained at the instrument till
her ladyship's carriage was ready to take them all home.
Chapter 32
Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning,
and writing to Jane while Mrs. Collins and Maria were gone on business
into the village, when she was startled by a ring at the door, the
certain signal of a visitor. As she had heard no carriage, she thought
it not unlikely to be Lady Catherine, and under that apprehension was
putting away her half-finished letter that she might escape all
impertinent questions, when the door opened, and, to her very great
surprise, Mr. Darcy, and Mr. Darcy only, entered the room.
He seemed astonished too on finding her alone, and
apologised for his intrusion by letting her know that he had understood
all the ladies were to be within.
They then sat down, and when her inquiries after
Rosings were made, seemed in danger of sinking into total silence. It
was absolutely necessary, therefore, to think of something, and in this
emergence recollecting _when_ she had seen him last in Hertfordshire,
and feeling curious to know what he would say on the subject of their
hasty departure, she observed:
"How very suddenly you all quitted
Netherfield last November, Mr. Darcy! It must have been a most agreeable
surprise to Mr. Bingley to see you all after him so soon; for, if I
recollect right, he went but the day before. He and his sisters were
well, I hope, when you left London?"
"Perfectly so, I thank you."
She found that she was to receive no other answer,
and, after a short pause added:
"I think I have understood that Mr. Bingley
has not much idea of ever returning to Netherfield again?"
"I have never heard him say so; but it is
probable that he may spend very little of his time there in the future.
He has many friends, and is at a time of life when friends and
engagements are continually increasing."
"If he means to be but little at Netherfield,
it would be better for the neighbourhood that he should give up the
place entirely, for then we might possibly get a settled family there.
But, perhaps, Mr. Bingley did not take the house so much for the
convenience of the neighbourhood as for his own, and we must expect him
to keep it or quit it on the same principle."
"I should not be surprised," said Darcy,
"if he were to give it up as soon as any eligible purchase
offers."
Elizabeth made no answer. She was afraid of
talking longer of his friend; and, having nothing else to say, was now
determined to leave the trouble of finding a subject to him.
He took the hint, and soon began with, "This
seems a very comfortable house. Lady Catherine, I believe, did a great
deal to it when Mr. Collins first came to Hunsford."
"I believe she did--and I am sure she could
not have bestowed her kindness on a more grateful object."
"Mr. Collins appears to be very fortunate in
his choice of a wife."
"Yes, indeed, his friends may well rejoice in
his having met with one of the very few sensible women who would have
accepted him, or have made him happy if they had. My friend has an
excellent understanding--though I am not certain that I consider her
marrying Mr. Collins as the wisest thing she ever did. She seems
perfectly happy, however, and in a prudential light it is certainly a
very good match for her."
"It must be very agreeable for her to be
settled within so easy a distance of her own family and friends."
"An easy distance, do you call it? It is
nearly fifty miles."
"And what is fifty miles of good road? Little
more than half a day's journey. Yes, I call it a _very_ easy
distance."
"I should never have considered the distance
as one of the _advantages_ of the match," cried Elizabeth. "I
should never have said Mrs. Collins was settled _near_ her family."
"It is a proof of your own attachment to
Hertfordshire. Anything beyond the very neighbourhood of Longbourn, I
suppose, would appear far."
As he spoke there was a sort of smile which
Elizabeth fancied she understood; he must be supposing her to be
thinking of Jane and Netherfield, and she blushed as she answered:
"I do not mean to say that a woman may not be
settled too near her family. The far and the near must be relative, and
depend on many varying circumstances. Where there is fortune to make the
expenses of travelling unimportant, distance becomes no evil. But that
is not the case _here_. Mr. and Mrs. Collins have a comfortable income,
but not such a one as will allow of frequent journeys--and I am
persuaded my friend would not call herself _near_ her family under less
than _half_ the present distance."
Mr. Darcy drew his chair a little towards her, and
said, "_You_ cannot have a right to such very strong local
attachment. _You_ cannot have been always at Longbourn."
Elizabeth looked surprised. The gentleman
experienced some change of feeling; he drew back his chair, took a
newspaper from the table, and glancing over it, said, in a colder voice:
"Are you pleased with Kent?"
A short dialogue on the subject of the country
ensued, on either side calm and concise--and soon put an end to by the
entrance of Charlotte and her sister, just returned from her walk. The
tete-a-tete surprised them. Mr. Darcy related the mistake which had
occasioned his intruding on Miss Bennet, and after sitting a few minutes
longer without saying much to anybody, went away.
"What can be the meaning of this?" said
Charlotte, as soon as he was gone. "My dear, Eliza, he must be in
love with you, or he would never have called us in this familiar
way."
But when Elizabeth told of his silence; it did not
seem very likely, even to Charlotte's wishes, to be the case; and after
various conjectures, they could at last only suppose his visit to
proceed from the difficulty of finding anything to do, which was the
more probable from the time of year. All field sports were over. Within
doors there was Lady Catherine, books, and a billiard-table, but
gentlemen cannot always be within doors; and in the nearness of the
Parsonage, or the pleasantness of the walk to it, or of the people who
lived in it, the two cousins found a temptation from this period of
walking thither almost every day. They called at various times of the
morning, sometimes separately, sometimes together, and now and then
accompanied by their aunt. It was plain to them all that Colonel
Fitzwilliam came because he had pleasure in their society, a persuasion
which of course recommended him still more; and Elizabeth was reminded
by her own satisfaction in being with him, as well as by his evident
admiration of her, of her former favourite George Wickham; and though,
in comparing them, she saw there was less captivating softness in
Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners, she believed he might have the best
informed mind.
But why Mr. Darcy came so often to the Parsonage,
it was more difficult to understand. It could not be for society, as he
frequently sat there ten minutes together without opening his lips; and
when he did speak, it seemed the effect of necessity rather than of
choice--a sacrifice to propriety, not a pleasure to himself. He seldom
appeared really animated. Mrs. Collins knew not what to make of him.
Colonel Fitzwilliam's occasionally laughing at his stupidity, proved
that he was generally different, which her own knowledge of him could
not have told her; and as she would liked to have believed this change
the effect of love, and the object of that love her friend Eliza, she
set herself seriously to work to find it out. She watched him whenever
they were at Rosings, and whenever he came to Hunsford; but without much
success. He certainly looked at her friend a great deal, but the
expression of that look was disputable. It was an earnest, steadfast
gaze, but she often doubted whether there were much admiration in it,
and sometimes it seemed nothing but absence of mind.
She had once or twice suggested to Elizabeth the
possibility of his being partial to her, but Elizabeth always laughed at
the idea; and Mrs. Collins did not think it right to press the subject,
from the danger of raising expectations which might only end in
disappointment; for in her opinion it admitted not of a doubt, that all
her friend's dislike would vanish, if she could suppose him to be in her
power.
In her kind schemes for Elizabeth, she sometimes
planned her marrying Colonel Fitzwilliam. He was beyond comparison the
most pleasant man; he certainly admired her, and his situation in life
was most eligible; but, to counterbalance these advantages, Mr. Darcy
had considerable patronage in the church, and his cousin could have none
at all.
Chapter 33
More than once did Elizabeth, in her ramble within
the park, unexpectedly meet Mr. Darcy. She felt all the perverseness of
the mischance that should bring him where no one else was brought, and,
to prevent its ever happening again, took care to inform him at first
that it was a favourite haunt of hers. How it could occur a second time,
therefore, was very odd! Yet it did, and even a third. It seemed like
wilful ill-nature, or a voluntary penance, for on these occasions it was
not merely a few formal inquiries and an awkward pause and then away,
but he actually thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her. He
never said a great deal, nor did she give herself the trouble of talking
or of listening much; but it struck her in the course of their third
rencontre that he was asking some odd unconnected questions--about her
pleasure in being at Hunsford, her love of solitary walks, and her
opinion of Mr. and Mrs. Collins's happiness; and that in speaking of
Rosings and her not perfectly understanding the house, he seemed to
expect that whenever she came into Kent again she would be staying
_there_ too. His words seemed to imply it. Could he have Colonel
Fitzwilliam in his thoughts? She supposed, if he meant anything, he must
mean an allusion to what might arise in that quarter. It distressed her
a little, and she was quite glad to find herself at the gate in the
pales opposite the Parsonage.
She was engaged one day as she walked, in perusing
Jane's last letter, and dwelling on some passages which proved that Jane
had not written in spirits, when, instead of being again surprised by
Mr. Darcy, she saw on looking up that Colonel Fitzwilliam was meeting
her. Putting away the letter immediately and forcing a smile, she said:
"I did not know before that you ever walked
this way."
"I have been making the tour of the
park," he replied, "as I generally do every year, and intend
to close it with a call at the Parsonage. Are you going much
farther?"
"No, I should have turned in a moment."
And accordingly she did turn, and they walked
towards the Parsonage together.
"Do you certainly leave Kent on
Saturday?" said she.
"Yes--if Darcy does not put it off again. But
I am at his disposal. He arranges the business just as he pleases."
"And if not able to please himself in the
arrangement, he has at least pleasure in the great power of choice. I do
not know anybody who seems more to enjoy the power of doing what he
likes than Mr. Darcy."
"He likes to have his own way very
well," replied Colonel Fitzwilliam. "But so we all do. It is
only that he has better means of having it than many others, because he
is rich, and many others are poor. I speak feelingly. A younger son, you
know, must be inured to self-denial and dependence."
"In my opinion, the younger son of an earl
can know very little of either. Now seriously, what have you ever known
of self-denial and dependence? When have you been prevented by want of
money from going wherever you chose, or procuring anything you had a
fancy for?"
"These are home questions--and perhaps I
cannot say that I have experienced many hardships of that nature. But in
matters of greater weight, I may suffer from want of money. Younger sons
cannot marry where they like."
"Unless where they like women of fortune,
which I think they very often do."
"Our habits of expense make us too dependent,
and there are not many in my rank of life who can afford to marry
without some attention to money."
"Is this," thought Elizabeth,
"meant for me?" and she coloured at the idea; but, recovering
herself, said in a lively tone, "And pray, what is the usual price
of an earl's younger son? Unless the elder brother is very sickly, I
suppose you would not ask above fifty thousand pounds."
He answered her in the same style, and the subject
dropped. To interrupt a silence which might make him fancy her affected
with what had passed, she soon afterwards said:
"I imagine your cousin brought you down with
him chiefly for the sake of having someone at his disposal. I wonder he
does not marry, to secure a lasting convenience of that kind. But,
perhaps, his sister does as well for the present, and, as she is under
his sole care, he may do what he likes with her."
"No," said Colonel Fitzwilliam,
"that is an advantage which he must divide with me. I am joined
with him in the guardianship of Miss Darcy."
"Are you indeed? And pray what sort of
guardians do you make? Does your charge give you much trouble? Young
ladies of her age are sometimes a little difficult to manage, and if she
has the true Darcy spirit, she may like to have her own way."
As she spoke she observed him looking at her
earnestly; and the manner in which he immediately asked her why she
supposed Miss Darcy likely to give them any uneasiness, convinced her
that she had somehow or other got pretty near the truth. She directly
replied:
"You need not be frightened. I never heard
any harm of her; and I dare say she is one of the most tractable
creatures in the world. She is a very great favourite with some ladies
of my acquaintance, Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley. I think I have heard
you say that you know them."
"I know them a little. Their brother is a
pleasant gentlemanlike man--he is a great friend of Darcy's."
"Oh! yes," said Elizabeth drily;
"Mr. Darcy is uncommonly kind to Mr. Bingley, and takes a
prodigious deal of care of him."
"Care of him! Yes, I really believe Darcy
_does_ take care of him in those points where he most wants care. From
something that he told me in our journey hither, I have reason to think
Bingley very much indebted to him. But I ought to beg his pardon, for I
have no right to suppose that Bingley was the person meant. It was all
conjecture."
"What is it you mean?"
"It is a circumstance which Darcy could not
wish to be generally known, because if it were to get round to the
lady's family, it would be an unpleasant thing."
"You may depend upon my not mentioning
it."
"And remember that I have not much reason for
supposing it to be Bingley. What he told me was merely this: that he
congratulated himself on having lately saved a friend from the
inconveniences of a most imprudent marriage, but without mentioning
names or any other particulars, and I only suspected it to be Bingley
from believing him the kind of young man to get into a scrape of that
sort, and from knowing them to have been together the whole of last
summer."
"Did Mr. Darcy give you reasons for this
interference?"
"I understood that there were some very
strong objections against the lady."
"And what arts did he use to separate
them?"
"He did not talk to me of his own arts,"
said Fitzwilliam, smiling. "He only told me what I have now told
you."
Elizabeth made no answer, and walked on, her heart
swelling with indignation. After watching her a little, Fitzwilliam
asked her why she was so thoughtful.
"I am thinking of what you have been telling
me," said she. "Your cousin's conduct does not suit my
feelings. Why was he to be the judge?"
"You are rather disposed to call his
interference officious?"
"I do not see what right Mr. Darcy had to
decide on the propriety of his friend's inclination, or why, upon his
own judgement alone, he was to determine and direct in what manner his
friend was to be happy. But," she continued, recollecting herself,
"as we know none of the particulars, it is not fair to condemn him.
It is not to be supposed that there was much affection in the
case."
"That is not an unnatural surmise," said
Fitzwilliam, "but it is a lessening of the honour of my cousin's
triumph very sadly."
This was spoken jestingly; but it appeared to her
so just a picture of Mr. Darcy, that she would not trust herself with an
answer, and therefore, abruptly changing the conversation talked on
indifferent matters until they reached the Parsonage. There, shut into
her own room, as soon as their visitor left them, she could think
without interruption of all that she had heard. It was not to be
supposed that any other people could be meant than those with whom she
was connected. There could not exist in the world _two_ men over whom
Mr. Darcy could have such boundless influence. That he had been
concerned in the measures taken to separate Bingley and Jane she had
never doubted; but she had always attributed to Miss Bingley the
principal design and arrangement of them. If his own vanity, however,
did not mislead him, _he_ was the cause, his pride and caprice were the
cause, of all that Jane had suffered, and still continued to suffer. He
had ruined for a while every hope of happiness for the most
affectionate, generous heart in the world; and no one could say how
lasting an evil he might have inflicted.
"There were some very strong objections
against the lady," were Colonel Fitzwilliam's words; and those
strong objections probably were, her having one uncle who was a country
attorney, and another who was in business in London.
"To Jane herself," she exclaimed,
"there could be no possibility of objection; all loveliness and
goodness as she is!--her understanding excellent, her mind improved, and
her manners captivating. Neither could anything be urged against my
father, who, though with some peculiarities, has abilities Mr. Darcy
himself need not disdain, and respectability which he will probably
never each." When she thought of her mother, her confidence gave
way a little; but she would not allow that any objections _there_ had
material weight with Mr. Darcy, whose pride, she was convinced, would
receive a deeper wound from the want of importance in his friend's
connections, than from their want of sense; and she was quite decided,
at last, that he had been partly governed by this worst kind of pride,
and partly by the wish of retaining Mr. Bingley for his sister.
The agitation and tears which the subject
occasioned, brought on a headache; and it grew so much worse towards the
evening, that, added to her unwillingness to see Mr. Darcy, it
determined her not to attend her cousins to Rosings, where they were
engaged to drink tea. Mrs. Collins, seeing that she was really unwell,
did not press her to go and as much as possible prevented her husband
from pressing her; but Mr. Collins could not conceal his apprehension of
Lady Catherine's being rather displeased by her staying at home.
Chapter 34
When they were gone, Elizabeth, as if intending to
exasperate herself as much as possible against Mr. Darcy, chose for her
employment the examination of all the letters which Jane had written to
her since her being in Kent. They contained no actual complaint, nor was
there any revival of past occurrences, or any communication of present
suffering. But in all, and in almost every line of each, there was a
want of that cheerfulness which had been used to characterise her style,
and which, proceeding from the serenity of a mind at ease with itself
and kindly disposed towards everyone, had been scarcely ever clouded.
Elizabeth noticed every sentence conveying the idea of uneasiness, with
an attention which it had hardly received on the first perusal. Mr.
Darcy's shameful boast of what misery he had been able to inflict, gave
her a keener sense of her sister's sufferings. It was some consolation
to think that his visit to Rosings was to end on the day after the
next--and, a still greater, that in less than a fortnight she should
herself be with Jane again, and enabled to contribute to the recovery of
her spirits, by all that affection could do.
She could not think of Darcy's leaving Kent
without remembering that his cousin was to go with him; but Colonel
Fitzwilliam had made it clear that he had no intentions at all, and
agreeable as he was, she did not mean to be unhappy about him.
While settling this point, she was suddenly roused
by the sound of the door-bell, and her spirits were a little fluttered
by the idea of its being Colonel Fitzwilliam himself, who had once
before called late in the evening, and might now come to inquire
particularly after her. But this idea was soon banished, and her spirits
were very differently affected, when, to her utter amazement, she saw
Mr. Darcy walk into the room. In an hurried manner he immediately began
an inquiry after her health, imputing his visit to a wish of hearing
that she were better. She answered him with cold civility. He sat down
for a few moments, and then getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth
was surprised, but said not a word. After a silence of several minutes,
he came towards her in an agitated manner, and thus began:
"In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My
feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how
ardently I admire and love you."
Elizabeth's astonishment was beyond expression.
She stared, coloured, doubted, and was silent. This he considered
sufficient encouragement; and the avowal of all that he felt, and had
long felt for her, immediately followed. He spoke well; but there were
feelings besides those of the heart to be detailed; and he was not more
eloquent on the subject of tenderness than of pride. His sense of her
inferiority--of its being a degradation--of the family obstacles which
had always opposed to inclination, were dwelt on with a warmth which
seemed due to the consequence he was wounding, but was very unlikely to
recommend his suit.
In spite of her deeply-rooted dislike, she could
not be insensible to the compliment of such a man's affection, and
though her intentions did not vary for an instant, she was at first
sorry for the pain he was to receive; till, roused to resentment by his
subsequent language, she lost all compassion in anger. She tried,
however, to compose herself to answer him with patience, when he should
have done. He concluded with representing to her the strength of that
attachment which, in spite of all his endeavours, he had found
impossible to conquer; and with expressing his hope that it would now be
rewarded by her acceptance of his hand. As he said this, she could
easily see that he had no doubt of a favourable answer. He _spoke_ of
apprehension and anxiety, but his countenance expressed real security.
Such a circumstance could only exasperate farther, and, when he ceased,
the colour rose into her cheeks, and she said:
"In such cases as this, it is, I believe, the
established mode to express a sense of obligation for the sentiments
avowed, however unequally they may be returned. It is natural that
obligation should be felt, and if I could _feel_ gratitude, I would now
thank you. But I cannot--I have never desired your good opinion, and you
have certainly bestowed it most unwillingly. I am sorry to have
occasioned pain to anyone. It has been most unconsciously done, however,
and I hope will be of short duration. The feelings which, you tell me,
have long prevented the acknowledgment of your regard, can have little
difficulty in overcoming it after this explanation."
Mr. Darcy, who was leaning against the mantelpiece
with his eyes fixed on her face, seemed to catch her words with no less
resentment than surprise. His complexion became pale with anger, and the
disturbance of his mind was visible in every feature. He was struggling
for the appearance of composure, and would not open his lips till he
believed himself to have attained it. The pause was to Elizabeth's
feelings dreadful. At length, with a voice of forced calmness, he said:
"And this is all the reply which I am to have
the honour of expecting! I might, perhaps, wish to be informed why, with
so little _endeavour_ at civility, I am thus rejected. But it is of
small importance."
"I might as well inquire," replied she,
"why with so evident a desire of offending and insulting me, you
chose to tell me that you liked me against your will, against your
reason, and even against your character? Was not this some excuse for
incivility, if I _was_ uncivil? But I have other provocations. You know
I have. Had not my feelings decided against you--had they been
indifferent, or had they even been favourable, do you think that any
consideration would tempt me to accept the man who has been the means of
ruining, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a most beloved sister?"
As she pronounced these words, Mr. Darcy changed
colour; but the emotion was short, and he listened without attempting to
interrupt her while she continued:
"I have every reason in the world to think
ill of you. No motive can excuse the unjust and ungenerous part you
acted _there_. You dare not, you cannot deny, that you have been the
principal, if not the only means of dividing them from each other--of
exposing one to the censure of the world for caprice and instability,
and the other to its derision for disappointed hopes, and involving them
both in misery of the acutest kind."
She paused, and saw with no slight indignation
that he was listening with an air which proved him wholly unmoved by any
feeling of remorse. He even looked at her with a smile of affected
incredulity.
"Can you deny that you have done it?"
she repeated.
With assumed tranquillity he then replied: "I
have no wish of denying that I did everything in my power to separate my
friend from your sister, or that I rejoice in my success. Towards _him_
I have been kinder than towards myself."
Elizabeth disdained the appearance of noticing
this civil reflection, but its meaning did not escape, nor was it likely
to conciliate her.
"But it is not merely this affair," she
continued, "on which my dislike is founded. Long before it had
taken place my opinion of you was decided. Your character was unfolded
in the recital which I received many months ago from Mr. Wickham. On
this subject, what can you have to say? In what imaginary act of
friendship can you here defend yourself? or under what misrepresentation
can you here impose upon others?"
"You take an eager interest in that
gentleman's concerns," said Darcy, in a less tranquil tone, and
with a heightened colour.
"Who that knows what his misfortunes have
been, can help feeling an interest in him?"
"His misfortunes!" repeated Darcy
contemptuously; "yes, his misfortunes have been great indeed."
"And of your infliction," cried
Elizabeth with energy. "You have reduced him to his present state
of poverty--comparative poverty. You have withheld the advantages which
you must know to have been designed for him. You have deprived the best
years of his life of that independence which was no less his due than
his desert. You have done all this! and yet you can treat the mention of
his misfortune with contempt and ridicule."
"And this," cried Darcy, as he walked
with quick steps across the room, "is your opinion of me! This is
the estimation in which you hold me! I thank you for explaining it so
fully. My faults, according to this calculation, are heavy indeed! But
perhaps," added he, stopping in his walk, and turning towards her,
"these offenses might have been overlooked, had not your pride been
hurt by my honest confession of the scruples that had long prevented my
forming any serious design. These bitter accusations might have been
suppressed, had I, with greater policy, concealed my struggles, and
flattered you into the belief of my being impelled by unqualified,
unalloyed inclination; by reason, by reflection, by everything. But
disguise of every sort is my abhorrence. Nor am I ashamed of the
feelings I related. They were natural and just. Could you expect me to
rejoice in the inferiority of your connections?--to congratulate myself
on the hope of relations, whose condition in life is so decidedly
beneath my own?"
Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every
moment; yet she tried to the utmost to speak with composure when she
said:
"You are mistaken, Mr. Darcy, if you suppose
that the mode of your declaration affected me in any other way, than as
it spared the concern which I might have felt in refusing you, had you
behaved in a more gentlemanlike manner."
She saw him start at this, but he said nothing,
and she continued:
"You could not have made the offer of your
hand in any possible way that would have tempted me to accept it."
Again his astonishment was obvious; and he looked
at her with an expression of mingled incredulity and mortification. She
went on:
"From the very beginning--from the first
moment, I may almost say--of my acquaintance with you, your manners,
impressing me with the fullest belief of your arrogance, your conceit,
and your selfish disdain of the feelings of others, were such as to form
the groundwork of disapprobation on which succeeding events have built
so immovable a dislike; and I had not known you a month before I felt
that you were the last man in the world whom I could ever be prevailed
on to marry."
"You have said quite enough, madam. I
perfectly comprehend your feelings, and have now only to be ashamed of
what my own have been. Forgive me for having taken up so much of your
time, and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness."
And with these words he hastily left the room, and
Elizabeth heard him the next moment open the front door and quit the
house.
The tumult of her mind, was now painfully great.
She knew not how to support herself, and from actual weakness sat down
and cried for half-an-hour. Her astonishment, as she reflected on what
had passed, was increased by every review of it. That she should receive
an offer of marriage from Mr. Darcy! That he should have been in love
with her for so many months! So much in love as to wish to marry her in
spite of all the objections which had made him prevent his friend's
marrying her sister, and which must appear at least with equal force in
his own case--was almost incredible! It was gratifying to have inspired
unconsciously so strong an affection. But his pride, his abominable
pride--his shameless avowal of what he had done with respect to
Jane--his unpardonable assurance in acknowledging, though he could not
justify it, and the unfeeling manner in which he had mentioned Mr.
Wickham, his cruelty towards whom he had not attempted to deny, soon
overcame the pity which the consideration of his attachment had for a
moment excited. She continued in very agitated reflections till the
sound of Lady Catherine's carriage made her feel how unequal she was to
encounter Charlotte's observation, and hurried her away to her room.
Chapter 35
Elizabeth awoke the next morning to the same
thoughts and meditations which had at length closed her eyes. She could
not yet recover from the surprise of what had happened; it was
impossible to think of anything else; and, totally indisposed for
employment, she resolved, soon after breakfast, to indulge herself in
air and exercise. She was proceeding directly to her favourite walk,
when the recollection of Mr. Darcy's sometimes coming there stopped her,
and instead of entering the park, she turned up the lane, which led
farther from the turnpike-road. The park paling was still the boundary
on one side, and she soon passed one of the gates into the ground.
After walking two or three times along that part
of the lane, she was tempted, by the pleasantness of the morning, to
stop at the gates and look into the park. The five weeks which she had
now passed in Kent had made a great difference in the country, and every
day was adding to the verdure of the early trees. She was on the point
of continuing her walk, when she caught a glimpse of a gentleman within
the sort of grove which edged the park; he was moving that way; and,
fearful of its being Mr. Darcy, she was directly retreating. But the
person who advanced was now near enough to see her, and stepping forward
with eagerness, pronounced her name. She had turned away; but on hearing
herself called, though in a voice which proved it to be Mr. Darcy, she
moved again towards the gate. He had by that time reached it also, and,
holding out a letter, which she instinctively took, said, with a look of
haughty composure, "I have been walking in the grove some time in
the hope of meeting you. Will you do me the honour of reading that
letter?" And then, with a slight bow, turned again into the
plantation, and was soon out of sight.
With no expectation of pleasure, but with the
strongest curiosity, Elizabeth opened the letter, and, to her still
increasing wonder, perceived an envelope containing two sheets of
letter-paper, written quite through, in a very close hand. The envelope
itself was likewise full. Pursuing her way along the lane, she then
began it. It was dated from Rosings, at eight o'clock in the morning,
and was as follows:--
"Be not alarmed, madam, on receiving this
letter, by the apprehension of its containing any repetition of those
sentiments or renewal of those offers which were last night so
disgusting to you. I write without any intention of paining you, or
humbling myself, by dwelling on wishes which, for the happiness of both,
cannot be too soon forgotten; and the effort which the formation and the
perusal of this letter must occasion, should have been spared, had not
my character required it to be written and read. You must, therefore,
pardon the freedom with which I demand your attention; your feelings, I
know, will bestow it unwillingly, but I demand it of your justice.
"Two offenses of a very different nature, and
by no means of equal magnitude, you last night laid to my charge. The
first mentioned was, that, regardless of the sentiments of either, I had
detached Mr. Bingley from your sister, and the other, that I had, in
defiance of various claims, in defiance of honour and humanity, ruined
the immediate prosperity and blasted the prospects of Mr. Wickham.
Wilfully and wantonly to have thrown off the companion of my youth, the
acknowledged favourite of my father, a young man who had scarcely any
other dependence than on our patronage, and who had been brought up to
expect its exertion, would be a depravity, to which the separation of
two young persons, whose affection could be the growth of only a few
weeks, could bear no comparison. But from the severity of that blame
which was last night so liberally bestowed, respecting each
circumstance, I shall hope to be in the future secured, when the
following account of my actions and their motives has been read. If, in
the explanation of them, which is due to myself, I am under the
necessity of relating feelings which may be offensive to yours, I can
only say that I am sorry. The necessity must be obeyed, and further
apology would be absurd.
"I had not been long in Hertfordshire, before
I saw, in common with others, that Bingley preferred your elder sister
to any other young woman in the country. But it was not till the evening
of the dance at Netherfield that I had any apprehension of his feeling a
serious attachment. I had often seen him in love before. At that ball,
while I had the honour of dancing with you, I was first made acquainted,
by Sir William Lucas's accidental information, that Bingley's attentions
to your sister had given rise to a general expectation of their
marriage. He spoke of it as a certain event, of which the time alone
could be undecided. From that moment I observed my friend's behaviour
attentively; and I could then perceive that his partiality for Miss
Bennet was beyond what I had ever witnessed in him. Your sister I also
watched. Her look and manners were open, cheerful, and engaging as ever,
but without any symptom of peculiar regard, and I remained convinced
from the evening's scrutiny, that though she received his attentions
with pleasure, she did not invite them by any participation of
sentiment. If _you_ have not been mistaken here, _I_ must have been in
error. Your superior knowledge of your sister must make the latter
probable. If it be so, if I have been misled by such error to inflict
pain on her, your resentment has not been unreasonable. But I shall not
scruple to assert, that the serenity of your sister's countenance and
air was such as might have given the most acute observer a conviction
that, however amiable her temper, her heart was not likely to be easily
touched. That I was desirous of believing her indifferent is
certain--but I will venture to say that my investigation and decisions
are not usually influenced by my hopes or fears. I did not believe her
to be indifferent because I wished it; I believed it on impartial
conviction, as truly as I wished it in reason. My objections to the
marriage were not merely those which I last night acknowledged to have
the utmost force of passion to put aside, in my own case; the want of
connection could not be so great an evil to my friend as to me. But
there were other causes of repugnance; causes which, though still
existing, and existing to an equal degree in both instances, I had
myself endeavoured to forget, because they were not immediately before
me. These causes must be stated, though briefly. The situation of your
mother's family, though objectionable, was nothing in comparison to that
total want of propriety so frequently, so almost uniformly betrayed by
herself, by your three younger sisters, and occasionally even by your
father. Pardon me. It pains me to offend you. But amidst your concern
for the defects of your nearest relations, and your displeasure at this
representation of them, let it give you consolation to consider that, to
have conducted yourselves so as to avoid any share of the like censure,
is praise no less generally bestowed on you and your elder sister, than
it is honourable to the sense and disposition of both. I will only say
farther that from what passed that evening, my opinion of all parties
was confirmed, and every inducement heightened which could have led me
before, to preserve my friend from what I esteemed a most unhappy
connection. He left Netherfield for London, on the day following, as
you, I am certain, remember, with the design of soon returning.
"The part which I acted is now to be
explained. His sisters' uneasiness had been equally excited with my own;
our coincidence of feeling was soon discovered, and, alike sensible that
no time was to be lost in detaching their brother, we shortly resolved
on joining him directly in London. We accordingly went--and there I
readily engaged in the office of pointing out to my friend the certain
evils of such a choice. I described, and enforced them earnestly. But,
however this remonstrance might have staggered or delayed his
determination, I do not suppose that it would ultimately have prevented
the marriage, had it not been seconded by the assurance that I hesitated
not in giving, of your sister's indifference. He had before believed her
to return his affection with sincere, if not with equal regard. But
Bingley has great natural modesty, with a stronger dependence on my
judgement than on his own. To convince him, therefore, that he had
deceived himself, was no very difficult point. To persuade him against
returning into Hertfordshire, when that conviction had been given, was
scarcely the work of a moment. I cannot blame myself for having done
thus much. There is but one part of my conduct in the whole affair on
which I do not reflect with satisfaction; it is that I condescended to
adopt the measures of art so far as to conceal from him your sister's
being in town. I knew it myself, as it was known to Miss Bingley; but
her brother is even yet ignorant of it. That they might have met without
ill consequence is perhaps probable; but his regard did not appear to me
enough extinguished for him to see her without some danger. Perhaps this
concealment, this disguise was beneath me; it is done, however, and it
was done for the best. On this subject I have nothing more to say, no
other apology to offer. If I have wounded your sister's feelings, it was
unknowingly done and though the motives which governed me may to you
very naturally appear insufficient, I have not yet learnt to condemn
them.
"With respect to that other, more weighty
accusation, of having injured Mr. Wickham, I can only refute it by
laying before you the whole of his connection with my family. Of what he
has _particularly_ accused me I am ignorant; but of the truth of what I
shall relate, I can summon more than one witness of undoubted veracity.
"Mr. Wickham is the son of a very respectable
man, who had for many years the management of all the Pemberley estates,
and whose good conduct in the discharge of his trust naturally inclined
my father to be of service to him; and on George Wickham, who was his
godson, his kindness was therefore liberally bestowed. My father
supported him at school, and afterwards at Cambridge--most important
assistance, as his own father, always poor from the extravagance of his
wife, would have been unable to give him a gentleman's education. My
father was not only fond of this young man's society, whose manner were
always engaging; he had also the highest opinion of him, and hoping the
church would be his profession, intended to provide for him in it. As
for myself, it is many, many years since I first began to think of him
in a very different manner. The vicious propensities--the want of
principle, which he was careful to guard from the knowledge of his best
friend, could not escape the observation of a young man of nearly the
same age with himself, and who had opportunities of seeing him in
unguarded moments, which Mr. Darcy could not have. Here again I shall
give you pain--to what degree you only can tell. But whatever may be the
sentiments which Mr. Wickham has created, a suspicion of their nature
shall not prevent me from unfolding his real character--it adds even
another motive.
"My excellent father died about five years
ago; and his attachment to Mr. Wickham was to the last so steady, that
in his will he particularly recommended it to me, to promote his
advancement in the best manner that his profession might allow--and if
he took orders, desired that a valuable family living might be his as
soon as it became vacant. There was also a legacy of one thousand
pounds. His own father did not long survive mine, and within half a year
from these events, Mr. Wickham wrote to inform me that, having finally
resolved against taking orders, he hoped I should not think it
unreasonable for him to expect some more immediate pecuniary advantage,
in lieu of the preferment, by which he could not be benefited. He had
some intention, he added, of studying law, and I must be aware that the
interest of one thousand pounds would be a very insufficient support
therein. I rather wished, than believed him to be sincere; but, at any
rate, was perfectly ready to accede to his proposal. I knew that Mr.
Wickham ought not to be a clergyman; the business was therefore soon
settled--he resigned all claim to assistance in the church, were it
possible that he could ever be in a situation to receive it, and
accepted in return three thousand pounds. All connection between us
seemed now dissolved. I thought too ill of him to invite him to
Pemberley, or admit his society in town. In town I believe he chiefly
lived, but his studying the law was a mere pretence, and being now free
from all restraint, his life was a life of idleness and dissipation. For
about three years I heard little of him; but on the decease of the
incumbent of the living which had been designed for him, he applied to
me again by letter for the presentation. His circumstances, he assured
me, and I had no difficulty in believing it, were exceedingly bad. He
had found the law a most unprofitable study, and was now absolutely
resolved on being ordained, if I would present him to the living in
question--of which he trusted there could be little doubt, as he was
well assured that I had no other person to provide for, and I could not
have forgotten my revered father's intentions. You will hardly blame me
for refusing to comply with this entreaty, or for resisting every
repetition to it. His resentment was in proportion to the distress of
his circumstances--and he was doubtless as violent in his abuse of me to
others as in his reproaches to myself. After this period every
appearance of acquaintance was dropped. How he lived I know not. But
last summer he was again most painfully obtruded on my notice.
"I must now mention a circumstance which I
would wish to forget myself, and which no obligation less than the
present should induce me to unfold to any human being. Having said thus
much, I feel no doubt of your secrecy. My sister, who is more than ten
years my junior, was left to the guardianship of my mother's nephew,
Colonel Fitzwilliam, and myself. About a year ago, she was taken from
school, and an establishment formed for her in London; and last summer
she went with the lady who presided over it, to Ramsgate; and thither
also went Mr. Wickham, undoubtedly by design; for there proved to have
been a prior acquaintance between him and Mrs. Younge, in whose
character we were most unhappily deceived; and by her connivance and
aid, he so far recommended himself to Georgiana, whose affectionate
heart retained a strong impression of his kindness to her as a child,
that she was persuaded to believe herself in love, and to consent to an
elopement. She was then but fifteen, which must be her excuse; and after
stating her imprudence, I am happy to add, that I owed the knowledge of
it to herself. I joined them unexpectedly a day or two before the
intended elopement, and then Georgiana, unable to support the idea of
grieving and offending a brother whom she almost looked up to as a
father, acknowledged the whole to me. You may imagine what I felt and
how I acted. Regard for my sister's credit and feelings prevented any
public exposure; but I wrote to Mr. Wickham, who left the place
immediately, and Mrs. Younge was of course removed from her charge. Mr.
Wickham's chief object was unquestionably my sister's fortune, which is
thirty thousand pounds; but I cannot help supposing that the hope of
revenging himself on me was a strong inducement. His revenge would have
been complete indeed.
"This, madam, is a faithful narrative of
every event in which we have been concerned together; and if you do not
absolutely reject it as false, you will, I hope, acquit me henceforth of
cruelty towards Mr. Wickham. I know not in what manner, under what form
of falsehood he had imposed on you; but his success is not perhaps to be
wondered at. Ignorant as you previously were of everything concerning
either, detection could not be in your power, and suspicion certainly
not in your inclination.
"You may possibly wonder why all this was not
told you last night; but I was not then master enough of myself to know
what could or ought to be revealed. For the truth of everything here
related, I can appeal more particularly to the testimony of Colonel
Fitzwilliam, who, from our near relationship and constant intimacy, and,
still more, as one of the executors of my father's will, has been
unavoidably acquainted with every particular of these transactions. If
your abhorrence of _me_ should make _my_ assertions valueless, you
cannot be prevented by the same cause from confiding in my cousin; and
that there may be the possibility of consulting him, I shall endeavour
to find some opportunity of putting this letter in your hands in the
course of the morning. I will only add, God bless you.
"FITZWILLIAM DARCY"
Chapter 36
If Elizabeth, when Mr. Darcy gave her the letter,
did not expect it to contain a renewal of his offers, she had formed no
expectation at all of its contents. But such as they were, it may well
be supposed how eagerly she went through them, and what a contrariety of
emotion they excited. Her feelings as she read were scarcely to be
defined. With amazement did she first understand that he believed any
apology to be in his power; and steadfastly was she persuaded, that he
could have no explanation to give, which a just sense of shame would not
conceal. With a strong prejudice against everything he might say, she
began his account of what had happened at Netherfield. She read with an
eagerness which hardly left her power of comprehension, and from
impatience of knowing what the next sentence might bring, was incapable
of attending to the sense of the one before her eyes. His belief of her
sister's insensibility she instantly resolved to be false; and his
account of the real, the worst objections to the match, made her too
angry to have any wish of doing him justice. He expressed no regret for
what he had done which satisfied her; his style was not penitent, but
haughty. It was all pride and insolence.
But when this subject was succeeded by his account
of Mr. Wickham--when she read with somewhat clearer attention a relation
of events which, if true, must overthrow every cherished opinion of his
worth, and which bore so alarming an affinity to his own history of
himself--her feelings were yet more acutely painful and more difficult
of definition. Astonishment, apprehension, and even horror, oppressed
her. She wished to discredit it entirely, repeatedly exclaiming,
"This must be false! This cannot be! This must be the grossest
falsehood!"--and when she had gone through the whole letter, though
scarcely knowing anything of the last page or two, put it hastily away,
protesting that she would not regard it, that she would never look in it
again.
In this perturbed state of mind, with thoughts
that could rest on nothing, she walked on; but it would not do; in half
a minute the letter was unfolded again, and collecting herself as well
as she could, she again began the mortifying perusal of all that related
to Wickham, and commanded herself so far as to examine the meaning of
every sentence. The account of his connection with the Pemberley family
was exactly what he had related himself; and the kindness of the late
Mr. Darcy, though she had not before known its extent, agreed equally
well with his own words. So far each recital confirmed the other; but
when she came to the will, the difference was great. What Wickham had
said of the living was fresh in her memory, and as she recalled his very
words, it was impossible not to feel that there was gross duplicity on
one side or the other; and, for a few moments, she flattered herself
that her wishes did not err. But when she read and re-read with the
closest attention, the particulars immediately following of Wickham's
resigning all pretensions to the living, of his receiving in lieu so
considerable a sum as three thousand pounds, again was she forced to
hesitate. She put down the letter, weighed every circumstance with what
she meant to be impartiality--deliberated on the probability of each
statement--but with little success. On both sides it was only assertion.
Again she read on; but every line proved more clearly that the affair,
which she had believed it impossible that any contrivance could so
represent as to render Mr. Darcy's conduct in it less than infamous, was
capable of a turn which must make him entirely blameless throughout the
whole.
The extravagance and general profligacy which he
scrupled not to lay at Mr. Wickham's charge, exceedingly shocked her;
the more so, as she could bring no proof of its injustice. She had never
heard of him before his entrance into the ----shire Militia, in which he
had engaged at the persuasion of the young man who, on meeting him
accidentally in town, had there renewed a slight acquaintance. Of his
former way of life nothing had been known in Hertfordshire but what he
told himself. As to his real character, had information been in her
power, she had never felt a wish of inquiring. His countenance, voice,
and manner had established him at once in the possession of every
virtue. She tried to recollect some instance of goodness, some
distinguished trait of integrity or benevolence, that might rescue him
from the attacks of Mr. Darcy; or at least, by the predominance of
virtue, atone for those casual errors under which she would endeavour to
class what Mr. Darcy had described as the idleness and vice of many
years' continuance. But no such recollection befriended her. She could
see him instantly before her, in every charm of air and address; but she
could remember no more substantial good than the general approbation of
the neighbourhood, and the regard which his social powers had gained him
in the mess. After pausing on this point a considerable while, she once
more continued to read. But, alas! the story which followed, of his
designs on Miss Darcy, received some confirmation from what had passed
between Colonel Fitzwilliam and herself only the morning before; and at
last she was referred for the truth of every particular to Colonel
Fitzwilliam himself--from whom she had previously received the
information of his near concern in all his cousin's affairs, and whose
character she had no reason to question. At one time she had almost
resolved on applying to him, but the idea was checked by the awkwardness
of the application, and at length wholly banished by the conviction that
Mr. Darcy would never have hazarded such a proposal, if he had not been
well assured of his cousin's corroboration.
She perfectly remembered everything that had
passed in conversation between Wickham and herself, in their first
evening at Mr. Phillips's. Many of his expressions were still fresh in
her memory. She was _now_ struck with the impropriety of such
communications to a stranger, and wondered it had escaped her before.
She saw the indelicacy of putting himself forward as he had done, and
the inconsistency of his professions with his conduct. She remembered
that he had boasted of having no fear of seeing Mr. Darcy--that Mr.
Darcy might leave the country, but that _he_ should stand his ground;
yet he had avoided the Netherfield ball the very next week. She
remembered also that, till the Netherfield family had quitted the
country, he had told his story to no one but herself; but that after
their removal it had been everywhere discussed; that he had then no
reserves, no scruples in sinking Mr. Darcy's character, though he had
assured her that respect for the father would always prevent his
exposing the son.
How differently did everything now appear in which
he was concerned! His attentions to Miss King were now the consequence
of views solely and hatefully mercenary; and the mediocrity of her
fortune proved no longer the moderation of his wishes, but his eagerness
to grasp at anything. His behaviour to herself could now have had no
tolerable motive; he had either been deceived with regard to her
fortune, or had been gratifying his vanity by encouraging the preference
which she believed she had most incautiously shown. Every lingering
struggle in his favour grew fainter and fainter; and in farther
justification of Mr. Darcy, she could not but allow Mr. Bingley, when
questioned by Jane, had long ago asserted his blamelessness in the
affair; that proud and repulsive as were his manners, she had never, in
the whole course of their acquaintance--an acquaintance which had
latterly brought them much together, and given her a sort of intimacy
with his ways--seen anything that betrayed him to be unprincipled or
unjust--anything that spoke him of irreligious or immoral habits; that
among his own connections he was esteemed and valued--that even Wickham
had allowed him merit as a brother, and that she had often heard him
speak so affectionately of his sister as to prove him capable of _some_
amiable feeling; that had his actions been what Mr. Wickham represented
them, so gross a violation of everything right could hardly have been
concealed from the world; and that friendship between a person capable
of it, and such an amiable man as Mr. Bingley, was incomprehensible.
She grew absolutely ashamed of herself. Of neither
Darcy nor Wickham could she think without feeling she had been blind,
partial, prejudiced, absurd.
"How despicably I have acted!" she
cried; "I, who have prided myself on my discernment! I, who have
valued myself on my abilities! who have often disdained the generous
candour of my sister, and gratified my vanity in useless or blameable
mistrust! How humiliating is this discovery! Yet, how just a
humiliation! Had I been in love, I could not have been more wretchedly
blind! But vanity, not love, has been my folly. Pleased with the
preference of one, and offended by the neglect of the other, on the very
beginning of our acquaintance, I have courted prepossession and
ignorance, and driven reason away, where either were concerned. Till
this moment I never knew myself."
From herself to Jane--from Jane to Bingley, her
thoughts were in a line which soon brought to her recollection that Mr.
Darcy's explanation _there_ had appeared very insufficient, and she read
it again. Widely different was the effect of a second perusal. How could
she deny that credit to his assertions in one instance, which she had
been obliged to give in the other? He declared himself to be totally
unsuspicious of her sister's attachment; and she could not help
remembering what Charlotte's opinion had always been. Neither could she
deny the justice of his description of Jane. She felt that Jane's
feelings, though fervent, were little displayed, and that there was a
constant complacency in her air and manner not often united with great
sensibility.
When she came to that part of the letter in which
her family were mentioned in terms of such mortifying, yet merited
reproach, her sense of shame was severe. The justice of the charge
struck her too forcibly for denial, and the circumstances to which he
particularly alluded as having passed at the Netherfield ball, and as
confirming all his first disapprobation, could not have made a stronger
impression on his mind than on hers.
The compliment to herself and her sister was not
unfelt. It soothed, but it could not console her for the contempt which
had thus been self-attracted by the rest of her family; and as she
considered that Jane's disappointment had in fact been the work of her
nearest relations, and reflected how materially the credit of both must
be hurt by such impropriety of conduct, she felt depressed beyond
anything she had ever known before.
After wandering along the lane for two hours,
giving way to every variety of thought--re-considering events,
determining probabilities, and reconciling herself, as well as she
could, to a change so sudden and so important, fatigue, and a
recollection of her long absence, made her at length return home; and
she entered the house with the wish of appearing cheerful as usual, and
the resolution of repressing such reflections as must make her unfit for
conversation.
She was immediately told that the two gentlemen
from Rosings had each called during her absence; Mr. Darcy, only for a
few minutes, to take leave--but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had been
sitting with them at least an hour, hoping for her return, and almost
resolving to walk after her till she could be found. Elizabeth could but
just _affect_ concern in missing him; she really rejoiced at it. Colonel
Fitzwilliam was no longer an object; she could think only of her letter.
Chapter 37
The two gentlemen left Rosings the next morning,
and Mr. Collins having been in waiting near the lodges, to make them his
parting obeisance, was able to bring home the pleasing intelligence, of
their appearing in very good health, and in as tolerable spirits as
could be expected, after the melancholy scene so lately gone through at
Rosings. To Rosings he then hastened, to console Lady Catherine and her
daughter; and on his return brought back, with great satisfaction, a
message from her ladyship, importing that she felt herself so dull as to
make her very desirous of having them all to dine with her.
Elizabeth could not see Lady Catherine without
recollecting that, had she chosen it, she might by this time have been
presented to her as her future niece; nor could she think, without a
smile, of what her ladyship's indignation would have been. "What
would she have said? how would she have behaved?" were questions
with which she amused herself.
Their first subject was the diminution of the
Rosings party. "I assure you, I feel it exceedingly," said
Lady Catherine; "I believe no one feels the loss of friends so much
as I do. But I am particularly attached to these young men, and know
them to be so much attached to me! They were excessively sorry to go!
But so they always are. The dear Colonel rallied his spirits tolerably
till just at last; but Darcy seemed to feel it most acutely, more, I
think, than last year. His attachment to Rosings certainly
increases."
Mr. Collins had a compliment, and an allusion to
throw in here, which were kindly smiled on by the mother and daughter.
Lady Catherine observed, after dinner, that Miss
Bennet seemed out of spirits, and immediately accounting for it by
herself, by supposing that she did not like to go home again so soon,
she added:
"But if that is the case, you must write to
your mother and beg that you may stay a little longer. Mrs. Collins will
be very glad of your company, I am sure."
"I am much obliged to your ladyship for your
kind invitation," replied Elizabeth, "but it is not in my
power to accept it. I must be in town next Saturday."
"Why, at that rate, you will have been here
only six weeks. I expected you to stay two months. I told Mrs. Collins
so before you came. There can be no occasion for your going so soon.
Mrs. Bennet could certainly spare you for another fortnight."
"But my father cannot. He wrote last week to
hurry my return."
"Oh! your father of course may spare you, if
your mother can. Daughters are never of so much consequence to a father.
And if you will stay another _month_ complete, it will be in my power to
take one of you as far as London, for I am going there early in June,
for a week; and as Dawson does not object to the barouche-box, there
will be very good room for one of you--and indeed, if the weather should
happen to be cool, I should not object to taking you both, as you are
neither of you large."
"You are all kindness, madam; but I believe
we must abide by our original plan."
Lady Catherine seemed resigned. "Mrs.
Collins, you must send a servant with them. You know I always speak my
mind, and I cannot bear the idea of two young women travelling post by
themselves. It is highly improper. You must contrive to send somebody. I
have the greatest dislike in the world to that sort of thing. Young
women should always be properly guarded and attended, according to their
situation in life. When my niece Georgiana went to Ramsgate last summer,
I made a point of her having two men-servants go with her. Miss Darcy,
the daughter of Mr. Darcy, of Pemberley, and Lady Anne, could not have
appeared with propriety in a different manner. I am excessively
attentive to all those things. You must send John with the young ladies,
Mrs. Collins. I am glad it occurred to me to mention it; for it would
really be discreditable to _you_ to let them go alone."
"My uncle is to send a servant for us."
"Oh! Your uncle! He keeps a man-servant, does
he? I am very glad you have somebody who thinks of these things. Where
shall you change horses? Oh! Bromley, of course. If you mention my name
at the Bell, you will be attended to."
Lady Catherine had many other questions to ask
respecting their journey, and as she did not answer them all herself,
attention was necessary, which Elizabeth believed to be lucky for her;
or, with a mind so occupied, she might have forgotten where she was.
Reflection must be reserved for solitary hours; whenever she was alone,
she gave way to it as the greatest relief; and not a day went by without
a solitary walk, in which she might indulge in all the delight of
unpleasant recollections.
Mr. Darcy's letter she was in a fair way of soon
knowing by heart. She studied every sentence; and her feelings towards
its writer were at times widely different. When she remembered the style
of his address, she was still full of indignation; but when she
considered how unjustly she had condemned and upbraided him, her anger
was turned against herself; and his disappointed feelings became the
object of compassion. His attachment excited gratitude, his general
character respect; but she could not approve him; nor could she for a
moment repent her refusal, or feel the slightest inclination ever to see
him again. In her own past behaviour, there was a constant source of
vexation and regret; and in the unhappy defects of her family, a subject
of yet heavier chagrin. They were hopeless of remedy. Her father,
contented with laughing at them, would never exert himself to restrain
the wild giddiness of his youngest daughters; and her mother, with
manners so far from right herself, was entirely insensible of the evil.
Elizabeth had frequently united with Jane in an endeavour to check the
imprudence of Catherine and Lydia; but while they were supported by
their mother's indulgence, what chance could there be of improvement?
Catherine, weak-spirited, irritable, and completely under Lydia's
guidance, had been always affronted by their advice; and Lydia,
self-willed and careless, would scarcely give them a hearing. They were
ignorant, idle, and vain. While there was an officer in Meryton, they
would flirt with him; and while Meryton was within a walk of Longbourn,
they would be going there forever.
Anxiety on Jane's behalf was another prevailing
concern; and Mr. Darcy's explanation, by restoring Bingley to all her
former good opinion, heightened the sense of what Jane had lost. His
affection was proved to have been sincere, and his conduct cleared of
all blame, unless any could attach to the implicitness of his confidence
in his friend. How grievous then was the thought that, of a situation so
desirable in every respect, so replete with advantage, so promising for
happiness, Jane had been deprived, by the folly and indecorum of her own
family!
When to these recollections was added the
development of Wickham's character, it may be easily believed that the
happy spirits which had seldom been depressed before, were now so much
affected as to make it almost impossible for her to appear tolerably
cheerful.
Their engagements at Rosings were as frequent
during the last week of her stay as they had been at first. The very
last evening was spent there; and her ladyship again inquired minutely
into the particulars of their journey, gave them directions as to the
best method of packing, and was so urgent on the necessity of placing
gowns in the only right way, that Maria thought herself obliged, on her
return, to undo all the work of the morning, and pack her trunk afresh.
When they parted, Lady Catherine, with great
condescension, wished them a good journey, and invited them to come to
Hunsford again next year; and Miss de Bourgh exerted herself so far as
to curtsey and hold out her hand to both.
Chapter 38
On Saturday morning Elizabeth and Mr. Collins met
for breakfast a few minutes before the others appeared; and he took the
opportunity of paying the parting civilities which he deemed
indispensably necessary.
"I know not, Miss Elizabeth," said he,
"whether Mrs. Collins has yet expressed her sense of your kindness
in coming to us; but I am very certain you will not leave the house
without receiving her thanks for it. The favor of your company has been
much felt, I assure you. We know how little there is to tempt anyone to
our humble abode. Our plain manner of living, our small rooms and few
domestics, and the little we see of the world, must make Hunsford
extremely dull to a young lady like yourself; but I hope you will
believe us grateful for the condescension, and that we have done
everything in our power to prevent your spending your time
unpleasantly."
Elizabeth was eager with her thanks and assurances
of happiness. She had spent six weeks with great enjoyment; and the
pleasure of being with Charlotte, and the kind attentions she had
received, must make _her_ feel the obliged. Mr. Collins was gratified,
and with a more smiling solemnity replied:
"It gives me great pleasure to hear that you
have passed your time not disagreeably. We have certainly done our best;
and most fortunately having it in our power to introduce you to very
superior society, and, from our connection with Rosings, the frequent
means of varying the humble home scene, I think we may flatter ourselves
that your Hunsford visit cannot have been entirely irksome. Our
situation with regard to Lady Catherine's family is indeed the sort of
extraordinary advantage and blessing which few can boast. You see on
what a footing we are. You see how continually we are engaged there. In
truth I must acknowledge that, with all the disadvantages of this humble
parsonage, I should not think anyone abiding in it an object of
compassion, while they are sharers of our intimacy at Rosings."
Words were insufficient for the elevation of his
feelings; and he was obliged to walk about the room, while Elizabeth
tried to unite civility and truth in a few short sentences.
"You may, in fact, carry a very favourable
report of us into Hertfordshire, my dear cousin. I flatter myself at
least that you will be able to do so. Lady Catherine's great attentions
to Mrs. Collins you have been a daily witness of; and altogether I trust
it does not appear that your friend has drawn an unfortunate--but on
this point it will be as well to be silent. Only let me assure you, my
dear Miss Elizabeth, that I can from my heart most cordially wish you
equal felicity in marriage. My dear Charlotte and I have but one mind
and one way of thinking. There is in everything a most remarkable
resemblance of character and ideas between us. We seem to have been
designed for each other."
Elizabeth could safely say that it was a great
happiness where that was the case, and with equal sincerity could add,
that she firmly believed and rejoiced in his domestic comforts. She was
not sorry, however, to have the recital of them interrupted by the lady
from whom they sprang. Poor Charlotte! it was melancholy to leave her to
such society! But she had chosen it with her eyes open; and though
evidently regretting that her visitors were to go, she did not seem to
ask for compassion. Her home and her housekeeping, her parish and her
poultry, and all their dependent concerns, had not yet lost their
charms.
At length the chaise arrived, the trunks were
fastened on, the parcels placed within, and it was pronounced to be
ready. After an affectionate parting between the friends, Elizabeth was
attended to the carriage by Mr. Collins, and as they walked down the
garden he was commissioning her with his best respects to all her
family, not forgetting his thanks for the kindness he had received at
Longbourn in the winter, and his compliments to Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner,
though unknown. He then handed her in, Maria followed, and the door was
on the point of being closed, when he suddenly reminded them, with some
consternation, that they had hitherto forgotten to leave any message for
the ladies at Rosings.
"But," he added, "you will of
course wish to have your humble respects delivered to them, with your
grateful thanks for their kindness to you while you have been
here."
Elizabeth made no objection; the door was then
allowed to be shut, and the carriage drove off.
"Good gracious!" cried Maria, after a
few minutes' silence, "it seems but a day or two since we first
came! and yet how many things have happened!"
"A great many indeed," said her
companion with a sigh.
"We have dined nine times at Rosings, besides
drinking tea there twice! How much I shall have to tell!"
Elizabeth added privately, "And how much I
shall have to conceal!"
Their journey was performed without much
conversation, or any alarm; and within four hours of their leaving
Hunsford they reached Mr. Gardiner's house, where they were to remain a
few days.
Jane looked well, and Elizabeth had little
opportunity of studying her spirits, amidst the various engagements
which the kindness of her aunt had reserved for them. But Jane was to go
home with her, and at Longbourn there would be leisure enough for
observation.
It was not without an effort, meanwhile, that she
could wait even for Longbourn, before she told her sister of Mr. Darcy's
proposals. To know that she had the power of revealing what would so
exceedingly astonish Jane, and must, at the same time, so highly gratify
whatever of her own vanity she had not yet been able to reason away, was
such a temptation to openness as nothing could have conquered but the
state of indecision in which she remained as to the extent of what she
should communicate; and her fear, if she once entered on the subject, of
being hurried into repeating something of Bingley which might only
grieve her sister further.
Chapter 39
It was the second week in May, in which the three
young ladies set out together from Gracechurch Street for the town of
----, in Hertfordshire; and, as they drew near the appointed inn where
Mr. Bennet's carriage was to meet them, they quickly perceived, in token
of the coachman's punctuality, both Kitty and Lydia looking out of a
dining-room upstairs. These two girls had been above an hour in the
place, happily employed in visiting an opposite milliner, watching the
sentinel on guard, and dressing a salad and cucumber.
After welcoming their sisters, they triumphantly
displayed a table set out with such cold meat as an inn larder usually
affords, exclaiming, "Is not this nice? Is not this an agreeable
surprise?"
"And we mean to treat you all," added
Lydia, "but you must lend us the money, for we have just spent ours
at the shop out there." Then, showing her purchases--"Look
here, I have bought this bonnet. I do not think it is very pretty; but I
thought I might as well buy it as not. I shall pull it to pieces as soon
as I get home, and see if I can make it up any better."
And when her sisters abused it as ugly, she added,
with perfect unconcern, "Oh! but there were two or three much
uglier in the shop; and when I have bought some prettier-coloured satin
to trim it with fresh, I think it will be very tolerable. Besides, it
will not much signify what one wears this summer, after the ----shire
have left Meryton, and they are going in a fortnight."
"Are they indeed!" cried Elizabeth, with
the greatest satisfaction.
"They are going to be encamped near Brighton;
and I do so want papa to take us all there for the summer! It would be
such a delicious scheme; and I dare say would hardly cost anything at
all. Mamma would like to go too of all things! Only think what a
miserable summer else we shall have!"
"Yes," thought Elizabeth, "_that_
would be a delightful scheme indeed, and completely do for us at once.
Good Heaven! Brighton, and a whole campful of soldiers, to us, who have
been overset already by one poor regiment of militia, and the monthly
balls of Meryton!"
"Now I have got some news for you," said
Lydia, as they sat down at table. "What do you think? It is
excellent news--capital news--and about a certain person we all
like!"
Jane and Elizabeth looked at each other, and the
waiter was told he need not stay. Lydia laughed, and said:
"Aye, that is just like your formality and
discretion. You thought the waiter must not hear, as if he cared! I dare
say he often hears worse things said than I am going to say. But he is
an ugly fellow! I am glad he is gone. I never saw such a long chin in my
life. Well, but now for my news; it is about dear Wickham; too good for
the waiter, is it not? There is no danger of Wickham's marrying Mary
King. There's for you! She is gone down to her uncle at Liverpool: gone
to stay. Wickham is safe."
"And Mary King is safe!" added
Elizabeth; "safe from a connection imprudent as to fortune."
"She is a great fool for going away, if she
liked him."
"But I hope there is no strong attachment on
either side," said Jane.
"I am sure there is not on _his_. I will
answer for it, he never cared three straws about her--who could about
such a nasty little freckled thing?"
Elizabeth was shocked to think that, however
incapable of such coarseness of _expression_ herself, the coarseness of
the _sentiment_ was little other than her own breast had harboured and
fancied liberal!
As soon as all had ate, and the elder ones paid,
the carriage was ordered; and after some contrivance, the whole party,
with all their boxes, work-bags, and parcels, and the unwelcome addition
of Kitty's and Lydia's purchases, were seated in it.
"How nicely we are all crammed in,"
cried Lydia. "I am glad I bought my bonnet, if it is only for the
fun of having another bandbox! Well, now let us be quite comfortable and
snug, and talk and laugh all the way home. And in the first place, let
us hear what has happened to you all since you went away. Have you seen
any pleasant men? Have you had any flirting? I was in great hopes that
one of you would have got a husband before you came back. Jane will be
quite an old maid soon, I declare. She is almost three-and-twenty! Lord,
how ashamed I should be of not being married before three-and-twenty! My
aunt Phillips wants you so to get husbands, you can't think. She says
Lizzy had better have taken Mr. Collins; but _I_ do not think there
would have been any fun in it. Lord! how I should like to be married
before any of you; and then I would chaperon you about to all the balls.
Dear me! we had such a good piece of fun the other day at Colonel
Forster's. Kitty and me were to spend the day there, and Mrs. Forster
promised to have a little dance in the evening; (by the bye, Mrs.
Forster and me are _such_ friends!) and so she asked the two Harringtons
to come, but Harriet was ill, and so Pen was forced to come by herself;
and then, what do you think we did? We dressed up Chamberlayne in
woman's clothes on purpose to pass for a lady, only think what fun! Not
a soul knew of it, but Colonel and Mrs. Forster, and Kitty and me,
except my aunt, for we were forced to borrow one of her gowns; and you
cannot imagine how well he looked! When Denny, and Wickham, and Pratt,
and two or three more of the men came in, they did not know him in the
least. Lord! how I laughed! and so did Mrs. Forster. I thought I should
have died. And _that_ made the men suspect something, and then they soon
found out what was the matter."
With such kinds of histories of their parties and
good jokes, did Lydia, assisted by Kitty's hints and additions,
endeavour to amuse her companions all the way to Longbourn. Elizabeth
listened as little as she could, but there was no escaping the frequent
mention of Wickham's name.
Their reception at home was most kind. Mrs. Bennet
rejoiced to see Jane in undiminished beauty; and more than once during
dinner did Mr. Bennet say voluntarily to Elizabeth:
"I am glad you are come back, Lizzy."
Their party in the dining-room was large, for
almost all the Lucases came to meet Maria and hear the news; and various
were the subjects that occupied them: Lady Lucas was inquiring of Maria,
after the welfare and poultry of her eldest daughter; Mrs. Bennet was
doubly engaged, on one hand collecting an account of the present
fashions from Jane, who sat some way below her, and, on the other,
retailing them all to the younger Lucases; and Lydia, in a voice rather
louder than any other person's, was enumerating the various pleasures of
the morning to anybody who would hear her.
"Oh! Mary," said she, "I wish you
had gone with us, for we had such fun! As we went along, Kitty and I
drew up the blinds, and pretended there was nobody in the coach; and I
should have gone so all the way, if Kitty had not been sick; and when we
got to the George, I do think we behaved very handsomely, for we treated
the other three with the nicest cold luncheon in the world, and if you
would have gone, we would have treated you too. And then when we came
away it was such fun! I thought we never should have got into the coach.
I was ready to die of laughter. And then we were so merry all the way
home! we talked and laughed so loud, that anybody might have heard us
ten miles off!"
To this Mary very gravely replied, "Far be it
from me, my dear sister, to depreciate such pleasures! They would
doubtless be congenial with the generality of female minds. But I
confess they would have no charms for _me_--I should infinitely prefer a
book."
But of this answer Lydia heard not a word. She
seldom listened to anybody for more than half a minute, and never
attended to Mary at all.
In the afternoon Lydia was urgent with the rest of
the girls to walk to Meryton, and to see how everybody went on; but
Elizabeth steadily opposed the scheme. It should not be said that the
Miss Bennets could not be at home half a day before they were in pursuit
of the officers. There was another reason too for her opposition. She
dreaded seeing Mr. Wickham again, and was resolved to avoid it as long
as possible. The comfort to _her_ of the regiment's approaching removal
was indeed beyond expression. In a fortnight they were to go--and once
gone, she hoped there could be nothing more to plague her on his
account.
She had not been many hours at home before she
found that the Brighton scheme, of which Lydia had given them a hint at
the inn, was under frequent discussion between her parents. Elizabeth
saw directly that her father had not the smallest intention of yielding;
but his answers were at the same time so vague and equivocal, that her
mother, though often disheartened, had never yet despaired of succeeding
at last.
Chapter 40
Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what
had happened could no longer be overcome; and at length, resolving to
suppress every particular in which her sister was concerned, and
preparing her to be surprised, she related to her the next morning the
chief of the scene between Mr. Darcy and herself.
Miss Bennet's astonishment was soon lessened by
the strong sisterly partiality which made any admiration of Elizabeth
appear perfectly natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in other
feelings. She was sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his
sentiments in a manner so little suited to recommend them; but still
more was she grieved for the unhappiness which her sister's refusal must
have given him.
"His being so sure of succeeding was
wrong," said she, "and certainly ought not to have appeared;
but consider how much it must increase his disappointment!"
"Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am
heartily sorry for him; but he has other feelings, which will probably
soon drive away his regard for me. You do not blame me, however, for
refusing him?"
"Blame you! Oh, no."
"But you blame me for having spoken so warmly
of Wickham?"
"No--I do not know that you were wrong in
saying what you did."
"But you _will_ know it, when I tell you what
happened the very next day."
She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole
of its contents as far as they concerned George Wickham. What a stroke
was this for poor Jane! who would willingly have gone through the world
without believing that so much wickedness existed in the whole race of
mankind, as was here collected in one individual. Nor was Darcy's
vindication, though grateful to her feelings, capable of consoling her
for such discovery. Most earnestly did she labour to prove the
probability of error, and seek to clear the one without involving the
other.
"This will not do," said Elizabeth;
"you never will be able to make both of them good for anything.
Take your choice, but you must be satisfied with only one. There is but
such a quantity of merit between them; just enough to make one good sort
of man; and of late it has been shifting about pretty much. For my part,
I am inclined to believe it all Darcy's; but you shall do as you
choose."
It was some time, however, before a smile could be
extorted from Jane.
"I do not know when I have been more
shocked," said she. "Wickham so very bad! It is almost past
belief. And poor Mr. Darcy! Dear Lizzy, only consider what he must have
suffered. Such a disappointment! and with the knowledge of your ill
opinion, too! and having to relate such a thing of his sister! It is
really too distressing. I am sure you must feel it so."
"Oh! no, my regret and compassion are all
done away by seeing you so full of both. I know you will do him such
ample justice, that I am growing every moment more unconcerned and
indifferent. Your profusion makes me saving; and if you lament over him
much longer, my heart will be as light as a feather."
"Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of
goodness in his countenance! such an openness and gentleness in his
manner!"
"There certainly was some great mismanagement
in the education of those two young men. One has got all the goodness,
and the other all the appearance of it."
"I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in
the _appearance_ of it as you used to do."
"And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in
taking so decided a dislike to him, without any reason. It is such a
spur to one's genius, such an opening for wit, to have a dislike of that
kind. One may be continually abusive without saying anything just; but
one cannot always be laughing at a man without now and then stumbling on
something witty."
"Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am
sure you could not treat the matter as you do now."
"Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable
enough, I may say unhappy. And with no one to speak to about what I
felt, no Jane to comfort me and say that I had not been so very weak and
vain and nonsensical as I knew I had! Oh! how I wanted you!"
"How unfortunate that you should have used
such very strong expressions in speaking of Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for
now they _do_ appear wholly undeserved."
"Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking
with bitterness is a most natural consequence of the prejudices I had
been encouraging. There is one point on which I want your advice. I want
to be told whether I ought, or ought not, to make our acquaintances in
general understand Wickham's character."
Miss Bennet paused a little, and then replied,
"Surely there can be no occasion for exposing him so dreadfully.
What is your opinion?"
"That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy
has not authorised me to make his communication public. On the contrary,
every particular relative to his sister was meant to be kept as much as
possible to myself; and if I endeavour to undeceive people as to the
rest of his conduct, who will believe me? The general prejudice against
Mr. Darcy is so violent, that it would be the death of half the good
people in Meryton to attempt to place him in an amiable light. I am not
equal to it. Wickham will soon be gone; and therefore it will not
signify to anyone here what he really is. Some time hence it will be all
found out, and then we may laugh at their stupidity in not knowing it
before. At present I will say nothing about it."
"You are quite right. To have his errors made
public might ruin him for ever. He is now, perhaps, sorry for what he
has done, and anxious to re-establish a character. We must not make him
desperate."
The tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this
conversation. She had got rid of two of the secrets which had weighed on
her for a fortnight, and was certain of a willing listener in Jane,
whenever she might wish to talk again of either. But there was still
something lurking behind, of which prudence forbade the disclosure. She
dared not relate the other half of Mr. Darcy's letter, nor explain to
her sister how sincerely she had been valued by her friend. Here was
knowledge in which no one could partake; and she was sensible that
nothing less than a perfect understanding between the parties could
justify her in throwing off this last encumbrance of mystery. "And
then," said she, "if that very improbable event should ever
take place, I shall merely be able to tell what Bingley may tell in a
much more agreeable manner himself. The liberty of communication cannot
be mine till it has lost all its value!"
She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure
to observe the real state of her sister's spirits. Jane was not happy.
She still cherished a very tender affection for Bingley. Having never
even fancied herself in love before, her regard had all the warmth of
first attachment, and, from her age and disposition, greater steadiness
than most first attachments often boast; and so fervently did she value
his remembrance, and prefer him to every other man, that all her good
sense, and all her attention to the feelings of her friends, were
requisite to check the indulgence of those regrets which must have been
injurious to her own health and their tranquillity.
"Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one day,
"what is your opinion _now_ of this sad business of Jane's? For my
part, I am determined never to speak of it again to anybody. I told my
sister Phillips so the other day. But I cannot find out that Jane saw
anything of him in London. Well, he is a very undeserving young man--and
I do not suppose there's the least chance in the world of her ever
getting him now. There is no talk of his coming to Netherfield again in
the summer; and I have inquired of everybody, too, who is likely to
know."
"I do not believe he will ever live at
Netherfield any more."
"Oh well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody
wants him to come. Though I shall always say he used my daughter
extremely ill; and if I was her, I would not have put up with it. Well,
my comfort is, I am sure Jane will die of a broken heart; and then he
will be sorry for what he has done."
But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from
any such expectation, she made no answer.
"Well, Lizzy," continued her mother,
soon afterwards, "and so the Collinses live very comfortable, do
they? Well, well, I only hope it will last. And what sort of table do
they keep? Charlotte is an excellent manager, I dare say. If she is half
as sharp as her mother, she is saving enough. There is nothing
extravagant in _their_ housekeeping, I dare say."
"No, nothing at all."
"A great deal of good management, depend upon
it. Yes, yes. _they_ will take care not to outrun their income. _They_
will never be distressed for money. Well, much good may it do them! And
so, I suppose, they often talk of having Longbourn when your father is
dead. They look upon it as quite their own, I dare say, whenever that
happens."
"It was a subject which they could not
mention before me."
"No; it would have been strange if they had;
but I make no doubt they often talk of it between themselves. Well, if
they can be easy with an estate that is not lawfully their own, so much
the better. I should be ashamed of having one that was only entailed on
me."
Chapter 41
The first week of their return was soon gone. The
second began. It was the last of the regiment's stay in Meryton, and all
the young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace. The dejection
was almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone were still able to
eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual course of their employments.
Very frequently were they reproached for this insensibility by Kitty and
Lydia, whose own misery was extreme, and who could not comprehend such
hard-heartedness in any of the family.
"Good Heaven! what is to become of us? What
are we to do?" would they often exclaim in the bitterness of woe.
"How can you be smiling so, Lizzy?"
Their affectionate mother shared all their grief;
she remembered what she had herself endured on a similar occasion,
five-and-twenty years ago.
"I am sure," said she, "I cried for
two days together when Colonel Miller's regiment went away. I thought I
should have broken my heart."
"I am sure I shall break _mine_," said
Lydia.
"If one could but go to Brighton!"
observed Mrs. Bennet.
"Oh, yes!--if one could but go to Brighton!
But papa is so disagreeable."
"A little sea-bathing would set me up
forever."
"And my aunt Phillips is sure it would do
_me_ a great deal of good," added Kitty.
Such were the kind of lamentations resounding
perpetually through Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted by
them; but all sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew the
justice of Mr. Darcy's objections; and never had she been so much
disposed to pardon his interference in the views of his friend.
But the gloom of Lydia's prospect was shortly
cleared away; for she received an invitation from Mrs. Forster, the wife
of the colonel of the regiment, to accompany her to Brighton. This
invaluable friend was a very young woman, and very lately married. A
resemblance in good humour and good spirits had recommended her and
Lydia to each other, and out of their _three_ months' acquaintance they
had been intimate _two_.
The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her
adoration of Mrs. Forster, the delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the
mortification of Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly inattentive
to her sister's feelings, Lydia flew about the house in restless
ecstasy, calling for everyone's congratulations, and laughing and
talking with more violence than ever; whilst the luckless Kitty
continued in the parlour repined at her fate in terms as unreasonable as
her accent was peevish.
"I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask
_me_ as well as Lydia," said she, "Though I am _not_ her
particular friend. I have just as much right to be asked as she has, and
more too, for I am two years older."
In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her
reasonable, and Jane to make her resigned. As for Elizabeth herself,
this invitation was so far from exciting in her the same feelings as in
her mother and Lydia, that she considered it as the death warrant of all
possibility of common sense for the latter; and detestable as such a
step must make her were it known, she could not help secretly advising
her father not to let her go. She represented to him all the
improprieties of Lydia's general behaviour, the little advantage she
could derive from the friendship of such a woman as Mrs. Forster, and
the probability of her being yet more imprudent with such a companion at
Brighton, where the temptations must be greater than at home. He heard
her attentively, and then said:
"Lydia will never be easy until she has
exposed herself in some public place or other, and we can never expect
her to do it with so little expense or inconvenience to her family as
under the present circumstances."
"If you were aware," said Elizabeth,
"of the very great disadvantage to us all which must arise from the
public notice of Lydia's unguarded and imprudent manner--nay, which has
already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in the
affair."
"Already arisen?" repeated Mr. Bennet.
"What, has she frightened away some of your lovers? Poor little
Lizzy! But do not be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear to
be connected with a little absurdity are not worth a regret. Come, let
me see the list of pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof by Lydia's
folly."
"Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such
injuries to resent. It is not of particular, but of general evils, which
I am now complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the world
must be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain of
all restraint which mark Lydia's character. Excuse me, for I must speak
plainly. If you, my dear father, will not take the trouble of checking
her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that her present pursuits are
not to be the business of her life, she will soon be beyond the reach of
amendment. Her character will be fixed, and she will, at sixteen, be the
most determined flirt that ever made herself or her family ridiculous; a
flirt, too, in the worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any
attraction beyond youth and a tolerable person; and, from the ignorance
and emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward off any portion of that
universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite. In this
danger Kitty also is comprehended. She will follow wherever Lydia leads.
Vain, ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrolled! Oh! my dear father,
can you suppose it possible that they will not be censured and despised
wherever they are known, and that their sisters will not be often
involved in the disgrace?"
Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the
subject, and affectionately taking her hand said in reply:
"Do not make yourself uneasy, my love.
Wherever you and Jane are known you must be respected and valued; and
you will not appear to less advantage for having a couple of--or I may
say, three--very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at Longbourn if
Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let her go, then. Colonel Forster is a
sensible man, and will keep her out of any real mischief; and she is
luckily too poor to be an object of prey to anybody. At Brighton she
will be of less importance even as a common flirt than she has been
here. The officers will find women better worth their notice. Let us
hope, therefore, that her being there may teach her her own
insignificance. At any rate, she cannot grow many degrees worse, without
authorising us to lock her up for the rest of her life."
With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be
content; but her own opinion continued the same, and she left him
disappointed and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to increase
her vexations by dwelling on them. She was confident of having performed
her duty, and to fret over unavoidable evils, or augment them by
anxiety, was no part of her disposition.
Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of
her conference with her father, their indignation would hardly have
found expression in their united volubility. In Lydia's imagination, a
visit to Brighton comprised every possibility of earthly happiness. She
saw, with the creative eye of fancy, the streets of that gay
bathing-place covered with officers. She saw herself the object of
attention, to tens and to scores of them at present unknown. She saw all
the glories of the camp--its tents stretched forth in beauteous
uniformity of lines, crowded with the young and the gay, and dazzling
with scarlet; and, to complete the view, she saw herself seated beneath
a tent, tenderly flirting with at least six officers at once.
Had she known her sister sought to tear her from
such prospects and such realities as these, what would have been her
sensations? They could have been understood only by her mother, who
might have felt nearly the same. Lydia's going to Brighton was all that
consoled her for her melancholy conviction of her husband's never
intending to go there himself.
But they were entirely ignorant of what had
passed; and their raptures continued, with little intermission, to the
very day of Lydia's leaving home.
Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last
time. Having been frequently in company with him since her return,
agitation was pretty well over; the agitations of formal partiality
entirely so. She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness which
had first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to disgust and
weary. In his present behaviour to herself, moreover, she had a fresh
source of displeasure, for the inclination he soon testified of renewing
those intentions which had marked the early part of their acquaintance
could only serve, after what had since passed, to provoke her. She lost
all concern for him in finding herself thus selected as the object of
such idle and frivolous gallantry; and while she steadily repressed it,
could not but feel the reproof contained in his believing, that however
long, and for whatever cause, his attentions had been withdrawn, her
vanity would be gratified, and her preference secured at any time by
their renewal.
On the very last day of the regiment's remaining
at Meryton, he dined, with other of the officers, at Longbourn; and so
little was Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good humour, that on
his making some inquiry as to the manner in which her time had passed at
Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam's and Mr. Darcy's having
both spent three weeks at Rosings, and asked him, if he was acquainted
with the former.
He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed; but with
a moment's recollection and a returning smile, replied, that he had
formerly seen him often; and, after observing that he was a very
gentlemanlike man, asked her how she had liked him. Her answer was
warmly in his favour. With an air of indifference he soon afterwards
added:
"How long did you say he was at Rosings?"
"Nearly three weeks."
"And you saw him frequently?"
"Yes, almost every day."
"His manners are very different from his
cousin's."
"Yes, very different. But I think Mr. Darcy
improves upon acquaintance."
"Indeed!" cried Mr. Wickham with a look
which did not escape her. "And pray, may I ask?--" But
checking himself, he added, in a gayer tone, "Is it in address that
he improves? Has he deigned to add aught of civility to his ordinary
style?--for I dare not hope," he continued in a lower and more
serious tone, "that he is improved in essentials."
"Oh, no!" said Elizabeth. "In
essentials, I believe, he is very much what he ever was."
While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely
knowing whether to rejoice over her words, or to distrust their meaning.
There was a something in her countenance which made him listen with an
apprehensive and anxious attention, while she added:
"When I said that he improved on
acquaintance, I did not mean that his mind or his manners were in a
state of improvement, but that, from knowing him better, his disposition
was better understood."
Wickham's alarm now appeared in a heightened
complexion and agitated look; for a few minutes he was silent, till,
shaking off his embarrassment, he turned to her again, and said in the
gentlest of accents:
"You, who so well know my feeling towards Mr.
Darcy, will readily comprehend how sincerely I must rejoice that he is
wise enough to assume even the _appearance_ of what is right. His pride,
in that direction, may be of service, if not to himself, to many others,
for it must only deter him from such foul misconduct as I have suffered
by. I only fear that the sort of cautiousness to which you, I imagine,
have been alluding, is merely adopted on his visits to his aunt, of
whose good opinion and judgement he stands much in awe. His fear of her
has always operated, I know, when they were together; and a good deal is
to be imputed to his wish of forwarding the match with Miss de Bourgh,
which I am certain he has very much at heart."
Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but
she answered only by a slight inclination of the head. She saw that he
wanted to engage her on the old subject of his grievances, and she was
in no humour to indulge him. The rest of the evening passed with the
_appearance_, on his side, of usual cheerfulness, but with no further
attempt to distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted at last with mutual
civility, and possibly a mutual desire of never meeting again.
When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs.
Forster to Meryton, from whence they were to set out early the next
morning. The separation between her and her family was rather noisy than
pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but she did weep from
vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse in her good wishes for the
felicity of her daughter, and impressive in her injunctions that she
should not miss the opportunity of enjoying herself as much as
possible--advice which there was every reason to believe would be well
attended to; and in the clamorous happiness of Lydia herself in bidding
farewell, the more gentle adieus of her sisters were uttered without
being heard.
Chapter 42
Had Elizabeth's opinion been all drawn from her
own family, she could not have formed a very pleasing opinion of
conjugal felicity or domestic comfort. Her father, captivated by youth
and beauty, and that appearance of good humour which youth and beauty
generally give, had married a woman whose weak understanding and
illiberal mind had very early in their marriage put an end to all real
affection for her. Respect, esteem, and confidence had vanished for
ever; and all his views of domestic happiness were overthrown. But Mr.
Bennet was not of a disposition to seek comfort for the disappointment
which his own imprudence had brought on, in any of those pleasures which
too often console the unfortunate for their folly or their vice. He was
fond of the country and of books; and from these tastes had arisen his
principal enjoyments. To his wife he was very little otherwise indebted,
than as her ignorance and folly had contributed to his amusement. This
is not the sort of happiness which a man would in general wish to owe to
his wife; but where other powers of entertainment are wanting, the true
philosopher will derive benefit from such as are given.
Elizabeth, however, had never been blind to the
impropriety of her father's behaviour as a husband. She had always seen
it with pain; but respecting his abilities, and grateful for his
affectionate treatment of herself, she endeavoured to forget what she
could not overlook, and to banish from her thoughts that continual
breach of conjugal obligation and decorum which, in exposing his wife to
the contempt of her own children, was so highly reprehensible. But she
had never felt so strongly as now the disadvantages which must attend
the children of so unsuitable a marriage, nor ever been so fully aware
of the evils arising from so ill-judged a direction of talents; talents,
which, rightly used, might at least have preserved the respectability of
his daughters, even if incapable of enlarging the mind of his wife.
When Elizabeth had rejoiced over Wickham's
departure she found little other cause for satisfaction in the loss of
the regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied than before, and at
home she had a mother and sister whose constant repinings at the
dullness of everything around them threw a real gloom over their
domestic circle; and, though Kitty might in time regain her natural
degree of sense, since the disturbers of her brain were removed, her
other sister, from whose disposition greater evil might be apprehended,
was likely to be hardened in all her folly and assurance by a situation
of such double danger as a watering-place and a camp. Upon the whole,
therefore, she found, what has been sometimes found before, that an
event to which she had been looking with impatient desire did not, in
taking place, bring all the satisfaction she had promised herself. It
was consequently necessary to name some other period for the
commencement of actual felicity--to have some other point on which her
wishes and hopes might be fixed, and by again enjoying the pleasure of
anticipation, console herself for the present, and prepare for another
disappointment. Her tour to the Lakes was now the object of her happiest
thoughts; it was her best consolation for all the uncomfortable hours
which the discontentedness of her mother and Kitty made inevitable; and
could she have included Jane in the scheme, every part of it would have
been perfect.
"But it is fortunate," thought she,
"that I have something to wish for. Were the whole arrangement
complete, my disappointment would be certain. But here, by carrying with
me one ceaseless source of regret in my sister's absence, I may
reasonably hope to have all my expectations of pleasure realised. A
scheme of which every part promises delight can never be successful; and
general disappointment is only warded off by the defence of some little
peculiar vexation."
When Lydia went away she promised to write very
often and very minutely to her mother and Kitty; but her letters were
always long expected, and always very short. Those to her mother
contained little else than that they were just returned from the
library, where such and such officers had attended them, and where she
had seen such beautiful ornaments as made her quite wild; that she had a
new gown, or a new parasol, which she would have described more fully,
but was obliged to leave off in a violent hurry, as Mrs. Forster called
her, and they were going off to the camp; and from her correspondence
with her sister, there was still less to be learnt--for her letters to
Kitty, though rather longer, were much too full of lines under the words
to be made public.
After the first fortnight or three weeks of her
absence, health, good humour, and cheerfulness began to reappear at
Longbourn. Everything wore a happier aspect. The families who had been
in town for the winter came back again, and summer finery and summer
engagements arose. Mrs. Bennet was restored to her usual querulous
serenity; and, by the middle of June, Kitty was so much recovered as to
be able to enter Meryton without tears; an event of such happy promise
as to make Elizabeth hope that by the following Christmas she might be
so tolerably reasonable as not to mention an officer above once a day,
unless, by some cruel and malicious arrangement at the War Office,
another regiment should be quartered in Meryton.
The time fixed for the beginning of their northern
tour was now fast approaching, and a fortnight only was wanting of it,
when a letter arrived from Mrs. Gardiner, which at once delayed its
commencement and curtailed its extent. Mr. Gardiner would be prevented
by business from setting out till a fortnight later in July, and must be
in London again within a month, and as that left too short a period for
them to go so far, and see so much as they had proposed, or at least to
see it with the leisure and comfort they had built on, they were obliged
to give up the Lakes, and substitute a more contracted tour, and,
according to the present plan, were to go no farther northwards than
Derbyshire. In that county there was enough to be seen to occupy the
chief of their three weeks; and to Mrs. Gardiner it had a peculiarly
strong attraction. The town where she had formerly passed some years of
her life, and where they were now to spend a few days, was probably as
great an object of her curiosity as all the celebrated beauties of
Matlock, Chatsworth, Dovedale, or the Peak.
Elizabeth was excessively disappointed; she had
set her heart on seeing the Lakes, and still thought there might have
been time enough. But it was her business to be satisfied--and certainly
her temper to be happy; and all was soon right again.
With the mention of Derbyshire there were many
ideas connected. It was impossible for her to see the word without
thinking of Pemberley and its owner. "But surely," said she,
"I may enter his county without impunity, and rob it of a few
petrified spars without his perceiving me."
The period of expectation was now doubled. Four
weeks were to pass away before her uncle and aunt's arrival. But they
did pass away, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, with their four children, did
at length appear at Longbourn. The children, two girls of six and eight
years old, and two younger boys, were to be left under the particular
care of their cousin Jane, who was the general favourite, and whose
steady sense and sweetness of temper exactly adapted her for attending
to them in every way--teaching them, playing with them, and loving them.
The Gardiners stayed only one night at Longbourn,
and set off the next morning with Elizabeth in pursuit of novelty and
amusement. One enjoyment was certain--that of suitableness of
companions; a suitableness which comprehended health and temper to bear
inconveniences--cheerfulness to enhance every pleasure--and affection
and intelligence, which might supply it among themselves if there were
disappointments abroad.
It is not the object of this work to give a
description of Derbyshire, nor of any of the remarkable places through
which their route thither lay; Oxford, Blenheim, Warwick, Kenilworth,
Birmingham, etc. are sufficiently known. A small part of Derbyshire is
all the present concern. To the little town of Lambton, the scene of
Mrs. Gardiner's former residence, and where she had lately learned some
acquaintance still remained, they bent their steps, after having seen
all the principal wonders of the country; and within five miles of
Lambton, Elizabeth found from her aunt that Pemberley was situated. It
was not in their direct road, nor more than a mile or two out of it. In
talking over their route the evening before, Mrs. Gardiner expressed an
inclination to see the place again. Mr. Gardiner declared his
willingness, and Elizabeth was applied to for her approbation.
"My love, should not you like to see a place
of which you have heard so much?" said her aunt; "a place,
too, with which so many of your acquaintances are connected. Wickham
passed all his youth there, you know."
Elizabeth was distressed. She felt that she had no
business at Pemberley, and was obliged to assume a disinclination for
seeing it. She must own that she was tired of seeing great houses; after
going over so many, she really had no pleasure in fine carpets or satin
curtains.
Mrs. Gardiner abused her stupidity. "If it
were merely a fine house richly furnished," said she, "I
should not care about it myself; but the grounds are delightful. They
have some of the finest woods in the country."
Elizabeth said no more--but her mind could not
acquiesce. The possibility of meeting Mr. Darcy, while viewing the
place, instantly occurred. It would be dreadful! She blushed at the very
idea, and thought it would be better to speak openly to her aunt than to
run such a risk. But against this there were objections; and she finally
resolved that it could be the last resource, if her private inquiries to
the absence of the family were unfavourably answered.
Accordingly, when she retired at night, she asked
the chambermaid whether Pemberley were not a very fine place? what was
the name of its proprietor? and, with no little alarm, whether the
family were down for the summer? A most welcome negative followed the
last question--and her alarms now being removed, she was at leisure to
feel a great deal of curiosity to see the house herself; and when the
subject was revived the next morning, and she was again applied to,
could readily answer, and with a proper air of indifference, that she
had not really any dislike to the scheme. To Pemberley, therefore, they
were to go.
Chapter 43
Elizabeth, as they drove along, watched for the
first appearance of Pemberley Woods with some perturbation; and when at
length they turned in at the lodge, her spirits were in a high flutter.
The park was very large, and contained great
variety of ground. They entered it in one of its lowest points, and
drove for some time through a beautiful wood stretching over a wide
extent.
Elizabeth's mind was too full for conversation,
but she saw and admired every remarkable spot and point of view. They
gradually ascended for half-a-mile, and then found themselves at the top
of a considerable eminence, where the wood ceased, and the eye was
instantly caught by Pemberley House, situated on the opposite side of a
valley, into which the road with some abruptness wound. It was a large,
handsome stone building, standing well on rising ground, and backed by a
ridge of high woody hills; and in front, a stream of some natural
importance was swelled into greater, but without any artificial
appearance. Its banks were neither formal nor falsely adorned. Elizabeth
was delighted. She had never seen a place for which nature had done
more, or where natural beauty had been so little counteracted by an
awkward taste. They were all of them warm in their admiration; and at
that moment she felt that to be mistress of Pemberley might be
something!
They descended the hill, crossed the bridge, and
drove to the door; and, while examining the nearer aspect of the house,
all her apprehension of meeting its owner returned. She dreaded lest the
chambermaid had been mistaken. On applying to see the place, they were
admitted into the hall; and Elizabeth, as they waited for the
housekeeper, had leisure to wonder at her being where she was.
The housekeeper came; a respectable-looking
elderly woman, much less fine, and more civil, than she had any notion
of finding her. They followed her into the dining-parlour. It was a
large, well proportioned room, handsomely fitted up. Elizabeth, after
slightly surveying it, went to a window to enjoy its prospect. The hill,
crowned with wood, which they had descended, receiving increased
abruptness from the distance, was a beautiful object. Every disposition
of the ground was good; and she looked on the whole scene, the river,
the trees scattered on its banks and the winding of the valley, as far
as she could trace it, with delight. As they passed into other rooms
these objects were taking different positions; but from every window
there were beauties to be seen. The rooms were lofty and handsome, and
their furniture suitable to the fortune of its proprietor; but Elizabeth
saw, with admiration of his taste, that it was neither gaudy nor
uselessly fine; with less of splendour, and more real elegance, than the
furniture of Rosings.
"And of this place," thought she,
"I might have been mistress! With these rooms I might now have been
familiarly acquainted! Instead of viewing them as a stranger, I might
have rejoiced in them as my own, and welcomed to them as visitors my
uncle and aunt. But no,"--recollecting herself--"that could
never be; my uncle and aunt would have been lost to me; I should not
have been allowed to invite them."
This was a lucky recollection--it saved her from
something very like regret.
She longed to inquire of the housekeeper whether
her master was really absent, but had not the courage for it. At length
however, the question was asked by her uncle; and she turned away with
alarm, while Mrs. Reynolds replied that he was, adding, "But we
expect him to-morrow, with a large party of friends." How rejoiced
was Elizabeth that their own journey had not by any circumstance been
delayed a day!
Her aunt now called her to look at a picture. She
approached and saw the likeness of Mr. Wickham, suspended, amongst
several other miniatures, over the mantelpiece. Her aunt asked her,
smilingly, how she liked it. The housekeeper came forward, and told them
it was a picture of a young gentleman, the son of her late master's
steward, who had been brought up by him at his own expense. "He is
now gone into the army," she added; "but I am afraid he has
turned out very wild."
Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece with a smile,
but Elizabeth could not return it.
"And that," said Mrs. Reynolds, pointing
to another of the miniatures, "is my master--and very like him. It
was drawn at the same time as the other--about eight years ago."
"I have heard much of your master's fine
person," said Mrs. Gardiner, looking at the picture; "it is a
handsome face. But, Lizzy, you can tell us whether it is like or
not."
Mrs. Reynolds respect for Elizabeth seemed to
increase on this intimation of her knowing her master.
"Does that young lady know Mr. Darcy?"
Elizabeth coloured, and said: "A
little."
"And do not you think him a very handsome
gentleman, ma'am?"
"Yes, very handsome."
"I am sure I know none so handsome; but in
the gallery upstairs you will see a finer, larger picture of him than
this. This room was my late master's favourite room, and these
miniatures are just as they used to be then. He was very fond of
them."
This accounted to Elizabeth for Mr. Wickham's
being among them.
Mrs. Reynolds then directed their attention to one
of Miss Darcy, drawn when she was only eight years old.
"And is Miss Darcy as handsome as her
brother?" said Mrs. Gardiner.
"Oh! yes--the handsomest young lady that ever
was seen; and so accomplished!--She plays and sings all day long. In the
next room is a new instrument just come down for her--a present from my
master; she comes here to-morrow with him."
Mr. Gardiner, whose manners were very easy and
pleasant, encouraged her communicativeness by his questions and remarks;
Mrs. Reynolds, either by pride or attachment, had evidently great
pleasure in talking of her master and his sister.
"Is your master much at Pemberley in the
course of the year?"
"Not so much as I could wish, sir; but I dare
say he may spend half his time here; and Miss Darcy is always down for
the summer months."
"Except," thought Elizabeth, "when
she goes to Ramsgate."
"If your master would marry, you might see
more of him."
"Yes, sir; but I do not know when _that_ will
be. I do not know who is good enough for him."
Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner smiled. Elizabeth could not
help saying, "It is very much to his credit, I am sure, that you
should think so."
"I say no more than the truth, and everybody
will say that knows him," replied the other. Elizabeth thought this
was going pretty far; and she listened with increasing astonishment as
the housekeeper added, "I have never known a cross word from him in
my life, and I have known him ever since he was four years old."
This was praise, of all others most extraordinary,
most opposite to her ideas. That he was not a good-tempered man had been
her firmest opinion. Her keenest attention was awakened; she longed to
hear more, and was grateful to her uncle for saying:
"There are very few people of whom so much
can be said. You are lucky in having such a master."
"Yes, sir, I know I am. If I were to go
through the world, I could not meet with a better. But I have always
observed, that they who are good-natured when children, are good-natured
when they grow up; and he was always the sweetest-tempered, most
generous-hearted boy in the world."
Elizabeth almost stared at her. "Can this be
Mr. Darcy?" thought she.
"His father was an excellent man," said
Mrs. Gardiner.
"Yes, ma'am, that he was indeed; and his son
will be just like him--just as affable to the poor."
Elizabeth listened, wondered, doubted, and was
impatient for more. Mrs. Reynolds could interest her on no other point.
She related the subjects of the pictures, the dimensions of the rooms,
and the price of the furniture, in vain, Mr. Gardiner, highly amused by
the kind of family prejudice to which he attributed her excessive
commendation of her master, soon led again to the subject; and she dwelt
with energy on his many merits as they proceeded together up the great
staircase.
"He is the best landlord, and the best
master," said she, "that ever lived; not like the wild young
men nowadays, who think of nothing but themselves. There is not one of
his tenants or servants but will give him a good name. Some people call
him proud; but I am sure I never saw anything of it. To my fancy, it is
only because he does not rattle away like other young men."
"In what an amiable light does this place
him!" thought Elizabeth.
"This fine account of him," whispered
her aunt as they walked, "is not quite consistent with his
behaviour to our poor friend."
"Perhaps we might be deceived."
"That is not very likely; our authority was
too good."
On reaching the spacious lobby above they were
shown into a very pretty sitting-room, lately fitted up with greater
elegance and lightness than the apartments below; and were informed that
it was but just done to give pleasure to Miss Darcy, who had taken a
liking to the room when last at Pemberley.
"He is certainly a good brother," said
Elizabeth, as she walked towards one of the windows.
Mrs. Reynolds anticipated Miss Darcy's delight,
when she should enter the room. "And this is always the way with
him," she added. "Whatever can give his sister any pleasure is
sure to be done in a moment. There is nothing he would not do for
her."
The picture-gallery, and two or three of the
principal bedrooms, were all that remained to be shown. In the former
were many good paintings; but Elizabeth knew nothing of the art; and
from such as had been already visible below, she had willingly turned to
look at some drawings of Miss Darcy's, in crayons, whose subjects were
usually more interesting, and also more intelligible.
In the gallery there were many family portraits,
but they could have little to fix the attention of a stranger. Elizabeth
walked in quest of the only face whose features would be known to her.
At last it arrested her--and she beheld a striking resemblance to Mr.
Darcy, with such a smile over the face as she remembered to have
sometimes seen when he looked at her. She stood several minutes before
the picture, in earnest contemplation, and returned to it again before
they quitted the gallery. Mrs. Reynolds informed them that it had been
taken in his father's lifetime.
There was certainly at this moment, in Elizabeth's
mind, a more gentle sensation towards the original than she had ever
felt at the height of their acquaintance. The commendation bestowed on
him by Mrs. Reynolds was of no trifling nature. What praise is more
valuable than the praise of an intelligent servant? As a brother, a
landlord, a master, she considered how many people's happiness were in
his guardianship!--how much of pleasure or pain was it in his power to
bestow!--how much of good or evil must be done by him! Every idea that
had been brought forward by the housekeeper was favourable to his
character, and as she stood before the canvas on which he was
represented, and fixed his eyes upon herself, she thought of his regard
with a deeper sentiment of gratitude than it had ever raised before; she
remembered its warmth, and softened its impropriety of expression.
When all of the house that was open to general
inspection had been seen, they returned downstairs, and, taking leave of
the housekeeper, were consigned over to the gardener, who met them at
the hall-door.
As they walked across the hall towards the river,
Elizabeth turned back to look again; her uncle and aunt stopped also,
and while the former was conjecturing as to the date of the building,
the owner of it himself suddenly came forward from the road, which led
behind it to the stables.
They were within twenty yards of each other, and
so abrupt was his appearance, that it was impossible to avoid his sight.
Their eyes instantly met, and the cheeks of both were overspread with
the deepest blush. He absolutely started, and for a moment seemed
immovable from surprise; but shortly recovering himself, advanced
towards the party, and spoke to Elizabeth, if not in terms of perfect
composure, at least of perfect civility.
She had instinctively turned away; but stopping on
his approach, received his compliments with an embarrassment impossible
to be overcome. Had his first appearance, or his resemblance to the
picture they had just been examining, been insufficient to assure the
other two that they now saw Mr. Darcy, the gardener's expression of
surprise, on beholding his master, must immediately have told it. They
stood a little aloof while he was talking to their niece, who,
astonished and confused, scarcely dared lift her eyes to his face, and
knew not what answer she returned to his civil inquiries after her
family. Amazed at the alteration of his manner since they last parted,
every sentence that he uttered was increasing her embarrassment; and
every idea of the impropriety of her being found there recurring to her
mind, the few minutes in which they continued were some of the most
uncomfortable in her life. Nor did he seem much more at ease; when he
spoke, his accent had none of its usual sedateness; and he repeated his
inquiries as to the time of her having left Longbourn, and of her having
stayed in Derbyshire, so often, and in so hurried a way, as plainly
spoke the distraction of his thoughts.
At length every idea seemed to fail him; and,
after standing a few moments without saying a word, he suddenly
recollected himself, and took leave.
The others then joined her, and expressed
admiration of his figure; but Elizabeth heard not a word, and wholly
engrossed by her own feelings, followed them in silence. She was
overpowered by shame and vexation. Her coming there was the most
unfortunate, the most ill-judged thing in the world! How strange it must
appear to him! In what a disgraceful light might it not strike so vain a
man! It might seem as if she had purposely thrown herself in his way
again! Oh! why did she come? Or, why did he thus come a day before he
was expected? Had they been only ten minutes sooner, they should have
been beyond the reach of his discrimination; for it was plain that he
was that moment arrived--that moment alighted from his horse or his
carriage. She blushed again and again over the perverseness of the
meeting. And his behaviour, so strikingly altered--what could it mean?
That he should even speak to her was amazing!--but to speak with such
civility, to inquire after her family! Never in her life had she seen
his manners so little dignified, never had he spoken with such
gentleness as on this unexpected meeting. What a contrast did it offer
to his last address in Rosings Park, when he put his letter into her
hand! She knew not what to think, or how to account for it.
They had now entered a beautiful walk by the side
of the water, and every step was bringing forward a nobler fall of
ground, or a finer reach of the woods to which they were approaching;
but it was some time before Elizabeth was sensible of any of it; and,
though she answered mechanically to the repeated appeals of her uncle
and aunt, and seemed to direct her eyes to such objects as they pointed
out, she distinguished no part of the scene. Her thoughts were all fixed
on that one spot of Pemberley House, whichever it might be, where Mr.
Darcy then was. She longed to know what at the moment was passing in his
mind--in what manner he thought of her, and whether, in defiance of
everything, she was still dear to him. Perhaps he had been civil only
because he felt himself at ease; yet there had been _that_ in his voice
which was not like ease. Whether he had felt more of pain or of pleasure
in seeing her she could not tell, but he certainly had not seen her with
composure.
At length, however, the remarks of her companions
on her absence of mind aroused her, and she felt the necessity of
appearing more like herself.
They entered the woods, and bidding adieu to the
river for a while, ascended some of the higher grounds; when, in spots
where the opening of the trees gave the eye power to wander, were many
charming views of the valley, the opposite hills, with the long range of
woods overspreading many, and occasionally part of the stream. Mr.
Gardiner expressed a wish of going round the whole park, but feared it
might be beyond a walk. With a triumphant smile they were told that it
was ten miles round. It settled the matter; and they pursued the
accustomed circuit; which brought them again, after some time, in a
descent among hanging woods, to the edge of the water, and one of its
narrowest parts. They crossed it by a simple bridge, in character with
the general air of the scene; it was a spot less adorned than any they
had yet visited; and the valley, here contracted into a glen, allowed
room only for the stream, and a narrow walk amidst the rough
coppice-wood which bordered it. Elizabeth longed to explore its
windings; but when they had crossed the bridge, and perceived their
distance from the house, Mrs. Gardiner, who was not a great walker,
could go no farther, and thought only of returning to the carriage as
quickly as possible. Her niece was, therefore, obliged to submit, and
they took their way towards the house on the opposite side of the river,
in the nearest direction; but their progress was slow, for Mr. Gardiner,
though seldom able to indulge the taste, was very fond of fishing, and
was so much engaged in watching the occasional appearance of some trout
in the water, and talking to the man about them, that he advanced but
little. Whilst wandering on in this slow manner, they were again
surprised, and Elizabeth's astonishment was quite equal to what it had
been at first, by the sight of Mr. Darcy approaching them, and at no
great distance. The walk here being here less sheltered than on the
other side, allowed them to see him before they met. Elizabeth, however
astonished, was at least more prepared for an interview than before, and
resolved to appear and to speak with calmness, if he really intended to
meet them. For a few moments, indeed, she felt that he would probably
strike into some other path. The idea lasted while a turning in the walk
concealed him from their view; the turning past, he was immediately
before them. With a glance, she saw that he had lost none of his recent
civility; and, to imitate his politeness, she began, as they met, to
admire the beauty of the place; but she had not got beyond the words
"delightful," and "charming," when some unlucky
recollections obtruded, and she fancied that praise of Pemberley from
her might be mischievously construed. Her colour changed, and she said
no more.
Mrs. Gardiner was standing a little behind; and on
her pausing, he asked her if she would do him the honour of introducing
him to her friends. This was a stroke of civility for which she was
quite unprepared; and she could hardly suppress a smile at his being now
seeking the acquaintance of some of those very people against whom his
pride had revolted in his offer to herself. "What will be his
surprise," thought she, "when he knows who they are? He takes
them now for people of fashion."
The introduction, however, was immediately made;
and as she named their relationship to herself, she stole a sly look at
him, to see how he bore it, and was not without the expectation of his
decamping as fast as he could from such disgraceful companions. That he
was _surprised_ by the connection was evident; he sustained it, however,
with fortitude, and so far from going away, turned his back with them,
and entered into conversation with Mr. Gardiner. Elizabeth could not but
be pleased, could not but triumph. It was consoling that he should know
she had some relations for whom there was no need to blush. She listened
most attentively to all that passed between them, and gloried in every
expression, every sentence of her uncle, which marked his intelligence,
his taste, or his good manners.
The conversation soon turned upon fishing; and she
heard Mr. Darcy invite him, with the greatest civility, to fish there as
often as he chose while he continued in the neighbourhood, offering at
the same time to supply him with fishing tackle, and pointing out those
parts of the stream where there was usually most sport. Mrs. Gardiner,
who was walking arm-in-arm with Elizabeth, gave her a look expressive of
wonder. Elizabeth said nothing, but it gratified her exceedingly; the
compliment must be all for herself. Her astonishment, however, was
extreme, and continually was she repeating, "Why is he so altered?
From what can it proceed? It cannot be for _me_--it cannot be for _my_
sake that his manners are thus softened. My reproofs at Hunsford could
not work such a change as this. It is impossible that he should still
love me."
After walking some time in this way, the two
ladies in front, the two gentlemen behind, on resuming their places,
after descending to the brink of the river for the better inspection of
some curious water-plant, there chanced to be a little alteration. It
originated in Mrs. Gardiner, who, fatigued by the exercise of the
morning, found Elizabeth's arm inadequate to her support, and
consequently preferred her husband's. Mr. Darcy took her place by her
niece, and they walked on together. After a short silence, the lady
first spoke. She wished him to know that she had been assured of his
absence before she came to the place, and accordingly began by
observing, that his arrival had been very unexpected--"for your
housekeeper," she added, "informed us that you would certainly
not be here till to-morrow; and indeed, before we left Bakewell, we
understood that you were not immediately expected in the country."
He acknowledged the truth of it all, and said that business with his
steward had occasioned his coming forward a few hours before the rest of
the party with whom he had been travelling. "They will join me
early to-morrow," he continued, "and among them are some who
will claim an acquaintance with you--Mr. Bingley and his sisters."
Elizabeth answered only by a slight bow. Her
thoughts were instantly driven back to the time when Mr. Bingley's name
had been the last mentioned between them; and, if she might judge by his
complexion, _his_ mind was not very differently engaged.
"There is also one other person in the
party," he continued after a pause, "who more particularly
wishes to be known to you. Will you allow me, or do I ask too much, to
introduce my sister to your acquaintance during your stay at Lambton?"
The surprise of such an application was great
indeed; it was too great for her to know in what manner she acceded to
it. She immediately felt that whatever desire Miss Darcy might have of
being acquainted with her must be the work of her brother, and, without
looking farther, it was satisfactory; it was gratifying to know that his
resentment had not made him think really ill of her.
They now walked on in silence, each of them deep
in thought. Elizabeth was not comfortable; that was impossible; but she
was flattered and pleased. His wish of introducing his sister to her was
a compliment of the highest kind. They soon outstripped the others, and
when they had reached the carriage, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner were half a
quarter of a mile behind.
He then asked her to walk into the house--but she
declared herself not tired, and they stood together on the lawn. At such
a time much might have been said, and silence was very awkward. She
wanted to talk, but there seemed to be an embargo on every subject. At
last she recollected that she had been travelling, and they talked of
Matlock and Dove Dale with great perseverance. Yet time and her aunt
moved slowly--and her patience and her ideas were nearly worn our before
the tete-a-tete was over. On Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner's coming up they were
all pressed to go into the house and take some refreshment; but this was
declined, and they parted on each side with utmost politeness. Mr. Darcy
handed the ladies into the carriage; and when it drove off, Elizabeth
saw him walking slowly towards the house.
The observations of her uncle and aunt now began;
and each of them pronounced him to be infinitely superior to anything
they had expected. "He is perfectly well behaved, polite, and
unassuming," said her uncle.
"There _is_ something a little stately in
him, to be sure," replied her aunt, "but it is confined to his
air, and is not unbecoming. I can now say with the housekeeper, that
though some people may call him proud, I have seen nothing of it."
"I was never more surprised than by his
behaviour to us. It was more than civil; it was really attentive; and
there was no necessity for such attention. His acquaintance with
Elizabeth was very trifling."
"To be sure, Lizzy," said her aunt,
"he is not so handsome as Wickham; or, rather, he has not Wickham's
countenance, for his features are perfectly good. But how came you to
tell me that he was so disagreeable?"
Elizabeth excused herself as well as she could;
said that she had liked him better when they had met in Kent than
before, and that she had never seen him so pleasant as this morning.
"But perhaps he may be a little whimsical in
his civilities," replied her uncle. "Your great men often are;
and therefore I shall not take him at his word, as he might change his
mind another day, and warn me off his grounds."
Elizabeth felt that they had entirely
misunderstood his character, but said nothing.
"From what we have seen of him,"
continued Mrs. Gardiner, "I really should not have thought that he
could have behaved in so cruel a way by anybody as he has done by poor
Wickham. He has not an ill-natured look. On the contrary, there is
something pleasing about his mouth when he speaks. And there is
something of dignity in his countenance that would not give one an
unfavourable idea of his heart. But, to be sure, the good lady who
showed us his house did give him a most flaming character! I could
hardly help laughing aloud sometimes. But he is a liberal master, I
suppose, and _that_ in the eye of a servant comprehends every
virtue."
Elizabeth here felt herself called on to say
something in vindication of his behaviour to Wickham; and therefore gave
them to understand, in as guarded a manner as she could, that by what
she had heard from his relations in Kent, his actions were capable of a
very different construction; and that his character was by no means so
faulty, nor Wickham's so amiable, as they had been considered in
Hertfordshire. In confirmation of this, she related the particulars of
all the pecuniary transactions in which they had been connected, without
actually naming her authority, but stating it to be such as might be
relied on.
Mrs. Gardiner was surprised and concerned; but as
they were now approaching the scene of her former pleasures, every idea
gave way to the charm of recollection; and she was too much engaged in
pointing out to her husband all the interesting spots in its environs to
think of anything else. Fatigued as she had been by the morning's walk
they had no sooner dined than she set off again in quest of her former
acquaintance, and the evening was spent in the satisfactions of a
intercourse renewed after many years' discontinuance.
The occurrences of the day were too full of
interest to leave Elizabeth much attention for any of these new friends;
and she could do nothing but think, and think with wonder, of Mr.
Darcy's civility, and, above all, of his wishing her to be acquainted
with his sister.
Chapter 44
Elizabeth had settled it that Mr. Darcy would
bring his sister to visit her the very day after her reaching Pemberley;
and was consequently resolved not to be out of sight of the inn the
whole of that morning. But her conclusion was false; for on the very
morning after their arrival at Lambton, these visitors came. They had
been walking about the place with some of their new friends, and were
just returning to the inn to dress themselves for dining with the same
family, when the sound of a carriage drew them to a window, and they saw
a gentleman and a lady in a curricle driving up the street. Elizabeth
immediately recognizing the livery, guessed what it meant, and imparted
no small degree of her surprise to her relations by acquainting them
with the honour which she expected. Her uncle and aunt were all
amazement; and the embarrassment of her manner as she spoke, joined to
the circumstance itself, and many of the circumstances of the preceding
day, opened to them a new idea on the business. Nothing had ever
suggested it before, but they felt that there was no other way of
accounting for such attentions from such a quarter than by supposing a
partiality for their niece. While these newly-born notions were passing
in their heads, the perturbation of Elizabeth's feelings was at every
moment increasing. She was quite amazed at her own discomposure; but
amongst other causes of disquiet, she dreaded lest the partiality of the
brother should have said too much in her favour; and, more than commonly
anxious to please, she naturally suspected that every power of pleasing
would fail her.
She retreated from the window, fearful of being
seen; and as she walked up and down the room, endeavouring to compose
herself, saw such looks of inquiring surprise in her uncle and aunt as
made everything worse.
Miss Darcy and her brother appeared, and this
formidable introduction took place. With astonishment did Elizabeth see
that her new acquaintance was at least as much embarrassed as herself.
Since her being at Lambton, she had heard that Miss Darcy was
exceedingly proud; but the observation of a very few minutes convinced
her that she was only exceedingly shy. She found it difficult to obtain
even a word from her beyond a monosyllable.
Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than
Elizabeth; and, though little more than sixteen, her figure was formed,
and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less handsome than her
brother; but there was sense and good humour in her face, and her
manners were perfectly unassuming and gentle. Elizabeth, who had
expected to find in her as acute and unembarrassed an observer as ever
Mr. Darcy had been, was much relieved by discerning such different
feelings.
They had not long been together before Mr. Darcy
told her that Bingley was also coming to wait on her; and she had barely
time to express her satisfaction, and prepare for such a visitor, when
Bingley's quick step was heard on the stairs, and in a moment he entered
the room. All Elizabeth's anger against him had been long done away; but
had she still felt any, it could hardly have stood its ground against
the unaffected cordiality with which he expressed himself on seeing her
again. He inquired in a friendly, though general way, after her family,
and looked and spoke with the same good-humoured ease that he had ever
done.
To Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner he was scarcely a less
interesting personage than to herself. They had long wished to see him.
The whole party before them, indeed, excited a lively attention. The
suspicions which had just arisen of Mr. Darcy and their niece directed
their observation towards each with an earnest though guarded inquiry;
and they soon drew from those inquiries the full conviction that one of
them at least knew what it was to love. Of the lady's sensations they
remained a little in doubt; but that the gentleman was overflowing with
admiration was evident enough.
Elizabeth, on her side, had much to do. She wanted
to ascertain the feelings of each of her visitors; she wanted to compose
her own, and to make herself agreeable to all; and in the latter object,
where she feared most to fail, she was most sure of success, for those
to whom she endeavoured to give pleasure were prepossessed in her favour.
Bingley was ready, Georgiana was eager, and Darcy determined, to be
pleased.
In seeing Bingley, her thoughts naturally flew to
her sister; and, oh! how ardently did she long to know whether any of
his were directed in a like manner. Sometimes she could fancy that he
talked less than on former occasions, and once or twice pleased herself
with the notion that, as he looked at her, he was trying to trace a
resemblance. But, though this might be imaginary, she could not be
deceived as to his behaviour to Miss Darcy, who had been set up as a
rival to Jane. No look appeared on either side that spoke particular
regard. Nothing occurred between them that could justify the hopes of
his sister. On this point she was soon satisfied; and two or three
little circumstances occurred ere they parted, which, in her anxious
interpretation, denoted a recollection of Jane not untinctured by
tenderness, and a wish of saying more that might lead to the mention of
her, had he dared. He observed to her, at a moment when the others were
talking together, and in a tone which had something of real regret, that
it "was a very long time since he had had the pleasure of seeing
her;" and, before she could reply, he added, "It is above
eight months. We have not met since the 26th of November, when we were
all dancing together at Netherfield."
Elizabeth was pleased to find his memory so exact;
and he afterwards took occasion to ask her, when unattended to by any of
the rest, whether _all_ her sisters were at Longbourn. There was not
much in the question, nor in the preceding remark; but there was a look
and a manner which gave them meaning.
It was not often that she could turn her eyes on
Mr. Darcy himself; but, whenever she did catch a glimpse, she saw an
expression of general complaisance, and in all that he said she heard an
accent so removed from _hauteur_ or disdain of his companions, as
convinced her that the improvement of manners which she had yesterday
witnessed however temporary its existence might prove, had at least
outlived one day. When she saw him thus seeking the acquaintance and
courting the good opinion of people with whom any intercourse a few
months ago would have been a disgrace--when she saw him thus civil, not
only to herself, but to the very relations whom he had openly disdained,
and recollected their last lively scene in Hunsford Parsonage--the
difference, the change was so great, and struck so forcibly on her mind,
that she could hardly restrain her astonishment from being visible.
Never, even in the company of his dear friends at Netherfield, or his
dignified relations at Rosings, had she seen him so desirous to please,
so free from self-consequence or unbending reserve, as now, when no
importance could result from the success of his endeavours, and when
even the acquaintance of those to whom his attentions were addressed
would draw down the ridicule and censure of the ladies both of
Netherfield and Rosings.
Their visitors stayed with them above
half-an-hour; and when they arose to depart, Mr. Darcy called on his
sister to join him in expressing their wish of seeing Mr. and Mrs.
Gardiner, and Miss Bennet, to dinner at Pemberley, before they left the
country. Miss Darcy, though with a diffidence which marked her little in
the habit of giving invitations, readily obeyed. Mrs. Gardiner looked at
her niece, desirous of knowing how _she_, whom the invitation most
concerned, felt disposed as to its acceptance, but Elizabeth had turned
away her head. Presuming however, that this studied avoidance spoke
rather a momentary embarrassment than any dislike of the proposal, and
seeing in her husband, who was fond of society, a perfect willingness to
accept it, she ventured to engage for her attendance, and the day after
the next was fixed on.
Bingley expressed great pleasure in the certainty
of seeing Elizabeth again, having still a great deal to say to her, and
many inquiries to make after all their Hertfordshire friends. Elizabeth,
construing all this into a wish of hearing her speak of her sister, was
pleased, and on this account, as well as some others, found herself,
when their visitors left them, capable of considering the last half-hour
with some satisfaction, though while it was passing, the enjoyment of it
had been little. Eager to be alone, and fearful of inquiries or hints
from her uncle and aunt, she stayed with them only long enough to hear
their favourable opinion of Bingley, and then hurried away to dress.
But she had no reason to fear Mr. and Mrs.
Gardiner's curiosity; it was not their wish to force her communication.
It was evident that she was much better acquainted with Mr. Darcy than
they had before any idea of; it was evident that he was very much in
love with her. They saw much to interest, but nothing to justify
inquiry.
Of Mr. Darcy it was now a matter of anxiety to
think well; and, as far as their acquaintance reached, there was no
fault to find. They could not be untouched by his politeness; and had
they drawn his character from their own feelings and his servant's
report, without any reference to any other account, the circle in
Hertfordshire to which he was known would not have recognized it for Mr.
Darcy. There was now an interest, however, in believing the housekeeper;
and they soon became sensible that the authority of a servant who had
known him since he was four years old, and whose own manners indicated
respectability, was not to be hastily rejected. Neither had anything
occurred in the intelligence of their Lambton friends that could
materially lessen its weight. They had nothing to accuse him of but
pride; pride he probably had, and if not, it would certainly be imputed
by the inhabitants of a small market-town where the family did not
visit. It was acknowledged, however, that he was a liberal man, and did
much good among the poor.
With respect to Wickham, the travellers soon found
that he was not held there in much estimation; for though the chief of
his concerns with the son of his patron were imperfectly understood, it
was yet a well-known fact that, on his quitting Derbyshire, he had left
many debts behind him, which Mr. Darcy afterwards discharged.
As for Elizabeth, her thoughts were at Pemberley
this evening more than the last; and the evening, though as it passed it
seemed long, was not long enough to determine her feelings towards _one_
in that mansion; and she lay awake two whole hours endeavouring to make
them out. She certainly did not hate him. No; hatred had vanished long
ago, and she had almost as long been ashamed of ever feeling a dislike
against him, that could be so called. The respect created by the
conviction of his valuable qualities, though at first unwillingly
admitted, had for some time ceased to be repugnant to her feeling; and
it was now heightened into somewhat of a friendlier nature, by the
testimony so highly in his favour, and bringing forward his disposition
in so amiable a light, which yesterday had produced. But above all,
above respect and esteem, there was a motive within her of goodwill
which could not be overlooked. It was gratitude; gratitude, not merely
for having once loved her, but for loving her still well enough to
forgive all the petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him,
and all the unjust accusations accompanying her rejection. He who, she
had been persuaded, would avoid her as his greatest enemy, seemed, on
this accidental meeting, most eager to preserve the acquaintance, and
without any indelicate display of regard, or any peculiarity of manner,
where their two selves only were concerned, was soliciting the good
opinion of her friends, and bent on making her known to his sister. Such
a change in a man of so much pride exciting not only astonishment but
gratitude--for to love, ardent love, it must be attributed; and as such
its impression on her was of a sort to be encouraged, as by no means
unpleasing, though it could not be exactly defined. She respected, she
esteemed, she was grateful to him, she felt a real interest in his
welfare; and she only wanted to know how far she wished that welfare to
depend upon herself, and how far it would be for the happiness of both
that she should employ the power, which her fancy told her she still
possessed, of bringing on her the renewal of his addresses.
It had been settled in the evening between the
aunt and the niece, that such a striking civility as Miss Darcy's in
coming to see them on the very day of her arrival at Pemberley, for she
had reached it only to a late breakfast, ought to be imitated, though it
could not be equalled, by some exertion of politeness on their side;
and, consequently, that it would be highly expedient to wait on her at
Pemberley the following morning. They were, therefore, to go. Elizabeth
was pleased; though when she asked herself the reason, she had very
little to say in reply.
Mr. Gardiner left them soon after breakfast. The
fishing scheme had been renewed the day before, and a positive
engagement made of his meeting some of the gentlemen at Pemberley before
noon.
Chapter 45
Convinced as Elizabeth now was that Miss Bingley's
dislike of her had originated in jealousy, she could not help feeling
how unwelcome her appearance at Pemberley must be to her, and was
curious to know with how much civility on that lady's side the
acquaintance would now be renewed.
On reaching the house, they were shown through the
hall into the saloon, whose northern aspect rendered it delightful for
summer. Its windows opening to the ground, admitted a most refreshing
view of the high woody hills behind the house, and of the beautiful oaks
and Spanish chestnuts which were scattered over the intermediate lawn.
In this house they were received by Miss Darcy,
who was sitting there with Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley, and the lady
with whom she lived in London. Georgiana's reception of them was very
civil, but attended with all the embarrassment which, though proceeding
from shyness and the fear of doing wrong, would easily give to those who
felt themselves inferior the belief of her being proud and reserved.
Mrs. Gardiner and her niece, however, did her justice, and pitied her.
By Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley they were noticed
only by a curtsey; and, on their being seated, a pause, awkward as such
pauses must always be, succeeded for a few moments. It was first broken
by Mrs. Annesley, a genteel, agreeable-looking woman, whose endeavour to
introduce some kind of discourse proved her to be more truly well-bred
than either of the others; and between her and Mrs. Gardiner, with
occasional help from Elizabeth, the conversation was carried on. Miss
Darcy looked as if she wished for courage enough to join in it; and
sometimes did venture a short sentence when there was least danger of
its being heard.
Elizabeth soon saw that she was herself closely
watched by Miss Bingley, and that she could not speak a word, especially
to Miss Darcy, without calling her attention. This observation would not
have prevented her from trying to talk to the latter, had they not been
seated at an inconvenient distance; but she was not sorry to be spared
the necessity of saying much. Her own thoughts were employing her. She
expected every moment that some of the gentlemen would enter the room.
She wished, she feared that the master of the house might be amongst
them; and whether she wished or feared it most, she could scarcely
determine. After sitting in this manner a quarter of an hour without
hearing Miss Bingley's voice, Elizabeth was roused by receiving from her
a cold inquiry after the health of her family. She answered with equal
indifference and brevity, and the others said no more.
The next variation which their visit afforded was
produced by the entrance of servants with cold meat, cake, and a variety
of all the finest fruits in season; but this did not take place till
after many a significant look and smile from Mrs. Annesley to Miss Darcy
had been given, to remind her of her post. There was now employment for
the whole party--for though they could not all talk, they could all eat;
and the beautiful pyramids of grapes, nectarines, and peaches soon
collected them round the table.
While thus engaged, Elizabeth had a fair
opportunity of deciding whether she most feared or wished for the
appearance of Mr. Darcy, by the feelings which prevailed on his entering
the room; and then, though but a moment before she had believed her
wishes to predominate, she began to regret that he came.
He had been some time with Mr. Gardiner, who, with
two or three other gentlemen from the house, was engaged by the river,
and had left him only on learning that the ladies of the family intended
a visit to Georgiana that morning. No sooner did he appear than
Elizabeth wisely resolved to be perfectly easy and unembarrassed; a
resolution the more necessary to be made, but perhaps not the more
easily kept, because she saw that the suspicions of the whole party were
awakened against them, and that there was scarcely an eye which did not
watch his behaviour when he first came into the room. In no countenance
was attentive curiosity so strongly marked as in Miss Bingley's, in
spite of the smiles which overspread her face whenever she spoke to one
of its objects; for jealousy had not yet made her desperate, and her
attentions to Mr. Darcy were by no means over. Miss Darcy, on her
brother's entrance, exerted herself much more to talk, and Elizabeth saw
that he was anxious for his sister and herself to get acquainted, and
forwarded as much as possible, every attempt at conversation on either
side. Miss Bingley saw all this likewise; and, in the imprudence of
anger, took the first opportunity of saying, with sneering civility:
"Pray, Miss Eliza, are not the ----shire
Militia removed from Meryton? They must be a great loss to _your_
family."
In Darcy's presence she dared not mention
Wickham's name; but Elizabeth instantly comprehended that he was
uppermost in her thoughts; and the various recollections connected with
him gave her a moment's distress; but exerting herself vigorously to
repel the ill-natured attack, she presently answered the question in a
tolerably detached tone. While she spoke, an involuntary glance showed
her Darcy, with a heightened complexion, earnestly looking at her, and
his sister overcome with confusion, and unable to lift up her eyes. Had
Miss Bingley known what pain she was then giving her beloved friend, she
undoubtedly would have refrained from the hint; but she had merely
intended to discompose Elizabeth by bringing forward the idea of a man
to whom she believed her partial, to make her betray a sensibility which
might injure her in Darcy's opinion, and, perhaps, to remind the latter
of all the follies and absurdities by which some part of her family were
connected with that corps. Not a syllable had ever reached her of Miss
Darcy's meditated elopement. To no creature had it been revealed, where
secrecy was possible, except to Elizabeth; and from all Bingley's
connections her brother was particularly anxious to conceal it, from the
very wish which Elizabeth had long ago attributed to him, of their
becoming hereafter her own. He had certainly formed such a plan, and
without meaning that it should effect his endeavour to separate him from
Miss Bennet, it is probable that it might add something to his lively
concern for the welfare of his friend.
Elizabeth's collected behaviour, however, soon
quieted his emotion; and as Miss Bingley, vexed and disappointed, dared
not approach nearer to Wickham, Georgiana also recovered in time, though
not enough to be able to speak any more. Her brother, whose eye she
feared to meet, scarcely recollected her interest in the affair, and the
very circumstance which had been designed to turn his thoughts from
Elizabeth seemed to have fixed them on her more and more cheerfully.
Their visit did not continue long after the
question and answer above mentioned; and while Mr. Darcy was attending
them to their carriage Miss Bingley was venting her feelings in
criticisms on Elizabeth's person, behaviour, and dress. But Georgiana
would not join her. Her brother's recommendation was enough to ensure
her favour; his judgement could not err. And he had spoken in such terms
of Elizabeth as to leave Georgiana without the power of finding her
otherwise than lovely and amiable. When Darcy returned to the saloon,
Miss Bingley could not help repeating to him some part of what she had
been saying to his sister.
"How very ill Miss Eliza Bennet looks this
morning, Mr. Darcy," she cried; "I never in my life saw anyone
so much altered as she is since the winter. She is grown so brown and
coarse! Louisa and I were agreeing that we should not have known her
again."
However little Mr. Darcy might have liked such an
address, he contented himself with coolly replying that he perceived no
other alteration than her being rather tanned, no miraculous consequence
of travelling in the summer.
"For my own part," she rejoined, "I
must confess that I never could see any beauty in her. Her face is too
thin; her complexion has no brilliancy; and her features are not at all
handsome. Her nose wants character--there is nothing marked in its
lines. Her teeth are tolerable, but not out of the common way; and as
for her eyes, which have sometimes been called so fine, I could never
see anything extraordinary in them. They have a sharp, shrewish look,
which I do not like at all; and in her air altogether there is a
self-sufficiency without fashion, which is intolerable."
Persuaded as Miss Bingley was that Darcy admired
Elizabeth, this was not the best method of recommending herself; but
angry people are not always wise; and in seeing him at last look
somewhat nettled, she had all the success she expected. He was
resolutely silent, however, and, from a determination of making him
speak, she continued:
"I remember, when we first knew her in
Hertfordshire, how amazed we all were to find that she was a reputed
beauty; and I particularly recollect your saying one night, after they
had been dining at Netherfield, '_She_ a beauty!--I should as soon call
her mother a wit.' But afterwards she seemed to improve on you, and I
believe you thought her rather pretty at one time."
"Yes," replied Darcy, who could contain
himself no longer, "but _that_ was only when I first saw her, for
it is many months since I have considered her as one of the handsomest
women of my acquaintance."
He then went away, and Miss Bingley was left to
all the satisfaction of having forced him to say what gave no one any
pain but herself.
Mrs. Gardiner and Elizabeth talked of all that had
occurred during their visit, as they returned, except what had
particularly interested them both. The look and behaviour of everybody
they had seen were discussed, except of the person who had mostly
engaged their attention. They talked of his sister, his friends, his
house, his fruit--of everything but himself; yet Elizabeth was longing
to know what Mrs. Gardiner thought of him, and Mrs. Gardiner would have
been highly gratified by her niece's beginning the subject.
Chapter 46
Elizabeth had been a good deal disappointed in not
finding a letter from Jane on their first arrival at Lambton; and this
disappointment had been renewed on each of the mornings that had now
been spent there; but on the third her repining was over, and her sister
justified, by the receipt of two letters from her at once, on one of
which was marked that it had been missent elsewhere. Elizabeth was not
surprised at it, as Jane had written the direction remarkably ill.
They had just been preparing to walk as the
letters came in; and her uncle and aunt, leaving her to enjoy them in
quiet, set off by themselves. The one missent must first be attended to;
it had been written five days ago. The beginning contained an account of
all their little parties and engagements, with such news as the country
afforded; but the latter half, which was dated a day later, and written
in evident agitation, gave more important intelligence. It was to this
effect:
"Since writing the above, dearest Lizzy,
something has occurred of a most unexpected and serious nature; but I am
afraid of alarming you--be assured that we are all well. What I have to
say relates to poor Lydia. An express came at twelve last night, just as
we were all gone to bed, from Colonel Forster, to inform us that she was
gone off to Scotland with one of his officers; to own the truth, with
Wickham! Imagine our surprise. To Kitty, however, it does not seem so
wholly unexpected. I am very, very sorry. So imprudent a match on both
sides! But I am willing to hope the best, and that his character has
been misunderstood. Thoughtless and indiscreet I can easily believe him,
but this step (and let us rejoice over it) marks nothing bad at heart.
His choice is disinterested at least, for he must know my father can
give her nothing. Our poor mother is sadly grieved. My father bears it
better. How thankful am I that we never let them know what has been said
against him; we must forget it ourselves. They were off Saturday night
about twelve, as is conjectured, but were not missed till yesterday
morning at eight. The express was sent off directly. My dear Lizzy, they
must have passed within ten miles of us. Colonel Forster gives us reason
to expect him here soon. Lydia left a few lines for his wife, informing
her of their intention. I must conclude, for I cannot be long from my
poor mother. I am afraid you will not be able to make it out, but I
hardly know what I have written."
Without allowing herself time for consideration,
and scarcely knowing what she felt, Elizabeth on finishing this letter
instantly seized the other, and opening it with the utmost impatience,
read as follows: it had been written a day later than the conclusion of
the first.
"By this time, my dearest sister, you have
received my hurried letter; I wish this may be more intelligible, but
though not confined for time, my head is so bewildered that I cannot
answer for being coherent. Dearest Lizzy, I hardly know what I would
write, but I have bad news for you, and it cannot be delayed. Imprudent
as the marriage between Mr. Wickham and our poor Lydia would be, we are
now anxious to be assured it has taken place, for there is but too much
reason to fear they are not gone to Scotland. Colonel Forster came
yesterday, having left Brighton the day before, not many hours after the
express. Though Lydia's short letter to Mrs. F. gave them to understand
that they were going to Gretna Green, something was dropped by Denny
expressing his belief that W. never intended to go there, or to marry
Lydia at all, which was repeated to Colonel F., who, instantly taking
the alarm, set off from B. intending to trace their route. He did trace
them easily to Clapham, but no further; for on entering that place, they
removed into a hackney coach, and dismissed the chaise that brought them
from Epsom. All that is known after this is, that they were seen to
continue the London road. I know not what to think. After making every
possible inquiry on that side London, Colonel F. came on into
Hertfordshire, anxiously renewing them at all the turnpikes, and at the
inns in Barnet and Hatfield, but without any success--no such people had
been seen to pass through. With the kindest concern he came on to
Longbourn, and broke his apprehensions to us in a manner most creditable
to his heart. I am sincerely grieved for him and Mrs. F., but no one can
throw any blame on them. Our distress, my dear Lizzy, is very great. My
father and mother believe the worst, but I cannot think so ill of him.
Many circumstances might make it more eligible for them to be married
privately in town than to pursue their first plan; and even if _he_
could form such a design against a young woman of Lydia's connections,
which is not likely, can I suppose her so lost to everything?
Impossible! I grieve to find, however, that Colonel F. is not disposed
to depend upon their marriage; he shook his head when I expressed my
hopes, and said he feared W. was not a man to be trusted. My poor mother
is really ill, and keeps her room. Could she exert herself, it would be
better; but this is not to be expected. And as to my father, I never in
my life saw him so affected. Poor Kitty has anger for having concealed
their attachment; but as it was a matter of confidence, one cannot
wonder. I am truly glad, dearest Lizzy, that you have been spared
something of these distressing scenes; but now, as the first shock is
over, shall I own that I long for your return? I am not so selfish,
however, as to press for it, if inconvenient. Adieu! I take up my pen
again to do what I have just told you I would not; but circumstances are
such that I cannot help earnestly begging you all to come here as soon
as possible. I know my dear uncle and aunt so well, that I am not afraid
of requesting it, though I have still something more to ask of the
former. My father is going to London with Colonel Forster instantly, to
try to discover her. What he means to do I am sure I know not; but his
excessive distress will not allow him to pursue any measure in the best
and safest way, and Colonel Forster is obliged to be at Brighton again
to-morrow evening. In such an exigence, my uncle's advice and assistance
would be everything in the world; he will immediately comprehend what I
must feel, and I rely upon his goodness."
"Oh! where, where is my uncle?" cried
Elizabeth, darting from her seat as she finished the letter, in
eagerness to follow him, without losing a moment of the time so
precious; but as she reached the door it was opened by a servant, and
Mr. Darcy appeared. Her pale face and impetuous manner made him start,
and before he could recover himself to speak, she, in whose mind every
idea was superseded by Lydia's situation, hastily exclaimed, "I beg
your pardon, but I must leave you. I must find Mr. Gardiner this moment,
on business that cannot be delayed; I have not an instant to lose."
"Good God! what is the matter?" cried
he, with more feeling than politeness; then recollecting himself,
"I will not detain you a minute; but let me, or let the servant go
after Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner. You are not well enough; you cannot go
yourself."
Elizabeth hesitated, but her knees trembled under
her and she felt how little would be gained by her attempting to pursue
them. Calling back the servant, therefore, she commissioned him, though
in so breathless an accent as made her almost unintelligible, to fetch
his master and mistress home instantly.
On his quitting the room she sat down, unable to
support herself, and looking so miserably ill, that it was impossible
for Darcy to leave her, or to refrain from saying, in a tone of
gentleness and commiseration, "Let me call your maid. Is there
nothing you could take to give you present relief? A glass of wine;
shall I get you one? You are very ill."
"No, I thank you," she replied,
endeavouring to recover herself. "There is nothing the matter with
me. I am quite well; I am only distressed by some dreadful news which I
have just received from Longbourn."
She burst into tears as she alluded to it, and for
a few minutes could not speak another word. Darcy, in wretched suspense,
could only say something indistinctly of his concern, and observe her in
compassionate silence. At length she spoke again. "I have just had
a letter from Jane, with such dreadful news. It cannot be concealed from
anyone. My younger sister has left all her friends--has eloped; has
thrown herself into the power of--of Mr. Wickham. They are gone off
together from Brighton. _You_ know him too well to doubt the rest. She
has no money, no connections, nothing that can tempt him to--she is lost
for ever."
Darcy was fixed in astonishment. "When I
consider," she added in a yet more agitated voice, "that I
might have prevented it! I, who knew what he was. Had I but explained
some part of it only--some part of what I learnt, to my own family! Had
his character been known, this could not have happened. But it is
all--all too late now."
"I am grieved indeed," cried Darcy;
"grieved--shocked. But is it certain--absolutely certain?"
"Oh, yes! They left Brighton together on
Sunday night, and were traced almost to London, but not beyond; they are
certainly not gone to Scotland."
"And what has been done, what has been
attempted, to recover her?"
"My father is gone to London, and Jane has
written to beg my uncle's immediate assistance; and we shall be off, I
hope, in half-an-hour. But nothing can be done--I know very well that
nothing can be done. How is such a man to be worked on? How are they
even to be discovered? I have not the smallest hope. It is every way
horrible!"
Darcy shook his head in silent acquiescence.
"When _my_ eyes were opened to his real
character--Oh! had I known what I ought, what I dared to do! But I knew
not--I was afraid of doing too much. Wretched, wretched mistake!"
Darcy made no answer. He seemed scarcely to hear
her, and was walking up and down the room in earnest meditation, his
brow contracted, his air gloomy. Elizabeth soon observed, and instantly
understood it. Her power was sinking; everything _must_ sink under such
a proof of family weakness, such an assurance of the deepest disgrace.
She could neither wonder nor condemn, but the belief of his
self-conquest brought nothing consolatory to her bosom, afforded no
palliation of her distress. It was, on the contrary, exactly calculated
to make her understand her own wishes; and never had she so honestly
felt that she could have loved him, as now, when all love must be vain.
But self, though it would intrude, could not
engross her. Lydia--the humiliation, the misery she was bringing on them
all, soon swallowed up every private care; and covering her face with
her handkerchief, Elizabeth was soon lost to everything else; and, after
a pause of several minutes, was only recalled to a sense of her
situation by the voice of her companion, who, in a manner which, though
it spoke compassion, spoke likewise restraint, said, "I am afraid
you have been long desiring my absence, nor have I anything to plead in
excuse of my stay, but real, though unavailing concern. Would to Heaven
that anything could be either said or done on my part that might offer
consolation to such distress! But I will not torment you with vain
wishes, which may seem purposely to ask for your thanks. This
unfortunate affair will, I fear, prevent my sister's having the pleasure
of seeing you at Pemberley to-day."
"Oh, yes. Be so kind as to apologise for us
to Miss Darcy. Say that urgent business calls us home immediately.
Conceal the unhappy truth as long as it is possible, I know it cannot be
long."
He readily assured her of his secrecy; again
expressed his sorrow for her distress, wished it a happier conclusion
than there was at present reason to hope, and leaving his compliments
for her relations, with only one serious, parting look, went away.
As he quitted the room, Elizabeth felt how
improbable it was that they should ever see each other again on such
terms of cordiality as had marked their several meetings in Derbyshire;
and as she threw a retrospective glance over the whole of their
acquaintance, so full of contradictions and varieties, sighed at the
perverseness of those feelings which would now have promoted its
continuance, and would formerly have rejoiced in its termination.
If gratitude and esteem are good foundations of
affection, Elizabeth's change of sentiment will be neither improbable
nor faulty. But if otherwise--if regard springing from such sources is
unreasonable or unnatural, in comparison of what is so often described
as arising on a first interview with its object, and even before two
words have been exchanged, nothing can be said in her defence, except
that she had given somewhat of a trial to the latter method in her
partiality for Wickham, and that its ill success might, perhaps,
authorise her to seek the other less interesting mode of attachment. Be
that as it may, she saw him go with regret; and in this early example of
what Lydia's infamy must produce, found additional anguish as she
reflected on that wretched business. Never, since reading Jane's second
letter, had she entertained a hope of Wickham's meaning to marry her. No
one but Jane, she thought, could flatter herself with such an
expectation. Surprise was the least of her feelings on this development.
While the contents of the first letter remained in her mind, she was all
surprise--all astonishment that Wickham should marry a girl whom it was
impossible he could marry for money; and how Lydia could ever have
attached him had appeared incomprehensible. But now it was all too
natural. For such an attachment as this she might have sufficient
charms; and though she did not suppose Lydia to be deliberately engaging
in an elopement without the intention of marriage, she had no difficulty
in believing that neither her virtue nor her understanding would
preserve her from falling an easy prey.
She had never perceived, while the regiment was in
Hertfordshire, that Lydia had any partiality for him; but she was
convinced that Lydia wanted only encouragement to attach herself to
anybody. Sometimes one officer, sometimes another, had been her
favourite, as their attentions raised them in her opinion. Her
affections had continually been fluctuating but never without an object.
The mischief of neglect and mistaken indulgence towards such a girl--oh!
how acutely did she now feel it!
She was wild to be at home--to hear, to see, to be
upon the spot to share with Jane in the cares that must now fall wholly
upon her, in a family so deranged, a father absent, a mother incapable
of exertion, and requiring constant attendance; and though almost
persuaded that nothing could be done for Lydia, her uncle's interference
seemed of the utmost importance, and till he entered the room her
impatience was severe. Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner had hurried back in alarm,
supposing by the servant's account that their niece was taken suddenly
ill; but satisfying them instantly on that head, she eagerly
communicated the cause of their summons, reading the two letters aloud,
and dwelling on the postscript of the last with trembling energy, though
Lydia had never been a favourite with them, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner could
not but be deeply afflicted. Not Lydia only, but all were concerned in
it; and after the first exclamations of surprise and horror, Mr.
Gardiner promised every assistance in his power. Elizabeth, though
expecting no less, thanked him with tears of gratitude; and all three
being actuated by one spirit, everything relating to their journey was
speedily settled. They were to be off as soon as possible. "But
what is to be done about Pemberley?" cried Mrs. Gardiner.
"John told us Mr. Darcy was here when you sent for us; was it
so?"
"Yes; and I told him we should not be able to
keep our engagement. _That_ is all settled."
"What is all settled?" repeated the
other, as she ran into her room to prepare. "And are they upon such
terms as for her to disclose the real truth? Oh, that I knew how it
was!"
But wishes were vain, or at least could only serve
to amuse her in the hurry and confusion of the following hour. Had
Elizabeth been at leisure to be idle, she would have remained certain
that all employment was impossible to one so wretched as herself; but
she had her share of business as well as her aunt, and amongst the rest
there were notes to be written to all their friends at Lambton, with
false excuses for their sudden departure. An hour, however, saw the
whole completed; and Mr. Gardiner meanwhile having settled his account
at the inn, nothing remained to be done but to go; and Elizabeth, after
all the misery of the morning, found herself, in a shorter space of time
than she could have supposed, seated in the carriage, and on the road to
Longbourn.
Chapter 47
"I have been thinking it over again,
Elizabeth," said her uncle, as they drove from the town; "and
really, upon serious consideration, I am much more inclined than I was
to judge as your eldest sister does on the matter. It appears to me so
very unlikely that any young man should form such a design against a
girl who is by no means unprotected or friendless, and who was actually
staying in his colonel's family, that I am strongly inclined to hope the
best. Could he expect that her friends would not step forward? Could he
expect to be noticed again by the regiment, after such an affront to
Colonel Forster? His temptation is not adequate to the risk!"
"Do you really think so?" cried
Elizabeth, brightening up for a moment.
"Upon my word," said Mrs. Gardiner,
"I begin to be of your uncle's opinion. It is really too great a
violation of decency, honour, and interest, for him to be guilty of. I
cannot think so very ill of Wickham. Can you yourself, Lizzy, so wholly
give him up, as to believe him capable of it?"
"Not, perhaps, of neglecting his own
interest; but of every other neglect I can believe him capable. If,
indeed, it should be so! But I dare not hope it. Why should they not go
on to Scotland if that had been the case?"
"In the first place," replied Mr.
Gardiner, "there is no absolute proof that they are not gone to
Scotland."
"Oh! but their removing from the chaise into
a hackney coach is such a presumption! And, besides, no traces of them
were to be found on the Barnet road."
"Well, then--supposing them to be in London.
They may be there, though for the purpose of concealment, for no more
exceptional purpose. It is not likely that money should be very abundant
on either side; and it might strike them that they could be more
economically, though less expeditiously, married in London than in
Scotland."
"But why all this secrecy? Why any fear of
detection? Why must their marriage be private? Oh, no, no--this is not
likely. His most particular friend, you see by Jane's account, was
persuaded of his never intending to marry her. Wickham will never marry
a woman without some money. He cannot afford it. And what claims has
Lydia--what attraction has she beyond youth, health, and good humour
that could make him, for her sake, forego every chance of benefiting
himself by marrying well? As to what restraint the apprehensions of
disgrace in the corps might throw on a dishonourable elopement with her,
I am not able to judge; for I know nothing of the effects that such a
step might produce. But as to your other objection, I am afraid it will
hardly hold good. Lydia has no brothers to step forward; and he might
imagine, from my father's behaviour, from his indolence and the little
attention he has ever seemed to give to what was going forward in his
family, that _he_ would do as little, and think as little about it, as
any father could do, in such a matter."
"But can you think that Lydia is so lost to
everything but love of him as to consent to live with him on any terms
other than marriage?"
"It does seem, and it is most shocking
indeed," replied Elizabeth, with tears in her eyes, "that a
sister's sense of decency and virtue in such a point should admit of
doubt. But, really, I know not what to say. Perhaps I am not doing her
justice. But she is very young; she has never been taught to think on
serious subjects; and for the last half-year, nay, for a
twelvemonth--she has been given up to nothing but amusement and vanity.
She has been allowed to dispose of her time in the most idle and
frivolous manner, and to adopt any opinions that came in her way. Since
the ----shire were first quartered in Meryton, nothing but love,
flirtation, and officers have been in her head. She has been doing
everything in her power by thinking and talking on the subject, to give
greater--what shall I call it? susceptibility to her feelings; which are
naturally lively enough. And we all know that Wickham has every charm of
person and address that can captivate a woman."
"But you see that Jane," said her aunt,
"does not think so very ill of Wickham as to believe him capable of
the attempt."
"Of whom does Jane ever think ill? And who is
there, whatever might be their former conduct, that she would think
capable of such an attempt, till it were proved against them? But Jane
knows, as well as I do, what Wickham really is. We both know that he has
been profligate in every sense of the word; that he has neither
integrity nor honour; that he is as false and deceitful as he is
insinuating."
"And do you really know all this?" cried
Mrs. Gardiner, whose curiosity as to the mode of her intelligence was
all alive.
"I do indeed," replied Elizabeth,
colouring. "I told you, the other day, of his infamous behaviour to
Mr. Darcy; and you yourself, when last at Longbourn, heard in what
manner he spoke of the man who had behaved with such forbearance and
liberality towards him. And there are other circumstances which I am not
at liberty--which it is not worth while to relate; but his lies about
the whole Pemberley family are endless. From what he said of Miss Darcy
I was thoroughly prepared to see a proud, reserved, disagreeable girl.
Yet he knew to the contrary himself. He must know that she was as
amiable and unpretending as we have found her."
"But does Lydia know nothing of this? can she
be ignorant of what you and Jane seem so well to understand?"
"Oh, yes!--that, that is the worst of all.
Till I was in Kent, and saw so much both of Mr. Darcy and his relation
Colonel Fitzwilliam, I was ignorant of the truth myself. And when I
returned home, the ----shire was to leave Meryton in a week or
fortnight's time. As that was the case, neither Jane, to whom I related
the whole, nor I, thought it necessary to make our knowledge public; for
of what use could it apparently be to any one, that the good opinion
which all the neighbourhood had of him should then be overthrown? And
even when it was settled that Lydia should go with Mrs. Forster, the
necessity of opening her eyes to his character never occurred to me.
That _she_ could be in any danger from the deception never entered my
head. That such a consequence as _this_ could ensue, you may easily
believe, was far enough from my thoughts."
"When they all removed to Brighton,
therefore, you had no reason, I suppose, to believe them fond of each
other?"
"Not the slightest. I can remember no symptom
of affection on either side; and had anything of the kind been
perceptible, you must be aware that ours is not a family on which it
could be thrown away. When first he entered the corps, she was ready
enough to admire him; but so we all were. Every girl in or near Meryton
was out of her senses about him for the first two months; but he never
distinguished _her_ by any particular attention; and, consequently,
after a moderate period of extravagant and wild admiration, her fancy
for him gave way, and others of the regiment, who treated her with more
distinction, again became her favourites."
* * * * *
It may be easily believed, that however little of
novelty could be added to their fears, hopes, and conjectures, on this
interesting subject, by its repeated discussion, no other could detain
them from it long, during the whole of the journey. From Elizabeth's
thoughts it was never absent. Fixed there by the keenest of all anguish,
self-reproach, she could find no interval of ease or forgetfulness.
They travelled as expeditiously as possible, and,
sleeping one night on the road, reached Longbourn by dinner time the
next day. It was a comfort to Elizabeth to consider that Jane could not
have been wearied by long expectations.
The little Gardiners, attracted by the sight of a
chaise, were standing on the steps of the house as they entered the
paddock; and, when the carriage drove up to the door, the joyful
surprise that lighted up their faces, and displayed itself over their
whole bodies, in a variety of capers and frisks, was the first pleasing
earnest of their welcome.
Elizabeth jumped out; and, after giving each of
them a hasty kiss, hurried into the vestibule, where Jane, who came
running down from her mother's apartment, immediately met her.
Elizabeth, as she affectionately embraced her,
whilst tears filled the eyes of both, lost not a moment in asking
whether anything had been heard of the fugitives.
"Not yet," replied Jane. "But now
that my dear uncle is come, I hope everything will be well."
"Is my father in town?"
"Yes, he went on Tuesday, as I wrote you
word."
"And have you heard from him often?"
"We have heard only twice. He wrote me a few
lines on Wednesday to say that he had arrived in safety, and to give me
his directions, which I particularly begged him to do. He merely added
that he should not write again till he had something of importance to
mention."
"And my mother--how is she? How are you
all?"
"My mother is tolerably well, I trust; though
her spirits are greatly shaken. She is upstairs and will have great
satisfaction in seeing you all. She does not yet leave her
dressing-room. Mary and Kitty, thank Heaven, are quite well."
"But you--how are you?" cried Elizabeth.
"You look pale. How much you must have gone through!"
Her sister, however, assured her of her being
perfectly well; and their conversation, which had been passing while Mr.
and Mrs. Gardiner were engaged with their children, was now put an end
to by the approach of the whole party. Jane ran to her uncle and aunt,
and welcomed and thanked them both, with alternate smiles and tears.
When they were all in the drawing-room, the
questions which Elizabeth had already asked were of course repeated by
the others, and they soon found that Jane had no intelligence to give.
The sanguine hope of good, however, which the benevolence of her heart
suggested had not yet deserted her; she still expected that it would all
end well, and that every morning would bring some letter, either from
Lydia or her father, to explain their proceedings, and, perhaps,
announce their marriage.
Mrs. Bennet, to whose apartment they all repaired,
after a few minutes' conversation together, received them exactly as
might be expected; with tears and lamentations of regret, invectives
against the villainous conduct of Wickham, and complaints of her own
sufferings and ill-usage; blaming everybody but the person to whose
ill-judging indulgence the errors of her daughter must principally be
owing.
"If I had been able," said she, "to
carry my point in going to Brighton, with all my family, _this_ would
not have happened; but poor dear Lydia had nobody to take care of her.
Why did the Forsters ever let her go out of their sight? I am sure there
was some great neglect or other on their side, for she is not the kind
of girl to do such a thing if she had been well looked after. I always
thought they were very unfit to have the charge of her; but I was
overruled, as I always am. Poor dear child! And now here's Mr. Bennet
gone away, and I know he will fight Wickham, wherever he meets him and
then he will be killed, and what is to become of us all? The Collinses
will turn us out before he is cold in his grave, and if you are not kind
to us, brother, I do not know what we shall do."
They all exclaimed against such terrific ideas;
and Mr. Gardiner, after general assurances of his affection for her and
all her family, told her that he meant to be in London the very next
day, and would assist Mr. Bennet in every endeavour for recovering
Lydia.
"Do not give way to useless alarm,"
added he; "though it is right to be prepared for the worst, there
is no occasion to look on it as certain. It is not quite a week since
they left Brighton. In a few days more we may gain some news of them;
and till we know that they are not married, and have no design of
marrying, do not let us give the matter over as lost. As soon as I get
to town I shall go to my brother, and make him come home with me to
Gracechurch Street; and then we may consult together as to what is to be
done."
"Oh! my dear brother," replied Mrs.
Bennet, "that is exactly what I could most wish for. And now do,
when you get to town, find them out, wherever they may be; and if they
are not married already, _make_ them marry. And as for wedding clothes,
do not let them wait for that, but tell Lydia she shall have as much
money as she chooses to buy them, after they are married. And, above
all, keep Mr. Bennet from fighting. Tell him what a dreadful state I am
in, that I am frighted out of my wits--and have such tremblings, such
flutterings, all over me--such spasms in my side and pains in my head,
and such beatings at heart, that I can get no rest by night nor by day.
And tell my dear Lydia not to give any directions about her clothes till
she has seen me, for she does not know which are the best warehouses.
Oh, brother, how kind you are! I know you will contrive it all."
But Mr. Gardiner, though he assured her again of
his earnest endeavours in the cause, could not avoid recommending
moderation to her, as well in her hopes as her fear; and after talking
with her in this manner till dinner was on the table, they all left her
to vent all her feelings on the housekeeper, who attended in the absence
of her daughters.
Though her brother and sister were persuaded that
there was no real occasion for such a seclusion from the family, they
did not attempt to oppose it, for they knew that she had not prudence
enough to hold her tongue before the servants, while they waited at
table, and judged it better that _one_ only of the household, and the
one whom they could most trust should comprehend all her fears and
solicitude on the subject.
In the dining-room they were soon joined by Mary
and Kitty, who had been too busily engaged in their separate apartments
to make their appearance before. One came from her books, and the other
from her toilette. The faces of both, however, were tolerably calm; and
no change was visible in either, except that the loss of her favourite
sister, or the anger which she had herself incurred in this business,
had given more of fretfulness than usual to the accents of Kitty. As for
Mary, she was mistress enough of herself to whisper to Elizabeth, with a
countenance of grave reflection, soon after they were seated at table:
"This is a most unfortunate affair, and will
probably be much talked of. But we must stem the tide of malice, and
pour into the wounded bosoms of each other the balm of sisterly
consolation."
Then, perceiving in Elizabeth no inclination of
replying, she added, "Unhappy as the event must be for Lydia, we
may draw from it this useful lesson: that loss of virtue in a female is
irretrievable; that one false step involves her in endless ruin; that
her reputation is no less brittle than it is beautiful; and that she
cannot be too much guarded in her behaviour towards the undeserving of
the other sex."
Elizabeth lifted up her eyes in amazement, but was
too much oppressed to make any reply. Mary, however, continued to
console herself with such kind of moral extractions from the evil before
them.
In the afternoon, the two elder Miss Bennets were
able to be for half-an-hour by themselves; and Elizabeth instantly
availed herself of the opportunity of making any inquiries, which Jane
was equally eager to satisfy. After joining in general lamentations over
the dreadful sequel of this event, which Elizabeth considered as all but
certain, and Miss Bennet could not assert to be wholly impossible, the
former continued the subject, by saying, "But tell me all and
everything about it which I have not already heard. Give me further
particulars. What did Colonel Forster say? Had they no apprehension of
anything before the elopement took place? They must have seen them
together for ever."
"Colonel Forster did own that he had often
suspected some partiality, especially on Lydia's side, but nothing to
give him any alarm. I am so grieved for him! His behaviour was attentive
and kind to the utmost. He _was_ coming to us, in order to assure us of
his concern, before he had any idea of their not being gone to Scotland:
when that apprehension first got abroad, it hastened his journey."
"And was Denny convinced that Wickham would
not marry? Did he know of their intending to go off? Had Colonel Forster
seen Denny himself?"
"Yes; but, when questioned by _him_, Denny
denied knowing anything of their plans, and would not give his real
opinion about it. He did not repeat his persuasion of their not
marrying--and from _that_, I am inclined to hope, he might have been
misunderstood before."
"And till Colonel Forster came himself, not
one of you entertained a doubt, I suppose, of their being really
married?"
"How was it possible that such an idea should
enter our brains? I felt a little uneasy--a little fearful of my
sister's happiness with him in marriage, because I knew that his conduct
had not been always quite right. My father and mother knew nothing of
that; they only felt how imprudent a match it must be. Kitty then owned,
with a very natural triumph on knowing more than the rest of us, that in
Lydia's last letter she had prepared her for such a step. She had known,
it seems, of their being in love with each other, many weeks."
"But not before they went to Brighton?"
"No, I believe not."
"And did Colonel Forster appear to think well
of Wickham himself? Does he know his real character?"
"I must confess that he did not speak so well
of Wickham as he formerly did. He believed him to be imprudent and
extravagant. And since this sad affair has taken place, it is said that
he left Meryton greatly in debt; but I hope this may be false."
"Oh, Jane, had we been less secret, had we
told what we knew of him, this could not have happened!"
"Perhaps it would have been better,"
replied her sister. "But to expose the former faults of any person
without knowing what their present feelings were, seemed unjustifiable.
We acted with the best intentions."
"Could Colonel Forster repeat the particulars
of Lydia's note to his wife?"
"He brought it with him for us to see."
Jane then took it from her pocket-book, and gave
it to Elizabeth. These were the contents:
"MY DEAR HARRIET,
"You will laugh when you know where I am
gone, and I cannot help laughing myself at your surprise to-morrow
morning, as soon as I am missed. I am going to Gretna Green, and if you
cannot guess with who, I shall think you a simpleton, for there is but
one man in the world I love, and he is an angel. I should never be happy
without him, so think it no harm to be off. You need not send them word
at Longbourn of my going, if you do not like it, for it will make the
surprise the greater, when I write to them and sign my name 'Lydia
Wickham.' What a good joke it will be! I can hardly write for laughing.
Pray make my excuses to Pratt for not keeping my engagement, and dancing
with him to-night. Tell him I hope he will excuse me when he knows all;
and tell him I will dance with him at the next ball we meet, with great
pleasure. I shall send for my clothes when I get to Longbourn; but I
wish you would tell Sally to mend a great slit in my worked muslin gown
before they are packed up. Good-bye. Give my love to Colonel Forster. I
hope you will drink to our good journey.
"Your affectionate friend,
"LYDIA BENNET."
"Oh! thoughtless, thoughtless Lydia!"
cried Elizabeth when she had finished it. "What a letter is this,
to be written at such a moment! But at least it shows that _she_ was
serious on the subject of their journey. Whatever he might afterwards
persuade her to, it was not on her side a _scheme_ of infamy. My poor
father! how he must have felt it!"
"I never saw anyone so shocked. He could not
speak a word for full ten minutes. My mother was taken ill immediately,
and the whole house in such confusion!"
"Oh! Jane," cried Elizabeth, "was
there a servant belonging to it who did not know the whole story before
the end of the day?"
"I do not know. I hope there was. But to be
guarded at such a time is very difficult. My mother was in hysterics,
and though I endeavoured to give her every assistance in my power, I am
afraid I did not do so much as I might have done! But the horror of what
might possibly happen almost took from me my faculties."
"Your attendance upon her has been too much
for you. You do not look well. Oh that I had been with you! you have had
every care and anxiety upon yourself alone."
"Mary and Kitty have been very kind, and
would have shared in every fatigue, I am sure; but I did not think it
right for either of them. Kitty is slight and delicate; and Mary studies
so much, that her hours of repose should not be broken in on. My aunt
Phillips came to Longbourn on Tuesday, after my father went away; and
was so good as to stay till Thursday with me. She was of great use and
comfort to us all. And Lady Lucas has been very kind; she walked here on
Wednesday morning to condole with us, and offered her services, or any
of her daughters', if they should be of use to us."
"She had better have stayed at home,"
cried Elizabeth; "perhaps she _meant_ well, but, under such a
misfortune as this, one cannot see too little of one's neighbours.
Assistance is impossible; condolence insufferable. Let them triumph over
us at a distance, and be satisfied."
She then proceeded to inquire into the measures
which her father had intended to pursue, while in town, for the recovery
of his daughter.
"He meant I believe," replied Jane,
"to go to Epsom, the place where they last changed horses, see the
postilions and try if anything could be made out from them. His
principal object must be to discover the number of the hackney coach
which took them from Clapham. It had come with a fare from London; and
as he thought that the circumstance of a gentleman and lady's removing
from one carriage into another might be remarked he meant to make
inquiries at Clapham. If he could anyhow discover at what house the
coachman had before set down his fare, he determined to make inquiries
there, and hoped it might not be impossible to find out the stand and
number of the coach. I do not know of any other designs that he had
formed; but he was in such a hurry to be gone, and his spirits so
greatly discomposed, that I had difficulty in finding out even so much
as this."
Chapter 48
The whole party were in hopes of a letter from Mr.
Bennet the next morning, but the post came in without bringing a single
line from him. His family knew him to be, on all common occasions, a
most negligent and dilatory correspondent; but at such a time they had
hoped for exertion. They were forced to conclude that he had no pleasing
intelligence to send; but even of _that_ they would have been glad to be
certain. Mr. Gardiner had waited only for the letters before he set off.
When he was gone, they were certain at least of
receiving constant information of what was going on, and their uncle
promised, at parting, to prevail on Mr. Bennet to return to Longbourn,
as soon as he could, to the great consolation of his sister, who
considered it as the only security for her husband's not being killed in
a duel.
Mrs. Gardiner and the children were to remain in
Hertfordshire a few days longer, as the former thought her presence
might be serviceable to her nieces. She shared in their attendance on
Mrs. Bennet, and was a great comfort to them in their hours of freedom.
Their other aunt also visited them frequently, and always, as she said,
with the design of cheering and heartening them up--though, as she never
came without reporting some fresh instance of Wickham's extravagance or
irregularity, she seldom went away without leaving them more dispirited
than she found them.
All Meryton seemed striving to blacken the man
who, but three months before, had been almost an angel of light. He was
declared to be in debt to every tradesman in the place, and his
intrigues, all honoured with the title of seduction, had been extended
into every tradesman's family. Everybody declared that he was the
wickedest young man in the world; and everybody began to find out that
they had always distrusted the appearance of his goodness. Elizabeth,
though she did not credit above half of what was said, believed enough
to make her former assurance of her sister's ruin more certain; and even
Jane, who believed still less of it, became almost hopeless, more
especially as the time was now come when, if they had gone to Scotland,
which she had never before entirely despaired of, they must in all
probability have gained some news of them.
Mr. Gardiner left Longbourn on Sunday; on Tuesday
his wife received a letter from him; it told them that, on his arrival,
he had immediately found out his brother, and persuaded him to come to
Gracechurch Street; that Mr. Bennet had been to Epsom and Clapham,
before his arrival, but without gaining any satisfactory information;
and that he was now determined to inquire at all the principal hotels in
town, as Mr. Bennet thought it possible they might have gone to one of
them, on their first coming to London, before they procured lodgings.
Mr. Gardiner himself did not expect any success from this measure, but
as his brother was eager in it, he meant to assist him in pursuing it.
He added that Mr. Bennet seemed wholly disinclined at present to leave
London and promised to write again very soon. There was also a
postscript to this effect:
"I have written to Colonel Forster to desire
him to find out, if possible, from some of the young man's intimates in
the regiment, whether Wickham has any relations or connections who would
be likely to know in what part of town he has now concealed himself. If
there were anyone that one could apply to with a probability of gaining
such a clue as that, it might be of essential consequence. At present we
have nothing to guide us. Colonel Forster will, I dare say, do
everything in his power to satisfy us on this head. But, on second
thoughts, perhaps, Lizzy could tell us what relations he has now living,
better than any other person."
Elizabeth was at no loss to understand from whence
this deference to her authority proceeded; but it was not in her power
to give any information of so satisfactory a nature as the compliment
deserved. She had never heard of his having had any relations, except a
father and mother, both of whom had been dead many years. It was
possible, however, that some of his companions in the ----shire might be
able to give more information; and though she was not very sanguine in
expecting it, the application was a something to look forward to.
Every day at Longbourn was now a day of anxiety;
but the most anxious part of each was when the post was expected. The
arrival of letters was the grand object of every morning's impatience.
Through letters, whatever of good or bad was to be told would be
communicated, and every succeeding day was expected to bring some news
of importance.
But before they heard again from Mr. Gardiner, a
letter arrived for their father, from a different quarter, from Mr.
Collins; which, as Jane had received directions to open all that came
for him in his absence, she accordingly read; and Elizabeth, who knew
what curiosities his letters always were, looked over her, and read it
likewise. It was as follows:
"MY DEAR SIR,
"I feel myself called upon, by our
relationship, and my situation in life, to condole with you on the
grievous affliction you are now suffering under, of which we were
yesterday informed by a letter from Hertfordshire. Be assured, my dear
sir, that Mrs. Collins and myself sincerely sympathise with you and all
your respectable family, in your present distress, which must be of the
bitterest kind, because proceeding from a cause which no time can
remove. No arguments shall be wanting on my part that can alleviate so
severe a misfortune--or that may comfort you, under a circumstance that
must be of all others the most afflicting to a parent's mind. The death
of your daughter would have been a blessing in comparison of this. And
it is the more to be lamented, because there is reason to suppose as my
dear Charlotte informs me, that this licentiousness of behaviour in your
daughter has proceeded from a faulty degree of indulgence; though, at
the same time, for the consolation of yourself and Mrs. Bennet, I am
inclined to think that her own disposition must be naturally bad, or she
could not be guilty of such an enormity, at so early an age. Howsoever
that may be, you are grievously to be pitied; in which opinion I am not
only joined by Mrs. Collins, but likewise by Lady Catherine and her
daughter, to whom I have related the affair. They agree with me in
apprehending that this false step in one daughter will be injurious to
the fortunes of all the others; for who, as Lady Catherine herself
condescendingly says, will connect themselves with such a family? And
this consideration leads me moreover to reflect, with augmented
satisfaction, on a certain event of last November; for had it been
otherwise, I must have been involved in all your sorrow and disgrace.
Let me then advise you, dear sir, to console yourself as much as
possible, to throw off your unworthy child from your affection for ever,
and leave her to reap the fruits of her own heinous offense.
"I am, dear sir, etc., etc."
Mr. Gardiner did not write again till he had
received an answer from Colonel Forster; and then he had nothing of a
pleasant nature to send. It was not known that Wickham had a single
relationship with whom he kept up any connection, and it was certain
that he had no near one living. His former acquaintances had been
numerous; but since he had been in the militia, it did not appear that
he was on terms of particular friendship with any of them. There was no
one, therefore, who could be pointed out as likely to give any news of
him. And in the wretched state of his own finances, there was a very
powerful motive for secrecy, in addition to his fear of discovery by
Lydia's relations, for it had just transpired that he had left gaming
debts behind him to a very considerable amount. Colonel Forster believed
that more than a thousand pounds would be necessary to clear his
expenses at Brighton. He owed a good deal in town, but his debts of
honour were still more formidable. Mr. Gardiner did not attempt to
conceal these particulars from the Longbourn family. Jane heard them
with horror. "A gamester!" she cried. "This is wholly
unexpected. I had not an idea of it."
Mr. Gardiner added in his letter, that they might
expect to see their father at home on the following day, which was
Saturday. Rendered spiritless by the ill-success of all their endeavours,
he had yielded to his brother-in-law's entreaty that he would return to
his family, and leave it to him to do whatever occasion might suggest to
be advisable for continuing their pursuit. When Mrs. Bennet was told of
this, she did not express so much satisfaction as her children expected,
considering what her anxiety for his life had been before.
"What, is he coming home, and without poor
Lydia?" she cried. "Sure he will not leave London before he
has found them. Who is to fight Wickham, and make him marry her, if he
comes away?"
As Mrs. Gardiner began to wish to be at home, it
was settled that she and the children should go to London, at the same
time that Mr. Bennet came from it. The coach, therefore, took them the
first stage of their journey, and brought its master back to Longbourn.
Mrs. Gardiner went away in all the perplexity
about Elizabeth and her Derbyshire friend that had attended her from
that part of the world. His name had never been voluntarily mentioned
before them by her niece; and the kind of half-expectation which Mrs.
Gardiner had formed, of their being followed by a letter from him, had
ended in nothing. Elizabeth had received none since her return that
could come from Pemberley.
The present unhappy state of the family rendered
any other excuse for the lowness of her spirits unnecessary; nothing,
therefore, could be fairly conjectured from _that_, though Elizabeth,
who was by this time tolerably well acquainted with her own feelings,
was perfectly aware that, had she known nothing of Darcy, she could have
borne the dread of Lydia's infamy somewhat better. It would have spared
her, she thought, one sleepless night out of two.
When Mr. Bennet arrived, he had all the appearance
of his usual philosophic composure. He said as little as he had ever
been in the habit of saying; made no mention of the business that had
taken him away, and it was some time before his daughters had courage to
speak of it.
It was not till the afternoon, when he had joined
them at tea, that Elizabeth ventured to introduce the subject; and then,
on her briefly expressing her sorrow for what he must have endured, he
replied, "Say nothing of that. Who should suffer but myself? It has
been my own doing, and I ought to feel it."
"You must not be too severe upon
yourself," replied Elizabeth.
"You may well warn me against such an evil.
Human nature is so prone to fall into it! No, Lizzy, let me once in my
life feel how much I have been to blame. I am not afraid of being
overpowered by the impression. It will pass away soon enough."
"Do you suppose them to be in London?"
"Yes; where else can they be so well
concealed?"
"And Lydia used to want to go to
London," added Kitty.
"She is happy then," said her father
drily; "and her residence there will probably be of some
duration."
Then after a short silence he continued:
"Lizzy, I bear you no ill-will for being
justified in your advice to me last May, which, considering the event,
shows some greatness of mind."
They were interrupted by Miss Bennet, who came to
fetch her mother's tea.
"This is a parade," he cried,
"which does one good; it gives such an elegance to misfortune!
Another day I will do the same; I will sit in my library, in my nightcap
and powdering gown, and give as much trouble as I can; or, perhaps, I
may defer it till Kitty runs away."
"I am not going to run away, papa," said
Kitty fretfully. "If I should ever go to Brighton, I would behave
better than Lydia."
"_You_ go to Brighton. I would not trust you
so near it as Eastbourne for fifty pounds! No, Kitty, I have at last
learnt to be cautious, and you will feel the effects of it. No officer
is ever to enter into my house again, nor even to pass through the
village. Balls will be absolutely prohibited, unless you stand up with
one of your sisters. And you are never to stir out of doors till you can
prove that you have spent ten minutes of every day in a rational
manner."
Kitty, who took all these threats in a serious
light, began to cry.
"Well, well," said he, "do not make
yourself unhappy. If you are a good girl for the next ten years, I will
take you to a review at the end of them."
Chapter 49
Two days after Mr. Bennet's return, as Jane and
Elizabeth were walking together in the shrubbery behind the house, they
saw the housekeeper coming towards them, and, concluding that she came
to call them to their mother, went forward to meet her; but, instead of
the expected summons, when they approached her, she said to Miss Bennet,
"I beg your pardon, madam, for interrupting you, but I was in hopes
you might have got some good news from town, so I took the liberty of
coming to ask."
"What do you mean, Hill? We have heard
nothing from town."
"Dear madam," cried Mrs. Hill, in great
astonishment, "don't you know there is an express come for master
from Mr. Gardiner? He has been here this half-hour, and master has had a
letter."
Away ran the girls, too eager to get in to have
time for speech. They ran through the vestibule into the breakfast-room;
from thence to the library; their father was in neither; and they were
on the point of seeking him upstairs with their mother, when they were
met by the butler, who said:
"If you are looking for my master, ma'am, he
is walking towards the little copse."
Upon this information, they instantly passed
through the hall once more, and ran across the lawn after their father,
who was deliberately pursuing his way towards a small wood on one side
of the paddock.
Jane, who was not so light nor so much in the
habit of running as Elizabeth, soon lagged behind, while her sister,
panting for breath, came up with him, and eagerly cried out:
"Oh, papa, what news--what news? Have you
heard from my uncle?"
"Yes I have had a letter from him by
express."
"Well, and what news does it bring--good or
bad?"
"What is there of good to be expected?"
said he, taking the letter from his pocket. "But perhaps you would
like to read it."
Elizabeth impatiently caught it from his hand.
Jane now came up.
"Read it aloud," said their father,
"for I hardly know myself what it is about."
"Gracechurch Street, Monday, August 2.
"MY DEAR BROTHER,
"At last I am able to send you some tidings
of my niece, and such as, upon the whole, I hope it will give you
satisfaction. Soon after you left me on Saturday, I was fortunate enough
to find out in what part of London they were. The particulars I reserve
till we meet; it is enough to know they are discovered. I have seen them
both--"
"Then it is as I always hoped," cried
Jane; "they are married!"
Elizabeth read on:
"I have seen them both. They are not married,
nor can I find there was any intention of being so; but if you are
willing to perform the engagements which I have ventured to make on your
side, I hope it will not be long before they are. All that is required
of you is, to assure to your daughter, by settlement, her equal share of
the five thousand pounds secured among your children after the decease
of yourself and my sister; and, moreover, to enter into an engagement of
allowing her, during your life, one hundred pounds per annum. These are
conditions which, considering everything, I had no hesitation in
complying with, as far as I thought myself privileged, for you. I shall
send this by express, that no time may be lost in bringing me your
answer. You will easily comprehend, from these particulars, that Mr.
Wickham's circumstances are not so hopeless as they are generally
believed to be. The world has been deceived in that respect; and I am
happy to say there will be some little money, even when all his debts
are discharged, to settle on my niece, in addition to her own fortune.
If, as I conclude will be the case, you send me full powers to act in
your name throughout the whole of this business, I will immediately give
directions to Haggerston for preparing a proper settlement. There will
not be the smallest occasion for your coming to town again; therefore
stay quiet at Longbourn, and depend on my diligence and care. Send back
your answer as fast as you can, and be careful to write explicitly. We
have judged it best that my niece should be married from this house, of
which I hope you will approve. She comes to us to-day. I shall write
again as soon as anything more is determined on. Yours, etc.,
"EDW. GARDINER."
"Is it possible?" cried Elizabeth, when
she had finished. "Can it be possible that he will marry her?"
"Wickham is not so undeserving, then, as we
thought him," said her sister. "My dear father, I congratulate
you."
"And have you answered the letter?"
cried Elizabeth.
"No; but it must be done soon."
Most earnestly did she then entreaty him to lose
no more time before he wrote.
"Oh! my dear father," she cried,
"come back and write immediately. Consider how important every
moment is in such a case."
"Let me write for you," said Jane,
"if you dislike the trouble yourself."
"I dislike it very much," he replied;
"but it must be done."
And so saying, he turned back with them, and
walked towards the house.
"And may I ask--" said Elizabeth;
"but the terms, I suppose, must be complied with."
"Complied with! I am only ashamed of his
asking so little."
"And they _must_ marry! Yet he is _such_ a
man!"
"Yes, yes, they must marry. There is nothing
else to be done. But there are two things that I want very much to know;
one is, how much money your uncle has laid down to bring it about; and
the other, how am I ever to pay him."
"Money! My uncle!" cried Jane,
"what do you mean, sir?"
"I mean, that no man in his senses would
marry Lydia on so slight a temptation as one hundred a year during my
life, and fifty after I am gone."
"That is very true," said Elizabeth;
"though it had not occurred to me before. His debts to be
discharged, and something still to remain! Oh! it must be my uncle's
doings! Generous, good man, I am afraid he has distressed himself. A
small sum could not do all this."
"No," said her father; "Wickham's a
fool if he takes her with a farthing less than ten thousand pounds. I
should be sorry to think so ill of him, in the very beginning of our
relationship."
"Ten thousand pounds! Heaven forbid! How is
half such a sum to be repaid?"
Mr. Bennet made no answer, and each of them, deep
in thought, continued silent till they reached the house. Their father
then went on to the library to write, and the girls walked into the
breakfast-room.
"And they are really to be married!"
cried Elizabeth, as soon as they were by themselves. "How strange
this is! And for _this_ we are to be thankful. That they should marry,
small as is their chance of happiness, and wretched as is his character,
we are forced to rejoice. Oh, Lydia!"
"I comfort myself with thinking,"
replied Jane, "that he certainly would not marry Lydia if he had
not a real regard for her. Though our kind uncle has done something
towards clearing him, I cannot believe that ten thousand pounds, or
anything like it, has been advanced. He has children of his own, and may
have more. How could he spare half ten thousand pounds?"
"If he were ever able to learn what Wickham's
debts have been," said Elizabeth, "and how much is settled on
his side on our sister, we shall exactly know what Mr. Gardiner has done
for them, because Wickham has not sixpence of his own. The kindness of
my uncle and aunt can never be requited. Their taking her home, and
affording her their personal protection and countenance, is such a
sacrifice to her advantage as years of gratitude cannot enough
acknowledge. By this time she is actually with them! If such goodness
does not make her miserable now, she will never deserve to be happy!
What a meeting for her, when she first sees my aunt!"
"We must endeavour to forget all that has
passed on either side," said Jane: "I hope and trust they will
yet be happy. His consenting to marry her is a proof, I will believe,
that he is come to a right way of thinking. Their mutual affection will
steady them; and I flatter myself they will settle so quietly, and live
in so rational a manner, as may in time make their past imprudence
forgotten."
"Their conduct has been such," replied
Elizabeth, "as neither you, nor I, nor anybody can ever forget. It
is useless to talk of it."
It now occurred to the girls that their mother was
in all likelihood perfectly ignorant of what had happened. They went to
the library, therefore, and asked their father whether he would not wish
them to make it known to her. He was writing and, without raising his
head, coolly replied:
"Just as you please."
"May we take my uncle's letter to read to
her?"
"Take whatever you like, and get away."
Elizabeth took the letter from his writing-table,
and they went upstairs together. Mary and Kitty were both with Mrs.
Bennet: one communication would, therefore, do for all. After a slight
preparation for good news, the letter was read aloud. Mrs. Bennet could
hardly contain herself. As soon as Jane had read Mr. Gardiner's hope of
Lydia's being soon married, her joy burst forth, and every following
sentence added to its exuberance. She was now in an irritation as
violent from delight, as she had ever been fidgety from alarm and
vexation. To know that her daughter would be married was enough. She was
disturbed by no fear for her felicity, nor humbled by any remembrance of
her misconduct.
"My dear, dear Lydia!" she cried.
"This is delightful indeed! She will be married! I shall see her
again! She will be married at sixteen! My good, kind brother! I knew how
it would be. I knew he would manage everything! How I long to see her!
and to see dear Wickham too! But the clothes, the wedding clothes! I
will write to my sister Gardiner about them directly. Lizzy, my dear,
run down to your father, and ask him how much he will give her. Stay,
stay, I will go myself. Ring the bell, Kitty, for Hill. I will put on my
things in a moment. My dear, dear Lydia! How merry we shall be together
when we meet!"
Her eldest daughter endeavoured to give some
relief to the violence of these transports, by leading her thoughts to
the obligations which Mr. Gardiner's behaviour laid them all under.
"For we must attribute this happy
conclusion," she added, "in a great measure to his kindness.
We are persuaded that he has pledged himself to assist Mr. Wickham with
money."
"Well," cried her mother, "it is
all very right; who should do it but her own uncle? If he had not had a
family of his own, I and my children must have had all his money, you
know; and it is the first time we have ever had anything from him,
except a few presents. Well! I am so happy! In a short time I shall have
a daughter married. Mrs. Wickham! How well it sounds! And she was only
sixteen last June. My dear Jane, I am in such a flutter, that I am sure
I can't write; so I will dictate, and you write for me. We will settle
with your father about the money afterwards; but the things should be
ordered immediately."
She was then proceeding to all the particulars of
calico, muslin, and cambric, and would shortly have dictated some very
plentiful orders, had not Jane, though with some difficulty, persuaded
her to wait till her father was at leisure to be consulted. One day's
delay, she observed, would be of small importance; and her mother was
too happy to be quite so obstinate as usual. Other schemes, too, came
into her head.
"I will go to Meryton," said she,
"as soon as I am dressed, and tell the good, good news to my sister
Philips. And as I come back, I can call on Lady Lucas and Mrs. Long.
Kitty, run down and order the carriage. An airing would do me a great
deal of good, I am sure. Girls, can I do anything for you in Meryton?
Oh! Here comes Hill! My dear Hill, have you heard the good news? Miss
Lydia is going to be married; and you shall all have a bowl of punch to
make merry at her wedding."
Mrs. Hill began instantly to express her joy.
Elizabeth received her congratulations amongst the rest, and then, sick
of this folly, took refuge in her own room, that she might think with
freedom.
Poor Lydia's situation must, at best, be bad
enough; but that it was no worse, she had need to be thankful. She felt
it so; and though, in looking forward, neither rational happiness nor
worldly prosperity could be justly expected for her sister, in looking
back to what they had feared, only two hours ago, she felt all the
advantages of what they had gained.
Chapter 50
Mr. Bennet had very often wished before this
period of his life that, instead of spending his whole income, he had
laid by an annual sum for the better provision of his children, and of
his wife, if she survived him. He now wished it more than ever. Had he
done his duty in that respect, Lydia need not have been indebted to her
uncle for whatever of honour or credit could now be purchased for her.
The satisfaction of prevailing on one of the most worthless young men in
Great Britain to be her husband might then have rested in its proper
place.
He was seriously concerned that a cause of so
little advantage to anyone should be forwarded at the sole expense of
his brother-in-law, and he was determined, if possible, to find out the
extent of his assistance, and to discharge the obligation as soon as he
could.
When first Mr. Bennet had married, economy was
held to be perfectly useless, for, of course, they were to have a son.
The son was to join in cutting off the entail, as soon as he should be
of age, and the widow and younger children would by that means be
provided for. Five daughters successively entered the world, but yet the
son was to come; and Mrs. Bennet, for many years after Lydia's birth,
had been certain that he would. This event had at last been despaired
of, but it was then too late to be saving. Mrs. Bennet had no turn for
economy, and her husband's love of independence had alone prevented
their exceeding their income.
Five thousand pounds was settled by marriage
articles on Mrs. Bennet and the children. But in what proportions it
should be divided amongst the latter depended on the will of the
parents. This was one point, with regard to Lydia, at least, which was
now to be settled, and Mr. Bennet could have no hesitation in acceding
to the proposal before him. In terms of grateful acknowledgment for the
kindness of his brother, though expressed most concisely, he then
delivered on paper his perfect approbation of all that was done, and his
willingness to fulfil the engagements that had been made for him. He had
never before supposed that, could Wickham be prevailed on to marry his
daughter, it would be done with so little inconvenience to himself as by
the present arrangement. He would scarcely be ten pounds a year the
loser by the hundred that was to be paid them; for, what with her board
and pocket allowance, and the continual presents in money which passed
to her through her mother's hands, Lydia's expenses had been very little
within that sum.
That it would be done with such trifling exertion
on his side, too, was another very welcome surprise; for his wish at
present was to have as little trouble in the business as possible. When
the first transports of rage which had produced his activity in seeking
her were over, he naturally returned to all his former indolence. His
letter was soon dispatched; for, though dilatory in undertaking
business, he was quick in its execution. He begged to know further
particulars of what he was indebted to his brother, but was too angry
with Lydia to send any message to her.
The good news spread quickly through the house,
and with proportionate speed through the neighbourhood. It was borne in
the latter with decent philosophy. To be sure, it would have been more
for the advantage of conversation had Miss Lydia Bennet come upon the
town; or, as the happiest alternative, been secluded from the world, in
some distant farmhouse. But there was much to be talked of in marrying
her; and the good-natured wishes for her well-doing which had proceeded
before from all the spiteful old ladies in Meryton lost but a little of
their spirit in this change of circumstances, because with such an
husband her misery was considered certain.
It was a fortnight since Mrs. Bennet had been
downstairs; but on this happy day she again took her seat at the head of
her table, and in spirits oppressively high. No sentiment of shame gave
a damp to her triumph. The marriage of a daughter, which had been the
first object of her wishes since Jane was sixteen, was now on the point
of accomplishment, and her thoughts and her words ran wholly on those
attendants of elegant nuptials, fine muslins, new carriages, and
servants. She was busily searching through the neighbourhood for a
proper situation for her daughter, and, without knowing or considering
what their income might be, rejected many as deficient in size and
importance.
"Haye Park might do," said she, "if
the Gouldings could quit it--or the great house at Stoke, if the
drawing-room were larger; but Ashworth is too far off! I could not bear
to have her ten miles from me; and as for Pulvis Lodge, the attics are
dreadful."
Her husband allowed her to talk on without
interruption while the servants remained. But when they had withdrawn,
he said to her: "Mrs. Bennet, before you take any or all of these
houses for your son and daughter, let us come to a right understanding.
Into _one_ house in this neighbourhood they shall never have admittance.
I will not encourage the impudence of either, by receiving them at
Longbourn."
A long dispute followed this declaration; but Mr.
Bennet was firm. It soon led to another; and Mrs. Bennet found, with
amazement and horror, that her husband would not advance a guinea to buy
clothes for his daughter. He protested that she should receive from him
no mark of affection whatever on the occasion. Mrs. Bennet could hardly
comprehend it. That his anger could be carried to such a point of
inconceivable resentment as to refuse his daughter a privilege without
which her marriage would scarcely seem valid, exceeded all she could
believe possible. She was more alive to the disgrace which her want of
new clothes must reflect on her daughter's nuptials, than to any sense
of shame at her eloping and living with Wickham a fortnight before they
took place.
Elizabeth was now most heartily sorry that she
had, from the distress of the moment, been led to make Mr. Darcy
acquainted with their fears for her sister; for since her marriage would
so shortly give the proper termination to the elopement, they might hope
to conceal its unfavourable beginning from all those who were not
immediately on the spot.
She had no fear of its spreading farther through
his means. There were few people on whose secrecy she would have more
confidently depended; but, at the same time, there was no one whose
knowledge of a sister's frailty would have mortified her so much--not,
however, from any fear of disadvantage from it individually to herself,
for, at any rate, there seemed a gulf impassable between them. Had
Lydia's marriage been concluded on the most honourable terms, it was not
to be supposed that Mr. Darcy would connect himself with a family where,
to every other objection, would now be added an alliance and
relationship of the nearest kind with a man whom he so justly scorned.
From such a connection she could not wonder that
he would shrink. The wish of procuring her regard, which she had assured
herself of his feeling in Derbyshire, could not in rational expectation
survive such a blow as this. She was humbled, she was grieved; she
repented, though she hardly knew of what. She became jealous of his
esteem, when she could no longer hope to be benefited by it. She wanted
to hear of him, when there seemed the least chance of gaining
intelligence. She was convinced that she could have been happy with him,
when it was no longer likely they should meet.
What a triumph for him, as she often thought,
could he know that the proposals which she had proudly spurned only four
months ago, would now have been most gladly and gratefully received! He
was as generous, she doubted not, as the most generous of his sex; but
while he was mortal, there must be a triumph.
She began now to comprehend that he was exactly
the man who, in disposition and talents, would most suit her. His
understanding and temper, though unlike her own, would have answered all
her wishes. It was an union that must have been to the advantage of
both; by her ease and liveliness, his mind might have been softened, his
manners improved; and from his judgement, information, and knowledge of
the world, she must have received benefit of greater importance.
But no such happy marriage could now teach the
admiring multitude what connubial felicity really was. An union of a
different tendency, and precluding the possibility of the other, was
soon to be formed in their family.
How Wickham and Lydia were to be supported in
tolerable independence, she could not imagine. But how little of
permanent happiness could belong to a couple who were only brought
together because their passions were stronger than their virtue, she
could easily conjecture.
* * * * *
Mr. Gardiner soon wrote again to his brother. To
Mr. Bennet's acknowledgments he briefly replied, with assurance of his
eagerness to promote the welfare of any of his family; and concluded
with entreaties that the subject might never be mentioned to him again.
The principal purport of his letter was to inform them that Mr. Wickham
had resolved on quitting the militia.
"It was greatly my wish that he should do
so," he added, "as soon as his marriage was fixed on. And I
think you will agree with me, in considering the removal from that corps
as highly advisable, both on his account and my niece's. It is Mr.
Wickham's intention to go into the regulars; and among his former
friends, there are still some who are able and willing to assist him in
the army. He has the promise of an ensigncy in General ----'s regiment,
now quartered in the North. It is an advantage to have it so far from
this part of the kingdom. He promises fairly; and I hope among different
people, where they may each have a character to preserve, they will both
be more prudent. I have written to Colonel Forster, to inform him of our
present arrangements, and to request that he will satisfy the various
creditors of Mr. Wickham in and near Brighton, with assurances of speedy
payment, for which I have pledged myself. And will you give yourself the
trouble of carrying similar assurances to his creditors in Meryton, of
whom I shall subjoin a list according to his information? He has given
in all his debts; I hope at least he has not deceived us. Haggerston has
our directions, and all will be completed in a week. They will then join
his regiment, unless they are first invited to Longbourn; and I
understand from Mrs. Gardiner, that my niece is very desirous of seeing
you all before she leaves the South. She is well, and begs to be
dutifully remembered to you and your mother.--Yours, etc.,
"E. GARDINER."
Mr. Bennet and his daughters saw all the
advantages of Wickham's removal from the ----shire as clearly as Mr.
Gardiner could do. But Mrs. Bennet was not so well pleased with it.
Lydia's being settled in the North, just when she had expected most
pleasure and pride in her company, for she had by no means given up her
plan of their residing in Hertfordshire, was a severe disappointment;
and, besides, it was such a pity that Lydia should be taken from a
regiment where she was acquainted with everybody, and had so many
favourites.
"She is so fond of Mrs. Forster," said
she, "it will be quite shocking to send her away! And there are
several of the young men, too, that she likes very much. The officers
may not be so pleasant in General----'s regiment."
His daughter's request, for such it might be
considered, of being admitted into her family again before she set off
for the North, received at first an absolute negative. But Jane and
Elizabeth, who agreed in wishing, for the sake of their sister's
feelings and consequence, that she should be noticed on her marriage by
her parents, urged him so earnestly yet so rationally and so mildly, to
receive her and her husband at Longbourn, as soon as they were married,
that he was prevailed on to think as they thought, and act as they
wished. And their mother had the satisfaction of knowing that she would
be able to show her married daughter in the neighbourhood before she was
banished to the North. When Mr. Bennet wrote again to his brother,
therefore, he sent his permission for them to come; and it was settled,
that as soon as the ceremony was over, they should proceed to Longbourn.
Elizabeth was surprised, however, that Wickham should consent to such a
scheme, and had she consulted only her own inclination, any meeting with
him would have been the last object of her wishes.
Chapter 51
Their sister's wedding day arrived; and Jane and
Elizabeth felt for her probably more than she felt for herself. The
carriage was sent to meet them at ----, and they were to return in it by
dinner-time. Their arrival was dreaded by the elder Miss Bennets, and
Jane more especially, who gave Lydia the feelings which would have
attended herself, had she been the culprit, and was wretched in the
thought of what her sister must endure.
They came. The family were assembled in the
breakfast room to receive them. Smiles decked the face of Mrs. Bennet as
the carriage drove up to the door; her husband looked impenetrably
grave; her daughters, alarmed, anxious, uneasy.
Lydia's voice was heard in the vestibule; the door
was thrown open, and she ran into the room. Her mother stepped forwards,
embraced her, and welcomed her with rapture; gave her hand, with an
affectionate smile, to Wickham, who followed his lady; and wished them
both joy with an alacrity which shewed no doubt of their happiness.
Their reception from Mr. Bennet, to whom they then
turned, was not quite so cordial. His countenance rather gained in
austerity; and he scarcely opened his lips. The easy assurance of the
young couple, indeed, was enough to provoke him. Elizabeth was
disgusted, and even Miss Bennet was shocked. Lydia was Lydia still;
untamed, unabashed, wild, noisy, and fearless. She turned from sister to
sister, demanding their congratulations; and when at length they all sat
down, looked eagerly round the room, took notice of some little
alteration in it, and observed, with a laugh, that it was a great while
since she had been there.
Wickham was not at all more distressed than
herself, but his manners were always so pleasing, that had his character
and his marriage been exactly what they ought, his smiles and his easy
address, while he claimed their relationship, would have delighted them
all. Elizabeth had not before believed him quite equal to such
assurance; but she sat down, resolving within herself to draw no limits
in future to the impudence of an impudent man. She blushed, and Jane
blushed; but the cheeks of the two who caused their confusion suffered
no variation of colour.
There was no want of discourse. The bride and her
mother could neither of them talk fast enough; and Wickham, who happened
to sit near Elizabeth, began inquiring after his acquaintance in that
neighbourhood, with a good humoured ease which she felt very unable to
equal in her replies. They seemed each of them to have the happiest
memories in the world. Nothing of the past was recollected with pain;
and Lydia led voluntarily to subjects which her sisters would not have
alluded to for the world.
"Only think of its being three months,"
she cried, "since I went away; it seems but a fortnight I declare;
and yet there have been things enough happened in the time. Good
gracious! when I went away, I am sure I had no more idea of being
married till I came back again! though I thought it would be very good
fun if I was."
Her father lifted up his eyes. Jane was
distressed. Elizabeth looked expressively at Lydia; but she, who never
heard nor saw anything of which she chose to be insensible, gaily
continued, "Oh! mamma, do the people hereabouts know I am married
to-day? I was afraid they might not; and we overtook William Goulding in
his curricle, so I was determined he should know it, and so I let down
the side-glass next to him, and took off my glove, and let my hand just
rest upon the window frame, so that he might see the ring, and then I
bowed and smiled like anything."
Elizabeth could bear it no longer. She got up, and
ran out of the room; and returned no more, till she heard them passing
through the hall to the dining parlour. She then joined them soon enough
to see Lydia, with anxious parade, walk up to her mother's right hand,
and hear her say to her eldest sister, "Ah! Jane, I take your place
now, and you must go lower, because I am a married woman."
It was not to be supposed that time would give
Lydia that embarrassment from which she had been so wholly free at
first. Her ease and good spirits increased. She longed to see Mrs.
Phillips, the Lucases, and all their other neighbours, and to hear
herself called "Mrs. Wickham" by each of them; and in the mean
time, she went after dinner to show her ring, and boast of being
married, to Mrs. Hill and the two housemaids.
"Well, mamma," said she, when they were
all returned to the breakfast room, "and what do you think of my
husband? Is not he a charming man? I am sure my sisters must all envy
me. I only hope they may have half my good luck. They must all go to
Brighton. That is the place to get husbands. What a pity it is, mamma,
we did not all go."
"Very true; and if I had my will, we should.
But my dear Lydia, I don't at all like your going such a way off. Must
it be so?"
"Oh, lord! yes;--there is nothing in that. I
shall like it of all things. You and papa, and my sisters, must come
down and see us. We shall be at Newcastle all the winter, and I dare say
there will be some balls, and I will take care to get good partners for
them all."
"I should like it beyond anything!" said
her mother.
"And then when you go away, you may leave one
or two of my sisters behind you; and I dare say I shall get husbands for
them before the winter is over."
"I thank you for my share of the favour,"
said Elizabeth; "but I do not particularly like your way of getting
husbands."
Their visitors were not to remain above ten days
with them. Mr. Wickham had received his commission before he left
London, and he was to join his regiment at the end of a fortnight.
No one but Mrs. Bennet regretted that their stay
would be so short; and she made the most of the time by visiting about
with her daughter, and having very frequent parties at home. These
parties were acceptable to all; to avoid a family circle was even more
desirable to such as did think, than such as did not.
Wickham's affection for Lydia was just what
Elizabeth had expected to find it; not equal to Lydia's for him. She had
scarcely needed her present observation to be satisfied, from the reason
of things, that their elopement had been brought on by the strength of
her love, rather than by his; and she would have wondered why, without
violently caring for her, he chose to elope with her at all, had she not
felt certain that his flight was rendered necessary by distress of
circumstances; and if that were the case, he was not the young man to
resist an opportunity of having a companion.
Lydia was exceedingly fond of him. He was her dear
Wickham on every occasion; no one was to be put in competition with him.
He did every thing best in the world; and she was sure he would kill
more birds on the first of September, than any body else in the country.
One morning, soon after their arrival, as she was
sitting with her two elder sisters, she said to Elizabeth:
"Lizzy, I never gave _you_ an account of my
wedding, I believe. You were not by, when I told mamma and the others
all about it. Are not you curious to hear how it was managed?"
"No really," replied Elizabeth; "I
think there cannot be too little said on the subject."
"La! You are so strange! But I must tell you
how it went off. We were married, you know, at St. Clement's, because
Wickham's lodgings were in that parish. And it was settled that we
should all be there by eleven o'clock. My uncle and aunt and I were to
go together; and the others were to meet us at the church. Well, Monday
morning came, and I was in such a fuss! I was so afraid, you know, that
something would happen to put it off, and then I should have gone quite
distracted. And there was my aunt, all the time I was dressing,
preaching and talking away just as if she was reading a sermon. However,
I did not hear above one word in ten, for I was thinking, you may
suppose, of my dear Wickham. I longed to know whether he would be
married in his blue coat."
"Well, and so we breakfasted at ten as usual;
I thought it would never be over; for, by the bye, you are to
understand, that my uncle and aunt were horrid unpleasant all the time I
was with them. If you'll believe me, I did not once put my foot out of
doors, though I was there a fortnight. Not one party, or scheme, or
anything. To be sure London was rather thin, but, however, the Little
Theatre was open. Well, and so just as the carriage came to the door, my
uncle was called away upon business to that horrid man Mr. Stone. And
then, you know, when once they get together, there is no end of it.
Well, I was so frightened I did not know what to do, for my uncle was to
give me away; and if we were beyond the hour, we could not be married
all day. But, luckily, he came back again in ten minutes' time, and then
we all set out. However, I recollected afterwards that if he had been
prevented going, the wedding need not be put off, for Mr. Darcy might
have done as well."
"Mr. Darcy!" repeated Elizabeth, in
utter amazement.
"Oh, yes!--he was to come there with Wickham,
you know. But gracious me! I quite forgot! I ought not to have said a
word about it. I promised them so faithfully! What will Wickham say? It
was to be such a secret!"
"If it was to be secret," said Jane,
"say not another word on the subject. You may depend upon my
seeking no further."
"Oh! certainly," said Elizabeth, though
burning with curiosity; "we will ask you no questions."
"Thank you," said Lydia, "for if
you did, I should certainly tell you all, and then Wickham would be
angry."
On such encouragement to ask, Elizabeth was forced
to put it out of her power, by running away.
But to live in ignorance on such a point was
impossible; or at least it was impossible not to try for information.
Mr. Darcy had been at her sister's wedding. It was exactly a scene, and
exactly among people, where he had apparently least to do, and least
temptation to go. Conjectures as to the meaning of it, rapid and wild,
hurried into her brain; but she was satisfied with none. Those that best
pleased her, as placing his conduct in the noblest light, seemed most
improbable. She could not bear such suspense; and hastily seizing a
sheet of paper, wrote a short letter to her aunt, to request an
explanation of what Lydia had dropt, if it were compatible with the
secrecy which had been intended.
"You may readily comprehend," she added,
"what my curiosity must be to know how a person unconnected with
any of us, and (comparatively speaking) a stranger to our family, should
have been amongst you at such a time. Pray write instantly, and let me
understand it--unless it is, for very cogent reasons, to remain in the
secrecy which Lydia seems to think necessary; and then I must endeavour
to be satisfied with ignorance."
"Not that I _shall_, though," she added
to herself, as she finished the letter; "and my dear aunt, if you
do not tell me in an honourable manner, I shall certainly be reduced to
tricks and stratagems to find it out."
Jane's delicate sense of honour would not allow
her to speak to Elizabeth privately of what Lydia had let fall;
Elizabeth was glad of it;--till it appeared whether her inquiries would
receive any satisfaction, she had rather be without a confidante.
Chapter 52
Elizabeth had the satisfaction of receiving an
answer to her letter as soon as she possibly could. She was no sooner in
possession of it than, hurrying into the little copse, where she was
least likely to be interrupted, she sat down on one of the benches and
prepared to be happy; for the length of the letter convinced her that it
did not contain a denial.
"Gracechurch street, Sept. 6.
"MY DEAR NIECE,
"I have just received your letter, and shall
devote this whole morning to answering it, as I foresee that a _little_
writing will not comprise what I have to tell you. I must confess myself
surprised by your application; I did not expect it from _you_. Don't
think me angry, however, for I only mean to let you know that I had not
imagined such inquiries to be necessary on _your_ side. If you do not
choose to understand me, forgive my impertinence. Your uncle is as much
surprised as I am--and nothing but the belief of your being a party
concerned would have allowed him to act as he has done. But if you are
really innocent and ignorant, I must be more explicit.
"On the very day of my coming home from
Longbourn, your uncle had a most unexpected visitor. Mr. Darcy called,
and was shut up with him several hours. It was all over before I
arrived; so my curiosity was not so dreadfully racked as _your's_ seems
to have been. He came to tell Mr. Gardiner that he had found out where
your sister and Mr. Wickham were, and that he had seen and talked with
them both; Wickham repeatedly, Lydia once. From what I can collect, he
left Derbyshire only one day after ourselves, and came to town with the
resolution of hunting for them. The motive professed was his conviction
of its being owing to himself that Wickham's worthlessness had not been
so well known as to make it impossible for any young woman of character
to love or confide in him. He generously imputed the whole to his
mistaken pride, and confessed that he had before thought it beneath him
to lay his private actions open to the world. His character was to speak
for itself. He called it, therefore, his duty to step forward, and
endeavour to remedy an evil which had been brought on by himself. If he
_had another_ motive, I am sure it would never disgrace him. He had been
some days in town, before he was able to discover them; but he had
something to direct his search, which was more than _we_ had; and the
consciousness of this was another reason for his resolving to follow us.
"There is a lady, it seems, a Mrs. Younge,
who was some time ago governess to Miss Darcy, and was dismissed from
her charge on some cause of disapprobation, though he did not say what.
She then took a large house in Edward-street, and has since maintained
herself by letting lodgings. This Mrs. Younge was, he knew, intimately
acquainted with Wickham; and he went to her for intelligence of him as
soon as he got to town. But it was two or three days before he could get
from her what he wanted. She would not betray her trust, I suppose,
without bribery and corruption, for she really did know where her friend
was to be found. Wickham indeed had gone to her on their first arrival
in London, and had she been able to receive them into her house, they
would have taken up their abode with her. At length, however, our kind
friend procured the wished-for direction. They were in ---- street. He
saw Wickham, and afterwards insisted on seeing Lydia. His first object
with her, he acknowledged, had been to persuade her to quit her present
disgraceful situation, and return to her friends as soon as they could
be prevailed on to receive her, offering his assistance, as far as it
would go. But he found Lydia absolutely resolved on remaining where she
was. She cared for none of her friends; she wanted no help of his; she
would not hear of leaving Wickham. She was sure they should be married
some time or other, and it did not much signify when. Since such were
her feelings, it only remained, he thought, to secure and expedite a
marriage, which, in his very first conversation with Wickham, he easily
learnt had never been _his_ design. He confessed himself obliged to
leave the regiment, on account of some debts of honour, which were very
pressing; and scrupled not to lay all the ill-consequences of Lydia's
flight on her own folly alone. He meant to resign his commission
immediately; and as to his future situation, he could conjecture very
little about it. He must go somewhere, but he did not know where, and he
knew he should have nothing to live on.
"Mr. Darcy asked him why he had not married
your sister at once. Though Mr. Bennet was not imagined to be very rich,
he would have been able to do something for him, and his situation must
have been benefited by marriage. But he found, in reply to this
question, that Wickham still cherished the hope of more effectually
making his fortune by marriage in some other country. Under such
circumstances, however, he was not likely to be proof against the
temptation of immediate relief.
"They met several times, for there was much
to be discussed. Wickham of course wanted more than he could get; but at
length was reduced to be reasonable.
"Every thing being settled between _them_,
Mr. Darcy's next step was to make your uncle acquainted with it, and he
first called in Gracechurch street the evening before I came home. But
Mr. Gardiner could not be seen, and Mr. Darcy found, on further inquiry,
that your father was still with him, but would quit town the next
morning. He did not judge your father to be a person whom he could so
properly consult as your uncle, and therefore readily postponed seeing
him till after the departure of the former. He did not leave his name,
and till the next day it was only known that a gentleman had called on
business.
"On Saturday he came again. Your father was
gone, your uncle at home, and, as I said before, they had a great deal
of talk together.
"They met again on Sunday, and then _I_ saw
him too. It was not all settled before Monday: as soon as it was, the
express was sent off to Longbourn. But our visitor was very obstinate. I
fancy, Lizzy, that obstinacy is the real defect of his character, after
all. He has been accused of many faults at different times, but _this_
is the true one. Nothing was to be done that he did not do himself;
though I am sure (and I do not speak it to be thanked, therefore say
nothing about it), your uncle would most readily have settled the whole.
"They battled it together for a long time,
which was more than either the gentleman or lady concerned in it
deserved. But at last your uncle was forced to yield, and instead of
being allowed to be of use to his niece, was forced to put up with only
having the probable credit of it, which went sorely against the grain;
and I really believe your letter this morning gave him great pleasure,
because it required an explanation that would rob him of his borrowed
feathers, and give the praise where it was due. But, Lizzy, this must go
no farther than yourself, or Jane at most.
"You know pretty well, I suppose, what has
been done for the young people. His debts are to be paid, amounting, I
believe, to considerably more than a thousand pounds, another thousand
in addition to her own settled upon _her_, and his commission purchased.
The reason why all this was to be done by him alone, was such as I have
given above. It was owing to him, to his reserve and want of proper
consideration, that Wickham's character had been so misunderstood, and
consequently that he had been received and noticed as he was. Perhaps
there was some truth in _this_; though I doubt whether _his_ reserve, or
_anybody's_ reserve, can be answerable for the event. But in spite of
all this fine talking, my dear Lizzy, you may rest perfectly assured
that your uncle would never have yielded, if we had not given him credit
for _another interest_ in the affair.
"When all this was resolved on, he returned
again to his friends, who were still staying at Pemberley; but it was
agreed that he should be in London once more when the wedding took
place, and all money matters were then to receive the last finish.
"I believe I have now told you every thing.
It is a relation which you tell me is to give you great surprise; I hope
at least it will not afford you any displeasure. Lydia came to us; and
Wickham had constant admission to the house. _He_ was exactly what he
had been, when I knew him in Hertfordshire; but I would not tell you how
little I was satisfied with her behaviour while she staid with us, if I
had not perceived, by Jane's letter last Wednesday, that her conduct on
coming home was exactly of a piece with it, and therefore what I now
tell you can give you no fresh pain. I talked to her repeatedly in the
most serious manner, representing to her all the wickedness of what she
had done, and all the unhappiness she had brought on her family. If she
heard me, it was by good luck, for I am sure she did not listen. I was
sometimes quite provoked, but then I recollected my dear Elizabeth and
Jane, and for their sakes had patience with her.
"Mr. Darcy was punctual in his return, and as
Lydia informed you, attended the wedding. He dined with us the next day,
and was to leave town again on Wednesday or Thursday. Will you be very
angry with me, my dear Lizzy, if I take this opportunity of saying (what
I was never bold enough to say before) how much I like him. His
behaviour to us has, in every respect, been as pleasing as when we were
in Derbyshire. His understanding and opinions all please me; he wants
nothing but a little more liveliness, and _that_, if he marry
_prudently_, his wife may teach him. I thought him very sly;--he hardly
ever mentioned your name. But slyness seems the fashion.
"Pray forgive me if I have been very
presuming, or at least do not punish me so far as to exclude me from P.
I shall never be quite happy till I have been all round the park. A low
phaeton, with a nice little pair of ponies, would be the very thing.
"But I must write no more. The children have
been wanting me this half hour.
"Yours, very sincerely,
"M. GARDINER."
The contents of this letter threw Elizabeth into a
flutter of spirits, in which it was difficult to determine whether
pleasure or pain bore the greatest share. The vague and unsettled
suspicions which uncertainty had produced of what Mr. Darcy might have
been doing to forward her sister's match, which she had feared to
encourage as an exertion of goodness too great to be probable, and at
the same time dreaded to be just, from the pain of obligation, were
proved beyond their greatest extent to be true! He had followed them
purposely to town, he had taken on himself all the trouble and
mortification attendant on such a research; in which supplication had
been necessary to a woman whom he must abominate and despise, and where
he was reduced to meet, frequently meet, reason with, persuade, and
finally bribe, the man whom he always most wished to avoid, and whose
very name it was punishment to him to pronounce. He had done all this
for a girl whom he could neither regard nor esteem. Her heart did
whisper that he had done it for her. But it was a hope shortly checked
by other considerations, and she soon felt that even her vanity was
insufficient, when required to depend on his affection for her --for a
woman who had already refused him--as able to overcome a sentiment so
natural as abhorrence against relationship with Wickham. Brother-in-law
of Wickham! Every kind of pride must revolt from the connection. He had,
to be sure, done much. She was ashamed to think how much. But he had
given a reason for his interference, which asked no extraordinary
stretch of belief. It was reasonable that he should feel he had been
wrong; he had liberality, and he had the means of exercising it; and
though she would not place herself as his principal inducement, she
could, perhaps, believe that remaining partiality for her might assist
his endeavours in a cause where her peace of mind must be materially
concerned. It was painful, exceedingly painful, to know that they were
under obligations to a person who could never receive a return. They
owed the restoration of Lydia, her character, every thing, to him. Oh!
how heartily did she grieve over every ungracious sensation she had ever
encouraged, every saucy speech she had ever directed towards him. For
herself she was humbled; but she was proud of him. Proud that in a cause
of compassion and honour, he had been able to get the better of himself.
She read over her aunt's commendation of him again and again. It was
hardly enough; but it pleased her. She was even sensible of some
pleasure, though mixed with regret, on finding how steadfastly both she
and her uncle had been persuaded that affection and confidence subsisted
between Mr. Darcy and herself.
She was roused from her seat, and her reflections,
by some one's approach; and before she could strike into another path,
she was overtaken by Wickham.
"I am afraid I interrupt your solitary
ramble, my dear sister?" said he, as he joined her.
"You certainly do," she replied with a
smile; "but it does not follow that the interruption must be
unwelcome."
"I should be sorry indeed, if it were. We
were always good friends; and now we are better."
"True. Are the others coming out?"
"I do not know. Mrs. Bennet and Lydia are
going in the carriage to Meryton. And so, my dear sister, I find, from
our uncle and aunt, that you have actually seen Pemberley."
She replied in the affirmative.
"I almost envy you the pleasure, and yet I
believe it would be too much for me, or else I could take it in my way
to Newcastle. And you saw the old housekeeper, I suppose? Poor Reynolds,
she was always very fond of me. But of course she did not mention my
name to you."
"Yes, she did."
"And what did she say?"
"That you were gone into the army, and she
was afraid had --not turned out well. At such a distance as _that_, you
know, things are strangely misrepresented."
"Certainly," he replied, biting his
lips. Elizabeth hoped she had silenced him; but he soon afterwards said:
"I was surprised to see Darcy in town last
month. We passed each other several times. I wonder what he can be doing
there."
"Perhaps preparing for his marriage with Miss
de Bourgh," said Elizabeth. "It must be something particular,
to take him there at this time of year."
"Undoubtedly. Did you see him while you were
at Lambton? I thought I understood from the Gardiners that you
had."
"Yes; he introduced us to his sister."
"And do you like her?"
"Very much."
"I have heard, indeed, that she is uncommonly
improved within this year or two. When I last saw her, she was not very
promising. I am very glad you liked her. I hope she will turn out
well."
"I dare say she will; she has got over the
most trying age."
"Did you go by the village of Kympton?"
"I do not recollect that we did."
"I mention it, because it is the living which
I ought to have had. A most delightful place!--Excellent Parsonage
House! It would have suited me in every respect."
"How should you have liked making
sermons?"
"Exceedingly well. I should have considered
it as part of my duty, and the exertion would soon have been nothing.
One ought not to repine;--but, to be sure, it would have been such a
thing for me! The quiet, the retirement of such a life would have
answered all my ideas of happiness! But it was not to be. Did you ever
hear Darcy mention the circumstance, when you were in Kent?"
"I have heard from authority, which I thought
_as good_, that it was left you conditionally only, and at the will of
the present patron."
"You have. Yes, there was something in
_that_; I told you so from the first, you may remember."
"I _did_ hear, too, that there was a time,
when sermon-making was not so palatable to you as it seems to be at
present; that you actually declared your resolution of never taking
orders, and that the business had been compromised accordingly."
"You did! and it was not wholly without
foundation. You may remember what I told you on that point, when first
we talked of it."
They were now almost at the door of the house, for
she had walked fast to get rid of him; and unwilling, for her sister's
sake, to provoke him, she only said in reply, with a good-humoured
smile:
"Come, Mr. Wickham, we are brother and
sister, you know. Do not let us quarrel about the past. In future, I
hope we shall be always of one mind."
She held out her hand; he kissed it with
affectionate gallantry, though he hardly knew how to look, and they
entered the house.
Chapter 53
Mr. Wickham was so perfectly satisfied with this
conversation that he never again distressed himself, or provoked his
dear sister Elizabeth, by introducing the subject of it; and she was
pleased to find that she had said enough to keep him quiet.
The day of his and Lydia's departure soon came,
and Mrs. Bennet was forced to submit to a separation, which, as her
husband by no means entered into her scheme of their all going to
Newcastle, was likely to continue at least a twelvemonth.
"Oh! my dear Lydia," she cried,
"when shall we meet again?"
"Oh, lord! I don't know. Not these two or
three years, perhaps."
"Write to me very often, my dear."
"As often as I can. But you know married
women have never much time for writing. My sisters may write to _me_.
They will have nothing else to do."
Mr. Wickham's adieus were much more affectionate
than his wife's. He smiled, looked handsome, and said many pretty
things.
"He is as fine a fellow," said Mr.
Bennet, as soon as they were out of the house, "as ever I saw. He
simpers, and smirks, and makes love to us all. I am prodigiously proud
of him. I defy even Sir William Lucas himself to produce a more valuable
son-in-law."
The loss of her daughter made Mrs. Bennet very
dull for several days.
"I often think," said she, "that
there is nothing so bad as parting with one's friends. One seems so
forlorn without them."
"This is the consequence, you see, Madam, of
marrying a daughter," said Elizabeth. "It must make you better
satisfied that your other four are single."
"It is no such thing. Lydia does not leave me
because she is married, but only because her husband's regiment happens
to be so far off. If that had been nearer, she would not have gone so
soon."
But the spiritless condition which this event
threw her into was shortly relieved, and her mind opened again to the
agitation of hope, by an article of news which then began to be in
circulation. The housekeeper at Netherfield had received orders to
prepare for the arrival of her master, who was coming down in a day or
two, to shoot there for several weeks. Mrs. Bennet was quite in the
fidgets. She looked at Jane, and smiled and shook her head by turns.
"Well, well, and so Mr. Bingley is coming
down, sister," (for Mrs. Phillips first brought her the news).
"Well, so much the better. Not that I care about it, though. He is
nothing to us, you know, and I am sure _I_ never want to see him again.
But, however, he is very welcome to come to Netherfield, if he likes it.
And who knows what _may_ happen? But that is nothing to us. You know,
sister, we agreed long ago never to mention a word about it. And so, is
it quite certain he is coming?"
"You may depend on it," replied the
other, "for Mrs. Nicholls was in Meryton last night; I saw her
passing by, and went out myself on purpose to know the truth of it; and
she told me that it was certain true. He comes down on Thursday at the
latest, very likely on Wednesday. She was going to the butcher's, she
told me, on purpose to order in some meat on Wednesday, and she has got
three couple of ducks just fit to be killed."
Miss Bennet had not been able to hear of his
coming without changing colour. It was many months since she had
mentioned his name to Elizabeth; but now, as soon as they were alone
together, she said:
"I saw you look at me to-day, Lizzy, when my
aunt told us of the present report; and I know I appeared distressed.
But don't imagine it was from any silly cause. I was only confused for
the moment, because I felt that I _should_ be looked at. I do assure you
that the news does not affect me either with pleasure or pain. I am glad
of one thing, that he comes alone; because we shall see the less of him.
Not that I am afraid of _myself_, but I dread other people's
remarks."
Elizabeth did not know what to make of it. Had she
not seen him in Derbyshire, she might have supposed him capable of
coming there with no other view than what was acknowledged; but she
still thought him partial to Jane, and she wavered as to the greater
probability of his coming there _with_ his friend's permission, or being
bold enough to come without it.
"Yet it is hard," she sometimes thought,
"that this poor man cannot come to a house which he has legally
hired, without raising all this speculation! I _will_ leave him to
himself."
In spite of what her sister declared, and really
believed to be her feelings in the expectation of his arrival, Elizabeth
could easily perceive that her spirits were affected by it. They were
more disturbed, more unequal, than she had often seen them.
The subject which had been so warmly canvassed
between their parents, about a twelvemonth ago, was now brought forward
again.
"As soon as ever Mr. Bingley comes, my
dear," said Mrs. Bennet, "you will wait on him of
course."
"No, no. You forced me into visiting him last
year, and promised, if I went to see him, he should marry one of my
daughters. But it ended in nothing, and I will not be sent on a fool's
errand again."
His wife represented to him how absolutely
necessary such an attention would be from all the neighbouring
gentlemen, on his returning to Netherfield.
"'Tis an etiquette I despise," said he.
"If he wants our society, let him seek it. He knows where we live.
I will not spend my hours in running after my neighbours every time they
go away and come back again."
"Well, all I know is, that it will be
abominably rude if you do not wait on him. But, however, that shan't
prevent my asking him to dine here, I am determined. We must have Mrs.
Long and the Gouldings soon. That will make thirteen with ourselves, so
there will be just room at table for him."
Consoled by this resolution, she was the better
able to bear her husband's incivility; though it was very mortifying to
know that her neighbours might all see Mr. Bingley, in consequence of
it, before _they_ did. As the day of his arrival drew near:
"I begin to be sorry that he comes at
all," said Jane to her sister. "It would be nothing; I could
see him with perfect indifference, but I can hardly bear to hear it thus
perpetually talked of. My mother means well; but she does not know, no
one can know, how much I suffer from what she says. Happy shall I be,
when his stay at Netherfield is over!"
"I wish I could say anything to comfort
you," replied Elizabeth; "but it is wholly out of my power.
You must feel it; and the usual satisfaction of preaching patience to a
sufferer is denied me, because you have always so much."
Mr. Bingley arrived. Mrs. Bennet, through the
assistance of servants, contrived to have the earliest tidings of it,
that the period of anxiety and fretfulness on her side might be as long
as it could. She counted the days that must intervene before their
invitation could be sent; hopeless of seeing him before. But on the
third morning after his arrival in Hertfordshire, she saw him, from her
dressing-room window, enter the paddock and ride towards the house.
Her daughters were eagerly called to partake of
her joy. Jane resolutely kept her place at the table; but Elizabeth, to
satisfy her mother, went to the window--she looked,--she saw Mr. Darcy
with him, and sat down again by her sister.
"There is a gentleman with him, mamma,"
said Kitty; "who can it be?"
"Some acquaintance or other, my dear, I
suppose; I am sure I do not know."
"La!" replied Kitty, "it looks just
like that man that used to be with him before. Mr. what's-his-name. That
tall, proud man."
"Good gracious! Mr. Darcy!--and so it does, I
vow. Well, any friend of Mr. Bingley's will always be welcome here, to
be sure; but else I must say that I hate the very sight of him."
Jane looked at Elizabeth with surprise and
concern. She knew but little of their meeting in Derbyshire, and
therefore felt for the awkwardness which must attend her sister, in
seeing him almost for the first time after receiving his explanatory
letter. Both sisters were uncomfortable enough. Each felt for the other,
and of course for themselves; and their mother talked on, of her dislike
of Mr. Darcy, and her resolution to be civil to him only as Mr.
Bingley's friend, without being heard by either of them. But Elizabeth
had sources of uneasiness which could not be suspected by Jane, to whom
she had never yet had courage to shew Mrs. Gardiner's letter, or to
relate her own change of sentiment towards him. To Jane, he could be
only a man whose proposals she had refused, and whose merit she had
undervalued; but to her own more extensive information, he was the
person to whom the whole family were indebted for the first of benefits,
and whom she regarded herself with an interest, if not quite so tender,
at least as reasonable and just as what Jane felt for Bingley. Her
astonishment at his coming--at his coming to Netherfield, to Longbourn,
and voluntarily seeking her again, was almost equal to what she had
known on first witnessing his altered behaviour in Derbyshire.
The colour which had been driven from her face,
returned for half a minute with an additional glow, and a smile of
delight added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that space of time
that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken. But she would not
be secure.
"Let me first see how he behaves," said
she; "it will then be early enough for expectation."
She sat intently at work, striving to be composed,
and without daring to lift up her eyes, till anxious curiosity carried
them to the face of her sister as the servant was approaching the door.
Jane looked a little paler than usual, but more sedate than Elizabeth
had expected. On the gentlemen's appearing, her colour increased; yet
she received them with tolerable ease, and with a propriety of behaviour
equally free from any symptom of resentment or any unnecessary
complaisance.
Elizabeth said as little to either as civility
would allow, and sat down again to her work, with an eagerness which it
did not often command. She had ventured only one glance at Darcy. He
looked serious, as usual; and, she thought, more as he had been used to
look in Hertfordshire, than as she had seen him at Pemberley. But,
perhaps he could not in her mother's presence be what he was before her
uncle and aunt. It was a painful, but not an improbable, conjecture.
Bingley, she had likewise seen for an instant, and
in that short period saw him looking both pleased and embarrassed. He
was received by Mrs. Bennet with a degree of civility which made her two
daughters ashamed, especially when contrasted with the cold and
ceremonious politeness of her curtsey and address to his friend.
Elizabeth, particularly, who knew that her mother
owed to the latter the preservation of her favourite daughter from
irremediable infamy, was hurt and distressed to a most painful degree by
a distinction so ill applied.
Darcy, after inquiring of her how Mr. and Mrs.
Gardiner did, a question which she could not answer without confusion,
said scarcely anything. He was not seated by her; perhaps that was the
reason of his silence; but it had not been so in Derbyshire. There he
had talked to her friends, when he could not to herself. But now several
minutes elapsed without bringing the sound of his voice; and when
occasionally, unable to resist the impulse of curiosity, she raised he
eyes to his face, she as often found him looking at Jane as at herself,
and frequently on no object but the ground. More thoughtfulness and less
anxiety to please, than when they last met, were plainly expressed. She
was disappointed, and angry with herself for being so.
"Could I expect it to be otherwise!"
said she. "Yet why did he come?"
She was in no humour for conversation with anyone
but himself; and to him she had hardly courage to speak.
She inquired after his sister, but could do no
more.
"It is a long time, Mr. Bingley, since you
went away," said Mrs. Bennet.
He readily agreed to it.
"I began to be afraid you would never come
back again. People _did_ say you meant to quit the place entirely at
Michaelmas; but, however, I hope it is not true. A great many changes
have happened in the neighbourhood, since you went away. Miss Lucas is
married and settled. And one of my own daughters. I suppose you have
heard of it; indeed, you must have seen it in the papers. It was in The
Times and The Courier, I know; though it was not put in as it ought to
be. It was only said, 'Lately, George Wickham, Esq. to Miss Lydia Bennet,'
without there being a syllable said of her father, or the place where
she lived, or anything. It was my brother Gardiner's drawing up too, and
I wonder how he came to make such an awkward business of it. Did you see
it?"
Bingley replied that he did, and made his
congratulations. Elizabeth dared not lift up her eyes. How Mr. Darcy
looked, therefore, she could not tell.
"It is a delightful thing, to be sure, to
have a daughter well married," continued her mother, "but at
the same time, Mr. Bingley, it is very hard to have her taken such a way
from me. They are gone down to Newcastle, a place quite northward, it
seems, and there they are to stay I do not know how long. His regiment
is there; for I suppose you have heard of his leaving the ----shire, and
of his being gone into the regulars. Thank Heaven! he has _some_
friends, though perhaps not so many as he deserves."
Elizabeth, who knew this to be levelled at Mr.
Darcy, was in such misery of shame, that she could hardly keep her seat.
It drew from her, however, the exertion of speaking, which nothing else
had so effectually done before; and she asked Bingley whether he meant
to make any stay in the country at present. A few weeks, he believed.
"When you have killed all your own birds, Mr.
Bingley," said her mother, "I beg you will come here, and
shoot as many as you please on Mr. Bennet's manor. I am sure he will be
vastly happy to oblige you, and will save all the best of the covies for
you."
Elizabeth's misery increased, at such unnecessary,
such officious attention! Were the same fair prospect to arise at
present as had flattered them a year ago, every thing, she was
persuaded, would be hastening to the same vexatious conclusion. At that
instant, she felt that years of happiness could not make Jane or herself
amends for moments of such painful confusion.
"The first wish of my heart," said she
to herself, "is never more to be in company with either of them.
Their society can afford no pleasure that will atone for such
wretchedness as this! Let me never see either one or the other
again!"
Yet the misery, for which years of happiness were
to offer no compensation, received soon afterwards material relief, from
observing how much the beauty of her sister re-kindled the admiration of
her former lover. When first he came in, he had spoken to her but
little; but every five minutes seemed to be giving her more of his
attention. He found her as handsome as she had been last year; as good
natured, and as unaffected, though not quite so chatty. Jane was anxious
that no difference should be perceived in her at all, and was really
persuaded that she talked as much as ever. But her mind was so busily
engaged, that she did not always know when she was silent.
When the gentlemen rose to go away, Mrs. Bennet
was mindful of her intended civility, and they were invited and engaged
to dine at Longbourn in a few days time.
"You are quite a visit in my debt, Mr.
Bingley," she added, "for when you went to town last winter,
you promised to take a family dinner with us, as soon as you returned. I
have not forgot, you see; and I assure you, I was very much disappointed
that you did not come back and keep your engagement."
Bingley looked a little silly at this reflection,
and said something of his concern at having been prevented by business.
They then went away.
Mrs. Bennet had been strongly inclined to ask them
to stay and dine there that day; but, though she always kept a very good
table, she did not think anything less than two courses could be good
enough for a man on whom she had such anxious designs, or satisfy the
appetite and pride of one who had ten thousand a year.
Chapter 54
As soon as they were gone, Elizabeth walked out to
recover her spirits; or in other words, to dwell without interruption on
those subjects that must deaden them more. Mr. Darcy's behaviour
astonished and vexed her.
"Why, if he came only to be silent, grave,
and indifferent," said she, "did he come at all?"
She could settle it in no way that gave her
pleasure.
"He could be still amiable, still pleasing,
to my uncle and aunt, when he was in town; and why not to me? If he
fears me, why come hither? If he no longer cares for me, why silent?
Teasing, teasing, man! I will think no more about him."
Her resolution was for a short time involuntarily
kept by the approach of her sister, who joined her with a cheerful look,
which showed her better satisfied with their visitors, than Elizabeth.
"Now," said she, "that this first
meeting is over, I feel perfectly easy. I know my own strength, and I
shall never be embarrassed again by his coming. I am glad he dines here
on Tuesday. It will then be publicly seen that, on both sides, we meet
only as common and indifferent acquaintance."
"Yes, very indifferent indeed," said
Elizabeth, laughingly. "Oh, Jane, take care."
"My dear Lizzy, you cannot think me so weak,
as to be in danger now?"
"I think you are in very great danger of
making him as much in love with you as ever."
* * * * *
They did not see the gentlemen again till Tuesday;
and Mrs. Bennet, in the meanwhile, was giving way to all the happy
schemes, which the good humour and common politeness of Bingley, in half
an hour's visit, had revived.
On Tuesday there was a large party assembled at
Longbourn; and the two who were most anxiously expected, to the credit
of their punctuality as sportsmen, were in very good time. When they
repaired to the dining-room, Elizabeth eagerly watched to see whether
Bingley would take the place, which, in all their former parties, had
belonged to him, by her sister. Her prudent mother, occupied by the same
ideas, forbore to invite him to sit by herself. On entering the room, he
seemed to hesitate; but Jane happened to look round, and happened to
smile: it was decided. He placed himself by her.
Elizabeth, with a triumphant sensation, looked
towards his friend. He bore it with noble indifference, and she would
have imagined that Bingley had received his sanction to be happy, had
she not seen his eyes likewise turned towards Mr. Darcy, with an
expression of half-laughing alarm.
His behaviour to her sister was such, during
dinner time, as showed an admiration of her, which, though more guarded
than formerly, persuaded Elizabeth, that if left wholly to himself,
Jane's happiness, and his own, would be speedily secured. Though she
dared not depend upon the consequence, she yet received pleasure from
observing his behaviour. It gave her all the animation that her spirits
could boast; for she was in no cheerful humour. Mr. Darcy was almost as
far from her as the table could divide them. He was on one side of her
mother. She knew how little such a situation would give pleasure to
either, or make either appear to advantage. She was not near enough to
hear any of their discourse, but she could see how seldom they spoke to
each other, and how formal and cold was their manner whenever they did.
Her mother's ungraciousness, made the sense of what they owed him more
painful to Elizabeth's mind; and she would, at times, have given
anything to be privileged to tell him that his kindness was neither
unknown nor unfelt by the whole of the family.
She was in hopes that the evening would afford
some opportunity of bringing them together; that the whole of the visit
would not pass away without enabling them to enter into something more
of conversation than the mere ceremonious salutation attending his
entrance. Anxious and uneasy, the period which passed in the
drawing-room, before the gentlemen came, was wearisome and dull to a
degree that almost made her uncivil. She looked forward to their
entrance as the point on which all her chance of pleasure for the
evening must depend.
"If he does not come to me, _then_,"
said she, "I shall give him up for ever."
The gentlemen came; and she thought he looked as
if he would have answered her hopes; but, alas! the ladies had crowded
round the table, where Miss Bennet was making tea, and Elizabeth pouring
out the coffee, in so close a confederacy that there was not a single
vacancy near her which would admit of a chair. And on the gentlemen's
approaching, one of the girls moved closer to her than ever, and said,
in a whisper:
"The men shan't come and part us, I am
determined. We want none of them; do we?"
Darcy had walked away to another part of the room.
She followed him with her eyes, envied everyone to whom he spoke, had
scarcely patience enough to help anybody to coffee; and then was enraged
against herself for being so silly!
"A man who has once been refused! How could I
ever be foolish enough to expect a renewal of his love? Is there one
among the sex, who would not protest against such a weakness as a second
proposal to the same woman? There is no indignity so abhorrent to their
feelings!"
She was a little revived, however, by his bringing
back his coffee cup himself; and she seized the opportunity of saying:
"Is your sister at Pemberley still?"
"Yes, she will remain there till
Christmas."
"And quite alone? Have all her friends left
her?"
"Mrs. Annesley is with her. The others have
been gone on to Scarborough, these three weeks."
She could think of nothing more to say; but if he
wished to converse with her, he might have better success. He stood by
her, however, for some minutes, in silence; and, at last, on the young
lady's whispering to Elizabeth again, he walked away.
When the tea-things were removed, and the
card-tables placed, the ladies all rose, and Elizabeth was then hoping
to be soon joined by him, when all her views were overthrown by seeing
him fall a victim to her mother's rapacity for whist players, and in a
few moments after seated with the rest of the party. She now lost every
expectation of pleasure. They were confined for the evening at different
tables, and she had nothing to hope, but that his eyes were so often
turned towards her side of the room, as to make him play as
unsuccessfully as herself.
Mrs. Bennet had designed to keep the two
Netherfield gentlemen to supper; but their carriage was unluckily
ordered before any of the others, and she had no opportunity of
detaining them.
"Well girls," said she, as soon as they
were left to themselves, "What say you to the day? I think every
thing has passed off uncommonly well, I assure you. The dinner was as
well dressed as any I ever saw. The venison was roasted to a turn--and
everybody said they never saw so fat a haunch. The soup was fifty times
better than what we had at the Lucases' last week; and even Mr. Darcy
acknowledged, that the partridges were remarkably well done; and I
suppose he has two or three French cooks at least. And, my dear Jane, I
never saw you look in greater beauty. Mrs. Long said so too, for I asked
her whether you did not. And what do you think she said besides? 'Ah!
Mrs. Bennet, we shall have her at Netherfield at last.' She did indeed.
I do think Mrs. Long is as good a creature as ever lived--and her nieces
are very pretty behaved girls, and not at all handsome: I like them
prodigiously."
Mrs. Bennet, in short, was in very great spirits;
she had seen enough of Bingley's behaviour to Jane, to be convinced that
she would get him at last; and her expectations of advantage to her
family, when in a happy humour, were so far beyond reason, that she was
quite disappointed at not seeing him there again the next day, to make
his proposals.
"It has been a very agreeable day," said
Miss Bennet to Elizabeth. "The party seemed so well selected, so
suitable one with the other. I hope we may often meet again."
Elizabeth smiled.
"Lizzy, you must not do so. You must not
suspect me. It mortifies me. I assure you that I have now learnt to
enjoy his conversation as an agreeable and sensible young man, without
having a wish beyond it. I am perfectly satisfied, from what his manners
now are, that he never had any design of engaging my affection. It is
only that he is blessed with greater sweetness of address, and a
stronger desire of generally pleasing, than any other man."
"You are very cruel," said her sister,
"you will not let me smile, and are provoking me to it every
moment."
"How hard it is in some cases to be
believed!"
"And how impossible in others!"
"But why should you wish to persuade me that
I feel more than I acknowledge?"
"That is a question which I hardly know how
to answer. We all love to instruct, though we can teach only what is not
worth knowing. Forgive me; and if you persist in indifference, do not
make me your confidante."
Chapter 55
A few days after this visit, Mr. Bingley called
again, and alone. His friend had left him that morning for London, but
was to return home in ten days time. He sat with them above an hour, and
was in remarkably good spirits. Mrs. Bennet invited him to dine with
them; but, with many expressions of concern, he confessed himself
engaged elsewhere.
"Next time you call," said she, "I
hope we shall be more lucky."
He should be particularly happy at any time, etc.
etc.; and if she would give him leave, would take an early opportunity
of waiting on them.
"Can you come to-morrow?"
Yes, he had no engagement at all for to-morrow;
and her invitation was accepted with alacrity.
He came, and in such very good time that the
ladies were none of them dressed. In ran Mrs. Bennet to her daughter's
room, in her dressing gown, and with her hair half finished, crying out:
"My dear Jane, make haste and hurry down. He
is come--Mr. Bingley is come. He is, indeed. Make haste, make haste.
Here, Sarah, come to Miss Bennet this moment, and help her on with her
gown. Never mind Miss Lizzy's hair."
"We will be down as soon as we can,"
said Jane; "but I dare say Kitty is forwarder than either of us,
for she went up stairs half an hour ago."
"Oh! hang Kitty! what has she to do with it?
Come be quick, be quick! Where is your sash, my dear?"
But when her mother was gone, Jane would not be
prevailed on to go down without one of her sisters.
The same anxiety to get them by themselves was
visible again in the evening. After tea, Mr. Bennet retired to the
library, as was his custom, and Mary went up stairs to her instrument.
Two obstacles of the five being thus removed, Mrs. Bennet sat looking
and winking at Elizabeth and Catherine for a considerable time, without
making any impression on them. Elizabeth would not observe her; and when
at last Kitty did, she very innocently said, "What is the matter
mamma? What do you keep winking at me for? What am I to do?"
"Nothing child, nothing. I did not wink at
you." She then sat still five minutes longer; but unable to waste
such a precious occasion, she suddenly got up, and saying to Kitty,
"Come here, my love, I want to speak to you," took her out of
the room. Jane instantly gave a look at Elizabeth which spoke her
distress at such premeditation, and her entreaty that _she_ would not
give in to it. In a few minutes, Mrs. Bennet half-opened the door and
called out:
"Lizzy, my dear, I want to speak with
you."
Elizabeth was forced to go.
"We may as well leave them by themselves you
know;" said her mother, as soon as she was in the hall. "Kitty
and I are going upstairs to sit in my dressing-room."
Elizabeth made no attempt to reason with her
mother, but remained quietly in the hall, till she and Kitty were out of
sight, then returned into the drawing-room.
Mrs. Bennet's schemes for this day were
ineffectual. Bingley was every thing that was charming, except the
professed lover of her daughter. His ease and cheerfulness rendered him
a most agreeable addition to their evening party; and he bore with the
ill-judged officiousness of the mother, and heard all her silly remarks
with a forbearance and command of countenance particularly grateful to
the daughter.
He scarcely needed an invitation to stay supper;
and before he went away, an engagement was formed, chiefly through his
own and Mrs. Bennet's means, for his coming next morning to shoot with
her husband.
After this day, Jane said no more of her
indifference. Not a word passed between the sisters concerning Bingley;
but Elizabeth went to bed in the happy belief that all must speedily be
concluded, unless Mr. Darcy returned within the stated time. Seriously,
however, she felt tolerably persuaded that all this must have taken
place with that gentleman's concurrence.
Bingley was punctual to his appointment; and he
and Mr. Bennet spent the morning together, as had been agreed on. The
latter was much more agreeable than his companion expected. There was
nothing of presumption or folly in Bingley that could provoke his
ridicule, or disgust him into silence; and he was more communicative,
and less eccentric, than the other had ever seen him. Bingley of course
returned with him to dinner; and in the evening Mrs. Bennet's invention
was again at work to get every body away from him and her daughter.
Elizabeth, who had a letter to write, went into the breakfast room for
that purpose soon after tea; for as the others were all going to sit
down to cards, she could not be wanted to counteract her mother's
schemes.
But on returning to the drawing-room, when her
letter was finished, she saw, to her infinite surprise, there was reason
to fear that her mother had been too ingenious for her. On opening the
door, she perceived her sister and Bingley standing together over the
hearth, as if engaged in earnest conversation; and had this led to no
suspicion, the faces of both, as they hastily turned round and moved
away from each other, would have told it all. Their situation was
awkward enough; but _her's_ she thought was still worse. Not a syllable
was uttered by either; and Elizabeth was on the point of going away
again, when Bingley, who as well as the other had sat down, suddenly
rose, and whispering a few words to her sister, ran out of the room.
Jane could have no reserves from Elizabeth, where
confidence would give pleasure; and instantly embracing her,
acknowledged, with the liveliest emotion, that she was the happiest
creature in the world.
"'Tis too much!" she added, "by far
too much. I do not deserve it. Oh! why is not everybody as happy?"
Elizabeth's congratulations were given with a
sincerity, a warmth, a delight, which words could but poorly express.
Every sentence of kindness was a fresh source of happiness to Jane. But
she would not allow herself to stay with her sister, or say half that
remained to be said for the present.
"I must go instantly to my mother;" she
cried. "I would not on any account trifle with her affectionate
solicitude; or allow her to hear it from anyone but myself. He is gone
to my father already. Oh! Lizzy, to know that what I have to relate will
give such pleasure to all my dear family! how shall I bear so much
happiness!"
She then hastened away to her mother, who had
purposely broken up the card party, and was sitting up stairs with
Kitty.
Elizabeth, who was left by herself, now smiled at
the rapidity and ease with which an affair was finally settled, that had
given them so many previous months of suspense and vexation.
"And this," said she, "is the end
of all his friend's anxious circumspection! of all his sister's
falsehood and contrivance! the happiest, wisest, most reasonable
end!"
In a few minutes she was joined by Bingley, whose
conference with her father had been short and to the purpose.
"Where is your sister?" said he hastily,
as he opened the door.
"With my mother up stairs. She will be down
in a moment, I dare say."
He then shut the door, and, coming up to her,
claimed the good wishes and affection of a sister. Elizabeth honestly
and heartily expressed her delight in the prospect of their
relationship. They shook hands with great cordiality; and then, till her
sister came down, she had to listen to all he had to say of his own
happiness, and of Jane's perfections; and in spite of his being a lover,
Elizabeth really believed all his expectations of felicity to be
rationally founded, because they had for basis the excellent
understanding, and super-excellent disposition of Jane, and a general
similarity of feeling and taste between her and himself.
It was an evening of no common delight to them
all; the satisfaction of Miss Bennet's mind gave a glow of such sweet
animation to her face, as made her look handsomer than ever. Kitty
simpered and smiled, and hoped her turn was coming soon. Mrs. Bennet
could not give her consent or speak her approbation in terms warm enough
to satisfy her feelings, though she talked to Bingley of nothing else
for half an hour; and when Mr. Bennet joined them at supper, his voice
and manner plainly showed how really happy he was.
Not a word, however, passed his lips in allusion
to it, till their visitor took his leave for the night; but as soon as
he was gone, he turned to his daughter, and said:
"Jane, I congratulate you. You will be a very
happy woman."
Jane went to him instantly, kissed him, and
thanked him for his goodness.
"You are a good girl;" he replied,
"and I have great pleasure in thinking you will be so happily
settled. I have not a doubt of your doing very well together. Your
tempers are by no means unlike. You are each of you so complying, that
nothing will ever be resolved on; so easy, that every servant will cheat
you; and so generous, that you will always exceed your income."
"I hope not so. Imprudence or thoughtlessness
in money matters would be unpardonable in me."
"Exceed their income! My dear Mr. Bennet,"
cried his wife, "what are you talking of? Why, he has four or five
thousand a year, and very likely more." Then addressing her
daughter, "Oh! my dear, dear Jane, I am so happy! I am sure I
shan't get a wink of sleep all night. I knew how it would be. I always
said it must be so, at last. I was sure you could not be so beautiful
for nothing! I remember, as soon as ever I saw him, when he first came
into Hertfordshire last year, I thought how likely it was that you
should come together. Oh! he is the handsomest young man that ever was
seen!"
Wickham, Lydia, were all forgotten. Jane was
beyond competition her favourite child. At that moment, she cared for no
other. Her younger sisters soon began to make interest with her for
objects of happiness which she might in future be able to dispense.
Mary petitioned for the use of the library at
Netherfield; and Kitty begged very hard for a few balls there every
winter.
Bingley, from this time, was of course a daily
visitor at Longbourn; coming frequently before breakfast, and always
remaining till after supper; unless when some barbarous neighbour, who
could not be enough detested, had given him an invitation to dinner
which he thought himself obliged to accept.
Elizabeth had now but little time for conversation
with her sister; for while he was present, Jane had no attention to
bestow on anyone else; but she found herself considerably useful to both
of them in those hours of separation that must sometimes occur. In the
absence of Jane, he always attached himself to Elizabeth, for the
pleasure of talking of her; and when Bingley was gone, Jane constantly
sought the same means of relief.
"He has made me so happy," said she, one
evening, "by telling me that he was totally ignorant of my being in
town last spring! I had not believed it possible."
"I suspected as much," replied
Elizabeth. "But how did he account for it?"
"It must have been his sister's doing. They
were certainly no friends to his acquaintance with me, which I cannot
wonder at, since he might have chosen so much more advantageously in
many respects. But when they see, as I trust they will, that their
brother is happy with me, they will learn to be contented, and we shall
be on good terms again; though we can never be what we once were to each
other."
"That is the most unforgiving speech,"
said Elizabeth, "that I ever heard you utter. Good girl! It would
vex me, indeed, to see you again the dupe of Miss Bingley's pretended
regard."
"Would you believe it, Lizzy, that when he
went to town last November, he really loved me, and nothing but a
persuasion of _my_ being indifferent would have prevented his coming
down again!"
"He made a little mistake to be sure; but it
is to the credit of his modesty."
This naturally introduced a panegyric from Jane on
his diffidence, and the little value he put on his own good qualities.
Elizabeth was pleased to find that he had not betrayed the interference
of his friend; for, though Jane had the most generous and forgiving
heart in the world, she knew it was a circumstance which must prejudice
her against him.
"I am certainly the most fortunate creature
that ever existed!" cried Jane. "Oh! Lizzy, why am I thus
singled from my family, and blessed above them all! If I could but see
_you_ as happy! If there _were_ but such another man for you!"
"If you were to give me forty such men, I
never could be so happy as you. Till I have your disposition, your
goodness, I never can have your happiness. No, no, let me shift for
myself; and, perhaps, if I have very good luck, I may meet with another
Mr. Collins in time."
The situation of affairs in the Longbourn family
could not be long a secret. Mrs. Bennet was privileged to whisper it to
Mrs. Phillips, and she ventured, without any permission, to do the same
by all her neighbours in Meryton.
The Bennets were speedily pronounced to be the
luckiest family in the world, though only a few weeks before, when Lydia
had first run away, they had been generally proved to be marked out for
misfortune.
Chapter 56
One morning, about a week after Bingley's
engagement with Jane had been formed, as he and the females of the
family were sitting together in the dining-room, their attention was
suddenly drawn to the window, by the sound of a carriage; and they
perceived a chaise and four driving up the lawn. It was too early in the
morning for visitors, and besides, the equipage did not answer to that
of any of their neighbours. The horses were post; and neither the
carriage, nor the livery of the servant who preceded it, were familiar
to them. As it was certain, however, that somebody was coming, Bingley
instantly prevailed on Miss Bennet to avoid the confinement of such an
intrusion, and walk away with him into the shrubbery. They both set off,
and the conjectures of the remaining three continued, though with little
satisfaction, till the door was thrown open and their visitor entered.
It was Lady Catherine de Bourgh.
They were of course all intending to be surprised;
but their astonishment was beyond their expectation; and on the part of
Mrs. Bennet and Kitty, though she was perfectly unknown to them, even
inferior to what Elizabeth felt.
She entered the room with an air more than usually
ungracious, made no other reply to Elizabeth's salutation than a slight
inclination of the head, and sat down without saying a word. Elizabeth
had mentioned her name to her mother on her ladyship's entrance, though
no request of introduction had been made.
Mrs. Bennet, all amazement, though flattered by
having a guest of such high importance, received her with the utmost
politeness. After sitting for a moment in silence, she said very stiffly
to Elizabeth,
"I hope you are well, Miss Bennet. That lady,
I suppose, is your mother."
Elizabeth replied very concisely that she was.
"And _that_ I suppose is one of your
sisters."
"Yes, madam," said Mrs. Bennet,
delighted to speak to a Lady Catherine. "She is my youngest girl
but one. My youngest of all is lately married, and my eldest is
somewhere about the grounds, walking with a young man who, I believe,
will soon become a part of the family."
"You have a very small park here,"
returned Lady Catherine after a short silence.
"It is nothing in comparison of Rosings, my
lady, I dare say; but I assure you it is much larger than Sir William
Lucas's."
"This must be a most inconvenient sitting
room for the evening, in summer; the windows are full west."
Mrs. Bennet assured her that they never sat there
after dinner, and then added:
"May I take the liberty of asking your
ladyship whether you left Mr. and Mrs. Collins well."
"Yes, very well. I saw them the night before
last."
Elizabeth now expected that she would produce a
letter for her from Charlotte, as it seemed the only probable motive for
her calling. But no letter appeared, and she was completely puzzled.
Mrs. Bennet, with great civility, begged her
ladyship to take some refreshment; but Lady Catherine very resolutely,
and not very politely, declined eating anything; and then, rising up,
said to Elizabeth,
"Miss Bennet, there seemed to be a prettyish
kind of a little wilderness on one side of your lawn. I should be glad
to take a turn in it, if you will favour me with your company."
"Go, my dear," cried her mother,
"and show her ladyship about the different walks. I think she will
be pleased with the hermitage."
Elizabeth obeyed, and running into her own room
for her parasol, attended her noble guest downstairs. As they passed
through the hall, Lady Catherine opened the doors into the dining-parlour
and drawing-room, and pronouncing them, after a short survey, to be
decent looking rooms, walked on.
Her carriage remained at the door, and Elizabeth
saw that her waiting-woman was in it. They proceeded in silence along
the gravel walk that led to the copse; Elizabeth was determined to make
no effort for conversation with a woman who was now more than usually
insolent and disagreeable.
"How could I ever think her like her
nephew?" said she, as she looked in her face.
As soon as they entered the copse, Lady Catherine
began in the following manner:--
"You can be at no loss, Miss Bennet, to
understand the reason of my journey hither. Your own heart, your own
conscience, must tell you why I come."
Elizabeth looked with unaffected astonishment.
"Indeed, you are mistaken, Madam. I have not
been at all able to account for the honour of seeing you here."
"Miss Bennet," replied her ladyship, in
an angry tone, "you ought to know, that I am not to be trifled
with. But however insincere _you_ may choose to be, you shall not find
_me_ so. My character has ever been celebrated for its sincerity and
frankness, and in a cause of such moment as this, I shall certainly not
depart from it. A report of a most alarming nature reached me two days
ago. I was told that not only your sister was on the point of being most
advantageously married, but that you, that Miss Elizabeth Bennet, would,
in all likelihood, be soon afterwards united to my nephew, my own
nephew, Mr. Darcy. Though I _know_ it must be a scandalous falsehood,
though I would not injure him so much as to suppose the truth of it
possible, I instantly resolved on setting off for this place, that I
might make my sentiments known to you."
"If you believed it impossible to be
true," said Elizabeth, colouring with astonishment and disdain,
"I wonder you took the trouble of coming so far. What could your
ladyship propose by it?"
"At once to insist upon having such a report
universally contradicted."
"Your coming to Longbourn, to see me and my
family," said Elizabeth coolly, "will be rather a confirmation
of it; if, indeed, such a report is in existence."
"If! Do you then pretend to be ignorant of
it? Has it not been industriously circulated by yourselves? Do you not
know that such a report is spread abroad?"
"I never heard that it was."
"And can you likewise declare, that there is
no foundation for it?"
"I do not pretend to possess equal frankness
with your ladyship. You may ask questions which I shall not choose to
answer."
"This is not to be borne. Miss Bennet, I
insist on being satisfied. Has he, has my nephew, made you an offer of
marriage?"
"Your ladyship has declared it to be
impossible."
"It ought to be so; it must be so, while he
retains the use of his reason. But your arts and allurements may, in a
moment of infatuation, have made him forget what he owes to himself and
to all his family. You may have drawn him in."
"If I have, I shall be the last person to
confess it."
"Miss Bennet, do you know who I am? I have
not been accustomed to such language as this. I am almost the nearest
relation he has in the world, and am entitled to know all his dearest
concerns."
"But you are not entitled to know mine; nor
will such behaviour as this, ever induce me to be explicit."
"Let me be rightly understood. This match, to
which you have the presumption to aspire, can never take place. No,
never. Mr. Darcy is engaged to my daughter. Now what have you to
say?"
"Only this; that if he is so, you can have no
reason to suppose he will make an offer to me."
Lady Catherine hesitated for a moment, and then
replied:
"The engagement between them is of a peculiar
kind. From their infancy, they have been intended for each other. It was
the favourite wish of _his_ mother, as well as of her's. While in their
cradles, we planned the union: and now, at the moment when the wishes of
both sisters would be accomplished in their marriage, to be prevented by
a young woman of inferior birth, of no importance in the world, and
wholly unallied to the family! Do you pay no regard to the wishes of his
friends? To his tacit engagement with Miss de Bourgh? Are you lost to
every feeling of propriety and delicacy? Have you not heard me say that
from his earliest hours he was destined for his cousin?"
"Yes, and I had heard it before. But what is
that to me? If there is no other objection to my marrying your nephew, I
shall certainly not be kept from it by knowing that his mother and aunt
wished him to marry Miss de Bourgh. You both did as much as you could in
planning the marriage. Its completion depended on others. If Mr. Darcy
is neither by honour nor inclination confined to his cousin, why is not
he to make another choice? And if I am that choice, why may not I accept
him?"
"Because honour, decorum, prudence, nay,
interest, forbid it. Yes, Miss Bennet, interest; for do not expect to be
noticed by his family or friends, if you wilfully act against the
inclinations of all. You will be censured, slighted, and despised, by
everyone connected with him. Your alliance will be a disgrace; your name
will never even be mentioned by any of us."
"These are heavy misfortunes," replied
Elizabeth. "But the wife of Mr. Darcy must have such extraordinary
sources of happiness necessarily attached to her situation, that she
could, upon the whole, have no cause to repine."
"Obstinate, headstrong girl! I am ashamed of
you! Is this your gratitude for my attentions to you last spring? Is
nothing due to me on that score? Let us sit down. You are to understand,
Miss Bennet, that I came here with the determined resolution of carrying
my purpose; nor will I be dissuaded from it. I have not been used to
submit to any person's whims. I have not been in the habit of brooking
disappointment."
"_That_ will make your ladyship's situation
at present more pitiable; but it will have no effect on me."
"I will not be interrupted. Hear me in
silence. My daughter and my nephew are formed for each other. They are
descended, on the maternal side, from the same noble line; and, on the
father's, from respectable, honourable, and ancient--though
untitled--families. Their fortune on both sides is splendid. They are
destined for each other by the voice of every member of their respective
houses; and what is to divide them? The upstart pretensions of a young
woman without family, connections, or fortune. Is this to be endured!
But it must not, shall not be. If you were sensible of your own good,
you would not wish to quit the sphere in which you have been brought
up."
"In marrying your nephew, I should not
consider myself as quitting that sphere. He is a gentleman; I am a
gentleman's daughter; so far we are equal."
"True. You _are_ a gentleman's daughter. But
who was your mother? Who are your uncles and aunts? Do not imagine me
ignorant of their condition."
"Whatever my connections may be," said
Elizabeth, "if your nephew does not object to them, they can be
nothing to _you_."
"Tell me once for all, are you engaged to
him?"
Though Elizabeth would not, for the mere purpose
of obliging Lady Catherine, have answered this question, she could not
but say, after a moment's deliberation:
"I am not."
Lady Catherine seemed pleased.
"And will you promise me, never to enter into
such an engagement?"
"I will make no promise of the kind."
"Miss Bennet I am shocked and astonished. I
expected to find a more reasonable young woman. But do not deceive
yourself into a belief that I will ever recede. I shall not go away till
you have given me the assurance I require."
"And I certainly _never_ shall give it. I am
not to be intimidated into anything so wholly unreasonable. Your
ladyship wants Mr. Darcy to marry your daughter; but would my giving you
the wished-for promise make their marriage at all more probable?
Supposing him to be attached to me, would my refusing to accept his hand
make him wish to bestow it on his cousin? Allow me to say, Lady
Catherine, that the arguments with which you have supported this
extraordinary application have been as frivolous as the application was
ill-judged. You have widely mistaken my character, if you think I can be
worked on by such persuasions as these. How far your nephew might
approve of your interference in his affairs, I cannot tell; but you have
certainly no right to concern yourself in mine. I must beg, therefore,
to be importuned no farther on the subject."
"Not so hasty, if you please. I have by no
means done. To all the objections I have already urged, I have still
another to add. I am no stranger to the particulars of your youngest
sister's infamous elopement. I know it all; that the young man's
marrying her was a patched-up business, at the expence of your father
and uncles. And is such a girl to be my nephew's sister? Is her husband,
is the son of his late father's steward, to be his brother? Heaven and
earth!--of what are you thinking? Are the shades of Pemberley to be thus
polluted?"
"You can now have nothing further to
say," she resentfully answered. "You have insulted me in every
possible method. I must beg to return to the house."
And she rose as she spoke. Lady Catherine rose
also, and they turned back. Her ladyship was highly incensed.
"You have no regard, then, for the honour and
credit of my nephew! Unfeeling, selfish girl! Do you not consider that a
connection with you must disgrace him in the eyes of everybody?"
"Lady Catherine, I have nothing further to
say. You know my sentiments."
"You are then resolved to have him?"
"I have said no such thing. I am only
resolved to act in that manner, which will, in my own opinion,
constitute my happiness, without reference to _you_, or to any person so
wholly unconnected with me."
"It is well. You refuse, then, to oblige me.
You refuse to obey the claims of duty, honour, and gratitude. You are
determined to ruin him in the opinion of all his friends, and make him
the contempt of the world."
"Neither duty, nor honour, nor
gratitude," replied Elizabeth, "have any possible claim on me,
in the present instance. No principle of either would be violated by my
marriage with Mr. Darcy. And with regard to the resentment of his
family, or the indignation of the world, if the former _were_ excited by
his marrying me, it would not give me one moment's concern--and the
world in general would have too much sense to join in the scorn."
"And this is your real opinion! This is your
final resolve! Very well. I shall now know how to act. Do not imagine,
Miss Bennet, that your ambition will ever be gratified. I came to try
you. I hoped to find you reasonable; but, depend upon it, I will carry
my point."
In this manner Lady Catherine talked on, till they
were at the door of the carriage, when, turning hastily round, she
added, "I take no leave of you, Miss Bennet. I send no compliments
to your mother. You deserve no such attention. I am most seriously
displeased."
Elizabeth made no answer; and without attempting
to persuade her ladyship to return into the house, walked quietly into
it herself. She heard the carriage drive away as she proceeded up
stairs. Her mother impatiently met her at the door of the dressing-room,
to ask why Lady Catherine would not come in again and rest herself.
"She did not choose it," said her
daughter, "she would go."
"She is a very fine-looking woman! and her
calling here was prodigiously civil! for she only came, I suppose, to
tell us the Collinses were well. She is on her road somewhere, I dare
say, and so, passing through Meryton, thought she might as well call on
you. I suppose she had nothing particular to say to you, Lizzy?"
Elizabeth was forced to give into a little
falsehood here; for to acknowledge the substance of their conversation
was impossible.
Chapter 57
The discomposure of spirits which this
extraordinary visit threw Elizabeth into, could not be easily overcome;
nor could she, for many hours, learn to think of it less than
incessantly. Lady Catherine, it appeared, had actually taken the trouble
of this journey from Rosings, for the sole purpose of breaking off her
supposed engagement with Mr. Darcy. It was a rational scheme, to be
sure! but from what the report of their engagement could originate,
Elizabeth was at a loss to imagine; till she recollected that _his_
being the intimate friend of Bingley, and _her_ being the sister of
Jane, was enough, at a time when the expectation of one wedding made
everybody eager for another, to supply the idea. She had not herself
forgotten to feel that the marriage of her sister must bring them more
frequently together. And her neighbours at Lucas Lodge, therefore (for
through their communication with the Collinses, the report, she
concluded, had reached lady Catherine), had only set that down as almost
certain and immediate, which she had looked forward to as possible at
some future time.
In revolving Lady Catherine's expressions,
however, she could not help feeling some uneasiness as to the possible
consequence of her persisting in this interference. From what she had
said of her resolution to prevent their marriage, it occurred to
Elizabeth that she must meditate an application to her nephew; and how
_he_ might take a similar representation of the evils attached to a
connection with her, she dared not pronounce. She knew not the exact
degree of his affection for his aunt, or his dependence on her judgment,
but it was natural to suppose that he thought much higher of her
ladyship than _she_ could do; and it was certain that, in enumerating
the miseries of a marriage with _one_, whose immediate connections were
so unequal to his own, his aunt would address him on his weakest side.
With his notions of dignity, he would probably feel that the arguments,
which to Elizabeth had appeared weak and ridiculous, contained much good
sense and solid reasoning.
If he had been wavering before as to what he
should do, which had often seemed likely, the advice and entreaty of so
near a relation might settle every doubt, and determine him at once to
be as happy as dignity unblemished could make him. In that case he would
return no more. Lady Catherine might see him in her way through town;
and his engagement to Bingley of coming again to Netherfield must give
way.
"If, therefore, an excuse for not keeping his
promise should come to his friend within a few days," she added,
"I shall know how to understand it. I shall then give over every
expectation, every wish of his constancy. If he is satisfied with only
regretting me, when he might have obtained my affections and hand, I
shall soon cease to regret him at all."
* * * * *
The surprise of the rest of the family, on hearing
who their visitor had been, was very great; but they obligingly
satisfied it, with the same kind of supposition which had appeased Mrs.
Bennet's curiosity; and Elizabeth was spared from much teasing on the
subject.
The next morning, as she was going downstairs, she
was met by her father, who came out of his library with a letter in his
hand.
"Lizzy," said he, "I was going to
look for you; come into my room."
She followed him thither; and her curiosity to
know what he had to tell her was heightened by the supposition of its
being in some manner connected with the letter he held. It suddenly
struck her that it might be from Lady Catherine; and she anticipated
with dismay all the consequent explanations.
She followed her father to the fire place, and
they both sat down. He then said,
"I have received a letter this morning that
has astonished me exceedingly. As it principally concerns yourself, you
ought to know its contents. I did not know before, that I had two
daughters on the brink of matrimony. Let me congratulate you on a very
important conquest."
The colour now rushed into Elizabeth's cheeks in
the instantaneous conviction of its being a letter from the nephew,
instead of the aunt; and she was undetermined whether most to be pleased
that he explained himself at all, or offended that his letter was not
rather addressed to herself; when her father continued:
"You look conscious. Young ladies have great
penetration in such matters as these; but I think I may defy even _your_
sagacity, to discover the name of your admirer. This letter is from Mr.
Collins."
"From Mr. Collins! and what can _he_ have to
say?"
"Something very much to the purpose of
course. He begins with congratulations on the approaching nuptials of my
eldest daughter, of which, it seems, he has been told by some of the
good-natured, gossiping Lucases. I shall not sport with your impatience,
by reading what he says on that point. What relates to yourself, is as
follows: 'Having thus offered you the sincere congratulations of Mrs.
Collins and myself on this happy event, let me now add a short hint on
the subject of another; of which we have been advertised by the same
authority. Your daughter Elizabeth, it is presumed, will not long bear
the name of Bennet, after her elder sister has resigned it, and the
chosen partner of her fate may be reasonably looked up to as one of the
most illustrious personages in this land.'
"Can you possibly guess, Lizzy, who is meant
by this?" 'This young gentleman is blessed, in a peculiar way, with
every thing the heart of mortal can most desire,--splendid property,
noble kindred, and extensive patronage. Yet in spite of all these
temptations, let me warn my cousin Elizabeth, and yourself, of what
evils you may incur by a precipitate closure with this gentleman's
proposals, which, of course, you will be inclined to take immediate
advantage of.'
"Have you any idea, Lizzy, who this gentleman
is? But now it comes out:
"'My motive for cautioning you is as follows.
We have reason to imagine that his aunt, Lady Catherine de Bourgh, does
not look on the match with a friendly eye.'
"_Mr. Darcy_, you see, is the man! Now, Lizzy,
I think I _have_ surprised you. Could he, or the Lucases, have pitched
on any man within the circle of our acquaintance, whose name would have
given the lie more effectually to what they related? Mr. Darcy, who
never looks at any woman but to see a blemish, and who probably never
looked at you in his life! It is admirable!"
Elizabeth tried to join in her father's
pleasantry, but could only force one most reluctant smile. Never had his
wit been directed in a manner so little agreeable to her.
"Are you not diverted?"
"Oh! yes. Pray read on."
"'After mentioning the likelihood of this
marriage to her ladyship last night, she immediately, with her usual
condescension, expressed what she felt on the occasion; when it became
apparent, that on the score of some family objections on the part of my
cousin, she would never give her consent to what she termed so
disgraceful a match. I thought it my duty to give the speediest
intelligence of this to my cousin, that she and her noble admirer may be
aware of what they are about, and not run hastily into a marriage which
has not been properly sanctioned.' Mr. Collins moreover adds, 'I am
truly rejoiced that my cousin Lydia's sad business has been so well
hushed up, and am only concerned that their living together before the
marriage took place should be so generally known. I must not, however,
neglect the duties of my station, or refrain from declaring my amazement
at hearing that you received the young couple into your house as soon as
they were married. It was an encouragement of vice; and had I been the
rector of Longbourn, I should very strenuously have opposed it. You
ought certainly to forgive them, as a Christian, but never to admit them
in your sight, or allow their names to be mentioned in your hearing.'
That is his notion of Christian forgiveness! The rest of his letter is
only about his dear Charlotte's situation, and his expectation of a
young olive-branch. But, Lizzy, you look as if you did not enjoy it. You
are not going to be _missish_, I hope, and pretend to be affronted at an
idle report. For what do we live, but to make sport for our neighbours,
and laugh at them in our turn?"
"Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I am
excessively diverted. But it is so strange!"
"Yes--_that_ is what makes it amusing. Had
they fixed on any other man it would have been nothing; but _his_
perfect indifference, and _your_ pointed dislike, make it so
delightfully absurd! Much as I abominate writing, I would not give up
Mr. Collins's correspondence for any consideration. Nay, when I read a
letter of his, I cannot help giving him the preference even over Wickham,
much as I value the impudence and hypocrisy of my son-in-law. And pray,
Lizzy, what said Lady Catherine about this report? Did she call to
refuse her consent?"
To this question his daughter replied only with a
laugh; and as it had been asked without the least suspicion, she was not
distressed by his repeating it. Elizabeth had never been more at a loss
to make her feelings appear what they were not. It was necessary to
laugh, when she would rather have cried. Her father had most cruelly
mortified her, by what he said of Mr. Darcy's indifference, and she
could do nothing but wonder at such a want of penetration, or fear that
perhaps, instead of his seeing too little, she might have fancied too
much.
Chapter 58
Instead of receiving any such letter of excuse
from his friend, as Elizabeth half expected Mr. Bingley to do, he was
able to bring Darcy with him to Longbourn before many days had passed
after Lady Catherine's visit. The gentlemen arrived early; and, before
Mrs. Bennet had time to tell him of their having seen his aunt, of which
her daughter sat in momentary dread, Bingley, who wanted to be alone
with Jane, proposed their all walking out. It was agreed to. Mrs. Bennet
was not in the habit of walking; Mary could never spare time; but the
remaining five set off together. Bingley and Jane, however, soon allowed
the others to outstrip them. They lagged behind, while Elizabeth, Kitty,
and Darcy were to entertain each other. Very little was said by either;
Kitty was too much afraid of him to talk; Elizabeth was secretly forming
a desperate resolution; and perhaps he might be doing the same.
They walked towards the Lucases, because Kitty
wished to call upon Maria; and as Elizabeth saw no occasion for making
it a general concern, when Kitty left them she went boldly on with him
alone. Now was the moment for her resolution to be executed, and, while
her courage was high, she immediately said:
"Mr. Darcy, I am a very selfish creature;
and, for the sake of giving relief to my own feelings, care not how much
I may be wounding your's. I can no longer help thanking you for your
unexampled kindness to my poor sister. Ever since I have known it, I
have been most anxious to acknowledge to you how gratefully I feel it.
Were it known to the rest of my family, I should not have merely my own
gratitude to express."
"I am sorry, exceedingly sorry," replied
Darcy, in a tone of surprise and emotion, "that you have ever been
informed of what may, in a mistaken light, have given you uneasiness. I
did not think Mrs. Gardiner was so little to be trusted."
"You must not blame my aunt. Lydia's
thoughtlessness first betrayed to me that you had been concerned in the
matter; and, of course, I could not rest till I knew the particulars.
Let me thank you again and again, in the name of all my family, for that
generous compassion which induced you to take so much trouble, and bear
so many mortifications, for the sake of discovering them."
"If you _will_ thank me," he replied,
"let it be for yourself alone. That the wish of giving happiness to
you might add force to the other inducements which led me on, I shall
not attempt to deny. But your _family_ owe me nothing. Much as I respect
them, I believe I thought only of _you_."
Elizabeth was too much embarrassed to say a word.
After a short pause, her companion added, "You are too generous to
trifle with me. If your feelings are still what they were last April,
tell me so at once. _My_ affections and wishes are unchanged, but one
word from you will silence me on this subject for ever."
Elizabeth, feeling all the more than common
awkwardness and anxiety of his situation, now forced herself to speak;
and immediately, though not very fluently, gave him to understand that
her sentiments had undergone so material a change, since the period to
which he alluded, as to make her receive with gratitude and pleasure his
present assurances. The happiness which this reply produced, was such as
he had probably never felt before; and he expressed himself on the
occasion as sensibly and as warmly as a man violently in love can be
supposed to do. Had Elizabeth been able to encounter his eye, she might
have seen how well the expression of heartfelt delight, diffused over
his face, became him; but, though she could not look, she could listen,
and he told her of feelings, which, in proving of what importance she
was to him, made his affection every moment more valuable.
They walked on, without knowing in what direction.
There was too much to be thought, and felt, and said, for attention to
any other objects. She soon learnt that they were indebted for their
present good understanding to the efforts of his aunt, who did call on
him in her return through London, and there relate her journey to
Longbourn, its motive, and the substance of her conversation with
Elizabeth; dwelling emphatically on every expression of the latter
which, in her ladyship's apprehension, peculiarly denoted her
perverseness and assurance; in the belief that such a relation must
assist her endeavours to obtain that promise from her nephew which she
had refused to give. But, unluckily for her ladyship, its effect had
been exactly contrariwise.
"It taught me to hope," said he,
"as I had scarcely ever allowed myself to hope before. I knew
enough of your disposition to be certain that, had you been absolutely,
irrevocably decided against me, you would have acknowledged it to Lady
Catherine, frankly and openly."
Elizabeth coloured and laughed as she replied,
"Yes, you know enough of my frankness to believe me capable of
_that_. After abusing you so abominably to your face, I could have no
scruple in abusing you to all your relations."
"What did you say of me, that I did not
deserve? For, though your accusations were ill-founded, formed on
mistaken premises, my behaviour to you at the time had merited the
severest reproof. It was unpardonable. I cannot think of it without
abhorrence."
"We will not quarrel for the greater share of
blame annexed to that evening," said Elizabeth. "The conduct
of neither, if strictly examined, will be irreproachable; but since
then, we have both, I hope, improved in civility."
"I cannot be so easily reconciled to myself.
The recollection of what I then said, of my conduct, my manners, my
expressions during the whole of it, is now, and has been many months,
inexpressibly painful to me. Your reproof, so well applied, I shall
never forget: 'had you behaved in a more gentlemanlike manner.' Those
were your words. You know not, you can scarcely conceive, how they have
tortured me;--though it was some time, I confess, before I was
reasonable enough to allow their justice."
"I was certainly very far from expecting them
to make so strong an impression. I had not the smallest idea of their
being ever felt in such a way."
"I can easily believe it. You thought me then
devoid of every proper feeling, I am sure you did. The turn of your
countenance I shall never forget, as you said that I could not have
addressed you in any possible way that would induce you to accept
me."
"Oh! do not repeat what I then said. These
recollections will not do at all. I assure you that I have long been
most heartily ashamed of it."
Darcy mentioned his letter. "Did it,"
said he, "did it soon make you think better of me? Did you, on
reading it, give any credit to its contents?"
She explained what its effect on her had been, and
how gradually all her former prejudices had been removed.
"I knew," said he, "that what I
wrote must give you pain, but it was necessary. I hope you have
destroyed the letter. There was one part especially, the opening of it,
which I should dread your having the power of reading again. I can
remember some expressions which might justly make you hate me."
"The letter shall certainly be burnt, if you
believe it essential to the preservation of my regard; but, though we
have both reason to think my opinions not entirely unalterable, they are
not, I hope, quite so easily changed as that implies."
"When I wrote that letter," replied
Darcy, "I believed myself perfectly calm and cool, but I am since
convinced that it was written in a dreadful bitterness of spirit."
"The letter, perhaps, began in bitterness,
but it did not end so. The adieu is charity itself. But think no more of
the letter. The feelings of the person who wrote, and the person who
received it, are now so widely different from what they were then, that
every unpleasant circumstance attending it ought to be forgotten. You
must learn some of my philosophy. Think only of the past as its
remembrance gives you pleasure."
"I cannot give you credit for any philosophy
of the kind. Your retrospections must be so totally void of reproach,
that the contentment arising from them is not of philosophy, but, what
is much better, of innocence. But with me, it is not so. Painful
recollections will intrude which cannot, which ought not, to be
repelled. I have been a selfish being all my life, in practice, though
not in principle. As a child I was taught what was right, but I was not
taught to correct my temper. I was given good principles, but left to
follow them in pride and conceit. Unfortunately an only son (for many
years an only child), I was spoilt by my parents, who, though good
themselves (my father, particularly, all that was benevolent and
amiable), allowed, encouraged, almost taught me to be selfish and
overbearing; to care for none beyond my own family circle; to think
meanly of all the rest of the world; to wish at least to think meanly of
their sense and worth compared with my own. Such I was, from eight to
eight and twenty; and such I might still have been but for you, dearest,
loveliest Elizabeth! What do I not owe you! You taught me a lesson, hard
indeed at first, but most advantageous. By you, I was properly humbled.
I came to you without a doubt of my reception. You showed me how
insufficient were all my pretensions to please a woman worthy of being
pleased."
"Had you then persuaded yourself that I
should?"
"Indeed I had. What will you think of my
vanity? I believed you to be wishing, expecting my addresses."
"My manners must have been in fault, but not
intentionally, I assure you. I never meant to deceive you, but my
spirits might often lead me wrong. How you must have hated me after
_that_ evening?"
"Hate you! I was angry perhaps at first, but
my anger soon began to take a proper direction."
"I am almost afraid of asking what you
thought of me, when we met at Pemberley. You blamed me for coming?"
"No indeed; I felt nothing but
surprise."
"Your surprise could not be greater than
_mine_ in being noticed by you. My conscience told me that I deserved no
extraordinary politeness, and I confess that I did not expect to receive
_more_ than my due."
"My object then," replied Darcy,
"was to show you, by every civility in my power, that I was not so
mean as to resent the past; and I hoped to obtain your forgiveness, to
lessen your ill opinion, by letting you see that your reproofs had been
attended to. How soon any other wishes introduced themselves I can
hardly tell, but I believe in about half an hour after I had seen
you."
He then told her of Georgiana's delight in her
acquaintance, and of her disappointment at its sudden interruption;
which naturally leading to the cause of that interruption, she soon
learnt that his resolution of following her from Derbyshire in quest of
her sister had been formed before he quitted the inn, and that his
gravity and thoughtfulness there had arisen from no other struggles than
what such a purpose must comprehend.
She expressed her gratitude again, but it was too
painful a subject to each, to be dwelt on farther.
After walking several miles in a leisurely manner,
and too busy to know anything about it, they found at last, on examining
their watches, that it was time to be at home.
"What could become of Mr. Bingley and
Jane!" was a wonder which introduced the discussion of their
affairs. Darcy was delighted with their engagement; his friend had given
him the earliest information of it.
"I must ask whether you were surprised?"
said Elizabeth.
"Not at all. When I went away, I felt that it
would soon happen."
"That is to say, you had given your
permission. I guessed as much." And though he exclaimed at the
term, she found that it had been pretty much the case.
"On the evening before my going to
London," said he, "I made a confession to him, which I believe
I ought to have made long ago. I told him of all that had occurred to
make my former interference in his affairs absurd and impertinent. His
surprise was great. He had never had the slightest suspicion. I told
him, moreover, that I believed myself mistaken in supposing, as I had
done, that your sister was indifferent to him; and as I could easily
perceive that his attachment to her was unabated, I felt no doubt of
their happiness together."
Elizabeth could not help smiling at his easy
manner of directing his friend.
"Did you speak from your own
observation," said she, "when you told him that my sister
loved him, or merely from my information last spring?"
"From the former. I had narrowly observed her
during the two visits which I had lately made here; and I was convinced
of her affection."
"And your assurance of it, I suppose, carried
immediate conviction to him."
"It did. Bingley is most unaffectedly modest.
His diffidence had prevented his depending on his own judgment in so
anxious a case, but his reliance on mine made every thing easy. I was
obliged to confess one thing, which for a time, and not unjustly,
offended him. I could not allow myself to conceal that your sister had
been in town three months last winter, that I had known it, and
purposely kept it from him. He was angry. But his anger, I am persuaded,
lasted no longer than he remained in any doubt of your sister's
sentiments. He has heartily forgiven me now."
Elizabeth longed to observe that Mr. Bingley had
been a most delightful friend; so easily guided that his worth was
invaluable; but she checked herself. She remembered that he had yet to
learn to be laughed at, and it was rather too early to begin. In
anticipating the happiness of Bingley, which of course was to be
inferior only to his own, he continued the conversation till they
reached the house. In the hall they parted.
Chapter 59
"My dear Lizzy, where can you have been
walking to?" was a question which Elizabeth received from Jane as
soon as she entered their room, and from all the others when they sat
down to table. She had only to say in reply, that they had wandered
about, till she was beyond her own knowledge. She coloured as she spoke;
but neither that, nor anything else, awakened a suspicion of the truth.
The evening passed quietly, unmarked by anything
extraordinary. The acknowledged lovers talked and laughed, the
unacknowledged were silent. Darcy was not of a disposition in which
happiness overflows in mirth; and Elizabeth, agitated and confused,
rather _knew_ that she was happy than _felt_ herself to be so; for,
besides the immediate embarrassment, there were other evils before her.
She anticipated what would be felt in the family when her situation
became known; she was aware that no one liked him but Jane; and even
feared that with the others it was a dislike which not all his fortune
and consequence might do away.
At night she opened her heart to Jane. Though
suspicion was very far from Miss Bennet's general habits, she was
absolutely incredulous here.
"You are joking, Lizzy. This cannot
be!--engaged to Mr. Darcy! No, no, you shall not deceive me. I know it
to be impossible."
"This is a wretched beginning indeed! My sole
dependence was on you; and I am sure nobody else will believe me, if you
do not. Yet, indeed, I am in earnest. I speak nothing but the truth. He
still loves me, and we are engaged."
Jane looked at her doubtingly. "Oh, Lizzy! it
cannot be. I know how much you dislike him."
"You know nothing of the matter. _That_ is
all to be forgot. Perhaps I did not always love him so well as I do now.
But in such cases as these, a good memory is unpardonable. This is the
last time I shall ever remember it myself."
Miss Bennet still looked all amazement. Elizabeth
again, and more seriously assured her of its truth.
"Good Heaven! can it be really so! Yet now I
must believe you," cried Jane. "My dear, dear Lizzy, I
would--I do congratulate you--but are you certain? forgive the question
--are you quite certain that you can be happy with him?"
"There can be no doubt of that. It is settled
between us already, that we are to be the happiest couple in the world.
But are you pleased, Jane? Shall you like to have such a brother?"
"Very, very much. Nothing could give either
Bingley or myself more delight. But we considered it, we talked of it as
impossible. And do you really love him quite well enough? Oh, Lizzy! do
anything rather than marry without affection. Are you quite sure that
you feel what you ought to do?"
"Oh, yes! You will only think I feel _more_
than I ought to do, when I tell you all."
"What do you mean?"
"Why, I must confess that I love him better
than I do Bingley. I am afraid you will be angry."
"My dearest sister, now _be_ serious. I want
to talk very seriously. Let me know every thing that I am to know,
without delay. Will you tell me how long you have loved him?"
"It has been coming on so gradually, that I
hardly know when it began. But I believe I must date it from my first
seeing his beautiful grounds at Pemberley."
Another entreaty that she would be serious,
however, produced the desired effect; and she soon satisfied Jane by her
solemn assurances of attachment. When convinced on that article, Miss
Bennet had nothing further to wish.
"Now I am quite happy," said she,
"for you will be as happy as myself. I always had a value for him.
Were it for nothing but his love of you, I must always have esteemed
him; but now, as Bingley's friend and your husband, there can be only
Bingley and yourself more dear to me. But Lizzy, you have been very sly,
very reserved with me. How little did you tell me of what passed at
Pemberley and Lambton! I owe all that I know of it to another, not to
you."
Elizabeth told her the motives of her secrecy. She
had been unwilling to mention Bingley; and the unsettled state of her
own feelings had made her equally avoid the name of his friend. But now
she would no longer conceal from her his share in Lydia's marriage. All
was acknowledged, and half the night spent in conversation.
* * * * *
"Good gracious!" cried Mrs. Bennet, as
she stood at a window the next morning, "if that disagreeable Mr.
Darcy is not coming here again with our dear Bingley! What can he mean
by being so tiresome as to be always coming here? I had no notion but he
would go a-shooting, or something or other, and not disturb us with his
company. What shall we do with him? Lizzy, you must walk out with him
again, that he may not be in Bingley's way."
Elizabeth could hardly help laughing at so
convenient a proposal; yet was really vexed that her mother should be
always giving him such an epithet.
As soon as they entered, Bingley looked at her so
expressively, and shook hands with such warmth, as left no doubt of his
good information; and he soon afterwards said aloud, "Mrs. Bennet,
have you no more lanes hereabouts in which Lizzy may lose her way again
to-day?"
"I advise Mr. Darcy, and Lizzy, and
Kitty," said Mrs. Bennet, "to walk to Oakham Mount this
morning. It is a nice long walk, and Mr. Darcy has never seen the
view."
"It may do very well for the others,"
replied Mr. Bingley; "but I am sure it will be too much for Kitty.
Won't it, Kitty?" Kitty owned that she had rather stay at home.
Darcy professed a great curiosity to see the view from the Mount, and
Elizabeth silently consented. As she went up stairs to get ready, Mrs.
Bennet followed her, saying:
"I am quite sorry, Lizzy, that you should be
forced to have that disagreeable man all to yourself. But I hope you
will not mind it: it is all for Jane's sake, you know; and there is no
occasion for talking to him, except just now and then. So, do not put
yourself to inconvenience."
During their walk, it was resolved that Mr.
Bennet's consent should be asked in the course of the evening. Elizabeth
reserved to herself the application for her mother's. She could not
determine how her mother would take it; sometimes doubting whether all
his wealth and grandeur would be enough to overcome her abhorrence of
the man. But whether she were violently set against the match, or
violently delighted with it, it was certain that her manner would be
equally ill adapted to do credit to her sense; and she could no more
bear that Mr. Darcy should hear the first raptures of her joy, than the
first vehemence of her disapprobation.
* * * * *
In the evening, soon after Mr. Bennet withdrew to
the library, she saw Mr. Darcy rise also and follow him, and her
agitation on seeing it was extreme. She did not fear her father's
opposition, but he was going to be made unhappy; and that it should be
through her means--that _she_, his favourite child, should be
distressing him by her choice, should be filling him with fears and
regrets in disposing of her--was a wretched reflection, and she sat in
misery till Mr. Darcy appeared again, when, looking at him, she was a
little relieved by his smile. In a few minutes he approached the table
where she was sitting with Kitty; and, while pretending to admire her
work said in a whisper, "Go to your father, he wants you in the
library." She was gone directly.
Her father was walking about the room, looking
grave and anxious. "Lizzy," said he, "what are you doing?
Are you out of your senses, to be accepting this man? Have not you
always hated him?"
How earnestly did she then wish that her former
opinions had been more reasonable, her expressions more moderate! It
would have spared her from explanations and professions which it was
exceedingly awkward to give; but they were now necessary, and she
assured him, with some confusion, of her attachment to Mr. Darcy.
"Or, in other words, you are determined to
have him. He is rich, to be sure, and you may have more fine clothes and
fine carriages than Jane. But will they make you happy?"
"Have you any other objection," said
Elizabeth, "than your belief of my indifference?"
"None at all. We all know him to be a proud,
unpleasant sort of man; but this would be nothing if you really liked
him."
"I do, I do like him," she replied, with
tears in her eyes, "I love him. Indeed he has no improper pride. He
is perfectly amiable. You do not know what he really is; then pray do
not pain me by speaking of him in such terms."
"Lizzy," said her father, "I have
given him my consent. He is the kind of man, indeed, to whom I should
never dare refuse anything, which he condescended to ask. I now give it
to _you_, if you are resolved on having him. But let me advise you to
think better of it. I know your disposition, Lizzy. I know that you
could be neither happy nor respectable, unless you truly esteemed your
husband; unless you looked up to him as a superior. Your lively talents
would place you in the greatest danger in an unequal marriage. You could
scarcely escape discredit and misery. My child, let me not have the
grief of seeing _you_ unable to respect your partner in life. You know
not what you are about."
Elizabeth, still more affected, was earnest and
solemn in her reply; and at length, by repeated assurances that Mr.
Darcy was really the object of her choice, by explaining the gradual
change which her estimation of him had undergone, relating her absolute
certainty that his affection was not the work of a day, but had stood
the test of many months' suspense, and enumerating with energy all his
good qualities, she did conquer her father's incredulity, and reconcile
him to the match.
"Well, my dear," said he, when she
ceased speaking, "I have no more to say. If this be the case, he
deserves you. I could not have parted with you, my Lizzy, to anyone less
worthy."
To complete the favourable impression, she then
told him what Mr. Darcy had voluntarily done for Lydia. He heard her
with astonishment.
"This is an evening of wonders, indeed! And
so, Darcy did every thing; made up the match, gave the money, paid the
fellow's debts, and got him his commission! So much the better. It will
save me a world of trouble and economy. Had it been your uncle's doing,
I must and _would_ have paid him; but these violent young lovers carry
every thing their own way. I shall offer to pay him to-morrow; he will
rant and storm about his love for you, and there will be an end of the
matter."
He then recollected her embarrassment a few days
before, on his reading Mr. Collins's letter; and after laughing at her
some time, allowed her at last to go--saying, as she quitted the room,
"If any young men come for Mary or Kitty, send them in, for I am
quite at leisure."
Elizabeth's mind was now relieved from a very
heavy weight; and, after half an hour's quiet reflection in her own
room, she was able to join the others with tolerable composure. Every
thing was too recent for gaiety, but the evening passed tranquilly away;
there was no longer anything material to be dreaded, and the comfort of
ease and familiarity would come in time.
When her mother went up to her dressing-room at
night, she followed her, and made the important communication. Its
effect was most extraordinary; for on first hearing it, Mrs. Bennet sat
quite still, and unable to utter a syllable. Nor was it under many, many
minutes that she could comprehend what she heard; though not in general
backward to credit what was for the advantage of her family, or that
came in the shape of a lover to any of them. She began at length to
recover, to fidget about in her chair, get up, sit down again, wonder,
and bless herself.
"Good gracious! Lord bless me! only think!
dear me! Mr. Darcy! Who would have thought it! And is it really true?
Oh! my sweetest Lizzy! how rich and how great you will be! What
pin-money, what jewels, what carriages you will have! Jane's is nothing
to it--nothing at all. I am so pleased--so happy. Such a charming
man!--so handsome! so tall!--Oh, my dear Lizzy! pray apologise for my
having disliked him so much before. I hope he will overlook it. Dear,
dear Lizzy. A house in town! Every thing that is charming! Three
daughters married! Ten thousand a year! Oh, Lord! What will become of
me. I shall go distracted."
This was enough to prove that her approbation need
not be doubted: and Elizabeth, rejoicing that such an effusion was heard
only by herself, soon went away. But before she had been three minutes
in her own room, her mother followed her.
"My dearest child," she cried, "I
can think of nothing else! Ten thousand a year, and very likely more! 'Tis
as good as a Lord! And a special licence. You must and shall be married
by a special licence. But my dearest love, tell me what dish Mr. Darcy
is particularly fond of, that I may have it to-morrow."
This was a sad omen of what her mother's behaviour
to the gentleman himself might be; and Elizabeth found that, though in
the certain possession of his warmest affection, and secure of her
relations' consent, there was still something to be wished for. But the
morrow passed off much better than she expected; for Mrs. Bennet luckily
stood in such awe of her intended son-in-law that she ventured not to
speak to him, unless it was in her power to offer him any attention, or
mark her deference for his opinion.
Elizabeth had the satisfaction of seeing her
father taking pains to get acquainted with him; and Mr. Bennet soon
assured her that he was rising every hour in his esteem.
"I admire all my three sons-in-law
highly," said he. "Wickham, perhaps, is my favourite; but I
think I shall like _your_ husband quite as well as Jane's."
Chapter 60
Elizabeth's spirits soon rising to playfulness
again, she wanted Mr. Darcy to account for his having ever fallen in
love with her. "How could you begin?" said she. "I can
comprehend your going on charmingly, when you had once made a beginning;
but what could set you off in the first place?"
"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or
the look, or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I
was in the middle before I knew that I _had_ begun."
"My beauty you had early withstood, and as
for my manners--my behaviour to _you_ was at least always bordering on
the uncivil, and I never spoke to you without rather wishing to give you
pain than not. Now be sincere; did you admire me for my
impertinence?"
"For the liveliness of your mind, I
did."
"You may as well call it impertinence at
once. It was very little less. The fact is, that you were sick of
civility, of deference, of officious attention. You were disgusted with
the women who were always speaking, and looking, and thinking for _your_
approbation alone. I roused, and interested you, because I was so unlike
_them_. Had you not been really amiable, you would have hated me for it;
but in spite of the pains you took to disguise yourself, your feelings
were always noble and just; and in your heart, you thoroughly despised
the persons who so assiduously courted you. There--I have saved you the
trouble of accounting for it; and really, all things considered, I begin
to think it perfectly reasonable. To be sure, you knew no actual good of
me--but nobody thinks of _that_ when they fall in love."
"Was there no good in your affectionate
behaviour to Jane while she was ill at Netherfield?"
"Dearest Jane! who could have done less for
her? But make a virtue of it by all means. My good qualities are under
your protection, and you are to exaggerate them as much as possible;
and, in return, it belongs to me to find occasions for teasing and
quarrelling with you as often as may be; and I shall begin directly by
asking you what made you so unwilling to come to the point at last. What
made you so shy of me, when you first called, and afterwards dined here?
Why, especially, when you called, did you look as if you did not care
about me?"
"Because you were grave and silent, and gave
me no encouragement."
"But I was embarrassed."
"And so was I."
"You might have talked to me more when you
came to dinner."
"A man who had felt less, might."
"How unlucky that you should have a
reasonable answer to give, and that I should be so reasonable as to
admit it! But I wonder how long you _would_ have gone on, if you had
been left to yourself. I wonder when you _would_ have spoken, if I had
not asked you! My resolution of thanking you for your kindness to Lydia
had certainly great effect. _Too much_, I am afraid; for what becomes of
the moral, if our comfort springs from a breach of promise? for I ought
not to have mentioned the subject. This will never do."
"You need not distress yourself. The moral
will be perfectly fair. Lady Catherine's unjustifiable endeavours to
separate us were the means of removing all my doubts. I am not indebted
for my present happiness to your eager desire of expressing your
gratitude. I was not in a humour to wait for any opening of your's. My
aunt's intelligence had given me hope, and I was determined at once to
know every thing."
"Lady Catherine has been of infinite use,
which ought to make her happy, for she loves to be of use. But tell me,
what did you come down to Netherfield for? Was it merely to ride to
Longbourn and be embarrassed? or had you intended any more serious
consequence?"
"My real purpose was to see _you_, and to
judge, if I could, whether I might ever hope to make you love me. My
avowed one, or what I avowed to myself, was to see whether your sister
were still partial to Bingley, and if she were, to make the confession
to him which I have since made."
"Shall you ever have courage to announce to
Lady Catherine what is to befall her?"
"I am more likely to want more time than
courage, Elizabeth. But it ought to be done, and if you will give me a
sheet of paper, it shall be done directly."
"And if I had not a letter to write myself, I
might sit by you and admire the evenness of your writing, as another
young lady once did. But I have an aunt, too, who must not be longer
neglected."
From an unwillingness to confess how much her
intimacy with Mr. Darcy had been over-rated, Elizabeth had never yet
answered Mrs. Gardiner's long letter; but now, having _that_ to
communicate which she knew would be most welcome, she was almost ashamed
to find that her uncle and aunt had already lost three days of
happiness, and immediately wrote as follows:
"I would have thanked you before, my dear
aunt, as I ought to have done, for your long, kind, satisfactory, detail
of particulars; but to say the truth, I was too cross to write. You
supposed more than really existed. But _now_ suppose as much as you
choose; give a loose rein to your fancy, indulge your imagination in
every possible flight which the subject will afford, and unless you
believe me actually married, you cannot greatly err. You must write
again very soon, and praise him a great deal more than you did in your
last. I thank you, again and again, for not going to the Lakes. How
could I be so silly as to wish it! Your idea of the ponies is
delightful. We will go round the Park every day. I am the happiest
creature in the world. Perhaps other people have said so before, but not
one with such justice. I am happier even than Jane; she only smiles, I
laugh. Mr. Darcy sends you all the love in the world that he can spare
from me. You are all to come to Pemberley at Christmas. Yours,
etc."
Mr. Darcy's letter to Lady Catherine was in a
different style; and still different from either was what Mr. Bennet
sent to Mr. Collins, in reply to his last.
"DEAR SIR,
"I must trouble you once more for
congratulations. Elizabeth will soon be the wife of Mr. Darcy. Console
Lady Catherine as well as you can. But, if I were you, I would stand by
the nephew. He has more to give.
"Yours sincerely, etc."
Miss Bingley's congratulations to her brother, on
his approaching marriage, were all that was affectionate and insincere.
She wrote even to Jane on the occasion, to express her delight, and
repeat all her former professions of regard. Jane was not deceived, but
she was affected; and though feeling no reliance on her, could not help
writing her a much kinder answer than she knew was deserved.
The joy which Miss Darcy expressed on receiving
similar information, was as sincere as her brother's in sending it. Four
sides of paper were insufficient to contain all her delight, and all her
earnest desire of being loved by her sister.
Before any answer could arrive from Mr. Collins,
or any congratulations to Elizabeth from his wife, the Longbourn family
heard that the Collinses were come themselves to Lucas Lodge. The reason
of this sudden removal was soon evident. Lady Catherine had been
rendered so exceedingly angry by the contents of her nephew's letter,
that Charlotte, really rejoicing in the match, was anxious to get away
till the storm was blown over. At such a moment, the arrival of her
friend was a sincere pleasure to Elizabeth, though in the course of
their meetings she must sometimes think the pleasure dearly bought, when
she saw Mr. Darcy exposed to all the parading and obsequious civility of
her husband. He bore it, however, with admirable calmness. He could even
listen to Sir William Lucas, when he complimented him on carrying away
the brightest jewel of the country, and expressed his hopes of their all
meeting frequently at St. James's, with very decent composure. If he did
shrug his shoulders, it was not till Sir William was out of sight.
Mrs. Phillips's vulgarity was another, and perhaps
a greater, tax on his forbearance; and though Mrs. Phillips, as well as
her sister, stood in too much awe of him to speak with the familiarity
which Bingley's good humour encouraged, yet, whenever she _did_ speak,
she must be vulgar. Nor was her respect for him, though it made her more
quiet, at all likely to make her more elegant. Elizabeth did all she
could to shield him from the frequent notice of either, and was ever
anxious to keep him to herself, and to those of her family with whom he
might converse without mortification; and though the uncomfortable
feelings arising from all this took from the season of courtship much of
its pleasure, it added to the hope of the future; and she looked forward
with delight to the time when they should be removed from society so
little pleasing to either, to all the comfort and elegance of their
family party at Pemberley.
Chapter 61
Happy for all her maternal feelings was the day on
which Mrs. Bennet got rid of her two most deserving daughters. With what
delighted pride she afterwards visited Mrs. Bingley, and talked of Mrs.
Darcy, may be guessed. I wish I could say, for the sake of her family,
that the accomplishment of her earnest desire in the establishment of so
many of her children produced so happy an effect as to make her a
sensible, amiable, well-informed woman for the rest of her life; though
perhaps it was lucky for her husband, who might not have relished
domestic felicity in so unusual a form, that she still was occasionally
nervous and invariably silly.
Mr. Bennet missed his second daughter exceedingly;
his affection for her drew him oftener from home than anything else
could do. He delighted in going to Pemberley, especially when he was
least expected.
Mr. Bingley and Jane remained at Netherfield only
a twelvemonth. So near a vicinity to her mother and Meryton relations
was not desirable even to _his_ easy temper, or _her_ affectionate
heart. The darling wish of his sisters was then gratified; he bought an
estate in a neighbouring county to Derbyshire, and Jane and Elizabeth,
in addition to every other source of happiness, were within thirty miles
of each other.
Kitty, to her very material advantage, spent the
chief of her time with her two elder sisters. In society so superior to
what she had generally known, her improvement was great. She was not of
so ungovernable a temper as Lydia; and, removed from the influence of
Lydia's example, she became, by proper attention and management, less
irritable, less ignorant, and less insipid. From the further
disadvantage of Lydia's society she was of course carefully kept, and
though Mrs. Wickham frequently invited her to come and stay with her,
with the promise of balls and young men, her father would never consent
to her going.
Mary was the only daughter who remained at home;
and she was necessarily drawn from the pursuit of accomplishments by
Mrs. Bennet's being quite unable to sit alone. Mary was obliged to mix
more with the world, but she could still moralize over every morning
visit; and as she was no longer mortified by comparisons between her
sisters' beauty and her own, it was suspected by her father that she
submitted to the change without much reluctance.
As for Wickham and Lydia, their characters
suffered no revolution from the marriage of her sisters. He bore with
philosophy the conviction that Elizabeth must now become acquainted with
whatever of his ingratitude and falsehood had before been unknown to
her; and in spite of every thing, was not wholly without hope that Darcy
might yet be prevailed on to make his fortune. The congratulatory letter
which Elizabeth received from Lydia on her marriage, explained to her
that, by his wife at least, if not by himself, such a hope was
cherished. The letter was to this effect:
"MY DEAR LIZZY,
"I wish you joy. If you love Mr. Darcy half
as well as I do my dear Wickham, you must be very happy. It is a great
comfort to have you so rich, and when you have nothing else to do, I
hope you will think of us. I am sure Wickham would like a place at court
very much, and I do not think we shall have quite money enough to live
upon without some help. Any place would do, of about three or four
hundred a year; but however, do not speak to Mr. Darcy about it, if you
had rather not.
"Yours, etc."
As it happened that Elizabeth had _much_ rather
not, she endeavoured in her answer to put an end to every entreaty and
expectation of the kind. Such relief, however, as it was in her power to
afford, by the practice of what might be called economy in her own
private expences, she frequently sent them. It had always been evident
to her that such an income as theirs, under the direction of two persons
so extravagant in their wants, and heedless of the future, must be very
insufficient to their support; and whenever they changed their quarters,
either Jane or herself were sure of being applied to for some little
assistance towards discharging their bills. Their manner of living, even
when the restoration of peace dismissed them to a home, was unsettled in
the extreme. They were always moving from place to place in quest of a
cheap situation, and always spending more than they ought. His affection
for her soon sunk into indifference; her's lasted a little longer; and
in spite of her youth and her manners, she retained all the claims to
reputation which her marriage had given her.
Though Darcy could never receive _him_ at
Pemberley, yet, for Elizabeth's sake, he assisted him further in his
profession. Lydia was occasionally a visitor there, when her husband was
gone to enjoy himself in London or Bath; and with the Bingleys they both
of them frequently staid so long, that even Bingley's good humour was
overcome, and he proceeded so far as to talk of giving them a hint to be
gone.
Miss Bingley was very deeply mortified by Darcy's
marriage; but as she thought it advisable to retain the right of
visiting at Pemberley, she dropt all her resentment; was fonder than
ever of Georgiana, almost as attentive to Darcy as heretofore, and paid
off every arrear of civility to Elizabeth.
Pemberley was now Georgiana's home; and the
attachment of the sisters was exactly what Darcy had hoped to see. They
were able to love each other even as well as they intended. Georgiana
had the highest opinion in the world of Elizabeth; though at first she
often listened with an astonishment bordering on alarm at her lively,
sportive, manner of talking to her brother. He, who had always inspired
in herself a respect which almost overcame her affection, she now saw
the object of open pleasantry. Her mind received knowledge which had
never before fallen in her way. By Elizabeth's instructions, she began
to comprehend that a woman may take liberties with her husband which a
brother will not always allow in a sister more than ten years younger
than himself.
Lady Catherine was extremely indignant on the
marriage of her nephew; and as she gave way to all the genuine frankness
of her character in her reply to the letter which announced its
arrangement, she sent him language so very abusive, especially of
Elizabeth, that for some time all intercourse was at an end. But at
length, by Elizabeth's persuasion, he was prevailed on to overlook the
offence, and seek a reconciliation; and, after a little further
resistance on the part of his aunt, her resentment gave way, either to
her affection for him, or her curiosity to see how his wife conducted
herself; and she condescended to wait on them at Pemberley, in spite of
that pollution which its woods had received, not merely from the
presence of such a mistress, but the visits of her uncle and aunt from
the city.
With the Gardiners, they were always on the most
intimate terms. Darcy, as well as Elizabeth, really loved them; and they
were both ever sensible of the warmest gratitude towards the persons
who, by bringing her into Derbyshire, had been the means of uniting
them.
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